INTOXICATION - Chapter 66: Confession of the Cold-hearted man
Chapter 66: Confession of the Cold-hearted man
After Su Su fell asleep, He Gu quietly got out of bed, put on clothes and opened the door.
He heard that when Song Ju Han went out, he entered the room next door. He went to the next door and raised his hand to the door panel. He sighed, but did not have the courage to knock down.
He wanted to ask how Song Ju Han arranged the trip for tomorrow. He thought about it completely redundant. He took the phone and went to the corridor to call his mother.
He explained the matter that happened at the airport today and explained it lightly, lest she see the news and end up worried.
After the phone call, when he returned to the room, I was seen by Song Ju Han and Xiao Song coming back from the outside. In the narrow hotel corridor, the three people could not avoid each other.
Song Ju Han’s mouth was blue and purple and his cheeks were swollen. When he saw He Gu he subconsciously turned his face.
He Gu swore: “You had a fight with the reporter?”
“No, I went back home.” Song Ju Han said indifferently.
No wonder, only Song He can smack Song Ju Han’s face, he indulged in it for a moment: “Tomorrow, how do we go to Shanghai? What time?”
“I went looking for my dad to borrow the plane. You want to go there we can go at any time.”
He Gu nodded: “Then at ten o’clock in the morning.”
After that, he wanted to go back to the room.
Song Ju Han moved half a step, blocking him in front of him, looking down at him, softly said: “Hungry? Xiao Song brought back a meal.”
He Gu happen to look up and saw Song Ju Han talking, touching his mouth, his eyebrows jumped, he hesitated.
Xiao Song immediately got near: “Brother, let’s eat the food. I haven’t eaten anything since the afternoon. Is Su Su hungry? Call her to eat.”
“She fell asleep, she was scared today, let her sleep.”
“Oh, let’s go next door, don’t bother her.” Xiao Song took out the card and brushed the room next door, letting them go in.
He Gu didn’t want to go in and face Xiao Song and Song Ju Han.
Xiao Song put the food on the table and He Gu took a look at it. Many of them are the food loved by him. But after experiencing the physical and mental “wearing” in the afternoon, he really has no appetite.
Song Ju Han wanted to peel the skin shrimp for him. As a result, he was stabbed by the sting of the shrimp. The next shrimp with a big palm was pulled apart into several pieces by him. The meat went to the shell and he did not see the whole meat. He threw that one away. Xiao Song wanted to take over and help but he pushed his hand in a “go away” way.
He Gu can’t stop Ju Han from wasting his food so much so he grabbed the shrimp from his hand and smashed the shell from the stomach twice, then gently peeled the whole shrimp shell down and the tail of the shrimp was completely covered. When the flesh came out, he threw the shrimp into Song Ju Han bowl.
Song Ju Han was busy: “Let me, I will give you something to eat.” He put the shrimp into He Gu bowl.
He Gu was not so polite, he stuffed it into his mouth.
Song Ju Han picked up another one and he had learned how to slap the shrimp in the stomach. Xiao Song whispered, “Brother Han, let me do it.”
Song Ju Han gave him a blank look: “Eat yours own.”
He Gu put down the chopsticks: “I have finished eating, I will go back first.”
“Hey, it will soon be stripped!” Song Ju Han hurriedly said, “You only eat a few mouthfuls and eat more.”
“Full.” He Gu went to the bathroom to wash his hands.
“Then I also have finished eating.”
“Brother Han, you haven’t eaten…”
Song Ju Han turned a deaf ear and went over and wash his hands under the small water faucet.
He Gu frowned, he rubbed the water, wiped his hands and turned away.
Song Ju Han also followed him.
When he went outside the room, he stopped and helplessly looked back at Song Ju Han: “What are you doing?”
Song Ju Han thought for a moment and whispered, “Isn’t it too early to sleep now, its only nine o’clock.”
“It’s not early.”
“There is an open-air garden restaurant on the roof and the desserts and drinks are very famous. Let’s go sit down.”
“No.”
Song Ju Han couldn’t help but hold He Gu hand. The man’s voice was so low that he could hardly hear: “Do you think that I am useless?”
He Gu swore: “What do you mean.”
“I always give you trouble.” Song Ju Han took a deep breath and his expression was a bit of a strong man’s broken wrist. “That Ah-Sheng’s thing, I brought the trouble to you and later… my dad was guiding the public opinion to slander you. I pushed you out, I know, but I didn’t stop it. My dad was mad at the time, I didn’t dare to confront him again, but the biggest reason was because I felt… your reputation, Your work is not as important as mine.” The more he said, the smaller his sound became.
