If The Moon Won’t Hold You - Chapter 62

In this world, no one can accompany anyone forever. Even the person you love most will have his own mission and responsibility. You can be his center, but you can’t be everything to him.

Cen Ning has never blamed her words and deeds. Even if her words and deeds often disappear, and she is often absent from her for a long time, she never complained to him.

He wants to guard the country. What she wants to do is to accompany him and understand him.

One month later, Cen Ning saw Yin Li on the news.

He held a press conference and personally told him the true owner of the work that had made him famous. His reputation was instantly discredited, and the dead man named Yin Rui entered everyone’s memory.

Cen Ning should be happy when she saw this news, but looking at Yin Li’s face that seemed to be ten years old, she couldn’t feel happy.

She blamed him, but for so long, what Yin Li had taught her and the kindness she was good to her couldn’t be obliterated at will. So the last thing she can do is to be an indifferent bystander, not to go to bed, nor to forgive casually.

“Ningning, let’s go.” He bought lunch and prepared to go upstairs to Tang Zheng’s ward with Cen Ning.

Cen Ning glanced at the person in the news last, and threw the phone into his bag.

He gave her a look: “Have you never contacted Yin Li again?”

Cen Ning nodded: “I don’t know how to face him, I think, he doesn’t know how to face me anymore.”

Words and deeds: “He didn’t wait until you broke the secret and chose himself. In fact, this ending is good for you, and no one will feel guilty anymore.”

Cen Ning took hold of the words and deeds, and gave a short smile: “Yeah.”

Words and deeds: “Go up, Tang Zheng should call hungry.”

“good.”

When the two of them walked outside the ward, they heard Zhang Ziyi’s cursing voice: “Tang Zheng, you stupid, break up, divide you up, see if you can find someone as dignified and beautiful as me in the future, you can’t find it. !”

“Zhang Ziyi, did you not listen to what I just said?”

“What did you say? Oh, you said you will be lame after your leg is lame, and you won’t be worthy of me. Who the **** think you are, so that you are worthy of me if you are not lame.”

“Zhang Ziyi, be serious! I’m serious!”

“You can’t be lame! Don’t force me, my mother will go and find you the best doctor in the world tomorrow, and you will be lame with my last name.”

“…”

“Furthermore, you broke up with me when you were lame? Shouldn’t you cry and cry and leave me such a good girl?!”

Outside the ward, Cen Ning and Yan Dezhi looked at each other.

In this month, this drama has been staged for the third time.

Cen Ning pushed the door and walked in: “I’m eating.”

Tang Zheng turned his head and stopped talking when he saw someone coming in, while Zhang Ziyi slumped his face and rushed to Cen Ning’s side, “Look at him, is he insane? Before he could start his rehabilitation, he felt worried that he was going to waste. .”

Tang Zheng: “…”

Cen Ning: “Tang Zheng, it’s okay. The doctor said that you can recover after a good rehabilitation.”

He put down his lunch and sat on the edge of the hospital bed: “I break up every other time, do you play a bitter drama?”

Zhang Ziyi: “Yes!”

Tang Zhengjia cried twice, took his words and deeds to his face, and began to complain tragically: “Brother Yan, I didn’t act. It was this woman who was old-fashioned about me. Eighteenth generations have scolded, then I am not for her, if I am really lame, she will be wronged by me.”

Zhang Ziyi rolled his eyes: “How many times do you want me to say it, you’re not going to be lame, don’t play with it yourself, okay!”

The corners of his mouth twitched slightly, and he took his hand back: “…let’s eat.”

Tang Zheng: “Eh, brother Yan, have you heard that this woman—”

“I do not want to hear.”

Cen Ning smiled sullenly, no matter what they were tossing about, he took out the food in the bag one by one.

During this period of time, Tang Zheng’s physical condition has improved a lot, but he can’t get out of bed because of his legs. After a while, he can go for rehabilitation.

As for lame things, they basically don’t exist. It’s just that it’s impossible to do those dangerous things as before. He feels ashamed of his words and deeds, so no matter how Tang Zheng and Zhang Ziyi make trouble, he insists on coming to the hospital to take care of him.

After eating, Cen Ning accompanied Zhang Ziyi out to buy something. Tang Zheng lay on the hospital bed and glanced at his words and deeds when he was peeling apples.

“The team is so busy, you don’t have to come every day.”

Words and deeds, the hand holding the knife paused: “It’s okay.”

“Brother Yan, what I said to Zhang Ziyi was a joke, you know, I tell you, I’m actually quite happy, really, how tired our special forces are.” Tang Zheng smiled, “I can do it now. I’ve been transferred, and I’m getting a clerical job in the team.

From childhood to adulthood, Tang Zheng and Xin Zechuan played training together with his words and deeds. Later, because of family pressure, Xin Zechuan gave up joining the army, and only the two of them persisted.

He knew Tang Zheng well in words and deeds, just as Tang Zheng also knew him well.

