Love You Is My Fault - Chapter 360

I know it’s the taste of loss.

This is the first time for him to understand the feeling of loss, because this is the first time for him to fall in love with a woman. In the past, he just sneered at love, always felt that it was a waste of time. In his world, no woman can make him moved.

Seeing those who fall in love, he can’t understand how one person can be so miserable or so happy for another?

But since he met Chu Jinran, he began to vaguely understand why love made a person fall in love. When he fell in love with a person, everything around him seemed to be no longer important.

Chu Jinran is the first woman who makes him feel like this. In fact, it can be regarded as his first love.

Because in the past, the women around him were just a way for him to pass the time. What really moved him and made him happy was Chu Jin.

But the world is so ridiculous, love people do not love you, this is a very painful thing.

Yu Beibei is full of pain. It is clear that he has done well. At least he has tried his best to be good to her, giving her all the things he can give her. He has tried his best to be good to her, but why can’t she fall in love with him?

There are many women around him, some for money, some for people who like him. No matter what the purpose is, they are all scrambling to stay with him. They try their best to make him look at them more.

But he had no interest in the women.

Only Chu Jinran can move his heart, but the one she loves is not him.

Yu North staggers to leave, Chu Jinran sits in the same place, she did not chase, because she knows, this time should let him alone, if she disturb him, he will be more sad.

She hurt him.

Sure enough, love is like this, not to pay how much can get how much in return.

Love is the most selfish thing in the world. Even if you give everything, you still can’t get what you can’t get.

Yu Beibei didn’t know how he came back to the company. He was so lost that he came back to the office. He looked lost.

He is not in the mood to work, just sitting at his desk alone in a daze.

In fact, he should have known for a long time that the person Chu Jinran loves is not him at all. He should have known for a long time that the two of them can’t have a result, but he still hopes that Chu Jinran can be moved by him.

However, it seems that he is too naive.

He grinned bitterly. At the beginning, his thought was as long as she was happy? Why become so greedy, want more.

He accompanied her for the past two years, he from the initial just want to accompany her side, silently take care of her, into want to have a better future with her.

He more than once fantasized about what the future would be like with her. He must be very happy.

With her and the only one, he even thought that if Chu Jinran didn’t believe that he would be good to the only one, he could even have a ligation operation. He could have no child of his own all his life, and he was willing, as long as she could accept him.

However, do not love is not love, do more, also can not change anything.

It’s just that he’s really upset.

Chu Jinran sat alone in the cafe and didn’t leave for a long time.

In fact, hurt is the last thing she wants to do.

She knew that if she had been in France for the past two years, without his company, she would have been miserable and even could not survive.

He is good to her, she may not be able to pay off in her life.

After a while, when the coffee was cold, she stood up and turned away.

Two years of company is not to say forget can forget, just some things, is not satisfactory.

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From that day on, Yu Beibei seems to have disappeared from Chu Jinran’s life. He has never appeared. She is worried about him. She doesn’t know how he is now. She can imagine that Yu Beibei must be very sad, but she can only pray silently for him to meet a good girl who loves him.

Lu chennian’s body has almost completely recovered, but he’s not allowed to stay in Chu Jinran’s house. He insists on staying in a hotel by himself.

She said that because she hadn’t formally forgiven him, she had to wait until her birthday to see his performance before deciding whether to forgive him. Lu chennian couldn’t laugh or cry, but he had to rely on her.

After all, he wants to spoil her all his life, and they both have a lifetime. Why care about these days? Anyway, it’s only about a month.

Vaguely, Lu chennian and Chu Jinran are quietly looking forward to the arrival of that day.

Waiting for the day is always so long, Lu chennian has been thinking about how to give Chu Jinran a romantic surprise.In fact, they have been separated for two years. He wanted to propose to her again. When he proposed to her, it was not romantic at all, but Chu Jinran never complained.

At that time, his company had a very important accident. His company cooperated with a real estate company, but a worker fell off the scaffold during construction and died on the spot.

