Let Me Pursue You - Chapter 118
For a moment, Lu Shiqing felt as if he caught something in her eyes. But she walked in a hurry, he didn’t see clearly, he stood there in a daze for a while, then turned to take care of Zheng Zhuo.
Zheng Zhuo has only been depressed for two days, no matter what the inside is, at least later, whether it is the officials under his hands or the political opponents, no one notices that something is wrong with him.
Only Lu Shiqing knew that he acted a lot more ruthlessly than before, and he might have been merciful, but at that time he kept his word and never batted an eye when he met someone who deserved to be killed.
Lu Shiqing knew that he wanted to quickly deal with the Jiang family, even the saints, but most of the time, acting too hastily was like a death talisman, urging the lives of others as well as his own.
As a result, he gradually had differences with him on government affairs and planning.
Fortunately, there is Yuan Cixian. Although the Yuan family was planning to plan and pretended to have a stalemate with Zheng Zhuo, she did not really stay away from the court, probably after hearing about a few political affairs, she held the same idea as Lu Shiqing, and contacted him after several times, saying that she wanted to go to the prince again. The government meets Zheng Zhuo.
Was Zheng Zhuo completely blinded by hatred? After being advised by him and Yuan Cixian, because of another rash advance, a hidden stake was exposed, and he gradually became conservative in making decisions.
However, after acting conservatively for the sake of the overall situation, the Jiang family became more reckless. After a month or so, they found Zheng Zhuo in a panic and said that Jiang Bican was pregnant.
The matter has come to this point, there is no way to slow down the army, Zheng Zhuo endured the idea of killing Jiang Bican and marrying her. Then a courtyard was set up in the mansion, and people were stuffed in, without touching a single hair of her from the beginning to the end, and they didn’t even care who the child in her belly belonged to.
The prince’s mansion has added a mistress, even if the prince’s concubine is neglected again, Yuan Cixian can’t go there again openly. So there was another matter to discuss, and Lu Shiqing arranged for her and Zheng Zhuo to come to Xu’s house.
For a while, the three of them seemed to have returned to the beginning, meeting around a stone table to read secret reports, official documents, and draw maps.
But it’s just as if.
The atmosphere in Xu’s house is getting weirder day by day.
If it was not necessary, Zheng Zhuo hardly took the initiative to talk to Yuan Cixian. It was cold, and seeing that she was wearing less clothes, he even asked Lu Shiqing to ask her to add more clothes.
Lu Shiqing asked him why.
He said he had no face. Regardless of whether it is calculated or not, when you marry, you are married.
Lu Shiqing listened to him, and took care of Yuan Cixian’s affairs, and prepared food for her when it was lunch time, and occasionally sent her home when it got darker.
Her preference, because he collected information for Zheng Zhuo before, he accidentally remembered everything. It’s just that his concern was based on Zheng Zhuo’s entrustment, as if he was orderly arranging government affairs, but he didn’t seem to pay attention to it, but he responded with four words: neither salty nor salty.
Yuan Cixian didn’t express too much emotion on this matter. He was nice to her, and she accepted it, and she didn’t look happy or unhappy after accepting it.
From Lu Shiqing’s point of view at that time, her attitude towards him probably resembled four words: no pain, no itching.
After a stable period of time, one day after winter, he received a secret report from the Uyghur side reminding the Turks of the changes. After analyzing the situation, he suspected that King Ping and the Turks were in collusion, and planned to unite to attack the court in the near future.
Under the serious situation, he immediately contacted several courtiers for urgent discussion.
A few days later at night, Yuan Cixian and Yuan Yu came forward on behalf of Yuan Yizhi, under the pretext of narrating wine, to test the attitude of several neutral generals in Beijing, to see where they would fall if a war broke out. It was inappropriate for Zheng Zhuo to show up, so that night, Lu Shiqing faked his identity and went with them.
It was a little late after the banquet, and when Lu Shiqing and his brother and sister came out of the restaurant, they encountered a few stalkers. Under the circumstances, they used a trick to cover their eyes, and the two maidservants beside Yuan Cixian got into a carriage and left first. The eyes of the spies, and then told several generals to leave separately.
But after covering the most important generals, another group of spies came.