He must have said this now because he was afraid that he would blame himself. Tang Zheng knew how passionate he was in his heart and how he loved everything in the past.

Tang Zheng: “Eh, you have to help me talk to my superiors and give me a slightly useful post. Although I want to be happy, I don’t want to be too idle… Brother Yan, Brother Yan?”

“Um?”

“Did you listen to me.”

After cutting off the last bit of apple peel, he smiled faintly: “Well, I know.”

“Hey good brother!”

Tacitly, looking up to the future.

They all understand and trust each other. Accidents are inevitable in this line, but the belief in this line will always be there.

**

After coming out of the hospital, Cen Ning was sent back to school by words and deeds.

Cen Ning was going to get the thesis from the thesis instructor, but before she went there, she received a call from Duan Xiaoquan.

After that film festival, Cen Ning and Duan Xiaoquan had each other’s contact information. The two had a special conversation about photography, and Duan Xiaoquan also admired her ability, so he had been taking care of her.

Half an hour later, Duan Xiaoquan and Cen Ning sat down in a coffee shop outside the school. Duan Xiaoquan was gentle and polite as always, and after ordering Cen Ning’s coffee, he asked, “How did you think about the New York visuals before.”

Cen Ning paused: “I plan to go.”

Duan Xiaoquan was very happy to hear it; “I think you will go too.”

“Well,” Cen Ning said lightly after taking a sip of coffee, “after all, we still have to go through some serious and systematic study.”

Duan Xiaoquan glanced at her, but she hadn’t seen her for many days, her feeling changed a little. This change is revealed from the inside out, like growing Nirvana.

Duan Xiaoquan: “If your father is still alive, he will definitely want you to go.”

Cen Ning was taken aback and nodded slowly.

“You must have known about Yin Li, Cen Ning. Actually, Teacher Yin talked to me before publicly apologizing. I didn’t stop him because he did something wrong. He has been suffering.”

Cen Ning: “Are you here to intercede with him.”

Duan Xiaoquan shook his head: “I just want you to know that it is one thing for him to do something wrong, and another for being true to you. Don’t hate him too much.”

Cen Ning smiled lightly: “It doesn’t make any sense to say this now, no one can go back.”

“Yeah…no one can go back, nor can anyone who has died.”

**

Cen Ning bought some test banks and books needed for the TOEFL test, but in fact, for an English major, the TOEFL test is not very laborious, but she still wants to prepare for the insurance.

After returning to the apartment, Cen Ning put the book on the coffee table casually, turned around and went to take a shower. Later, when I came out with my hair wrapped in the shower, I saw the words and deeds sitting on the sofa and flipping through the books.

Cen Ning was taken aback for a moment, somehow uncomfortable: “When did you come back?”

The words and deeds looked up from the TOEFL book: “Ten minutes ago.”

Cen Ning snorted: “Auntie housekeeper said before leaving that the food can be eaten when it is slightly warmer.”

He didn’t say anything and said nothing but silence for a moment: “Have you decided?”

Cen Ning knew what he was talking about. He had heard from her two days before that she wanted to go abroad for further study. When he heard her say this, he was silent. At this time, he saw her with a book. I bought them, and I knew in my heart that she would not be able to bring back the nine cows.

Words and deeds: “Actually, you always have this idea, haven’t you?”

Cen Ning nodded and shook his head again: “No, I used to envy but never thought that I was really capable and qualified to go. At that time, I felt that my mother would not understand me, and I felt that I could no longer owe… I owe too much to Grandpa, so I thought it would be nice to learn from the predecessors in this way.”

“why did not you tell me.”

“what?”

“Why don’t you tell me if you want to go? Do you think I can’t help you, or you don’t want to owe me?”

Cen Ning: “I owe you… I owe Grandpa, what’s the difference.”

“you–“

“Brother Xingzhi, this is my personal business, and I am not someone from the language family. Your family has no obligation to do these things for me.”

The words and deeds stood up suddenly: “Cen Ning, don’t forget that you are my fiancee!”

“It’s because I am! That’s why I don’t want to rely on you for everything!” Cen Ning rolled her head, “I am not a waste, nor an embroidered pillow… If I keep asking for my satisfaction, then what am I to become.”

The pupils of words and deeds shrank: “Do you have to tell me so clearly.”

“I just……”

“I can’t give you what you want, so what is it for me.” The anger is hidden in the eyes of words and deeds, “Cen Ning, no one in Yanjia treats you as an outsider! Whatever you owe or not, only you keep owing it The line is clearly drawn, only you keep pushing yourself out!”

She rarely speaks loudly to her in words and deeds, and Cen Ning has been upset for a while. No matter what she said at this time, her entire body seemed to be agitated.

“Yes! I have been drawing lines, I have pushed myself out! You don’t know anything! You are the pride of heaven, you have always lived in the center of others, wherever you go, it’s the focus. No one has ever known Underestimate you! But I am different! Don’t put your family’s young master’s style on me!”

