I Want to be Alone, Beautifully - Chapter 145
In the face of Xu Jiao’s rare and exciting questioning, the system’s response was still very calm, and even the answer was the same as before:
“You will know later.”
after.
Or later.
As if in the eyes of the system, its origin is not a question that Xu Jiao needs to pay special attention to, and it is an answer that will be revealed by her sooner or later, so when answering, its tone is more than covering up or diverting attention. I don’t care.
It seemed that from beginning to end, it was just a bystander who could not have any influence on Xu Jiao.
For a moment, Xu Jiao thought of her many ways of systematically watching it a long time ago when she entered her book world for the first time. She was puzzled by her attitude towards the heroine, but no matter what she did. , The system didn’t seem to interfere with her, especially after the admonition made Xu Jiao think of defense, rebellion, and strike, the system remained silent for a long time.
Now it’s finally here that Xu Jiao is the one who leaked his emotions and became a system indifferently.
After discovering that the system still refuses to reveal its purpose, Xu Jiao quickly regained her composure after the initial shock.
She still has a lot of questions to understand.
Took a few deep breaths–
Xu Jiao’s trembling slowly stopped.
She maintained the posture of sitting on the ground and noticed that there was no one around. The first thing she did was to find out from the depths of her memory to find out what happened when she was five years old. In fact, she can’t remember much of the content.
Except… alone.
When thinking of that person, Xu Jiao could clearly feel that the trembling that had been suppressed by her was gradually showing up again. This time it was useless no matter how deeply she took a breath.
Exhausting all of her reason, she couldn’t control this excitement and tremor. In the end, Xu Jiao knew that this was not the way to go, so she had no choice but to divert her attention through dialogue with the system again:
“Am I… traveling back to my five-year-old time, or is it just a hypothesis of parallel space, or is it just a fictitious scene of similarity?”
Is it possible to change the past?
Or is it just a similar scene to provide her with psychological comfort?
It is too important for Xu Jiao to figure out the truth.
The system did not answer this question head-on, but instead asked: “Do you think the stories you have corrected are false?”
Xu Jiao: “…”
System: “If you think that the stories you have modified and those personally experienced are false, then this is the same now. If you think that those are true, the same is true.”
Xu Jiao murmured: “I know what you mean, I just can’t believe it…”
Why can’t I believe it.
Because of fear.
The same situation did not even appear in her dreams, and now it fell in front of her eyes, and it was more like a trap exuding the fragrance of honey. You have to entice people to eat before you know what you can eat.
She is not afraid to return to the age of five, not to face all the pain and darkness that she has experienced in her life, but she is afraid… afraid that her hopes will fail, because this is something she has been thinking about for a long time.
If she is five years old now–
That explains.
She and that person still have a chance to meet.
…
Xu Jiao’s Yu Guang unconsciously paid attention to the direction of the door.
The toy blocks in her hand fell to the ground, but she didn’t care.
The house is quiet now, only the door is open, but no one cares about this, because…At this time, she is completely immersed in her own world, and basically will not take the initiative to run outside.
Hearing this question from her, the system suddenly said: “You are at this age, and you have manifestations of autism, right?”
Xu Jiao: “…”
She pressed her heart down because of the offense of being spied and regained her original peace of mind: “How do you know?”
System: “Because I said before that this world is one of your mission worlds, and I can get the background of the main characters, so I already understand your story line. If you offend, I apologize first.”
Xu Jiao’s throat moved, thinking of what the system said before she came.
indeed.
To some extent, she is also the creator of her own life, and her life experience is her work, so now crossing into her previous life is also returning to a story she once created.
and……
Now she can change the story.
Thinking of this, Xu Jiao can no longer care about the offenses of the system. There is a very important fact in her heart that needs to be confirmed immediately. She rises from the ground and stares at the door handle that has opened, although there are many. She didn’t understand the matter before, but now Xu Jiao pulled out the memories from the corners of the corner, and she already knew what she was doing.
