Love You Is My Fault - Chapter 322

Eli looked up at her in shock. She said he had come to see her. She meant Lu chennian

Eli was stunned for a long time before he said: “yes Is Lu chennian here? ”

Chu Jinran nodded and laughed bitterly, “yes, he came to me.”

Eli looks at her. Lu chennian’s appearance is really sudden. Why did he come to France to find her? Did he change his mind to save her?

He looks at Chu Jinran heavy facial expression, because this matter, she should be very distressed.

No wonder this time he came to see her. She seemed to be in a bad mood. It must be because of Lu chennian. After all, Lu chennian’s position in her heart is still very important, and she still can’t bear him.

Just, this time, I don’t know what she thinks.

Vaguely, Eli feels uncomfortable because he knows that the only man Chu Jinran really loves is Lu chennian. Once Lu chennian appears, she can’t see anyone in her eyes.

What did she think? Did she decide to go back with Lu chennian?

Eli wants to ask, but he doesn’t know how to open his mouth. He knows that, after all, he is not qualified to take care of their affairs, because he is an outsider after all. Although she likes Chu Jinran very much, how can he be qualified to influence her decision if he is not her?

After struggling for a long time, he could not help but say something in his heart and asked, “then you What do you think Do you want to forgive him? ”

Chu Jinran looks at Eli. Of course, she doesn’t want to forgive her. She just thinks that if she can’t see him any more, her heart is aching, like bleeding.

She found out that she was such a contradictory person. She clearly wanted to let go, but she still kept the last little bit of extravagance in her heart. She hoped that he could change, that he and she could still have a better future, just like she was once so happy.

But she knows that she has no capital to wait for his extravagant hope, he for her, just like the distant stars in the sky, she simply can’t easily touch, he is full of stings, let her simply can’t approach, as long as a close, a will stab her heart pain.

Maybe, he is the doom she hit, is her life can not escape the fate of it, some people, destined to appear in your world, you want to hide.

Lu chennian is such an existence, his appearance let her understand what is love, what is happiness, but also let her understand what is pain, what is suffering.

He is poppy, with beautiful and attractive flowers, but addictive drugs.

He’s a poison that breaks her heart.

After falling in love with him, Chu Jinran understood for the first time what is sadness and pain. Maybe love is like this.

Whoever is serious first is the one who is injured.

Her silence makes Eli and others anxious. Eli finds that he is really a strange person. He knows that he and Chu Jinran are impossible. He knows that he doesn’t have a chance, but he still cares about her idea and her choice.

Maybe people are greedy. In the face of feelings, people always say that they are silently guarding her and watching her, but the greedy heart will erode your reason and make you want more. Slowly, just paying silently on the side can’t satisfy the greedy heart.

It’s great and selfish to love someone.

“What do you think? Will you tell me? ” Eli asked.

He was eager to know, to know everything about her, to know anything about her in detail.

Chu Jinran lowered his head, eyes is a thick sadness, her voice is like a gust of wind gently, “in fact, all the time, I have been very firm, I have already warned myself, never fall twice in the same place, at the beginning, I was injured all because of him, because I love him too much, I foolishly suffered a lot of damage.”

Chu Jinran’s eyes drooped, and she looked sad. She knew that she could not escape his curse all her life.

Even if she is not with him, she will not forget him all her life.

The name of Lu chennian has been deeply engraved in her mind. She can’t erase it. It’s like that she has branded this person deep in her bone marrow. With the flow of blood, it flows through all parts of her body, and finally converges to the heart, with faint pain.

She knew that she had no way in her life to completely remove Lu chennian from her heart.

She once thought that time is the best antidote to treat wounds. As long as she has experienced it for a long time, she will slowly forget him. Even if he has left a heavy brand in her heart, after a long time, when the wound in her heart is dry and scabby, she can face life well.

She was confident that she could really forget him.

However, when he appeared again, all her previous thoughts seemed ridiculous. Yes, her carefulness was really naive.Her confidence, her pride, all shattered at the moment of seeing him, leaving only a skeleton with a frame.

All her masks have been mercilessly exposed, her disguised self-confidence, strong, even calm, all look like a joke, deeply mocking her.

It turns out that she is really vulnerable to death. She has not been able to forget his ability. Everything is just her dream.

In love, there is no pride at all.

“I’ve decided long ago to face life again and be myself. No matter what happens, I’ll live for myself. I always thought that, and I always thought that I could do it.” Chu Jinran said.

“But I found that everything, at the moment when he appeared, was in chaos, including my life. In fact, I was the coward. I had no way to forget him or let myself come out of the sadness of love. I was a weak person, and I could only lick the wound in silence in the corner.”

She lowered her head and looked sad on her side.

The sun shines down from her dark hair, making her look peaceful and beautiful.

Eli listened so seriously, listening to her.

“Do you know, Eli? After he appeared, I should drive him out of my life decisively and without hesitation. I should be like that, I should be firm. ” Chu Jinran’s voice is very sad.

“But I find that I can’t, you know? This is the first time that I feel particularly weak and timid. I find that when I face him, I will always be a loser, a downright loser. I haven’t won from the beginning. I lost to him. ” Chu Jinran said.

Eli can feel her sadness, it’s like wisps of pain, little by little erosion of her heart, inexplicable, also let his heart began to feel uncomfortable.

“Now I can only use my few senses to push him away. No matter what, I want to push him away, but I’ve tried very hard, but why is my heart so painful?” Chu Jinran said that she really felt that she had worked hard, but why was it useless?

Eli looks at her and he understands. Chu Jinran doesn’t want to get involved with Lu chennian. Now she just wants to live a good life, but she still has feelings for him. As long as she sees him, she can’t control her heart.

Maybe it’s because of her love. Eli knows that although Chu Jinran has been hiding in France, her feelings for Lu chennian have not changed at all. On the contrary, she has been missing Lu chennian for a long time, but she doesn’t even know it.

“This kind of thing, just go along with fate, don’t force yourself too much, it will make you more tired.” Eli said softly, he didn’t want her to look so tired.

Chu Jinran sighed and said to Eli, “you don’t understand, Eli. When you fall in love with someone, as long as he appears in your sight, you can’t help but want to see him. Although you may know that controlling your emotions is the most important thing, you can’t control your heart as long as you see him.”

This kind of feeling really makes people feel that the heart doesn’t belong to them.

Eli looks at Chu Jinran. Isn’t that what he feels? He loves her silently. Although he feels that he and she will not have results, he still can’t control his feelings.

In fact, he and Chu Jinran are the same. They both suffer from love.

But, her pain can tell him, because after all, she is not because of him and pain, but his mind is not easy to tell her.

Maybe both of them are weak.

“Maybe love is like this.” Eli can only say it gently, because he has no way to deal with it, because he is also deeply involved and can’t get away.

……

The weather is a bit cool, in the north of the country, has begun to feel a little bit cold.

When I get up in the morning, I will shiver suddenly. I don’t know when the weather has been so cold. Sometimes when I go out, I will find white fog in my mouth. The weather is very cold. Time is passing by, and no one can keep it.

It’s like you can never keep someone who doesn’t love you.

Nian Shiya stood in front of the window, looking out at the window, there were originally luxuriant trees with many branches and leaves began to lose their leaves. The leaves became withered and yellow, and fell down thinly. With the wind outside, there would be countless leaves blown down by the wind. The leaves all over the sky let her know that autumn really seemed to come.

She seldom goes out, unconsciously, the weather changes so fast, but she has been imperceptible.

The whole world, at a visible speed, is turning green bit by bit into withered yellow, eroding bit by bit and becoming what autumn should be.

Just like her heart is full of sadness and loneliness.