Love You Is My Fault - Chapter 320

Her strong and independent, always can deeply attract him.

She is different from other girls at all. She is the most special and attractive.

Eli sits in the car, thinking about all kinds of Chu Jinran.

The car soon came to Chu Jinran’s house. Eli arranged his clothes and went upstairs.

In the room, Lu chennian has just left. Chu Jinran sits on the carpet with empty eyes. She feels sad in her heart. Inexplicably, she really wants to cry. After Lu chennian really leaves, she feels sad instead.

The sudden thump from the door interrupted her confused thoughts.

Chu Jinran raised his head. Did Lu chennian come back? Is he not going?

Her eyes are filled with joy. Chu Jinran has not yet reflected what she is doing. She has already run to the door and pulled the door open, expecting to see the familiar figure outside.

Even the footstep is hasty, step by step, Chu Jinran runs to the door.

Inexplicably, she regretted her cold attitude towards Lu chennian. She really wanted to see him, but because she was afraid of being hurt, she could only push him out all the time.

As if time is slowing down, like slow motion, the distance from the living room to the door seems to be getting longer and longer, with no end.

The door “squeak” opens, Chu Jinran looks at the door expectantly, suddenly, the light in the eyes goes out.

Outside, a man stood there.

His white shirt is clean, and he looks like a young college student in jeans, as if his bones are full of the smell of youth.

The man’s stature is tall and straight, straight back, slender, his eyebrows are deep, beautiful and clean, like the big brother next door, as if his eyes are fresh and beautiful iris.

This man is really good-looking, but not the one she expected to see.

Chu Jinran in the eyes obviously disappointed let Yi Lai Leng for a while, in the heart suddenly seemed to be pricked by a needle the same pain for a while.

His mood was obviously not as high as it had just been. “You Who are you waiting for? ”

Chu Jin ran Leng for a while, isn’t she just lost performance some obvious, isn’t not too polite.

She looked embarrassed. “No, Eli, long time no see. You’re back. Haven’t you been busy lately?” She subtly changed the subject.

Eli nodded, “yes, I’ve finished all my work. I finally have some free time. I want to come to see you and see if you are well after I return home.”

Chu Jinran is a little depressed. Eli can see it, but he doesn’t point it out. After all, some things can’t be too straightforward.

Chu Jinran pretended to be very good and said: “I’ve been very good recently. You can see that I’m doing well. By the way, why do we stand at the door and chat? Come in and sit down. Look at me. I’ve forgotten. ” Chu Jin ran some embarrassed of say.

Eli smiles and enters the door. “The only one?” He wanted to see how old the child was now. The last time he left, the child was still a little baby and would only stay in the arms of adults, blinking a pair of big eyes. He looked very cute.

Yi Lai remembers that the child’s eyes are very similar to Chu Jinran’s, almost carved in one mold.

No sooner had Eli entered the living room than he saw the only one sitting on the carpet playing with toys.

The only one raised his head and looked at Eli. He was stunned for a moment. Then he showed a lovely smile, which seemed to warm people’s heart. He said with a small milk voice: “Uncle…”

Eli opened his eyes wide and looked at the only child, who could talk now? So fast, the last time he left, he couldn’t say a word.

“So fast, the only one can speak now.” Said Eli.

Chu Jinran nodded, “yes, time flies. In a flash, she has been in France for more than two years.”

From the initial helplessness and confusion to the present adaptation and calm, her life in the past two years is like a dream.

At the beginning, she was really confused. With a big stomach, she came to this strange city, strange country. Everything was unfamiliar. All people and things started all over again. There was only one person around her.

If yu Beibei hadn’t taken care of her all the time, she would not have been able to live.

At that time, she was really fragile, with scars all over her body, just like a snail wrapped up with bruises.

Hiding in their own small shell, full of fear of the outside world, just want to stay in their own small room, never come out.

She once thought that she would never be able to adapt to life in France. After all, this is not a familiar place. It is a strange country. She even thought that she would never like this place.

