Love Untangled - Chapter 134

Jasmine

There is so much light. Everything was serene and I felt completely peaceful. Jaya and Jacob were playing in an apple tree. The sun shined down upon my face as I was laying in the soft grass.

“Mama, mama… Do you want an apple?” Jacob asked, as he was filling his basket. “They taste so sweet mama.” Jaya said. “Mhhh, really? Just as sweet as the both of you?” I smiled.

They both climbed down the tree and ran towards where I was. Both of them flew into my arms with a big thud. I kissed there sweet blond curly heads. “Mama, you must not go away.” Jaya whispered in my ear.

“I will never leave you.” I told them as, one by one, kissed their cheeks. “I will love you forever.” I said.

“Mama, that is not true.” Jabob said. “You are leaving mama… I can feel it.” He said. “No, I am not.” I said as I tickled them both. How wonderful it was to hear them giggle. It was the most sweet sound in the universe.

They both took one of my hands. “Don’t let us go mama…” My children said both at the same time.

“I will never let you go my beloved ones.” I told them. “But mama… when you will…” Jacob said looking up to me with his big hazel eyes. He looked just like his father. Although they both had my hair.

“I will not…” I muttered. Jaya took my index finger and brought it to my mouth. She was hushing and I smiled against her finger.

“Mama… When you will… ” He began again. I let him speak this time. “Please know that we will be happy here.” He said. I frowned. I did not understand what he meant. “We will not be alone mama…” He continued.

“Look, it is grandma…” My daughter said pointing towards behind the tree. I did not see what she meant. “It is grandma mama.. see.. don’t you see?” Jacob said. I looked again and then there she was.

She was wearing a white robe and I picked my children up and ran towards her. “Grandma, grandma, will you stay with us now that mama is leaving?” Jaya asked. My mother nodded. I realized that I looked like here.

I always felt like I looked out of the ordinary, and I realized we were like spitting image. “Mom, what are you doing here?” I asked her.

She look at me with her huge cat-like green eyes and smiled. “I am taking them, because you have to go back.” She said.

“It is not your time yet.” She told. “I am not going anywhere without them.” I said unsure of what she meant. “They will come with me.” She insisted. “But you have to go!” She said.

Jaya hung around my neck. “Mama, I love you mama. When it is your time, will you come and find?” She asked as she touched my face. “We can dance with the stars.” She cheered.

“Jaya, I love you Jaya.” I cried. Somewhere, far away I heard Benjamin calling me. “See mama… Daddy needs you to come back.” Jacob said. “No.” is said in refusal. “I will stay with you.”

“Jasmine.” My mom whispered as she cupped my face. “You need to go back. Let go.” She said.

“No!” I said and held my children. “Mama… We will always be with you, even though you can not see us.” Jacob said. “We will be with you wherever you go. Don’t be scared mama.” He said. His green eyes lit up like the sun.

“Jasmine! Jasmine baby I can not live without you Jasmine please. Please come back to me.” Benjamin’s cry became louder.

“Jasmine let go.” My mother said.

“I will never ever let them go.” I said as I hugged both of my children close to my chest.

“Habibieeeeeeeee, habibieeeeeee, Darling please…. Habibieeee come back! Come back!” He roared in agony.

Benjamin

Suddenly her heart picked up a beat. *Beep, beep, beep* Her heart sounded steady again and everyone that was in the plane cheered.

Everything within my trembled. My whole body felt cold. Tears flowed down like a water fall. I kissed every inch of my wife’s hand.

“Habibie.” I said, my voice sounded raw with emotion. “Habibie. Your back. Your back.” I whispered. “Your back.” I cried.

Saphira

We were up in the air with many more people then we started with. My mom and Benjamin’s dad were thick as thieves. Benjamin’s mom sat in a char with some knitwear. Benjamin’s younger brothers were playing a videogame on the big screen and Lynn and Sierra were having a facial massage. My grandma was sleeping and Sierra…  My grandfather was reading a newspaper as usual.

Zachary was brought home. Benjamin’s agents said that they were not at any risk. Zach was not okay with leaving me. In the end, I did not find it a bad thing that we were apart for a while because it gave me some time to think through what it was that I wanted.

It was not that I did not love him. I did. I loved him with my whole heart. But the thing is that I would never love him as much as I loved Benjamin. It was not a switch that I could turn on and off.

It was a switch that was only turned on because of Benjamin in the first place. When I thought of him, I saw my future. I did not care that he had became a king.

I loved him beyond any reason. Like he had once said, we had fallen in love. It was not something we planned to do. But it happened never the less. I loved him. I will always love him.

I did not care that he had a wife now. It was me he belonged with. Maybe he does not see that now, because you know… Benjamin is a good guy. He never wanted to have more then one wife. So I get that he is trying to make the best of this marriage.

He wanted me. I knew that. I clinged to that.

Benjamin.

“Her brain activity is increasing.” The female doctor said. “She is waking up?” I asked. “Yes.” She said. “We are going to turn her around again.” She said. A few nurses helped her turn Jasmine on her back again.

“But How?” I asked. My eyes burned and my throat felt dry. “We don’t know.” The doctor whispered.

It took a while… but there she was. Very slowly, I saw that she blinked a few times! My heart, my heart almost stopped.

“Honey…” Wake up… I am here waiting for you.” I said. “I will never let you go, if you please just wake up.” I said again.

Jasmine looked like she was suffocating and like she was throwing up. “Shhh, love. Shhh…. Hold still… you need those tubes to breath.” I told her, while she was trying to take the tubes out of her nose and throat.

“”Mhh MHH mhhhhhhh.” She said in what seemed like grieve. “Her lungs are working.” The doctor mumbled. “I really do not understand.” She said. “We need to do some tests.” She said while looking at the male doctor.

Jasmine tried to free herself from the tubed again. She was trying to pull them out. I looked at the doctors and they seemed to contemplate on what they should do now.

“Jacob, Jaya! No, no, no, no.” Jasmin suddenly cried out. The whole room was silent, while we all felt the pain radiating off of her. Jasmin’s eyes flew open.

She held her stomach and made the most excruciation sound I have ever heard. She sounded like a wounded animal.

I tried to touch her, in order to calm her down, but she kept crying animal like with very loud sobs. It seemed to come out of the pit of her stomach. The hairs on my arm seemed to stand up straight from the sound.

“Shhh… Habibie… Shhhh… It will be okay.” I said trying to calm her down. “Shh…. Honey please… I am here…” I tried again. The male doctor took over from me and tried to get through to her.

“Jasmine, your lungs have been damaged in the fire. Although I am happy that your lungs are working enough to make this sounds, you need to calm down.” He told her.

“Do you remember the fire?” He asked her. Jasmine did not respond to his question and kept crying.

The female doctor took over this time. She went to sit on the edge of the bed. “Jasmine.” She said as she tried to free her face from all over those blond curls. Jasmine wildly, hit the doctors hand away.

Both doctors looked at each other and they nodded. The male doctor was preparing something and then attached it to her drip, so that it immediately went into her bloodstream.

A few seconds past and she was out again.