In fact, her family’s material conditions are okay. Her biological mother is a career-oriented strong woman.
After divorcing her first husband, she took Xu Jiao’s custody rights into her hands, and then she found a gentler and more family-conscious young man to be Xu Jiao’s stepdad.
Because the stepdad was very gentle towards Xu Jiao, and he was willing to be raised by his wife, so he was willing to take care of the housework and take care of the children at home, so her mother could have more time to deal with the affairs of the company.
Xu Jiao is not an easy child to take.
She has shown autism tendency since she was two years old.
Do not communicate with anyone, live in your own world, and it is difficult to accept the changes of strangers and the environment, and will suddenly be very aggressive.
Therefore, she needs to be taken care of all the time, and she also needs to be cared for with care. Occasionally, she needs to be brought to the doctor to see her condition. Whether it is to maintain her life or health, her mother is destined not to be by her side often. What’s more, this is also a time for her career to rise and the company to expand.
It couldn’t be easier to have someone who can take care of it.
It’s just that Xu Jiao couldn’t express her heart at that time, so her mother didn’t know what kind of **** Xu Jiao fell into.
Her stepdad, the man named Xu Hankai, has a very bookish and kind appearance, and also has the ability to take care of people meticulously, but he is a guy with an extremely abnormal heart.
Saying he is a human being, they all praised him.
This time now–
Xu Jiao looked up at the clock in the living room. It was three o’clock in the afternoon. In her memory, Xu Hankai seemed to be out of sight for some time.
She moved her lips and asked the system: “Where did Xu Han go? You put me into this world, and what do you want me to do?”
When questioning, she still stared at the doorknob.
The system’s voice is calm: “As the protagonist of your own life, when you go back in time, the answers to many things have emerged in your mind. For example, you know that your adoptive father is a gentleman, but he likes to abuse and treat girls. Scum, for example, you have guessed that he would carry your mother on his back and secretly go out to date other women—”
“You are full of regrets about your past life story. Now you have an opportunity to make up for those deficiencies again and give yourself a good start to your childhood. In addition to maintaining your personal settings, you can’t do it right away. Except that things that are too outrageous have caused too much surprise to others, I don’t have any demands on you.
“Go to rewrite your story
Well, host, after all, now you already know how to write a story that is touching, and you already understand what kind of story can be called perfect, and the key to changing your life is already in your palm. “
It fell silent, but Xu Jiao heard a cracking sound in her heart.
That was her defense for many years. Since she was thrown into these strange worlds, she had never taken off the guard against the system, but she never thought that she would be said by the system’s unremarkable electronic voice. Such a touching day.
As if the pea pods hanging on the branches for a long time, finally made a mature and full sound, beeping…
It seems that something is changing.
She has been said to have been so heartbroken, and she can even feel her heart beating wildly with the words of the system, but she still did not respond, just stared at the door, and after a long time, she took the first step. step.
This step seems to have opened something.
Xu Jiao walked to the door like a demon, raised her tender hand like a lotus root, pushed the wooden door open, and saw the long corridor outside.
Her heart was about to jump out of her throat.
At this moment, no words can describe her joy.
She is still in this old tube building. She has not moved to a better community because of her worsening illness and her mother’s wealth, nor has it happened that she can only regret for the rest of her life.
In the long corridor, there are many doors of different old and new. There is an upside-down blessing on the opposite door. There are also tall metal shoe racks on the doorway. The upper area is full of ash. Even the umbrellas supported by the racks are also seven. Fragmented.
But Xu Jiao didn’t pay attention here–
She turned her gaze to look at the house at the end of the corridor on the right.
The word “Fu” on that door is a red front sticker, and there is a clean red carpet at the door that is often cleaned. The outer door has an iron fence. Even the silver-white metal on it is shiny with a new luster. The anti-theft wooden door inside has a new luster. All prying eyes are kept tight, and people can only guess whether the occupants are rich or not based on the appearance of the door.
