Interstellar Moe - Chapter 650
Yi Xing grew up in a small, wealthy and happy family. Although it is not rich enough, it is enough in his eyes. Of course, it would be better if there were fewer noisy children around him every day. .
I don’t know when it started, or when I was very young. In Yi Xing’s memory, there are always countless children who like to get close to him. They openly regard him as a member of their small group. And very enthusiastic, but never knew he never liked it.
A child with excess energy is always extraordinarily noisy. He intentionally stays away from such a group, but his seemingly independent behavior does not seem to have much effect. Instead, it attracts more people to approach him as an honor.
Yi Xing didn’t know how this situation developed. He was full of indifference, but just because he didn’t have a pure polite attitude, he couldn’t let go of the people around him.
Who says that children are sensitive, but why can’t they feel the isolation in his heart? It’s good to say that he is still a child with temperament, and it’s good to react to extremes. In short, when he finds out, no matter how humble he is in the crowd Polite, but only he knows that he has drawn a line between himself and those around him.
So he doesn’t know why some people can easily do what he can’t.
How amazing, even though that person is sitting in the same room as them, it seems that no one can see him, he can exist quietly and in his own corner without being disturbed.
Yi Xing secretly observed for several days, and found that the long and thin classmate basically had no communication with other people except for going to and from school every day, and no one even remembered to take the initiative to speak to him. , which made him feel a little weird.
Out of curiosity about the idea that he couldn’t even explain himself, he began to pay attention to this inconspicuous child. He had asked other people his name intentionally or unintentionally, but no one knew.
He secretly guessed what was the difference between this child and other people. Apart from being unusually silent, he was actually not as inconspicuous as everyone saw.
Because this child has a delicate face that is far superior to others, even as a child, he has a discernment of beauty, which is naturally attractive to them.
It’s just because of the gloomy expression he shows, that isolates all those who may be close to him, and even makes people ignore his unique beauty.
This was a life that Yi Xing wanted to live for a while, but no matter how he imitated it, it still had little effect.
But the attention paid is not so easy to take back, so finally one day, he walked up to the man and asked his name.
But unexpectedly and as expected, his usual good relationship lost its effectiveness for the first time. The child just raised his palm-sized face and gave him a blank look, but left without saying a word.
He couldn’t tell what kind of feeling he felt at the time. It seemed that there was some regret and some loss, but all the feelings were suppressed in his heart, and he forced himself to ignore it.
After that, he thought he would pay less attention to that person, but he would always look in that person’s direction unconsciously, but he never tried to talk to him again.
Perhaps because of the unspeakable arrogance in his heart, he still knew that person’s name: Tang You.
But it didn’t take long for his originally peaceful life to be broken, and he no longer had time and energy to pay attention to other things. The small business at home offended people who were not easy to provoke. Still can’t hide the worry in his eyes.
The Yi family struggled several times, and in the end, the parents even made up their minds to leave Planet Meilan, but it was a step too late.
Yi Xing knew that he couldn’t do anything in this matter, and even his worries seemed a little insignificant, but when he was drawn into a trap and regarded as the last straw that crushed the Yi family, he still couldn’t help but be angry. This kind of strong emotion that he had never had in his life made him realize in a trance that he was really a naive child, and all the worries back then were just a joke compared to this time, and it made him even more powerless.
He could even imagine the desperate expressions on his parents’ faces when they heard the huge indemnity. They were just a simple family with more than enough money to live, but how did they get such a huge indemnity.
People are always realistic. Even if parents put down their posture and ask for the so-called relatives and friends of the past, what they get is just dodging eyebrows. Should he blame them? This is just human instinct, and I am afraid that the one who really stretches out his hand is the fool, because their rare fragile sympathy is just putting themselves in.
So where do you go to find such a fool?
What greeted them was nothing but the fate of being sold, but they clearly figured out why they were still unwilling.
But he never thought that he would meet that person again at this time. They didn’t even say a few words, and they didn’t even call each other’s name. But, he thought, there are really fools in this world.
He didn’t know where the other party got such a large amount of wealth, and he couldn’t even ask. If he was strong enough, he would probably refuse at this time, but he couldn’t do it, even if he knew it might give a no-brainer. people bring trouble.
He should have known long ago that he is not a very likable person.
In the end, he still took the money to solve the troubles at home for his parents, maybe because of their heavy bleeding and embarrassment, the other party didn’t kill them all.
But some things have changed. After such a big change, their parents are no longer simple businessmen. They have learned to be tactful, learn to watch words and actions in any situation, find their own position, and refuse to take any more risks. .
They didn’t know where the funds in his hand came from, and they couldn’t ask for any details, but in the end, they just touched his hair and didn’t say much, but deep in their eyes, there were incomprehensible emotions.
Yi Xing returned to his normal life. After a period of slump in the family, he walked further, and he approached that person without any scruples.
Whether it’s for repayment or selfishness, he can’t take out the huge sum of money lent to him by the other party, so he can only make up for it a little bit in other ways.
So he successfully approached that person’s world.
Then he was startled to realize what kind of treasure the world had overlooked.
