I’m Not Doing This With A Friend - Chapter 9

“Leen, Ho-How about you let go of my hand first?”

 

“Hand?”

 

Ahh.

 

Only then did Leen noticed that she was still holding Carsion’s wrist

 

When Carsion slowly relaxed his hand and took it back, the warmth that was being passed on to him disappeared.

 

His temperature seemed to be quite high at this point.

 

“Sorry, I forgot that you don’t like skinship because I thought I should hide you first in a hurry.’’

 

“…”

 

Carsion completely covered his face with his hands by Leen’s apology. I couldn’t see well because I was hiding my face.

 

“Pink-Head, are you mad?”

 

Leen thought he was angry, but in fact, Carsion wasn’t angry but embarrassed.

 

I came all the way here just to see Leen, but when she’s in front of me, my head went blank and I didn’t know what to do.

 

From the moment I briefly met Leen’s black eyes through a small gap in the door, my heart began to beat like crazy.

 

When she grabbed me by the wrist and led me in, all my nerves were drawn to her side and I couldn’t resist.

 

His body and mind reacted sensitively to each of Leen’s actions.

 

Especially when she just said she was sorry for touching him, Carsion also wanted to kill himself in the past if he could.

 

Don’t touch, don’t call my name. Wasn’t this really crazy?

 

“…No.”

 

“Huh?”

 

“It’s not….”

 

Carsion’s voice was crawling weakly. Moreover, it was difficult to understand the meaning of the whole face by covering his face with his hand.

 

Feeling frustrated with this, Leen popped her face near to Carsion.

 

“Sorry, tell me again.”

 

“I don’t like it… Not that you touch me or call me by name.”

 

It was a word I had never thought that would come out of Carsion’s mouth.

 

Leen took a back step, apparently embarrassed.

 

After the distance grew a little farther, I could see the redness of his ears that he couldn’t cover.

 

“So don’t call me Pink-Head, call me Caon.”

 

* * *

 

Carsion’s trembling voice was pathetic, as if to convey his sincerity. And I was convinced from his voice.

 

That Carsion likes me.

 

The first thought I had was ‘how long have we met?’

 

Well, that didn’t mean I couldn’t fully understand it.

 

Even if not as much as Carcion’s appearance, I was fully aware of my pretty looks.

 

Of course, not subjectively, but objectively.

 

As there was a saying that your face was probable, there was no law that you should not fall in love quickly.

 

It’s not my first time seeing someone who likes me.

 

I knew that Carsion and I wouldn’t be able to connect. But honestly, I felt good knowing he likes me.

 

I can’t believe such a handsome and innocent kid likes me.

 

Anyone would be proud to have someone like that.

 

As if it was nothing that he was embarrassed about earlier, a line was drawn on his lips.

 

I approached Carsion, who was still covering his face. Then I put my hand on his shoulder, just like when he first yelled at me not to touch him.

 

I could feel his whole body stiff at the touch of my hand.

 

Come to think of it, he asked me to call him Caon, his nickname, not Carsion.

 

It’s also cute.

 

“So… You mean you don’t hate it even if I touch you like this, Caon?”

 

“…yes.”

 

I want to see your red face too.

 

“Caon, come on take off your hands and talk to me face to face. There must be a reason why you came to see me.”

 

“…”

 

“Do you hate seeing my face?”

 

At those words, Carsion shook his head as if he was not himself.

 

The point here was not to shake hands with me, but to make a fuss.

 

We can’t help but think that he was really cute.

 

I moved my hand on his shoulder, grabbed him by the wrist and gave it a little strength.

 

So that I can get rid of that gorgeous hand covering his pretty face.

 

“Shhh… good boy.’’

 

Perhaps thanks to my efforts, Carsion’s hand went down and gradually began to show his face.

 

Finally, when all his red face was revealed and the moistened eyes was facing me,

 

He raised his eyes that looked surprised to see my face.

 

At the moment, he looked so cold that I could not even imagine he had a shy face until just now.

 

Oh… A cold look?

 

I wonder if Carsion’s hideous expression was too forced. I heard his low voice.

 

“Leen, did you cry?”

 

“No.”

 

I could fully predict that my eyes would be swollen even without looking in the mirror.

 

But I tried to lie to him pretending that I didn’t cry earlier.

 

Even if I wasn’t Carsion, I hated that someone else knew I was crying.

 

So, I came to the dormitory with the blanket from the club room wrapped around my face.

 

I couldn’t help it if I’m caught already?

 

”Leen. Was that because of what happened today?”

 

“Why would I cry over such a thing.”

 

Seeing that Carsion was aware of the incident, it seems that Fjord was doing the request I asked.

 

Stupid.

 

Carsion gritted his teeth. He pressed his lips with an angry look.

 

He doesn’t seem to believe me.

 

“I’m sure you cried because of those kids-…”

 

I squeezed his frowned forehead with my thumb. The wrinkles that had been held in the eyebrows quickly relaxed.