These things have long been thought of, but when he heard them from Song Ju Han’s mouth it made him feel a rush.
He recalled that the history could be said to be the darkest time of his life. He didn’t dare to go out, couldn’t see anyone, he was exposed, his face in the public was lost, his future was completely destroyed, but he never really felt that Song Ju Han had a lot of apologies, just like Song Ju Han said, his reputation was a little-known little man, he had a job with an annual salary of only a few hundred thousand, which is more important than t Song Ju Han’s contract worth tens of millions of dollars, in such a case, of course, you had to lose the car.
But if he didn’t do anything, he could bear all that.
He Gu sighed: “What do you mean to say that now?”
“I want to apologize to you.” Song Ju Han said uncomfortably, “My mom said, I should start from seriously reflecting on all my mistakes and apologizing. Sorry, your reputation is as important as your work.”
He Gu chest violently fluctuate a few times, when he heard Song Ju Han mention this and apologize, he can not tell what the heart is feeling, for a moment, the grievances that have been stagnation for a long time have finally dissipated.
“And, seven years ago, I got close to you the purpose was not pure, I used you to defeat Feng Zheng, I also laughed at you ‘can’t afford to fool around’…” As Song Ju Han said that his voice was a little trembling, “I……sorry, there are many…”
“Okay, don’t say it again.” He Gu thought that according to the ethics of normal people, if Song Ju Han needs to apologize for every wrong done to him it is estimated he will spend a day and night and he can not finish, but mostly is because He Gu does not need it, because it was his own decision, there is no point to blame others, now Song Ju Han repented for the old things, those heavy stuffs patting the knife on his chest, did not make him comfortable, after all, that one piece of past events, all the bloody evidence he had slandered before, he did not want to store them in his memories.
Song Ju Han’s eyes faded: “I’ve been thinking about things that I need to reflect on and need to apologize to you. Later I found out that there are so many… I thought I gave you your house and gave you a car it would be like me being good to you. But those things are neither what you needed, nor what you valued. I always embarrass you, call you and tempered you. In order to see if you have a different reaction from usual, deliberately flirting with others in front of your face.” Then Song Ju Han fave got even more uncomfortable, “I did a lot…the things that made you sad, so many years, you have been holding back…”
Song Ju Han tried to imagine the reverse of the relationship between the two, thinking about if He Gu did those things to him, thinking of them one by one and finally he almost collapsed. He Gu endure it all those years, how he was hurt and ridiculed and he still did not leave, how much feelings he could have, so that he could not afford to be consumed by it. If you he didn’t really love him, how can he endured such torture, even if it him so, finally he will completely die.
It was him, who personally killed the heart that was full of his love, the one he loved the most, the most missed and the one he needed the most.
I have been loved like that and I won’t give up my life.
He Gu can’t endure and sighed lowly: “I don’t want to say anything to you, I don’t need you to apologize, apologies are pointless”
This Song Ju Han has made himself into a stranger. Perhaps he is more accustomed to the former Song Ju Han, at least that Song is cold, he knows how to cope and how to resist him.
“Yes, it is useless to apologize.” Song Ju Han dumbly said, “I just want you to know that all the hardships you have suffered, now I am trying to resolve them, so that you will be happy.”
“It has nothing to do with me.” He Gu throw a sentence coldly and wanted to go back to the room.
Song Ju Han’s voice came from behind: “He Gu, if you can stick to the bad for seven years then I can.”
He Gu quickly open the door, rushed back to the room and closed the door.
Su Su was awakened and muttered eords.
He Gu felt like he woke up from a dream and said with a breath: “Su Su, its nothing, you continue to sleep.”
Su Su sat up: “Brother, what’s wrong with you? You looks very nervous.”
“Nothing, I just went to eat some food, are you hungry?”
“Not hungry, sleepy.”
“Let’s sleep.” He Gu closed his eyes and breathe a sigh of relief in the darkness before he calmed down his emotions.
The next day, Su Su got up very early and she was hungry. So far, the hotel didn’t have breakfast, so He Gu planned to go down and buy some for her.
He just opened the door and the door next door opened. Song Ju Han came out. Even though his cheeks were hurt and tired, he smiled. “Going running?”
