Love You Is My Fault - Chapter 372

At that moment, Chu Jinran really hesitated. After all, this opportunity is really hard won. She has been preparing for the exam for two years. This time, she finally passed the exam. This is her biggest dream all the time.

When she was young, she wanted to be a designer, but because of her family, she had to go out early to find a job. At that time, she felt very sorry.

However, after she came to Paris, her inner hope was rekindled. In the past two years, she has been preparing for the exam crazily and made all the efforts she can do, just to pursue her dream again.

These two days, she was dazzled by happiness and almost forgot about the exam. But now the admission notice has come down, and she has been accepted. If she and Lu chennian return home, it means that she will give up this rare opportunity, but should she really give up?

She knows that this opportunity has been given up, and she may never have it again in her life. She doesn’t want to give up. However, she really loves Lu chennian, and she doesn’t want to be separated from him. It’s hard for them to get together after such a long time. It takes her about four years to go to school. After four years, no one knows what life will be like.

If you just leave him like this, will it be a little too cruel.

At this moment, Chu Jinran really hesitated.

If this was two years ago, before such an accident happened to her and Lu chennian, she would be willing to give up this opportunity to accompany him.

But now she didn’t want to be like before, she was too independent, she didn’t even have the ability to support herself.

After she left the country and came to Paris, everything in her life depended on her.

Even most of the money she came out with was saved by herself for so many years in China. In Paris, she could not find a job to support herself.

After leaving Lu chennian, she found that she was useless.

Without him, she really can’t do anything well. Without other people’s help, she doesn’t even have the ability to live independently.

Such she, what qualifications to get happiness?

Such she, together with anyone, can only depend on others to live, can only become a burden to others.

She wants to be an independent woman. She can live alone without a man. As long as she makes herself excellent, she thinks she has a way to love someone.

Ever since she got the admission notice, she has been absent-minded and worried all day. She seems to be very worried.

Lu chennian quickly saw her difference and asked, “what’s the matter with you? Why do you look so lost? Is there something wrong? ”

Chu Jinran awkwardly shook his head: “where? I just haven’t slept well lately. ”

“Pay attention to rest, don’t be too tired, you know?” Lu Chen touched her head young and lightly.

Her mood is more complicated. She really can’t bear to leave Lu chennian. Besides, it’s really unfair for him to leave him. If she does that, he will be angry.

She sat there and thought for a long time. In fact, Lu chennian could see that there must be something in her heart that she was hiding from him. Although she said nothing, this silly girl and her emotions were all written on her face. It was so obvious that she was worried recently. When he saw her, he knew that there must be something in her heart.

In fact, he really hopes that if she has something to share with him for the first time, whether it’s good or bad, if it’s good, he can share happiness with her, if it’s bad, he can share pain with her, but Chu Jinran’s silence makes him hurt.

But he didn’t mention it. He was waiting for her to tell him.

Chu Jinran tangled for many days, finally, in a noon, the only sleep, two people face-to-face dinner, she said what she always wanted to say.

She was struggling and brewing: “Lu chennian, in fact I passed that exam… ”

Lu chennian looked up at her.

“I was admitted to the Paris Institute of design.” Chu Jinran carefully looks at Lu chennian’s expression. He is suddenly stunned and looks at her for a long time.

Chu Jinran suddenly some regret, she knows, he must be very sad now, even a little hurt, she should think again, wait for his decision later and he said, or think about what way can make him not sad.

However, no matter how he was told about it, he would not feel well.

Lu chennian’s eyes were a little bit sad. He lowered his head and didn’t know what he was looking at. For a long time, his voice was stuffy and said: “you Have you decided? ”

Chu Jinran’s heart is a little uncomfortable. He makes her feel a little uncomfortable. She shakes her head and says, “no, I don’t know how to do it yet.”

Lu chennian suddenly raised his head again and looked at her with a sad look in his eyes: “that If you really go to design school, will you come back in the future? “Chu Jinran nodded: “of course, I will go back to China. After I have finished my studies, I will go back to China.”

“Well How long will it take you to graduate? ” Lu chennian asked, worried that he would lose her like this.