But gradually familiar with the place, she really began to adapt to the life here.

She found that, in fact, life here, really, is not bad.Even, France is a very comfortable country. Compared with China, the pace of life in this country is really much slower.

This is a place full of artistic atmosphere. There are street musicians who love music everywhere. They have some positive and optimistic hearts.

In fact, the city is really romantic, she slowly began to adapt, and even like the city.

Then she found out that she was not as vulnerable as she thought.

In fact, she can live a good life alone, she can also have no love, without Lu chennian, her life is not much different except lonely, in fact, she is not an independent woman, just long-term dependence on Lu chennian, let her lose herself.

She understood that girls must be independent.

Because in this world, you can only rely on yourself.

In this world, the most vulnerable is love. At the beginning, she naively thought that love was the most important and beautiful thing in the world. She naively thought that she would live happily with Lu chennian for the rest of her life.

But she found that she really thought wrong, no one can be too dependent on who, because no one can always be with him.

When she was a child, her mother was the most important person in the world.

But in the end, the disease mercilessly destroyed her mother, let her collapse in her world.

She felt the pain of loss for the first time.

Later, she thought that she lost her mother and could still rely on her father, because her father was the only relative in the world, and her father would accompany her well.

But she was wrong again. Her father didn’t want to accompany her. He and the woman beside him just wanted to get the inheritance of grandparents.

They took her in just to fight for the money that her grandparents and mother left her.

Those days in her father’s house were almost the most difficult in her whole life.

Stepmother often scolds her, she wants to take care of all the work at home, every day she has to finish the housework, and then do homework, and do not do well will be scolded.

For the first time, she realized the feeling of powerlessness. Dad was like a stranger. In this family, he had no feelings for her.

Although he didn’t bully her like his stepmother, she didn’t stop her.

It was the second time she had experienced despair.

It turned out that she always thought that the people who could accompany her could not accompany her in the end.

She understands that there is too much loneliness in this world. If she wants to live beautiful and happy, she can only make her sunshine, so as to dispel the haze in her heart.

So, she tried to make herself strong, to make her face full of smile every day, to make herself full of strength all the time.

She doesn’t want to drift with life like everyone else.

She didn’t want to disappoint her mother.

Before I left, my mother once said that I must be a strong person. No matter what happens, I must face life with a smile.

She knows that even if it’s just for her mother, she must be strong.

Her childhood and adolescence were almost spent in countless sorrows.

Later, she met Lu chennian. She thought that this time, she really met someone who could accompany her for a lifetime. She thought that she could finally live without loneliness. She finally had someone who could accompany her and share her life.

However, she found that she was still too naive.

She always thought that the man who loved her deeply and would accompany her forever fell in love with other women.

She was so sad that she almost gave her whole life to him. She thought he could cherish it, but she still lost.

She didn’t know what was slowly broken in a corner of her heart at that time. The strong feeling of helplessness and sadness made her have no strength to think and don’t want to think.

She can only be embarrassed to pick up her last little bit of pride, trying not to be too embarrassed.

She left, with her and Lu chennian’s children, with this unknown secret, left.

Three times injured, three times painful, she finally understood, in this world, no one can always accompany in whose side, she has no way to rely on any one person, can rely on, only oneself.

Chu Jinran fell into deep memories. She suddenly thought of Lu chennian again. He suddenly appeared in Paris to find her.

She does not know why, he will suddenly appear, in her left him two years later, she will not be silly to believe that he loves her.

Because if he didn’t want to see her, why didn’t he come after her when she left? It has been two years since he appeared. If he loves her, why didn’t he come to her earlier?

Chu Jinran doesn’t understand, also don’t want to let oneself understand, why should pursue so much? She was totally disappointed with him, so she didn’t have to think about him any more.She can’t be as standoffish as she was before.

No matter how sweet Lu chennian talks, she must not be fooled.

She had fallen once in their relationship, and she could not let herself fall a second time in the same place.