“Go to buy Su Su breakfast.”He Gu suspect that Song Ju Han was listening for the sound at the door.
“I will go with you.”
“Wouldn’t you like to be surrounded by crazy fans?”
Song Ju Han took out the cover and hat from his pocket and skillfully disguised it: “So early, there are fewer people on the street, let’s go.”
He Gu didn’t bother to talk to him and walked to the underground.
In Beijing, which is more than six o’clock, there are very few pedestrians and vehicles on the street. There is none of that impetuousness in the daytime, which gives people a smooth and refreshing morning.
Song Ju Han stretched out his arms: “I haven’t run in the morning for a while.”
He Gu didn’t talk, he was looking for a breakfast shop.
“There is one there.”
He Gu saw that there was a shop in front of the road, which was actually the chain store of Song Ju Han’s favorite crab.
He hesitated.
Song Ju Han pulled up his hand: “It’s so good, it’s actually this store, we…”
He Gu pushed his hand and walked in and took a few soups, side dishes and soy milk.
Song Ju Han heard He Gu order for the crab yellow and his eyes could not stop smiling.
On the way back, Song Ju Han showed some awkward smile: “I used to work late, you came to see me, you will buy this downstairs.”
He Gu thought of those years. At that time, his mobile phone was loosing power when he had no electricity power bank. Whenever he went there, he would bring a charger. In order not to miss any call from Song Ju Han, as long as Song Ju Han wanted to see him, no matter how important it was, he could push it. Song Ju Han was all the fun in his life, the absolute center of gravity of life, he humbled and devoutly loved Song Ju Han, carefully maintaining the tactile relationship of the tightrope.
Now thinking about it, he is really enchanted. Unfortunately, until now, he is no more, maybe for a lifetime, he can’t completely get rid of the demons.
“Be careful!”
He Gu body was half leaning and Song Ju Han pulled him into his arms. When he woke up in his dream, he found that there was an open manhole in front of him. There was a sign of maintenance post next to him and he suddenly walked forward unconsciously.
Song Ju Han stared at him: “What’s wrong with you? You would have fallen in there.”
He Gu pushed him away and he calmed down and said calmly: “I saw it early.”
Song Ju Han once again wanted to help him with breakfast, He Gu refused.
Back at the hotel, Su Su has already woken up. The little girl braided herself had a neat ponytail, she was dressed im the lake blue dress brought by Xiao Song, her face was tender and full of morning dew flowers and yesterday’s wilting was swept away, she looked enthusiastic.
“Brother He.” Su Su screamed happily and then her eyes fell on Song Ju Han. She restrained her lips and screamed, “Brother Han.”
Song Ju Han smiled and said: “If you are hungry, come and eat.”
Su Su looked at her inquiringly, He Gu said: “Come and eat.”
Su Su ran across the ground and leaned over to Song Ju Han. Seeing He Gu has no reaction, she sat down.
He Gu didn’t care, he handed her a soup meal and she ate herself.
Song Ju Han gave Su Su a few crabs and shrimps: “Taste this, your brother and I are very fond of eating this.”
“This store also has shop in Shanghai, I also love to eat these.” Su Su smile and while eating she was secretly looking at the two.
He Gu said: “Concentrate on eating, after eating and packing up we will go to Shanghai.”
Su Su suddenly had a lingering look: “But we went to the airport…”
“Nothing, we are going on a private jets, no one will bother.”
Su Su eyes were shining: “Private aircraft? Is that only on TV?”
“Yeah.”
“Is there a big TV, a bar, a sofa and a bedroom?”
Song Ju Han nodded: “Yes.”
Su Su exclaimed excitedly: “Can I take pictures?”
He Gu swore: “No and calm down.”
Su Su excitement suddenly fell.
Song Ju Han smiled and said: “Yes, but you can’t say whose plane it is.”
Su Su suddenly nodded.
Song Ju Han patted her head: “Su Su is really beautiful in this dress. This is a new model that will not yet been released until next month, in the whole world it is only worn by you alone, do you like it?”
“Like it? Love it! So beautiful!”
“Isn’t Brother Han(me)good to you?” Song Ju Han’s smile was very awing.
“Awesomely good.” Su Su’s face is red and she was a little intoxicated.
“That’s good.” Song Ju Han turned to smirk at He Gu.
He Gu glance at him coldly and bowed down to eat.
Song Ju Han was disappointed and his eyes fell.