Love You Is My Fault - Chapter 325

He is also a person who abides by the rules, otherwise he will not enter the industry. In a short period of six months, he has a large number of regular guests.

At that time, he almost never thought that he could fall in love with her, even so deeply that his heart ached.

In fact, to be honest, those three days with her were really the happiest three days for him in recent years.

Since he was a child, he was easy to be lonely in his heart. He often felt that there was no source of emptiness, so he must cover up his emptiness with madness.

Although his life is full of money every day, he is not happy.

He often feels very lonely for no reason. Sometimes, on the dance floor of the bar, the men and women on the dance floor are dancing with their bodies, deafening music, beating light, and even the air has a restless and crazy taste. However, in such a noisy environment, he can feel really lonely.

It was an indescribable feeling.

It’s like the material in the air, which makes his heart ache inexplicably.

He didn’t know why. He had a lot of women around him every day, but he still felt empty, like an unspeakable sadness around him.

But the three days with her, this feeling completely disappeared.

Professional cowherd is to let the guests have the feeling of love, because women and men are not the same.

Men are only looking for miss to vent their desire, no one is looking for miss to enjoy the feeling of love.

But women are not the same, women find cowherd in addition to vent their desire, but also because they lack the feeling of being loved, they want to re experience the feeling of burning love.

So cowherd must let women have the happiness of love, he is a competent cowherd, he played all his romantic cells in those three days, he wanted to let her feel the feeling of love.

Ordinary women, under his romantic offensive, will fall in love with him deeply.

Once he had a guest, because he fell in love with him, even the family did not want to quarrel with her husband to divorce.

However, it seems that she was not moved by his romance in those three days, and he was the one who really fell in love and couldn’t extricate herself.

After those three days, when they were separated, he would often think of her.

At that time, although he felt strange, he didn’t pay attention to it. He thought that he was just temporary and lost his head. It would be better after a period of time.

But as time went on, he felt he was sinking deeper.

He could dream of her even in his dreams, and he missed her very much every day.

At that time, he was really flustered, because he knew that he was a cowherd, and he could not fall in love with his guest at all. Moreover, the guest was a daughter who wanted to have a good look, family background and family background.

Because this woman is not something he can afford. If it wasn’t for that deal, they might never know each other, because they are not people in the world at all.

He tried hard to stay awake, to forget her, that day, his life was decadent and crazy.

In order to erase her from his heart, he began to make himself “busy” crazily. The women around him one by one, but his heart was even more empty.

He felt that he was really crazy. When he slept with other women, he felt dirty.

He had never felt this way before. Now he began to hate his career and feel inferior because he is a cowherd.

He began to feel that he was not clean. God knows why he had such boring ideas.

He tried to let himself forget her, but the more he wanted to forget, the more he couldn’t.

He didn’t know what happened to him. He seemed to be crazy. Even in his dream, it was the woman’s face.

He began to miss the three days of their relationship crazily. For the first time, he felt that he really overestimated his self-control.

He always thought that he would not fall in love with other women casually, but he fell in love with a woman who only knew her for three days. He thought he was crazy.

But he had no way to control his emotion. The more he wanted to suppress, the more he missed her, the more turbulent the thought came out, which made his heart ache madly.

At last he couldn’t help looking for her.

Although he knew about it, he really failed.

Although he had thought before he went to her, she didn’t want to see him at all.

But at that time, his idea was very simple. He just felt that he really missed her too much. He didn’t expect anything to happen with her. He just wanted to see her and make his missing heart feel better. Even if he just had a look, he could see her.

Later, everything was out of control. The feelings in his heart were like bamboo shoots after the rain. They grew rapidly and came out from the most hidden corner of his heart, which made him panic.

Leo sits by the window sill of the dormitory, remembering quietly.He had just dreamt of her again. He dreamt that she married a rich man, who was really excellent, young and promising, rich and powerful, handsome and capable. He followed them in panic. No matter how he yelled, Nian Shiya didn’t look back at him.

The feeling of heartache in the dream was so real that he almost thought it was not a dream.

Then he woke up with a start.

He sat up from the bed and found that the bedroom was still empty. He was the only one in the room.

He had already thought about why, which he was used to, and his three roommates probably went out to have sex again.

Somehow, he felt lonely.

Just now, the feeling of heartache in his dream was so clear that he felt that his heart was about to split. The clear pain made him at a loss.

How could he have such a strange dream?

Calculate, Nian Shiya should be pregnant for five months now, she should have no energy to fall in love.

He’s really paranoid, but he’s always nervous.

Lie down again, but how can not sleep, just think of the dream scene, he felt flustered, she will really fall in love with others, then how can he do?

He suddenly felt how he had become like this? Like a little girl, I always feel insecure.

Maybe the distance is too far, heavy missing makes him feel his heart is empty.

He tossed and turned for a while without falling asleep, so he sat up and looked out of the window quietly.

In the dark, his hand gently groped, opened the drawer, inside quietly lying a packet of cigarettes.

In fact, after he went to school here, he seldom smoked, not very much. He almost never smoked. He wants to quit smoking, because smoking is for the lonely people. He has almost endured the first two months of the most serious smoking addiction, and now he has almost succeeded in quitting smoking.

Just inexplicably, in this lonely night tonight, he even wanted to smoke one.

He lit the lighter, and the light was beating, illuminating his face. Under the yellow light, his outline looked deep and beautiful.

It’s just the loneliness that twinkles in my eyes.

A little smoke, nicotine with the smoke, slowly flowing into the lungs, let his heart seems to feel a lot better for a moment.

Smoke is really a good thing, can heal the wounds in the heart.

In fact, it’s not smooth, but it can relieve the pain of the heart.

His reason is that he thinks that only lonely people need smoke to comfort them, but now he finds out that he is really lonely.

A cigarette burns out slowly like this, Leo still stands in front of the window, quietly looking out of the window.

Outside the night, quiet, night dormitory downstairs almost no one.

In fact, there are few people who go back to the dormitory to sleep at night. They have so rich nightlife that they almost go out to play.

He was a little lonely in this empty room.

In fact, he knew where his loneliness came from because of Nian Shiya, because every time he missed her, he would feel lonely.

And every time this kind of loneliness will be very clear, clear to be like a kind of venom, with the blood flowing through every nerve endings of the body, with every tiny nerve beating pain, that kind of pain infiltrates into the four limbs, the whole body seems to be full of the taste of sadness, even the blood has a feeling of sadness.

Finally, the sadness in the blood flows back to the heart, tearing in the softest part of the heart, stinging the most vulnerable part of the heart.

It happens to Leo every day.

Because he does not miss Nian Shiya every day, except when he is studying, except when he is busy, as long as he is free, he will miss her crazily.

As long as you think about her, the sadness in your blood will spring up again and be exposed to the air.

Maybe he’s too fragile. He doesn’t know how his always free and easy self can become what he is now. He often feels heartache and insecurity.

Maybe that’s what it’s like to really fall in love with someone.

How long have you not been so crazy for a woman?

He can’t remember clearly. Nian Shiya is really special. She is the only one who has opened his heart for so many years.

He has always thought that he is free and easy, there is no emotion in the world can fetter him, he has always thought that in life, he can do anything.

He always thought that he could live a carefree life all his life, but the appearance of Nian Shiya made him weak. You made him understand for the first time that he could love someone so much.

He knew it was silly, but what could he do? Love is love, he has no way to control his heart.In the quiet night, in the empty room, Leo stood alone in front of the window for a long time. His back was filled with a kind of deep sadness. Even the air was filled with the smell of sadness.

Maybe people are vulnerable when they meet love.