“Probably Four or five years. ” Chu Jinran said that she knew that four or five years was really a long time for both of them. After all, they had missed so long. After four or five years, both of them would be in their thirties and the only one would be five or six years old.

Lu chennian bowed his head and was silent for a long time. The atmosphere suddenly became a little sad. Chu Jinran could feel it. The sadness from Lu chennian was very clear, which made her heart ache.

She knew that Lu chennian certainly didn’t want her to go, because they were still so young. If they separated for four or five years, they didn’t know what would happen. No one knew what would happen in these four or five years. They could only have long-distance love, but long-distance love was the most challenging and easy way to break up.

Lu chennian didn’t speak. He just lowered his head for a long time. Then he raised his head and said, “if you want to pursue your dream, you can go. I’ll wait for you.”

“You…” Chu Jinran’s eyes flashed, and he was slightly moved in his heart.

“Four or five years? I wait for you, as long as you are firm, four or five years later, you graduate, we can be happy together Lu chennian said.

He really didn’t want her to go, because he was afraid that something might happen and he would lose her, but he didn’t want her to have no way to pursue her dream, because she was also a free individual. Although he was her lover, he was not qualified to ask her to stay with him.

He knew that this was her biggest dream all the time. She wanted to see her dream for a long time, but because of him, she couldn’t realize it.

Now that she finally has a chance, how can he stop her?

Chu Jinran’s eyes were red: “you Are you really willing to wait for me? ” In fact, the reason why she hesitated this time was because she was afraid of losing him.

Lu chennian stood up, sat down beside her and gently touched her head. His eyes were full of deep feeling: “fool, of course I will wait for you. No matter how long, I will always wait for you.” He held her gently.

Chu Jinran leans in his arms. He has a kind of sour pain in his heart. He says that he wants to wait for her, but he doesn’t make her feel better. Instead, he feels even worse. She feels that she really feels guilty for him. She really feels a little guilty for him.

Lu chennian held her in tears and felt a pain in his heart. He really didn’t want her to leave, but she must have her own dream. As a person who loves her, he must support her dream.

Four or five years is really not short.

Lu chennian doesn’t worry about anything else. He only worries about her life outside. She may meet a lot of people. There must be a lot of excellent people. If she meets a person who is better and better than him, will she fall in love with others?

Although he believed in her, there was no way to prevent her from leaving. He suddenly felt powerless about what kind of excellent people appeared around her. If she really fell in love with others, he would be very sad.

He held her tightly, very tightly, as if to hold her into his body, so that she could never leave.

Chu Jinran is also very sad, because she knows that Lu chennian has made a lot of concessions in order to love her. In terms of his character, sometimes he is very patient, but sometimes he has no patience at all. If it is someone else, he will not wait so long. She knows that it is because he loves her very much.

“Chen Nian, when I come back, shall we have a new wedding?” Chu Jinran hugged him and said.

Lu chennian nodded: “do you know what surprise I wanted to give you on your birthday?”

“I don’t know.” He didn’t come that day. She thought he had forgotten.

“I had been preparing for a long time and wanted to propose to you again. I had thought about the arrangement of the proposal and all the procedures for a long time. Even I had bought the proposal ring. But after I sent you back on Christmas night, I got a phone call saying that he was bleeding too much and was in the process of rescue. I rushed back that night, so I didn’t have a chance to give it to you It’s my birthday. ”

It turned out that he had carefully prepared it. He wanted to propose to her again.

Lu chennian stroked her hair and said softly, “do you know? I always feel that I owe you something. Do you remember what it was like when I proposed to you? At that time, I was in a hurry to do something urgent. I told you to marry me, then put on a ring for you and leave. ”

Chu Jinran certainly remembers that she didn’t feel rash at that time. She foolishly thought that as long as she married him, she would be happy, but he didn’t think that he kept it in mind and wanted to compensate her.

“At that time, I felt that I owed you something. I couldn’t give you a romantic proposal, so I wanted to make up for your regret by your birthday, but I still missed my appointment. I’m sorry.” He said.