Love You Is My Fault - Chapter 323

Lu chennian has been away for more than two months, and time seems to have passed very slowly in the past two months.

Every day when she opens her eyes, she will sigh gently, and some of them have survived the day.

She gently stroked her stomach. The baby in her stomach has been five months, and she has some feelings. She can see that her stomach has obvious slight bulge.

She is very thin, but her stomach is very obvious.

Nian Shiya lowered her head and looked at her slightly protruding stomach. She had a strange feeling in her heart. After all, this was her first pregnancy. She could obviously feel that there was a life growing crazily in her body. This feeling was very wonderful, like something was rooting crazily in her body.

That’s the taste of life.

This gives Nian Shiya a feeling that she has never had before.

For the first time, she felt as if it was the right decision for her parents to persuade her not to kill her child.

Because for the first time, she had a feeling of expectation, expecting the child to be born soon. This expectation suddenly gave her lonely life a trace of vitality.

Every day, she began to have a little look forward to, although the time is really long, but not so unbearable, there is a kind of in the bottom of my heart, there is a sense of expectation.

With expectation, life is no longer like ashes.

For the first time, she realized the feeling of being a mother.

However, such joy could not disperse the sadness in her heart.

After Lu chennian left, her life suddenly fell into a very cold feeling. Inexplicably, she felt that there was no support for her every day in her life.

After all, the most important thing for her over the years is to love him.

She has almost regarded loving him as the most important thing in her every day.

She had always forced him to stay with her, but this time, she pushed him away.

Because she knew that he didn’t have her in his heart. The love she forced would not only make him suffer, but also make him suffer. In fact, he was very good, but he didn’t love her.

Love this kind of thing, there is no way to force, no matter how deep love, as long as it is Acacia, will always be injured.

Nian Shiya knows that this time, she pushes him away and comes to Chu Jinran. He will be much happier than staying in China, and she may not be able to get the happiness she wants in her whole life.

She knew that from the beginning they had no possibility, but she had been too persistent and stubborn.

But in love, stubborn is useless, he still did not fall in love with her, she is still only one person’s pain.

In fact, she is selfish. The last time she told him about Chu Jinran, she hoped that in his heart, she would not be so unbearable.

After all, she cheated him with her children’s affairs. When she was exposed at the wedding, they all lost face. Although he didn’t seem to hate her when he came to the hospital to see her later, when he knew all the truth at the wedding, her heart was cut with a knife because of the shock and disgust.

She didn’t expect that one of his eyes would make her feel as if she had been stabbed.

When he showed that disgusting look to her, she was really sad. At that moment, she really regretted, regretted many things she had done. When he felt disgusted with her, she was really hurt.

That look in her eyes, she was sure that she could never forget, that kind of feeling like being stabbed by a knife.

In fact, if you go back to the beginning, she should not fall in love with him, so that there will be no pain behind, and there will be no persistence of her for so many years. Maybe they can become good friends instead of being like now.

In fact, she knows that the relationship between them is really embarrassing.

In Lu chennian’s heart, she must be a woman who is unscrupulous, resourceful and shameless.

After all, what she did is really unforgivable.

However, she really doesn’t want him to hate her. After all, she really loves him and doesn’t want the man she loves to hate herself, so she will be very sad.

So, she finally told him that she had always made a misunderstanding to separate them. She admitted her previous behavior. She knew that it might make him hate her more, or even make him angry, but she was willing to do something for him.

He hates her anyway, doesn’t he?

If her words, can let him recover Chu Jinran, find happiness, may be in his heart, she will not so hate it.

She loved him, so this time, she chose to complete.

Now she understands that love is not just a possession. Now she knows that as long as Lu chennian is happy, it’s OK.

It’s a good thing for her to enjoy loneliness alone.

Standing in front of the window, watching the outside world yellowing bit by bit.

