If I Fail to Debut, I’ll Get a Killer Disease - Chapter 40

I was a little confused.

Because of Seon Ahyun’s personality, I thought he would curl himself in the corner crying, but he was more composed than what I expected.

How to call this? Rather, it felt like he went into military discipline.

He wasn’t even holding his smartphone.

When I called out to him and didn’t say anything, Seon Ahyun asked with a frightened expression.

“W-Why……?”

“No, um……”

I didn’t have to scrape around it. I just blurred my words and took out a chocolate bar from my bag

This was something I learned thanks to the Cha Yujin incident.

“Do you want to eat some?”

“Uh huh! Thanks……”

Seon Ahyun took the chocolate bar with both hands as if he was making an offering to his dead ancestors, and then put it in his bag.

“…?”

Wasn’t he going to eat it?

As if he knew what I wanted to ask, Seon Ahyun hesitated.

“I have to take care of my body and weight…… W-When my body gets heavy, my dancing gets weird. S-So I shouldn’t get used to late night food.”

“Really?”

He came from  a different dance major. I roughly understood the situation and was going to move on, until I found a contradiction.

“Didn’t you give me a chocolate bar past midnight during the evaluation?”

“M-Mondae is fine! You were too skinny back then……”

“……”

There was a story like this?

To my surprise, I heard a laugh from the bed next to us.

“That’s right, Park Moondae was really thin back then, so I thought you were over-managing yourself.”

“But your body? Wow, when I see you eat…… Your body weight is nothing compared to what goes to your mouth. If it were me, I would have become a pig ages ago.”

Keun Sejin and Gold 1 added in one word at a time. Oh man.

‘I purposely ate a lot to increase my physical strength, but it seems I was getting misunderstood.’

I was nervous, but thanks to this nonsense, the atmosphere in the room looked like it slightly eased up.

Seon Ahyun also smiled a little from underneath, and when his eyes met my cold eyes, he got startled and coughed.

“……”

Really…… What a weird guy.

I silently threw a bottle of water by his bedside.

Seon Ahyun took the bottle and drank a little from it without saying anything else.

And he murmured a little.

“I-I want to do better. Even more this time.”

“…Yeah.”

Hearing that remark, it seems Seon Ahyun checked the public opinion on the Internet. But I figured he didn’t look too closely and was able to maintain his composure.

After thinking about it, I started to sneak in some words.

“… It could be that I’m just worrying about it, but don’t look for anything else on the Internet, just research the data.”

“Ah……”

Seon Ahyun exclaimed with a mysterious face, and then suddenly responded with enthusiasm.

“I-I already knew that, it’s okay. I-I’m ready.”

“Hmm?”

‘What is he talking about again?’

Seon Ahyun muttered with an embarrassed expression.

“I-I’ve already seen all the comments before the shooting. A-As I kept looking for it, it kept showing up……”

“……”

Was that why he looked so out of it when we met on the day of the shoot?

At that time, public opinion wasn’t as bad as it is now, but isn’t it the internet where normally all such posts were kept under water?

Perhaps Seon Ahyun wasn’t very familiar with the Internet, so he looked into everything without knowing the extent.

‘How far did he search?’

I feel like he could have even looked at communities where only posts that cursed idols were posted all day long

Seon Ahyun kept talking like he was making an excuse.

“I- I knew it would be like this someday. S-So I prepared my heart. I-It’s ok, I am used to this.”

“Is that so?”

“Y-Yes!”

Seon Ahyun quickly nodded his head, but I was slightly disturbed.

‘I think he is saying he is used to being criticized for his stuttering.’

I thought about it for a long time, but it was clear that he had experienced hell among peer relationships. Teenagers these days were scary.

I clicked my tongue inward.

“Don’t worry, it won’t last long. If you do well on stage, they will disappear again.”

“Is that so?”

“Yeah. This is a survival program.”

That was also the case for any cheap person or someone in the corner of the room, even if they were really criticized. Reality was like X, so it was fun to bite someone who could scream on the internet.

If another celebrity became a hot topic, they would move onto them.

I shrugged.

“From tomorrow onwards, I might get cursed.”

“Huh? N-No… ! Y-You didn’t do anything wrong…..”

“You didn’t do anything wrong either.”

“……”

When Seon Ahyun closed his mouth out of embarrassment, Keun Sejin answered instead.

“So, what you really want to tell Ahyun is to ‘not take it for granted’? Kya~ Our Moondae is so cool. If I were a viewer, I would have already bought his stocks.”

“Oh, yes.”

“Wow. This doesn’t work anymore?”

Keun Sejin laughed and rolled around the bed. Gold 1, who was using the lower bunk, freaked out but spared no words of encouragement to the team members.

“Stop it, you idiot, your bed will fall!… Okay, Let’s just work hard. Let’s do well on this stage!”

“That’s right!”

The constant effort to somehow sublimate the situation into motivation raised the room’s mood. The lively atmosphere was friendly.

And Kim Raebin, who had been silent all this time, muttered in a low voice.

“Yes. In that sense, I found and organized example materials for costumes and patterns for props, is it alright to post them in the group chat……”

“……Ah.”

Yes. That was the purpose of the phones.

I think he had found them a while ago but just couldn’t bring it up because of the atmosphere.

From Kim Raebin’s perspective, he had received all kinds of curses during the first team match, so the internet for him right now must be like a fairy. He would have no problem exploring around.