“You!” The words and deeds were so maddening, it seemed that Cen Ning could strangle her directly by saying more. But it was just what it looked like. He endured it and walked into the room angrily in the next second. With a thump, the door slammed loudly.

Cen Ning was also angry, she walked back to her room that hadn’t slept for a long time, and the door slammed louder than him.

This is the first time they quarreled, and the first time they said something bad.

Cen Ning was lying on the bed, her eyes flushed with sadness.

She knew that she had said something unpleasant to him, and she knew that he had never had the style of a young master in the family, but she said it out in a moment of desperation.

He was probably really angry, angry that she was unwilling to let him help her, that she drew the lines clearly, and that she included him in the ranks of outsiders.

But in fact, she didn’t regard him as an outsider, nor did she regard the people of the philosopher as an outsider.

It’s just that she will really feel inferior and embarrassed. She said that she pretended to be pretentious and said that she was guilty and said that she accepted it all. It’s just that she wants to do it herself.

**

Cen Ning stayed in the room all the time. After an unknown period of time, half asleep and half awake, the door of the room was pushed in.

Cen Ning opened his eyes in a daze, and saw a figure standing on the side.

“…”

“…”

The two looked at each other, and the air became a little bit rigid.

“Get up.” His words and deeds curled his eyebrows, his expression serious.

Cen Ning felt aggrieved looking at him, and kept her mouth silent.

A few steps above her words and deeds, she lifted her from the bed directly, and reached out to remove the towel she was still wearing on her head.

As soon as the towel was removed, all her black hair fell off, and her hair was half-dry and half-wet hanging on Cen Ning’s face, making her very embarrassed.

“What are you doing…” Cen Ning’s eyes flickered in shock behind a few hairs.

The words and deeds looked at her condescendingly: “Do not blow dry your hair, what do you want to do.”

Cen Ning bit her lip and muttered: “I’m arguing…what’s the hair?”

“Say what?”

“No……”

He glared at her with words and deeds, turned around and went out, but after a while he came back again with a hairdryer in his hand.

“Sit down.”

Cen Ning: “…”

“Have you heard?”

Cen Ning finally sat up obediently, watching her words and deeds plug in the hair dryer, and watching him blow her hair with a cold face.

The hot wind screamed, his fingers pierced her hair, quickly but gently rubbing her messy hair.

He does not speak, and she does not speak. The two of them were silent in this noise.

Cen Ning lowered his eyes, holding a corner of his clothes in his hand, and tugged silently. At this moment, the sudden irritation before has gradually cooled down.

Cen Ning knows how good her words and deeds are to her, and she also knows that she can speak well just now, there is no need to blow her nose and stare…

“What I said just now, I want to take it back.”

The sound of the hair dryer was in her ears, and Cen Ning’s head was lowered, so she didn’t notice her words and deeds. Cen Ning knew it, but she did this deliberately, taking advantage of the chaos to admit her mistake.

“I know that you are good to me, I shouldn’t be such a white-eyed wolf, I shouldn’t be reluctant to say anything, you are not a brother, you are different from them.”

The electric wind stopped suddenly.

Words and deeds: “Did you speak.”

Cen Ning: “…no.”

The electric wind continues to blow.

Cen Ning: “Grandpa treats me very well, everyone treats me well, so I want to be independent and strong, I want to repay them, and…”

The electric wind stopped again, and Cen Ning paused and looked up at him.

“Are you talking?” The words and deeds frowned.

Cen Ning tightened his clothes and did not deny any more. This time, she continued what she said just now: “And you are my most important person, how could you be an outsider. But the brother of words and deeds, I should also grow up. , I can’t rely on you for everything, right.”

When my hair is dry, I put down the hair dryer and stretched out my hands.

He was agitated by her just now, in fact, he always knew that she was simple on the surface but heavy-minded, and he also knew that she had always been more cautious.

It’s just that he selfishly wants to protect her all the time, and doesn’t want her to escape his palm.

But his little girl has grown up after all.

He sighed silently: “Yes.”

Cen Ning’s eyes lit up: “Then you think I make sense, are you not angry?”

“Why don’t I get angry anymore.”

Cen Ning whispered: “Then you are angry, why do you come in and blow my hair.”

He almost laughed at his words and deeds: “I didn’t think you were so stupid, with your hair wrapped up, for a long time not to come out?”

“…You still want this at this time.”

I squeezed her face under one of the words and deeds, annoyed her, but couldn’t bear to use force: “Then what should I think, I want you to fly to a place that I don’t touch? Or I think your wings are hard and I won’t protect me anymore. ?”

“no……”

“Ningning, I will let you go. I will give you the freedom to do what you want. I will not tie you.” He slowly let go of words and deeds, and touched her blushing cheeks, “but you remember Stay, don’t hold on when you’re tired, you still have me.”