What Yuan Cixian meant was that her elder brother’s identity was more sensitive, so she covered him first, and then arranged for a dancer to ask Yuan Yu to leave the restaurant pretending to be having fun.
She waited until late at night and it was safe on all sides before she and Lu Shiqing took the last carriage back home.
When Lu Shiqing used to say that he would take her home, he just followed her carriage with another carriage, but that night was the first time that he was forced to ride with her due to the situation.
In his memory, no one spoke at first, but after a while, he heard his opponent Yuan Cixian suddenly ask: “If war does break out, His Highness will undoubtedly stay in Beijing, will Minister Lu go back to stabilize the situation?”
It is easy for her and him to think of going together in terms of strategy, and what she said happened to be his recent consideration, so he nodded and answered, “It should be.”
She lowered her eyes slightly and said nothing, then raised her head again after a while, and said with a smile: “If this battle can be won, there will be peace in all directions, and there will be no more disputes in the world. What do you want to do?”
He looked at her, thought for a while and said truthfully, “Retire.”
She looked at him and smiled.
This smile made him unable to help asking: “Where is the county lord?” She propped her cheeks, tilted her head to look at him, and said the same three words: “Retire.”
At that moment, his ears were itchy like being brushed by a feather, and even his heart trembled densely.
He almost wanted to ask her, who would she go into hiding with? But the moment he opened his mouth, it was a sudden stop, and he restrained himself.
Probably seeing that something was wrong with him, she asked him what was wrong.
He couldn’t find a suitable excuse for a while, and used the three most unbelievable words in the world: “Nothing.”
Yuan Cixian didn’t ask any more questions, just smiled.
Along the way, there was no sound in the car, and he looked straight ahead quietly, until he saw her leaning on the table crookedly and fell asleep, while the road was under a pothole, the car was unstable, bumpy, and her whole body fell to the ground. Hit the wall.
He reacted very quickly, almost subconsciously, and stood up to block her, causing her to fall on top of him.
He stopped breathing for a moment.
But Yuan Cixian didn’t seem to wake up at all, she closed her eyes and continued to sleep in his arms.
The candlelight in the car was dim, and he lowered his head stiffly, looking at her full waist, her slender and delicate neck, her soft side face, and her thick eyelashes.
His body became more and more stiff, but a raging fire burst out inside, burning all the veins in his body at once.
He couldn’t help stretching out his hand to help her carefully pin a few strands of messy hair behind her ears.
When his fingertips touched her cool face, he couldn’t move away like a demon, and gently rubbed her ear with his fingertips.
Then he forced himself to withdraw his hand, turned his head and closed his eyes to stop looking at her.
For a long time, he had been unwilling to face up to the answer, which he had been hesitant to avoid, but finally hit his heart hard at this moment.
He fell in love with Yuan Cixian.
And probably not after she and Zheng Zhuo broke off the engagement.
But as early as when she was still a fiancee, he had this ridiculous idea.
All his inexplicable irritability, all his evasive forbearance, all his indifferent hypocrisy are all because he is so guilty that even if he approaches, takes the initiative, or crosses the line, he feels it is a betrayal of Zheng Zhuo.
The carriage stopped, and Yuan Mansion arrived at the side door.
He straightened her up lightly, then clenched his fists and gritted his teeth to leave. Just as he was about to get up, he was surrounded by a pair of jade arms from back to front.
He turned around in astonishment, and saw Yuan Cixian with her eyes closed, her cheek pressed against his back, and she didn’t say anything.
He didn’t know when she woke up, or if she was completely awake, so he restrained himself and asked, “Master?”
The word “county master” made her slowly open her eyes.
He seemed a little confused when she opened her eyes. He raised his head and saw him, withdrew his hand suddenly, and said, “I’m sorry, Minister Lu, I didn’t wake up, and I recognized the wrong person.”
Mistake. Then there should be the right person.
It must be Zheng Zhuo. he thought.
That’s right, in the past nights like this, Zheng Zhuo should have shared the ride with her.
He controlled his expression and tried his best to say calmly: “It’s okay.”
Lu Shiqing never thought at that time that this sentence of “I’m sorry” and “It’s okay” became the last conversation between him and her in their lives.
