Love Untangled - Chapter 149

Benjamin

“Evangeline, we were always on the beach.” I said reminiscing. We had such an easy time together…

“I was laying in your arms..” She went on. “Like always.” I added. She smiled. “Don’t blame me, I feel at home in your arms.” She said looking into my eyes.

I broke off the connection, because it became too much and scraped my throat. “I mean.. that day when you told me that you were going on an exchange.” She said meaningfully. I had told her we needed some space, because I had such a hard time controling my hunger for her.

Her face fell again. I remembered that… “My grandfather told me that he wanted me to finish the semester here.” I told her, gazing into her eyes. “Weren’t you ever going to tell me?” She asked. I knew she meant my identity.

“I was… I was going to ask you to marry me by the end of semester.” I admitted. “Around this time..” She sharply breathed out, realization hitting her with a blow.

“Mhh…” I mumbled.

“And it was her name you spoke that time I called you… were the two of you together then?” She asked.

I shook my head. “Of course not.” I felt a bit… I don’t know. “Do not be this ridiculous.” I told her. “It was not like that.” I said cupping her face.

“Then what was it like?” She pressed. I sighed. “I had asked my grandfather if we could do anything about her situation. I knew that she was being abused by her brother in-law.” I said thinking of what the doctor told me today. Even my grandfather made the same assumption. Was she raped by him?

Saphira was silent, just listing to me.

“I uhm… I needed her out of that house and my grandfather offered to marry her, if I did not want her instead.” I had a hard time speaking these words.

“Why didn’t you let him?” Saphira offered. She blew my mind by saying this. “You wanted me to let her marry an 80 year old man?!” I said shocked.

“I guess not.” She raised her shoulders… “Besides…” I said remembering my grandfather ask me the most important question of all. “He asked me if I had feelings for her myself and at the time, I did not want to admit that I had…” My voice became thick.

“Because I had found you.” I said touching the tip of her nose. I closed my eyes. “But never the less Saphira. It was entirely true. I loved her, even then.” She needed to hear this. I did not want to lie to her.

“Saph, I would not have been a good husband to you..” I continued. “I would of longed for her all along. She has me in ways I can not describe.” I declared.

“I know what you are saying.” She said stubbornly again. “It is the same way that you have me.” She said meaningfully.

“We should not be talking to each other in this way.” I told her. “I am taking her on the honeymoon I promised her and that is that. I will arrange safety measures for your house and life meanwhile.” I thought out loud.

Saphira folded her arms against her chest. I did it again. I hurt her. “One day, when our love will become untangled, you will regret the choices you have made so far.” She said boldly.

Would I regret my decisions for Jasmine? I thought not. “I am sorry I have caused you so much pain.” I spoke in her ear. I felt her body shiver. It was a bad call on my part. My breathing spiked involuntarily.

Saphira knotted her hands in my hair again and pulled me closer. “I can’t… because I do know I will regret doing this.” I declared.

“When her spell on you wears off, it the memory of my lips that will guide you back to sanity.” She spoke and then pressed her lips against mine. “You taste so good.” She smiled against my lips.

I groaned. I could not find it in me to kiss her back. I swiftly pulled away and kissed her cheek.

“Goodbye.” I said and then stormed out of my office.

I did not really know where I was going. I walked to the throne room and went to sit on my chair. I let my head back against the golden frame and closed my eyes.

I was the worst of the worst. I did not deserve any of them. I was exactly what I hated in men and felt disgusted by myself.

Saphira

“Where were you?” Mom asked. “With Benjamin, in his office.” I said not sugarcoating it. “This whole time?” My mother frowned disapprovingly.

“No.”

“I was with his cousin Malik before that.” I said sheepishly. “Malik… and who is that?” She asked me. “One of his male cousin’s, I do not really think that they are close though.” I thought about how he spoke of Benjamin the entire time.

“I like him already.” My mother smiled. “What?!” My mom said raising the palms of her hands. “I hate his guts and you know that. It is not something I am hiding from you.” She smiled.

“Sometimes you could be a little bit more subtle.” I said correcting her, like she was my child and not the other way around.

“About not being subtle… What is going on between you and Ben’s dad?” I asked.

“Nothing.” My mom immediately went up the fence.

“I think you love him.” I blurted out. My mom looked furious. “He is married.” My mom said shocked. “”Yeah… well exactly!” I said smug. She was such a hypocrite sometimes.

“I don’t know what you are implying here, but cut it out right now!” My mom said defensively.

“Come on… I know that you were supposed to marry him and that he was your boyfriend before it all… isn’t that why you dislike Benjamin so much?!” I eyed her.

“Our situations seem exactly alike, but in a way reversed.” I thought to myself.. While Benjamin’s dad always seemed to pine for my mom… Benjamin pined for Jasmine.