I Wish I Never Exist - Chapter 1 Is He A Human?

‘wake up! Clean yourself and make roties’ my mom is shouting early in the morning.

‘ok ammi! Give me 5 minutes’

I took a bath and entered in to kichen. My mom already made dough, I took some dough and started to roll to make roti.

I live in Bhap village in rajasthan. I am uneducated girl in our village almost all girls are uneducated. I am not much interested in my future.

My father arrived home. He went out to bring vegetables. ‘haya! Take this cover of vegetables and give it to your mom’ he said.

‘OK papa’!

‘where is Zaid’ he asked

‘he went with his friend somewhere’ mom said.

Zaid is my elder brother. He doesn’t care about me. Actually he doesn’t include me in family. He was addicted to liquor and rummy. But always my dad supports him. My mom only do household works, cooking and I help her. Here in my village no men gives respect to a woman. We don’t even get recognized. My mom and I started preparing food in breakfast. I already cooked roties. Mom is making vegetable curry in to roties. I am cutting potatoes.

‘ruhi’s marriage is comfirmed by her parents’ mom said.

She was just 16 years old as me. There is no bizarre in this matter. Here girls will get married at their earlier ages.

‘can I go and meet her’ I asked.

‘OK first let us complete our breakfast’

Breakfast was prepared, I roll down the mat to arrange food items on it. Mom brought food and she called dad. He sat on mat. Mom plated him. ‘this year there is chance to get profit’ he said about his wheat farm. ‘it’s good for us. Then should we search a groom for our daughter’ mom said.

I felt happy by listening this because I like a married life. I have many dreams about marriage, after children. A normal happy life. Finally dad just nodded his head. I didn’t understand that he said yes or no. Breakfast completed. He is ready to go to his farm. ‘mom, now can I go to ruhi’s house?’.

‘OK, but take your breakfast’

‘OK’ I completed my breakfast in hurry. I started to ruhi’s house. Her house is after four houses from mine. I walked to her house. Stepped inside her house. Her home was filled of relatives. I greeted aunties and went to meet ruhi. There are only one week for her marriage. I am very happy that she was not going to another place. She is going to live here in Bhap village with her in laws and with her husband. We talked for long time and jumped happily on bed and danced. She was going to get married. ‘OK bye, I am leaving, meet you tomorrow’

I took leave from there. I want to my home. It was night. It’s my favorite time when I am talking by seeing up in the sky, I feel like someone is listening to me. That air touches deep in to my heart. When I hear the sounds from the nature by the air, I feel like that all are singing for me and I am refreshing myself from that. Suddenly I don’t know what happened, everyone running towards farm of my dad, which is near to lake. I was terrored. I rushed there. I stunned for a minute by looking the condition of our farm. our crop was vanished . No one knows what happened. My dad fell down. Some people run to him and uphold him. I was racked with pain. We only have this field for our livinghood. I can’t see them like this. My eyes are filled with tears. I don’t want to stay there even a minute. I left that place. I walked for a while. I don’t know where I am going. Just walking and thinking of my family. I came out of my thoughts and looked around. “oh! Where I am” I questioned myself. I am in a panic. There was no light. I lost my consciousness. But after some time I am hearing some noises but still I am not Able to open my eyes. I am stashing. Then I was lifted by someone’s hand from back, like now I am laying on someone’s arm. Yes! I can feel that, I am lying on someone’s arm. I am feeling like someone is close to my face. I took courage and decided to open my eyes. I opened, it’s a man, I was remained like a statue and I got goosebumps, I was frighten out that time because his appearance is different, he had a long golden hair, his eye color is in lavender Colour and his pupil is in crystal shape, straight crystal. His skin Colour is pale white and that face is only 7 centimeters distance from mine . His cold breathing is touching my little nose. In that situation I was like I am in coma. I can see and feel everything but can’t think and react. He is staring in to my eyes. I am in his right arm and he is slowly moving his left hand towards my face and placed it on my face as his palm touches my cheeks and his four fingers touches my ears and he is rubbing his thumb finger at my flat midface. It’s like he is seeing his love for a long time and like finally he gets his love after a struggle. He is looking at me with love loaded eyes. Ooh, wait why he is coming close to me?…