Everyone in the corridor has the impression that this is a newly moved neighbor.
Xu Jiao looked straight at the door, and stood there quietly for a long time, before she was almost nostalgic. She headed towards the door, she just wanted to touch the facade of the door.
As if this way, you can touch the dead deceased again in a distant time.
But when she was halfway there, the wooden door behind the iron door suddenly issued a very light “squeak”
“Sound, then, before Xu Jiao could react, the wooden door opened completely.
A tall figure appeared behind the door.
Across the silver-white metal door fence, people can’t see her appearance, but indistinctly feel that her skin is extremely white, like a beauty who has a glimpse of her through a thin veil.
Xu Jiao seemed to be set in place, unable to move.
She fixedly watched the wooden door fully opened, followed by the metal door outside. Amid the sound of the door hinges, the people who came out of the room also saw the figure standing in the corridor.
Four eyes are facing each other-
Xu Jiao crashed into a pair of black eyes.
She didn’t even notice that she hadn’t blinked for a long time, her eyes filled with tears, a small figure standing in the corridor, no one could see from this thin body the suffering of her returning after a thousand sails, and there was no way to get it. I know her heart has been missing for many years.
Xu Jiao moved her lips, trying to see something from the familiar face that she had described countless times in her own pen, but was actually unfamiliar, and she could only see it after more than ten years. She also imagined a normal child to see it. Like an adult, showing a cautious, polite and well-behaved side, she wanted to say something.
As a gift for their reunion.
Even if the other party may not know the emotion contained in this greeting.
But her voice was really useless for too long, and she couldn’t even make the first sound, and the second word she said was awkwardly hoarse.
Xu Jiao felt ashamed when she heard it, so she shut up and didn’t shout.
But the person who came out of the room heard clearly.
There was even a hint of suspicion on the face–
“Are you… calling me?”
Did she get it wrong just now? The child called her sister, although it was a bit vague, but combined with the shape of the mouth and the final pronunciation, it should be correct.
Her voice was very soft, as if uncertain, and as if she was afraid of scaring Xu Jiao away.
Seeing the child’s big eyes like purple grapes, the white and tender round face, and the tension expressed by the tightly closed lips and body language, a little annoyance flashed through the person’s eyes, and immediately, she revealed to Xu Jiao. With a very nice smile, he squatted down skillfully, and looked at her from a certain distance, as if worried about disturbing her, he said with her eyebrows crookedly:
“Little sister.”
“My name is Ye Zhen, I just came two days ago, what is your name?”
Ye Zhen.
She is Ye Zhen…
Xu Jiao’s heart was filled with thousands of words, and she looked at the person smiling at herself with determination. For a moment, she thought
, This smile really resembles Yu Ye, and also like Lilith, Feng Qingyu, Shen Yelan…
But as soon as the thought came up, she was denied in her heart again.
If you let Yu Ye know that she was used as a stand-in again, this person would definitely become angry.
A lover is a lover, and an old friend is an old friend.
None of them should be someone’s shadow.
It’s really great to see Ye Zhen here. To see her when nothing happened, Xu Jiao felt that she didn’t seem to have any regrets in her life.
Asked from the system and confirmed that Ye Zhen and herself were the first to see him at this time, and she didn’t know her situation. Xu Jiao thought about acting like a normal child next door, and looked at each other, the child’s voice. It sounded crisply, very slowly and slowly, with a hoarseness at the beginning, and even the tone was a little strange, but afterwards, it was already a little decent.
“Xu Jiao.”
“Sister, my name is Xu Jiao.”
Please remember my name–
My mentor, my benefactor, my enlightenment, the salvation that pulled me out of hell.
Looking at each other’s appearance, Xu Jiao secretly swears in her heart that no matter how big a trap it digs for her after the system, whether it is a dream or not, she can forgive all the conspiracy and betrayal by seeing this sister again.