I Want to be Alone, Beautifully - Chapter 144
There is a saying in ancient times, vote for me as a wooden peach and repay it as Qiongyao.
Today, Yu Ye celebrates Xu Jiao’s accession to the throne with Jiangshan City.
She wants to leave Yu Ye’s legendary story in the history books, even if she understands no matter how brilliant the brushwork is, the description of the emperor’s history is only a page, a few strokes, no matter how intense the life is, the end must be drawn.
But Xu Jiao just wanted to let future generations see–
She was accompanied by such a person throughout her life, and she wanted to be seen by later generations, but when Yanshi came to this section and mentioned the first empress of Dayan, the name “Yu Ye” was accompanied.
She really stayed with Yu Ye all her life in this world.
…
Thirty years in Huaining.
After Yu Ye and Xu Jiao handed over the throne to their carefully trained heirs, they left the court to see the vast world. They learned from South Korea’s maritime commerce, and Dayan also built a big ship that can go out to sea and face the wind and waves. In those previously unknown corners, their footprints are all over.
Forty-five years in Huaining.
The two of them slowly got older, and Yu Ye accompanied her to live in the imperial tomb that she had chosen early in the morning. They were in the huge imperial tomb and knew the Wannian Lantern in every corner until Yu Ye fell ill before Xu Jiao. .
Obviously she was someone who possessed martial arts of the world, but she was even older than Xu Jiao. On the day when the lamp was about to run out, Xu Jiao sat quietly next to her, holding the palm of her hand, and looking down at her.
Yu Ye also held her hand, but there was not much sadness on her face, as if she had anticipated the day of parting. She just kept staring at Xu Jiao. It seemed that when she was parting, she realized that she couldn’t see the other person enough. The affection is like a secluded pool, with no end in sight.
Xu Jiao raised a smile and asked her, “See you next time?”
Yu Ye didn’t answer, but asked, “Jiaojiao, are you in love with me?”
Xu Jiao didn’t say a word.
She just stared at Yu Ye, but her eyes were not wary of hearing this question in the past. Instead, she was searching, and there was a little temptation, as if she was afraid that she would give an answer simply, the other party would leave without nostalgia.
When she realized this, Xu Jiao smiled in her heart.
Afraid of…?
It turns out that I also have such a love day.
She was about to open her mouth and face her thoughts frankly, but the person who was afraid turned into Yu Ye. She had always been a decisive and unhesitating person, but she was in front of Xu Jiao. She showed her timidity again and again.
She is light
She moved her fingertips lightly and made Xu Jiao feel her movements. When she spoke, she fluttered in her throat and turned into a concern for Yu Ye. Yu Ye suddenly sighed heavily.
It seemed melancholy and unwilling to give up.
There are also many emotions that Xu Jiao doesn’t understand.
Xu Jiao heard her say: “If you don’t see me next time, just forget me.”
Her tone is very light. It may be that she is old and has little strength, and she seems to have turned the same content thousands of times in her heart, so she is so familiar and fluent, but only Yu Ye knows that she made this Decided, with how much reluctance.
She heard a hysterical and crazy voice in her heart yelling:
Do not.
do not forget me.
Stay with me forever, life after life, no matter this life, or the next life, the next life, as long as you are wherever you are, no matter where you are, no matter heaven or hell, I want to follow.
This is her god, the **** she has only chased after all the hardships.
Why is she willing to give Xu Jiao a hand?
Obviously they are each other’s most special existence.
But Yu Ye didn’t dare to bet.
She didn’t know what was involved in her strange memory, she didn’t dare to drag Xu Jiao into the water, she couldn’t even guarantee whether she would be able to find Xu Jiao alive.
Today, Yu Ye even regrets a little bit of contradiction. She thought, if Xu Jiao didn’t fall in love with her, would she never make the other person feel sad if Xu Jiao didn’t love her, but if Xu Jiao didn’t love her, she would never be able to take her to herself. The mystery is solved, and she will never be able to let her **** see herself.
In the dilemma, Yu Ye could only pretend to be generous–
She no longer tried to engrave her first name and last name into the other’s bones and blood.
She tried to be generous.
Try to accept that this relationship will eventually become part of Xu Jiao’s long life experience, and make herself a memory of the other party.