At that time, Lu chennian was about to propose to Chu Jinran, but when she came, he received a phone call and had to rush to the scene. He could only say “marry me” to her in a hurry Then he hurriedly gave Chu Jinran a ring and left.

At that time, he always felt regret, now he wants to make up for that regret.

He went to buy a beautiful diamond ring, put it in a small box, and prepared a wedding dress. He thought that if she saw these, she would be moved to tears, and then he sat there with a silly smile.

The thought that she would be happy made him happy.

It’s a very happy thing to prepare gifts for the people you love.

In the waiting time, beautiful things always seem precious.

But Chu Jinran didn’t know whether Yu Beibei would wish her a happy birthday this time? In France these two years, he accompanied her on her birthday.

Every year he will be very attentive, she has him as his very close very close family, although she can’t give him love, but she hopes he will always treat her as family.

If Yu Bei really comes this year, it should be perfect.

Chu Jinran is a little sad in his heart. For some people, he doesn’t belong to love, but he leaves a very important position in his heart, which can’t be erased.

Since he left the cafe that day, Yu Beibei has been living in a muddle everyday. He doesn’t go to the company very much. It’s also very important for him to go once in a while. Only when he has to come forward can he appear.

The most he does every day is to shut himself in the room.

Everyone in the company knows that their boss is in a bad mood recently, but no one knows what happened.

A person’s time is lonely.

Chu Jinran is the biggest driving force for Yu to come to France. He lives here, and she is the only one worthy of his nostalgia. Now the person who should be nostalgic has left and gone to the embrace of other men. His heart seems to be empty in a moment, leaving only empty sadness.

At the beginning, he would stay in France because of her. If there is no such only reason now, what is the significance of his being here?

He took a deep breath, and suddenly he found something sad. He didn’t seem to know when to start. She occupied most of his life. Without her, he didn’t know what to do.

When did he become like this.

Yu Beibei lowered his head and sat in the corner of the room, with countless cigarette ends extinguished in the ashtray beside him. His face had grown a bluish gray stubble, his eyes were black, and he looked a little embarrassed. His lips were pale and dry, and his face was waxy yellow. He was so thin that his cheekbones protruded.

Eyes muddy, once eyes that kind of energetic firm disappeared, only muddy grief.

Who would have thought that Yu Bei, who has always been elegant and extraordinary outside, would one day become what she is now for a woman.

He did not expect that his love for her had reached such a depth.

She left when he loved her most, leaving him with heartbreak and pain all over the world.

However, he really did not have the strength to hate her, after all, he loved her deeply, for her, he always can not hate up.

He remembered that it seemed that her birthday would be in two days. He had already bought all the presents for her birthday, but now he didn’t know if he could give them to her.

In France these two years, she spent her birthday with him.

He knew that she was alone and must be very lonely, so as soon as her birthday came in these two years, he tried his best to surprise her and hope that she would be happy.

These two years birthday is also a very happy day for him, at least at that moment, Chu Jinran’s eyes are his.

But this year?

This year, her birthday, he should not be qualified to go again.

He bowed his head in pain and took a puff of the cigarette in his hand. The mobile phone vibrated slightly. He turned to look at the mobile phone. On the screen, the familiar name made his heart hurt like a needle.

The heart bleeds, drop by drop, as if to flow into all parts of his body.

And then converge back to the softest part of the heart, a pain.

He closed his eyes and tried to calm himself down. The mobile phone on the coffee table was shaking all the time, like a kind of persistence that he would keep shaking if he didn’t answer the phone.

The pain in his heart became more and more intense. Yu sighed and stretched out his hand to pick up the phone, but the phone stopped shaking when his finger was about to touch it.

He looked at the screen which suddenly went black, and he felt sad.His hand slowly back to turn around the moment, the phone rang, is a text message.

He looked back, hesitated to pick up the phone, staring at the column of the letter on the screen for a long time.