This seemingly fragile child has more firmness than anyone else, and also has unmatched wealth. It is unimaginable how much he has learned from the other party. The latter is like a limitless person. The abyss, with its huge attraction, can’t help but approach and sink deep into it.
Even if he knew that in the eyes of the other party he might be more than just a friend, but so what, when the eyes are attracted unconsciously, he doesn’t care about anything.
Didn’t he hear the discussions from the people around him, was he being taken advantage of? No, how could they possibly know how good this person really is, and they don’t need to know, because only what he can see is enough.
Even that person’s younger brother didn’t have this chance. Whenever he saw the other person’s suspicious eyes, he would feel a trace of uncontrollable anger welling up from the bottom of his heart, because such an ignorant person can get all the care and attention of that person. Eyes, but at the same time can not help but secretly rejoice, look, because of this, the other party will never know that person is good, and what others can’t see still belongs to him.
He always hoped that such days would not end, so that he would always be the only one who could stand by his side.
But in the end it was still too much.
When that person stood in front of him and said that he might forget him, even if it was just an unfounded and light-hearted remark, it still left his head blank for a moment, and he couldn’t even understand the meaning of this sentence for a while.
And, why would he never see him again? How could this happen, how could it possibly happen!
Obviously everything is fine.
But looking at that person’s firmer and more serious eyes than ever before, and the hidden trust and expectation in him, he couldn’t even say a question, or even refused.
As long as it is what the other party wants to do, he will help him to complete it. Didn’t he already know it, what was in his heart.
These are all voluntary, so why should I say sorry to him? This will make him unable to resist desperately trying to keep people, so that he can no longer leave his sight.
But in the end, he just stood there for a long time and did nothing.
He left Planet Meilan, with a more beautiful family than before, but some distances could not be changed. When he knew that that person was being calculated, he couldn’t suppress the disbelief in his heart, because this was not what he would encounter. It’s inevitable to be disappointed, why don’t you think of him at such a time.
Sure enough, he was the one who didn’t want to leave.
So he went back again.
Appearing in front of him again in a coincidental manner, he told himself that it was just an accident, but when his eyes met, the unfamiliar eyes completely vanished all his expectations.
It turned out that this was what he said, he didn’t know each other when he met, and showed the cruel facts **** in front of him, but he couldn’t even vent his strange expression.
He gave him back what he got from the other party. Even without his help, even if there was one less of him in his memory, that person could still make himself better, or even more for the younger brother he admired.
But what can he do?
He could only look at him more when he met with the other party, but the distance and the lack of contact in his eyes caused the things in his heart to surge uncontrollably, struggling to break through.
He never thought of himself as a fearless person, so he also has emotions, and he also resents, hates, and is unwilling.
All he wished was to see that person from time to time, but in the end, even such a simple thought became difficult.
He wanted to tell him everything uncontrollably, wanted to question him, wanted to tell him about the closest relationship they once had, but all the emotions that leaked out that he spurned on him just pushed people farther. .
What was wrong, he didn’t know.
So he could only suffer, but could not find a way out.
Seeing that person was injured and disappeared, he couldn’t wait to appear by his side, but the person who was gradually emerging was no longer his alone.
The only thing he can do for him is the seemingly firm promise he once made. As long as he promises that person’s thing, he will force himself to complete it, so he will endure his bleeding heart and teach the other person Everything given to him is completely returned to his brother.
But he has no idea how much you paid for him.
Even if I knew for a long time that I would stay by your side, it was just for that person. Even if I knew for a long time that all the emotions were unreal, but I couldn’t change my willingness, and I couldn’t dig my heart.
So I can only watch from a distance.
Even after you are surrounded by more and more people, you can’t take one step further.
You are no longer the one who used to hide in the corner alone, or the one who burned yourself for the sake of your heart.
You have relatives you can rely on, friends you can laugh with, and even a lover you can stick with.
I want to be happy for you, but after all, I am too greedy to laugh at the bottom of my heart.
Of course, you will be unwilling, anxious, and want to be desperate. I was the only one standing beside you in those years, but beyond the reality, what remains is only an afterimage that only one person remembers.
Struggling to be crazy, but in the end there is no way to destroy your smile from the heart, because that is a luxury I have never seen before.
How to bear it.
So you can only stay away, no longer close, only if you can’t see the bottom of your heart will you feel better, even if you deceive yourself.
But he didn’t even have the courage to meet again, because he was afraid that he would not be able to suppress the monstrous desire in his heart.
But still don’t know you well enough?
It turns out that in addition to those things you have suppressed, it turns out that what I have always remembered in my heart is such a… girl.
It’s right not to say it if you know it, but in the end, you don’t even have the qualifications to know it first. You can only watch silently in places you don’t know, and trace the unforgettable eyebrows in your heart.
It is said that if the heart becomes numb, there will be no more pain, but how long does it take to eliminate the traces in the heart.
After all, he is still an ordinary person, and he can’t do it without caring.
When the trace left by the corner of the eye fell into the palm of his hand, the warm liquid also became cold and wrapped around the whole body along the bone marrow.
At this moment, he seemed to suddenly understand the look of his parents that he didn’t understand.
When you accept what you can’t bear, what you are forced to give up may represent destruction.
He wants to be happy, but he is not the lucky one after all.