In Search of Our Destiny - Chapter 210

With a sharp intake of air, Ji-Won finally snapped out of his daze. His heart was palpitating, fluttering rapidly like a bird’s wings. Yet, despite the inner turmoil that threatened to spill outside like a storm, he still tried to look calm and collected on the outside.

After taking a moment longer to find his next words, Ji-Won eventually continued to speak.

“Miss Park, please organize and bring with you all the documents we have for the presentation so far. I want to discuss the implementation of our concept under these new conditions.”

The young woman stared at him in silence.

Just as it did to Ji-Won, that short eye contact had thrown her into a raging storm of emotions. Her heart was beating fast and her pupils trembled slightly.

She noticed with a start that, even though Ji-Won appeared very much upset, his eyes softened when they settled on her. Granted, she might have been imagining things or been caught in some kind of wishful thinking. Nevertheless, she still thought that his face took on a more gentle expression and even his voice sounded different than before.

On top of all that, she couldn’t deny that all this was making her feel rather hopeful. Maybe he really did see her differently now, compared to the beginning. And not just professionally, but also on a more personal level.

Struggling to pull herself together, Su-Jin nodded and replied in a small voice.

“Of course, Director Kang, I will bring everything with me.”

Satisfied with that answer, Ji-Won turned to give his friend one more glare, before heading to his office.

While she watched him leave, Su-Jin tried to put the earlier matter aside. But she discovered that it was nearly impossible to get that moment out of her head.

Thus, her mind was soon overtaken by a long period of nervousness.

Thinking back on what just happened, she was also hit by an unexpected realization.

Earlier, when Seo-Jun had held her shoulders, she didn’t feel the same tingling sensation from the time when Ji-Won had touched her.

Overall it should have been the same touch, just by different people. But was it really the same thing? How come she felt so differently about the two? One made her entire skin scrawl with goosebumps and her scalp tingle in an almost pleasant manner, while the other made her feel like she had been grabbed by an overly excited human-sized puppy.

This entire situation went to prove that Ji-Won was indeed special to her. Whether it was his touch, the sound of his voice or the feeling of his eyes on her, she was simply too conscious of him.

‘Park Su-Jin, you are now officially in big trouble. Look how hard you’ve fallen for him, if just this small thing makes you feel so happy.’

Su-Jin sighed, then continued to silently lament about her situation.

‘But what about Director Kang? What does he see me as, I wonder? Sure, he seemed to have stopped glaring at me all the time, and he even trusted me with the Assistant work. But what about his feelings? How am I going to confirm if he sees me as anything more than a simple coworker?’

Suddenly, the image of her brother and her best friend popped in Su-Jin’s mind.

‘Ah, if those two were in my shoes right now I bet they would know exactly what to do.’

She smiled to herself. All her previous dejected thoughts halted and took a different turn.

‘I’m sure Min-Jun wouldn’t hesitate to chase after the person he likes, only giving them space after a clear rejection. He’s always been blunt and brave like that, no matter who he had to face. And Mi-Suk…’

Here, Su-Jin paused in her silent contemplations, trying to recollect what she knew about her best friend’s past relationships.

‘Sure enough, Mi-Suk would probably hem and haw for a period of time, worried over whether the man liked her or not. But, eventually, she would go for it and confess. Regardless of the answer she receives, Mi-Suk would never regret trying. More likely she would feel it would be such a waste to worry over someone else’s feelings before even confirming them.’

Thinking about that, Su-Jin let out a quiet chuckle. Those two were really fearless when it came to expressing their sentiments.

Su-Jin, on the other hand, was quite the opposite.

Despite putting on a brave front most of the time, deep down Su-Jin was, in fact, more of a coward.

When it came to talking about her feelings, the only people she could do that with were her brother and her best friend.

Whether it was about facing someone else’s feelings, or even her own for that matter, she would always doubt and worry a lot. She would always choose to wait until that other person felt the same way, before finally owning up to her own emotions.

Needless to say that this way of thinking helped Su-Jin in achieving nothing. Her love life had always been as dry and barren as a desert. And her fear of being rejected if she confessed first, together with her family situation, caused her to prefer solitude instead of seeking the comfort of people.

Being alone was better than being refused and unwanted was what she strongly believed in.

Just then, Su-Jin heard Yeon-Ah’s voice coming from next to her.

“Here, you should take this as well.”

The young woman handed Su-Jin a small stack of files.

“It’s the most recent financial report that Jung Seok and I finished.” she explained.

“Thank you.” Su-Jin smiled, gradually coming back from her thoughts.

She grabbed the files and went to start organizing the documents. There were just a couple of minutes left before the meeting and she still hadn’t finished her task.

‘There is no use losing focus over whether Director Kang likes me or not. At this moment it doesn’t even matter. I’m not even a full-time employee, so what could I possibly hope for? That Director Kang would miraculously fall for me as well?’

Scorning herself for even daring to look at her boss with such eyes, Su-Jin quickly pushed the matter at the back of her mind.

But, even after she regained her calm, she was still convinced that such thoughts would definitely occur again. Especially now that she was aware of her own feelings.

But, for now at least, she wasn’t brave enough to face them.

Later, she would think about it later. At that time, maybe she would feel safe enough to admit everything in front of her crush.

Little did Su-Jin know that this opportunity might come even sooner than she had anticipated.