This was the hardest decision Yu Ye had made for several lifetimes. In that calm tone, her inexhaustible greed and unwillingness were hidden, but she did not dare to show it at all.
Xu Jiao suddenly laughed when she heard what she said.
She raised her hand and shook Yu Ye’s palm, but felt that it was not enough, so she squeezed Yu Ye’s face: “You seem to be a little arrogant, with the surname Yu, you love me if you want me to love, and forget if you want me to forget. How can there be such a good thing?”
Xu Jiao looked down at her and said slowly, “Should I forget you and start a new life. What does it have to do with you? Anyway, you are my ex-girlfriend right now, oh no, it’s an ex-wife. Up.”
Yu Ye: “…”
She almost died when Xu Jiao closed her eyes and kicked her legs.
Her chest was blocked by air, and she coughed abruptly. Xu Jiao immediately let go of her original air and calmed down. A trace of tension flashed in her eyes, as if she realized that she shouldn’t say this. She was silent for a few seconds, and it was rare to take the initiative. Regressed:
“I’m not angry with you anymore.”
She quickly said the answer she could not say before: “I love you.”
Is a statement.
It is also affirming one’s own heart.
Yu Ye was startled, Xu Jiao calmly said, “As for whether you will love or not, if you have a chance, come and ask me personally.”
Yu Ye understood the meaning of her words.
After curling her lips very slightly, Yu Ye sighed again. This time her movement was much smaller. The breath disappeared as soon as she exhaled. Like her dying vitality, she was reluctant to persuade Xu Jiao to forget herself. , I can’t bear to let her wait for herself, a thousand words, and finally became one sentence:
“Meeting me in these worlds time and time again, being dragged by me into these stories, do you regret it?”
Xu Jiao shook her head.
The light in Yu Ye’s eyes slowly dissipated, as if the dust had settled, she murmured: “That’s good…”
That’s good.
I hope her existence will be a brilliant enough in Xu Jiao’s life.
She didn’t want to leave her name in history, from beginning to end, she just wanted to leave a trace in Xu Jiao’s heart.
…
“Host?”
Seeing a woman sitting on a chair with her hand still holding someone’s hand, the system couldn’t help but reminded her.
Xu Jiao slowly recovered.
She looked around and found that she was no longer in the imperial tomb, but returned to the familiar virtual space of the system, but her consciousness returned, but her soul seemed to be grabbed away, and her eyes were still blank. Yes, even responding to the system’s call is half a beat slow.
“……what’s happenin?”
There is a rare smile in the mechanical sound of the system: “Congratulations to the host for hitting the second’HE’ ending in a row. Together with Yu Ye, we have joined hands to merge the five countries, set the world, and peace the world. The prosperous age of the Great Yan Dynasty has long been-“Rebirth” “The Story of Emperor Yu from the Outside” was once again included in the Lily Channel. The main drama part is wonderful, and the emotional story is naturally smooth and natural.”
Xu Jiao didn’t respond to these beautiful words.
The system paused and turned: “As long as you play another HE ending, you can go home, don’t you look forward to it?”
Xu Jiao’s eyes moved slightly.
She remembered that she was thrown into her own by the system
In these novels, the other party told her that as long as you can play three HEs in a row, or a total of five HE endings, it means that you have successfully understood the essence of a harmonious society and can return to the original world.
The original world…
The world where she waits for someone who will never come back.
If she succeeds in going back.
She still seems to have to wait for someone.
Only this time, the chances of the opponent coming back should be higher.
She withdrew her emotions from the last world, forced herself not to think about the meaning of the difference from Yu Ye, and pretended to ask the system nonchalantly:
“Well, what is the next world?”
…
Simultaneously.
In another space.
The long silence was broken by the strange euphoria of the system: “No prize quiz! Do you want to know how much the Creator’s favor for you has risen after passing through this world?”
The woman who had returned was silent for a long time.
When the system couldn’t hold back and wanted to take the initiative to inform, she suddenly said, “I know.”
The system waited for her in time.
It was quiet again.
It took a long time to hear the woman’s voice faintly: “She said she loves me.”
She used to think she would be complacent when she said this sentence, or she would sigh with pain, but she didn’t expect that the day she really said it would be bitter in her heart.
Xu Jiao used to perfuse her, and she used to disdain her and coax her casually, but in this matter, she knew which words Xu Jiao said were sincere and which ones were false.