The situation in the court changed, and war broke out. King Ping led his troops to the north, the Turks invaded the Uighurs, and Nanzhao stepped in.
He went to Uighur, and when he left, he didn’t even say “protect her” to Zheng Zhuo.
He felt unqualified, superfluous, and unnecessary. Without his words, Zheng Zhuo would have done the same thing, but he didn’t expect that he thought he was righteous and awe-inspiring to leave, but he made a mistake that could never be made up for.
The situation in the capital turned around, the old emperor killed the donkey, and the courtiers accused the Yuan family of rebellion. Zheng Zhuo was forced to choose to draw his salary from the bottom of the pot, acted out a scene of turning against the Yuan family, and then “killed” Yuan Yizhi in front of everyone. He Yuanyu secretly sent them out of Beijing to recuperate in private.
However, the old emperor had doubts in his heart, and he really watched Zheng Zhuo’s actions too closely. He failed to send them away. Yuan Yizhi and Yuan Yu were shot dead on the spot by the pursuers. Afterwards, Yuan Cixian and her sister-in-law and mother were imprisoned together.
Zheng Zhuo finally risked his life to rescue them, but he didn’t expect that Jiang Birou was a cancer that had been hiding in the Yuan family for many years.
This woman already had a deep grudge with Yuan Cixian, and with the death of all the men in the Yuan family, it is not surprising that she would choose to seek refuge with the emperor instead of going on the road of exile.
When Lu Shiqing got the news, he drove thousands of miles back, it was too late.
Like a hero, he saved Uighur and the world, but he didn’t save her.
It’s almost ironic like a joke.
In the cold wind and bitter rain, Lu Shiqing leaned against the bridge railing and rested for a while, finally stood up on his elbows, and walked slowly into Chang’an City with the note in his palm.
Two years later, Lu Shiqing, who was then the Minister of Zhongshu, launched a palace coup, forcing Emperor Huining to abdicate as the Supreme Emperor, and supported the thirteenth prince Zheng Hong to ascend the throne.
Seven days after the enthronement ceremony, at night, Lu Shiqing sat in the secret passage of the Xu residence, wiping a tombstone with a silk handkerchief.
Cao An was beside him.
His hand holding the handkerchief was too thin, and at first glance, he looked haggard as if he was seventy or eighty years old. It seems that if you pinch it with a little force, the finger can be broken.
Cao An knew that he was suffering. In the past two years, the head of Lancang County left first, and soon after, the sixth prince also died in the hands of the old emperor. He has nothing left, and he has survived to this day thanks to his determination to revenge and his belief in serving the country and the people.
Cao An said to go and have a rest, don’t wipe it, but he didn’t listen.
Lu Shiqing wiped it stubbornly, not knowing where the dust was.
When it was almost dawn, he got up, picked up a letter that had been placed in front of the monument, and said: “Go and present it to Your Majesty, and ask him to vindicate the Yuan family.”
His voice sounded ethereal and powerless. Cao An panicked and asked him, “How about you, sir? Your Majesty has just promoted you to Zhongshuling. Aren’t you going to court today?”
Lu Shiqing didn’t answer, and staggered towards the entrance of the secret passage, before he could walk up the stairs, he fell to the ground with a “boom”, vomiting a big mouthful of scarlet blood.
“Lang Jun!” Cao An hurried up to help him.
Lu Shiqing sat up with his strength, wiped the blood from the corner of his lower lip, smiled faintly, and answered him now: “Cao An, I won’t go to court anymore, I want to rest.”
How could Cao An not understand this situation, burst into tears instantly, but couldn’t say a word.
Lang Jun is too bitter, too bitter. He should be freed.
Cao An saw him stretch out his hand with difficulty, and took out a note from his sleeve with difficulty.
He choked with sobs and asked: “Lang Jun, what is this, do you want the villain to give it to someone for you?”
Lu Shiqing shook his head and said with a smile: “This is mine, don’t give it to others.”
Cao An said yes, don’t give it to others, then looked down at the note in his hand.
The paper is already a little yellowed, and there are two short lines of beautiful handwriting on it: When I find you in the next life, you should make up your mind early.
Following his gaze, Lu Shiqing also looked down at the line, then slowly closed his eyes, curled his lips, and said, “Okay.”