Italian First Love Diary - Chapter 23
【184】
I don’t know if this is normal between couples, maybe because we get along too much on weekdays, Ling Jun and I dream about each other every night.
I remembered that I had a dream a long time ago. Because of something, Mr. Ling was silent and couldn’t wake up.
I kept grinning bitterly, thinking it was not true. Even when he was buried and burnt to ashes, he didn’t even take a look.
So, I started traveling around the world, looking for Lingjun in a certain corner. Her chest has been suffocating, and she is reluctant to accept the reality.
I don’t know how long it has been, it may be thousands of years.
I really can’t find Ling Jun. At that moment, I realized that Lingjun no longer exists.
Almost instantly, the stagnant qi in his chest dissipated, and a dull heart pain came. I was at a loss, squatting on the ground and crying.
I really cried for a long time and I was very sad. When I wake up, there is still a dry pain in the heart, which is physiological, not an exaggerated rhetoric.
Another touch of his face was all wet.
At that time, a sentence suddenly appeared in my mind-as long as I think of you in the corner of the world, my whole heart will become warm and stable. Because I came to this world without hesitation, just to…find you.
【185】
I had a dream last night. I don’t know if I watched a movie recently. The plot in the dream is also illogical and weird.
In my dream, I have an uncle who is a professor at a medical university. He seemed to want to use me to do human tests. Instead of diagnosing my disease properly, he prescribed some insignificant drugs, allowing the tumors in my brain to grow bigger, which is cancer.
One day, I touched my right eyelid and felt something protruding between the gaps in my eyes.
Soon, I realized that the major event was not good, and told Ling Jun that I would go to the hospital for treatment.
But the illness is very serious, and I am not completely sure. The pictures of the past are like movies, and I flip through them in my mind.
I am very scared, I don’t know if this disease can be cured. What if the operation is unsuccessful?
Ling Jun and I are not married yet, and we still have a long way to go together. I am not reconciled and do not want to get sick.
At that moment, I felt very sad and helpless.
Because there is no second time in my life, once I lose the ability to perceive this world, I will fall into a long sleep, just like sand, gravel and soil.
When it’s night, Mr. Ling must let me go home.
He and I were isolated in two places by a brightly-lit street. There was a torrent of people coming and going, and Ying Yingchuo showed Ling Jun’s face.
As always, he smiled gently, and whispered to me: “Go home, see you tomorrow.”
I raised my hand hesitantly, turned around, and left alone.
After this dream, I woke up immediately. My back was sweaty, maybe the nightmare was too real, and I subconsciously reached out and touched my right eye again—fortunately, nothing happened, and I let out a big sigh of relief.
【186】
Tell me something that I think is amazing.
It turns out that the distress in the novel is not fake. As long as I have a conflict with Ling Jun, there will be physical pain-from the heart to the lower abdomen, that part of the muscles shrinks, and the needle is stinging.
It’s the same with Lingjun, as long as he feels sad because of emotional matters, he will feel pain.
Sometimes, this feeling is uncomfortable. In order to avoid it, I will communicate with Lingjun, chat, and make peace. Then the strange distress disappeared, and it was amazing to think about it.
I am greedy, and sometimes I want to eat but dare not speak. One is that it hurts the stomach, and the other is that he doesn’t want to waste Lingjun’s money, because he usually does not work easily. He works in a department store or is a part-time job as a porter in an Italian fruit factory. It takes only six or seven to work for an hour. Euros, and a meal for one person costs more than ten Euros.
He has to save money to study, tuition, and daily expenses.
At the end of get out of class, Ling Jun suddenly asked me: “Did you want to eat sushi in class?”
I looked at him in surprise, “How did you know?”
“I thought about it at twelve?”
“…” I was shocked.
Mr. Ling explained: “During class, the word’sushi’ suddenly flashed in my mind. I guess it must be you who want to eat it.”
I was stunned. Is this the legendary heart that makes sense?
I whispered: “But I still don’t eat anymore. I think you have to save money, otherwise what will you do in the second half of the year?”
Ling Jun laughed and rubbed my head, “Eat if you want. The money is spent. If the money is spent and you are happy, then it is worth the money. In terms of studies, I will find a way. do not worry.”
“It’s better to go home and eat.” I moved a little, but hesitated.
“Eat, a rare opportunity.”
“Okay then!” I was very happy, and Ling Jun saw that I was in a better mood, and he was also very happy.
【187】
The Italians are a bit “worshiping foreigners”.
Last time they discussed where to travel, they were enthusiastic about it.
In the end, a classmate settled in one fell swoop and said: “It’s good to go anywhere, Germany, France, Spain, as long as it is not a domestic Italian city!”
“Seconded!”
“Seconded!”
I:”……”
Okay, applause. You have reached a consensus, and I am proud of you.
【188】
Recently I have a lot of homework. I asked Mr. Ling: “Other couples play apron PLAY and maid games. Do you want to play teacher-student PLAY?”
Ling Jun is noncommittal.
I smiled and patted all the homework on his desk, “Then, the game starts. If you don’t help me finish the homework, we will break up!”
It seems to be very confident, but obviously, Mr. Ling will not help me…
【189】
Sometimes the mood is inexplicably bad, and Ling Jun will try to coax me: “Don’t be unhappy, eat an ice cream, and be happy?”
Just kidding, am I the kind of person who is tempted by food?
“How about cooking fried chicken for you?”
I hate this kind of behavior of using food to entice others to subdue. I acted myself, thinking that people all over the world are like him!
“I can’t eat more sushi tomorrow!”
“Well, that’s it.” I said cheerfully.
“…” Ling Jun was silent.
【190】
Generally, it is customary for girls in China to go to the toilet in groups, and so do I.
Me: “I want to go to the toilet and pee.”
Ling Jun didn’t look up, “Go.”
“I’m so anxious,” I stomped on the spot, “You accompany me!”
“…”
【191】
Mr. Zero wants to play Dota, but he is stuck, so he can only play LOL.
They are all foreigners, but they also have unique ways of identifying Chinese.
The general foreigners laugh: “hahahah.” And the Chinese are: “hehe.”
【192】
In the past, Ling Jun always deliberately wanted me to make more friends, so I would have the courage to chat with girls who are also in Italy on WeChat.
He: “Chat with her, you can ask at will. Chat first to get closer. For example, ask where she is from?”
I was embarrassed, “But it is written in her profile, she is from Lishui City, Zhejiang Province.”
“…” Very good, but also lacking temper.
The author has something to say: I have a temper with Mr. Ling… I don’t want to bother him…
Today I broke up with the CP who wrote the article together…Is there any Jinjiang author sister who hooked up with me…