 

“It’s not what you think, so don’t frown for no reason. You become ugly.”

 

Oh. As I said, it was too clumsy. There’s no ugly part on that face.

 

“…when did you say I was handsome?”

 

“When did I.”

 

Have I ever taken my thoughts out of my mouth without realizing it?

 

When I looked at Carsion with a questionable face, his face quickly turned red again, whether it was embarrassing to make eye contact with me.

 

Is it okay if it turns red like that often?

 

Carsion gulps once, and then opens his mouth as if asking a serious matter.

 

”Leen. Why did you join our club?”

 

“I feel sorry for you asking me to join the club.”

 

After listening to me, he gave me a straight sullen look and shut his mouth.

 

She answered the unexpected questions in her own way.

 

What did you want to hear?

 

“More than that, tell me now, Caon. If you come to this place, the area of the girl’s dormitory, you must have come here for something serious.”

 

“Huh…?”

 

His face tinged with embarrassment in an instant.

 

Did you just come here because you wanted to see me?

 

Well, it’s cute, but it’s a bit disgusting. He might follow me to the ladies’ room later.

 

“I don’t think it’s just because of the incident that happened today. What kind of big deal did you come here for?”

 

“…”

 

“Huh?”

 

“I -I suddenly remembered something I had to do urgently.”

 

“A thing to do?”

 

“Sorry, I don’t think we’ll have time to talk because it’s too urgent. Let’s talk at club time tomorrow, Leen.”

 

Carsion hurriedly opened the locked door and went outside, saying he suddenly remembered something urgent to do.

 

And before he runs away, he just pokes his face out of the door.

 

“Don’t worry about what happened today. I’ll solve it somehow.’

 

As I looked at where Carsion had just stood, I spit out a peek of laughter.

 

How are you going to solve the problem that has already been solved?

 

* * *

 

Even today, I was sleeping on the sofa in the club room. At that time, I felt someone sneaking in and opened my eyes.

 

“Caon, that thing in your hand.”

 

Startle.

 

Carsion, who was approaching me with his back luggage, stopped there as if frozen like ice.

 

“You didn’t bring it to give me something again, right?”

 

“No, I wasn’t holding anything, Leen.”

 

He hurriedly showed his hands hidden behind him and claimed his innocence.

 

However, I had already seen the subspace created briefly behind Carsion.

 

…I’ll just pretend I didn’t know when you insist so hard.

 

“That’s a good thing.’’

 

As I closed my eyes again, I heard a faint sigh.

 

“Whew.”

 

Idiot. I can hear it all.

 

Since Carsion sneaked into the girls’ dorm to see me, he came with something to give me every day.

 

There are already more than five blankets he brought.

 

I heard that a sea otter living in the sea gives people a seashell as a gift, meaning ‘Do not hurt me, please be kind and love me.’

 

I think it feels similar to it.

 

Of course, I wouldn’t hurt Carsion, so it would mean that I have to be kind and like him.

 

In addition, he was not just bringing gifts every day, but he was completely obsessed with all actions. Even when he spoke, he began to notice me from word to word.

 

No, wait a minute.

 

Wasn’t this a reaction that feels like I’m going to hurt Carsion?

 

What did I do? This is a bit unfair.

 

“Caon.”’

 

” Yes?!”

 

I’m so surprised what you were doing.

 

I lifted my closed eyelid.

 

My eyes met with Carsion, who was secretly putting his hand in my bag. You look so embarrassed.

 

“There’s nothing to steal from my bag.”

 

“That’s not it…’”

 

Carsion closed his eyes tightly and removed his hand from my bag.

 

In his hand, he held a branch of cherry blossoms in full bloom.

 

“Leen, can’t you just accept it until today…?”

 

“…”

 

If someone else had come, I would have said a word. When I see that pure and pretty face, my mouth doesn’t fall off and I can’t stop talking.

 

“Until today. Next time, don’t damage a good tree just because you want to give it to me.”

 

At the words of accepting it, Carsion laughed at bash holding a cherry blossom similar to his hair color.

 

“I’ll keep that in mind. And… Thank you for accepting it.’’

 

Saying thank you should be from the one who accepted it, not from the one giving the gift, but what should I say?.

 

How can you live if you act like you’re going to give away all your liver and gallbladder just because you like it?

 

This precarious world.

 

“The only person in the academy who thinks of me was you, Caon.”

 

Even more after the expulsion.

 

Ah. The reason that the case was called just an incident was because they were all expelled.

 

At first, there was someone from the five kids that has a connection among professors, and there was a professor that tried to appeal that the kids be treated lightly as a disciplinary action.

 

But in the end, they were forced to pack up and leave the academy.

 

It was because a recording file containing the full story of the incident was circulating among the students, and even the chairman of the board, who had not interfered with the academy, took off for some reason.

 

Rumor has it that even after they were expelled from the academy, something bad happened to their respective families.

 

For example, Elle, who said that she was famous for gold mines… Well, the mine was bombed, the gold mine and the cave collapsed.