Love You Is My Fault - Chapter 327

It is said that a woman in love is really easy to lose herself, so she should be knocked unconscious.

Otherwise, how could she be so naive?

She can’t forget the pain of being betrayed.

It’s like the flesh on the heart is cut by a knife, making the softest part of the heart ache, and it’s like being stung by countless bees.

That kind of inexplicable pain really made her suffer.

In fact, she always felt that she was all right, but she was the only one who suffered. Of course, she hoped that her children would grow up in a healthy family and have a good childhood. She would not leave any regrets in her family in this life.

But now, she really has no way to give him a complete home.

She wants to, but she really has no ability, after all, Lu chennian is the only father, but now Lu chennian has betrayed his family, she really has no strength to forgive him.

In fact, she is the only one who owes the most in her life. She has never been eager to have a child with Lu chennian before, because she thinks that if she wants to have a child, she must be responsible for his life and take good care of her body, because it will give the child a healthy body.

We must be prepared in our own spirit and economy, so that we can give our children a better life and a happy home.

She has always felt that every child should be a little angel in the arms of her parents when they come to this world, and they should enjoy the happiness of this world.

However, the only thing for her is an unexpected existence.

When she was pregnant, she didn’t know that she had a child. Later, she decided to leave the Lu family and found that she was pregnant.

She also struggled for a long time whether to give birth to this child. She really didn’t want her child to grow up in a world with imperfect family, but she couldn’t bear to beat him directly. He didn’t have time to have a look at the world, he didn’t know what his mother looked like, and he didn’t have time to call her mother Well.

As soon as she thought of the little life in her stomach and her blood flowing in her body, her heart was beating wildly. Faintly, she was looking forward to the coming of this little life.

But he really didn’t want his child to have no father’s love. Did she really want to forgive Lu chennian because she was pregnant and continue to make do with this meaningless marriage with him?

As soon as she thought that she would live with her for a lifetime, she felt sad that she had not been with her for a long time.

If their marriage exists in name, what’s the point of keeping it?

Even if she tries to maintain this meaningless marriage, will her children live in a family without love in the future?

Moreover, at that time, it seemed that the relationship between Lu chennian and Nian Shiya was really unusual. At that time, she really didn’t want her children to ask her why her father was with another woman every day? Does he have two mothers?

She is really afraid. If the child grows up and asks her such questions, how should she answer them. Did his father fall in love with others and betray them?

She really has no way to say it, because she knows that such words do great psychological harm to children.

She doesn’t want her future children to know that her father is a betrayer of her family, so she would rather leave the Lu family and go to a place where no one knows her. In fact, it’s OK, at least not sad because of many things.

Without him, she would not have to watch him and other women happy.

Therefore, Chu Jinran resolutely left, with her heart full of fatigue, and the last bit of residual pride, she left, came to France, gave birth to the child.

Now she has adapted to the life here, and now she can live well by herself.

Now she is no longer the weak one. She will not fall twice in the same place, and will subconsciously protect herself more safely after being injured. This is the instinct of all animals in nature.

Generally, the injured animals will become more alert and less credulous, and they will be nervous if there is a little disturbance.

Injured animals will protect themselves very well, because they know the taste of pain, they don’t want to experience the pain of bone erosion, in order to ensure their safety, they will hide themselves.

People are the same. After suffering from injury, a person will become vulnerable and sensitive. They will try their best to protect themselves, put them in a small shell, and try their best to keep their softness from being exposed. In this way, they will have no weakness, and people without weakness will not be afraid of injury.

So people who have been hurt in a relationship are more likely to refuse the beginning of the next relationship.

Maybe it’s the fear that another disappointment will make your heart older and older. If you are too tired of love, you will not dare to love, and those who do not dare to love will not realize the beauty of love.This may be a vicious circle.

Chu Jinran is just like a hedgehog now. He is fully armed and looks terrible and serious. His appearance seems to be invincible, but it’s all to protect her soft heart.

She really doesn’t want to hurt her heart again. She can’t stand the pain. It’s really hard.

Therefore, in order not to be hurt again, she protected herself from anyone. Especially Lu chennian, she refused to start a new relationship or pick up the previous one because she was afraid of losing her peaceful life.

She is now hard to adapt to a person, hard to adapt to the taste of loneliness.

Maybe she was lonely for a long time. She was afraid of the feeling of two people.

Suddenly very afraid of life will suddenly break into a person, someone with her to eat together, shopping together, watch movies together, take care of the only one, do some very romantic things together.

Inexplicably, she began to be very afraid of these things about love.

In fact, her heart is also eager for warmth, you want someone to understand her sadness.

But she has been hurt once, and now she is very timid. She dare not show her sorrow and pain to others.

Maybe that’s where she’s weak.

In a word, Lu chennian, a man, has caused her countless injuries. No matter how sweet he talks, she will never believe him again. She must try her best to protect herself.

Now she has nothing in her life but the only one. If she doesn’t protect herself, who else can protect her.

Now only by protecting herself can she feel a little bit of security.

Now she doesn’t expect what kind of love she will have. She only hopes that she can bring up the only one well and live an ordinary life with him. Watching him go to primary school, junior high school, high school entrance examination, and finally graduate, get married and have children is what she thinks she wants to do most.

After a few days of tangle, she finally thought clearly that she should live her own peaceful life, and don’t think about anything else.

As long as the only one around her is enough.

Lu chennian, on the other hand, thinks that he must be on a whim. He will come to play with her when he suddenly feels bored. If she ignores him, he will go back by himself when he feels bored for a while.

She didn’t believe that he was real. He came after her because he loved her.

Life is quiet for a few days, Chu Jinran realized that his life, can no longer be disturbed by others.

She began to do the things that were disturbed by the arrival of Lu chennian.

She suddenly realized that the examination would take place in two weeks. After Lu chennian’s appearance, she didn’t read well and her whole heart was disturbed by his appearance. It’s really wrong.

Now she should pick up her business again, Chu Jinran started a peaceful life again, just like Lu chennian never appeared.

Her life should be so peaceful that she should not be disturbed by anyone, including Lu chennian.

She should be calm and self-supporting now. That’s what she should be. After so much experience, she should have made progress.

Love is not the only thing, it is not the whole of life, to make yourself happy, to make yourself a real self.

She really wants to be Chu Jinran, the happy and carefree sunshine upward.

Since she left the country and gave birth to the only one, her face no longer has that kind of sunny positive smile.

At the beginning, because of the need to adapt to life, she had a lot of things to do every day, such as taking care of the only one, washing and cooking, and so on. She didn’t realize her change at all.

Until one day, she looked in the mirror and found that in her eyes, the simple almost crazy persistence was gone. Instead, she was tired and numb.

Nian Shiya doesn’t know why she became like this. It’s not the ending she wants.

She began to miss herself who used to laugh. At that time, she didn’t know what love was, and she didn’t worry about love every day. What she thought was very simple. Like ordinary girls, she imagined that she could succeed one day and that she could meet her prince charming one day.

But she never imagined that her life would be like this.

But the day by day is still going on, life is slowly numb, that kind of blood has long been gone, by time to wear out clean, by the heart of the old scattered, by the numbness of life engulfed.

Maybe this is a kind of sadness.

Therefore, Chu Jinran decided that she must change back to what she used to be. From now on, she will not be a muddle headed person any more.

That used to be very serious about everything, that little things will be happy to jump up her, that very simple happy she.