Nian Shiya knew that she really missed Lu chennian. She didn’t know how she spent the two months he left, but this time, though sad, though lonely, though crazy.However, it seems that without hatred and persistence, her heart relaxed a lot.

It’s good now. At least she can make it.

Suddenly, she lowered her head and looked at her stomach. There was a little life that she was pregnant with and was growing. Maybe this was the biggest dependence in her life.

She suddenly thought of her child’s father, the man named Leo, who never showed up since he ruined her wedding. In fact, she was curious about where he went. She heard that he sold the house and then disappeared.

But whatever he went, it had nothing to do with her.

From the beginning, the meeting between them was a mistake, both of which were tragedies caused by her own hands.

She wanted Lu chennian so much that she took advantage of Leo. They were supposed to be people from different worlds, so they should not have intersection at all. It was her fault that they were inexplicably connected.

However, it is wrong from the beginning. How long can it last?

So now, it’s normal for him to disappear from her life. After all, he should have disappeared. He just destroyed her wedding and then disappeared.

Nian Shiya always felt that Leo was sent by heaven to punish her.

She did so many wrong things, and God sent someone to punish her, so she met Leo.

After he appeared, her life was in a mess. She lost Lu chennian, lost the ability to get pregnant again, and had another child who shouldn’t have come.

Maybe that’s what happened to her.

I just don’t know where Leo went. Maybe he went back to Niulang shop to work. After all, the salary of the piano assistant he changed before is much less than Niulang’s.

But maybe in this lifetime, they have no chance to meet again.

Chu Jinran thought.

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Leo sits in front of the window, watching the outside world turn yellow bit by bit. He knows that autumn is coming.

After Nian Shiya was hospitalized, he disappeared. In fact, he didn’t go back to Niulang shop to work as others thought, or was secretly disposed of by Nian family as some imaginative people thought.

He just left for a while.

After meeting Nian Shiya, he began to clearly realize his inferiority. In fact, he was too incompetent. He was just a cowherd, and she was a glittering young lady. For the first time, he felt ashamed of being a cowherd.

He loves her very much, but he knows that he is not qualified to get her, because their social status is so different. If someone knows that her baby is a cowherd, she will be discussed all her life.

For the first time, he suddenly found that he couldn’t do anything for her, he couldn’t protect her, he couldn’t give her a future, he couldn’t even protect his children.

Even because of his career, he couldn’t admit to standing beside her to protect her from the wind and rain.

For the first time, he realized the cruelty of this society. No one would sympathize with such a man. He is a person at the bottom of this society. He can only work hard to make himself climb up and up again. Only when he stands in a very high position can he protect the people he wants to protect.

This is the first time that Leo clearly realizes that this society is not easy.

So, he sold his house and went to a strange city to start over. No one knew him here. No one knew that he used to be a duck. He began to work hard to make himself better. He signed up for a school with this money to learn advertising design. He wanted to learn again. He wanted to make himself outstanding.

Because he knows that if he wants to get what he wants, he must pay the corresponding price.

He never gave up Nian Shiya, because she was the first woman who made him feel excited in so many years.

But now he is not qualified to stand beside her, he can only let himself become excellent, to do her side to rely on.

He hopes that one day, when he comes back from his studies, he will have his own pride and be able to firmly and seriously tell her that from now on, he will protect her and he will always be with her.

This is what he has been dreaming about in his dream. He really wants to stand beside her and give her a happy future.

Leo hopes that Nian Shiya can wait for him. It won’t be too long. Five years, he only needs five years. He wants to prove himself and that he is not a loser. He can stand beside her and protect her and her baby. He can make her happy with his own strength.

Leo worked extra hard. He never worked so hard when he was a student.

It seems that those experiences made him grow up at the age of 25 in a flash. In the past, he was like a little child, never realizing that a person has his own responsibility in this society.

So in the old days, he spent all his time drinking and eating.But now, he seems to have grown up, he understands. If you want to get what you want, you should make yourself excellent.

He is looking forward to one day being able to become famous and give her happiness.