“……O-Of course.”

“Yes. I’ll send them.”

The same time that Gold 1’s coughing rang across the room, vibrations sounded from the phones all around.

I checked the data sent by Kim Raebin.

[Colors_materials_patterns list__cloth base.xlsx]

[Accessory pattern_details list_no base.xlsx]

When I clicked it, it wasn’t just ordinary skills to organize them by categories. Perhaps the production team did not expect to reach this level.

‘It’s good.’

As if everyone had similar thoughts, exclamations and simple compliments came and went. Keun Sejin even blew a whistle.

“…Thank you.”

After Kim Raebin’s shy thanks, the team members continued discussing the costumes and stage props until 3 a.m.

The determination to make the stage come out well was expressed by the action of ‘I will sleep when I die’.

I had a status window, but even so, these guys were really amazing.

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After two more days of hard labor and practice from dawn to dawn, the time for the midterm evaluation had arrived once again.

This time, the stage director, music director, and even the costume team sat down and evaluated with the trainers.

First of all, if I were to self-evaluate, even if I think about it as objectively as possible, the current direction of this team was fine.

Still, I wasn’t expecting much. Because up until now I had never received good feedback from the midterm evaluations,

But this result… It was honestly good.

“I really like it a lot.”

“Let’s just do it like this!”

The feedback started with these sentences.

Watching the smiling trainers and the admiring judges, the team members realized the situation with a gradation.

First, the choreographer.

“Who made this choreography? Did you all do it together? No, there must be someone who took the initiative… Wow, you guys got it right? Did you really do it all together? ……Okay. Whoever did it will show up on the show. Anyway, I have nothing to say, you did well.”

Next up was the vocal trainer Mudy.

“First of all, I am very proud that everyone managed to move like that without their notes shaking! Also, it’s attractive how you changed the way the original song is sung, and the way you sing according to the newly interpreted parts. Let’s sing the whole song with this vibe!”

Even Youngrin who rarely praised people openly.

“I know it’s a stage with a lot of thought and practice, but the best thing is that it doesn’t feel like an amateur. Even though it’s the midterm evaluation, it’s already complete. I can’t wait to see you on stage soon.”

Up to this point, the team members had become ‘thank you’ bots and only thanked them one after another.

In the middle of the series of favorable reviews to the point no one would be surprised if someone shed a tear of emotion, the director and the costume team did not spare their praise.

“Looking at the draft you wrote here, we can immediately feel that you paid a lot of attention to the details. Seeing what you have prepared for now, I think it will suit you well on stage.”

“It’s a team that arranged the song very easily. We already have a lot of information, and it seems you had fun organizing and picking out the things you wanted without talking about anything today. Seeing it today, the stage is just as wonderful as our expectations.”

“This team’s outfits also entered the production stage very quickly. The concept is clear, and there aren’t that many vague parts. I can’t wait to see you guys perform on stage wearing the clothes we made~”

After this whirlwind of praises, the faces of the team members were really worth seeing.

Everyone looked so happy that they couldn’t believe it, simply nodding with foolish expressions.

Even Keun Sejin couldn’t properly say something in the end.

“Team, no, uh… Thank you. We will work harder!”

“Don’t hurt yourself by working too hard!”

Clap clap clap. Then, with the sound of applause from the judges, our group bid our farewells and returned to our seats.

The team members, who were completely blown away, watched the rest of the team’s stage and only reflexively reacted according to the trend. There was no audience.

I was stunned too.

‘Things are working out this well?’

I hadn’t slept properly for a few days and had been immersed in just completing this, so I wasn’t sure how good this would look.

At best, ‘it would be okay’ was the end.

‘…Anyway, I feel good.’

I felt a little high at the sense of accomplishment.

I just stared at the performances of other team members and enjoyed that sense of accomplishment for a while.

It was close to midnight when the midterm evaluations completely ended.

“It was so good.”

“Me too.”

“Same.”

The team members mumbled in bed. It was only after it ended that they started coming back to their senses, the voices filled with happiness like never seen before flowed through one after another.

“I think we can do really well.”

“T-That’s right.”

The pattern of saying things like this continued several more times.

‘Are we going to be able to go to bed like this today?’

It had been a while since I got to slept for more than 4 hours.

I closed my eyes quickly. But at that moment, another talk of work came out.

“Oh, I haven’t decided on the color of the sleeves for my outfit.”

“Oh, that’s right.”

These guys were really tough. I forced myself to open my eyes. Damn it.

“I’ve seen a few things, wait a minute.”

The sound of a Keun Sejin manipulating the Talk Talk screen with his phone ran quietly

“I saw it here……”

However, the rest of his words did not come. Keun Sejin just stiffened with his phone up.

“What’s that?”

“What’s wrong with you?”

Keun Sejin, whose face was white, was looking at a screen.

The smartphone screen shining in the dark bedroom clearly showed its color even though the distance was quite far away.

‘It’s a bulletin board for gossip.’

As a place linked to the portal site, it was a bulletin board famous as a hotbed for all kinds of conflict topics, rumors, and controversial articles.

Without having Keun Sejin say anything else, I accessed the bulletin board with my own phone.

And I saw a post that was already in the rankings even though it was posted 30 minutes ago.

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3rd place! IJC’s Keun Sejin accused of school violence. (425)]

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It was a big and beautiful land mine.

‘This f*cking.’

No wonder I was lucky today.