It is said that the passionate is the most ruthless, and the ruthless is the most dedicated.
If Xu Jiao is an indifferent person, if he really utters the word “love”, his mind will definitely be full.
The system didn’t hear the complicated meaning in her tone, or didn’t care if she heard it, and said in a joyful voice: “That’s right! The Creator’s love for you is already 100! You have reached your goal! My wish is fulfilled!”
“What wish do you want?”
The woman was quiet for a long time, as if she was hesitating, and she seemed to be cautious about other things.
The system is waiting patiently.
It’s just that the waiting time is long enough this time.
When it grows up to think that the woman is about to give up–
…
“what?”
Xu Jiao thought for a moment that she had heard it wrong because it was so unusual.
The system repeats: “The next story is more special. It is a story created by you and not in the contents of the bookshelf. You can choose to accept or reject it.”
this is
It was the first time that Xu Jiao heard that she had the right to refuse in the system.
She narrowed her eyes, and she was very vigilant in her heart.
“What happens if I refuse?”
The system answers truthfully: “Then will follow the previous process and continue to give you a random story from the bookshelf, and you will enter the modification and return to the original mode.”
Xu Jiao fell into deep thought after listening.
If nothing else, this is likely to be her last story. The purpose of the system that has not been figured out before will probably be exposed in the last story. The previous journeys are all stories written by her, and they will not be given. She was choosing any host meeting in the world, but now the system suddenly gave a strange option…
If something goes wrong, there must be a demon.
Should she respond?
Xu Jiao pondered for a while.
The system did not urge, it did not provide any clues about the last world, which made Xu Jiaoran feel like drawing a blind box. She didn’t know what exactly she drew out. It was the best content that passed the test. Or is there something completely dangerous?
How do you think about the possibility of the latter?
as well as–
What does it mean to be a story she created, but not in the contents of the bookshelf?
Xu Jiao asked more vigilantly: “You really got my diary and my graduation thesis?”
The system answered sincerely: “No.”
Xu Jiao couldn’t think of it anymore.
But since it was something she created, she must be familiar with the content. This is her only reliance. I don’t know if this reliance will exceed her expectations.
go with.
Still not going?
Xu Jiao looked at this virtual space, thought of her own story along the way, thought of the origins of the heroines’ peculiar life experiences, and thought of the mystery of the system. She thought that the safest way would be to refuse, and then behave well. Let the system follow the original process, and she can go in and clear the level. It doesn’t matter if it is difficult. Anyway, she has already reached three worlds, only two short, not too far.
After all, the original condition was three HE worlds in a row, or a world with enough HE to accumulate five HEs, not necessarily consecutive.
Xu Jiao thought about it for a long time, and her expression returned to calm again.
The system heard her say: “Come on.”
System: “Huh?”
Xu Jiao: “I accept and enter this special story.”
She couldn’t accept that she missed the truth in this way.
Even if the truth is explored sometimes, the price may be extremely tragic.
After the system confirmed, the sound of sending her into the world was like
It was as calm as before, but it seemed to be slightly different. I wonder if it was Xu Jiao’s illusion:
“Ready to send…”
…
The dizziness passed quickly, leaving Xu Jiao no room for thought.
When she opened her eyes, the first thing she saw was the red car in front of her, and the long track on the ground.
The dark brown wooden planks have been waxed on the floor and are very smooth.
Her hand seemed to shrink, and within her sight, she saw a yellow building block in her small palm.
Xu Jiao was startled first–
Then she shivered uncontrollably.
The next moment, she seemed to dare not face anything, and as if she had expected it, she spread out her palm little by little, and saw that the corner of the building block in her hand was missing a little.
In her memory…
Exactly the same.
There was a ridiculousness in her heart, but the trembling of her body could not be stopped.
Xu Jiao finally understood that the story told by the system was the reason she created it, but it was not on her bookshelf!
The girl doll sitting on the floor looked up, her eyes scanned the leather sofa in the room, the glass-surfaced dining table in the distance, the ceiling crystal headlights above her head, and even a string of glass beads were missing. Comparing these things a little bit with the dusty deep memories, she tried to suppress her trembling, and asked word by word in the bottom of her heart:
“Why… you can let me go back to when I was five years old?”
“System, what is your purpose?!”