I Started To Gain Sentience In An Eroge - Chapter 85: [Kurokawa] Am I worthy?

*Click*

The tiny key in my hand went into its predesigned lock. With a light twist, a sound vibrated into the air. Albeit faint, in this quiet space between my destination and the cold concrete stairs behind, I could notice it without any trouble. And the click had its own significance to my ears, as well. It was not just an audible confirmation that all of these locks were now undone but also signified the end of my struggles.

“…That was easy.”

Clutching the stolen metal piece, I wondered if Laura and Rachel had not noticed or if they ignored me completely. In all honesty, I did not care that much.

Not anymore, to be exact. I reached my goal, and whether or not those two paid attention to me was no longer relevant. Very soon, our class representative and the housewife would not need to worry about me for good.

The only reason I had not run out and jumped was due to a charming faceless person. Unlike him at that time, when utter loneliness made his heart wither in grief, the current C definitely would not appreciate me putting an end to myself. He went out of class and risked being detained by his girls to find a way to prevent that in the first place.

Ironically, I was trying to find a way to speed things up.

“If I could, I would like to see you one last time.” My broken voice fell on deaf ears. “We are going separate ways here, my dear faceless main character…”

As expected, no response came forth. But then again, that was to be expected. There was no one here except for me. That was what I truly wanted. All of that yelling and all of that screaming was solely for this purpose.

Yes.

Definitely.

…Absolutely.

Who was I kidding, anyway? I had no right to ask for anything. With these two dirty hands, C was shoved away. He was told to not come after me. Therefore, I had to endure this emptiness all by myself.

Even before committing that grave mistake, I already did not deserve anything in this world. Not C, not a happy family, nothing. Even the word nothing was too valuable for someone like me. Asking for C to come to find this useless piece of human waste after yelling at him at the highest volume was, without a doubt, brainless.

What kind of idiot thought she could make her wish come true with such childish actions? If anyone asked me why I acted like such a fool, there would be no answer other than that I was simply an imbecile. A stupid girl who had no idea how precious life was. An immature brat whose only desire was to get back at everyone around her because of her own misfortune.

Someone who should have been thrown off from the start.

Someone who should not have been born.

That was why, if I had to say one thing, it would be a thank you for Rachel’s key still in my hand.

At the least, it helped distract me a little from the disturbing curses I have for myself for making C feel my pain. Other than my internal voices calling me degradation terms and my erratic hiccups, there was no sound prior to the unlocking click.

At best, the key gave me the only chance to do something I had always dreamed of trying. And even though that would only happen once, one time was more than enough to set me, this iteration’s Kurokawa, free. All of this misery, all of this overthinking, all of these hurtful days, and more would finally reach their end.

The moment when I would leave everything behind forever—that day had arrived.

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