Lucky Unluckiest - 34 LAST CHAPTER Chapter Thirty Four

Logan

I walked behind her all the way as she walked home. Trying my best not to make a sound and hold my emotions together. After she was home I called Liam to ask him if he’s free. He was free so I asked him to come at my place to have a couple of drinks since I felt like my heart was exploding. I went to the store first to buy 6 cans of beer since I don’t know when I’ll stop.

When I was home, I saw Liam already waiting for me at the door. We got in and went to my room and I took off my coat and my shoes and sat down on the floor although there was a couch and Liam did the same.

“Is everything alright?” Liam seemed worried.

I ignored his question and passed him a can as I opened one for myself.

“Logan.” He was worried now but decided to open the can.

“Everything is finished before it even started.” I smiled at him as I finished the first can.

He kept quiet and kept drinking from his can because I think he knows what I’m talking about.

I opened my second can as I said, I’ll tell you a little story Liam.”

He moved his eyes to me, waiting to hear my story.

I started, “Once there was a Japanese writer and a school teacher. He asked his student to translate something as his homework.” I stopped to see if he was listening and he was.

I continued, “when the student translated I love you into the Japanese, he just translated word to word, ‘I love you.’ And you know what the teacher told the student?” I looked at Liam as he looked at me curiously. “People here don’t use that often, he told that it would be better to translate it as the moon is beautiful, isn’t?”

He was amazed by the story as tears came down rolling on my cheeks and I cried my heart out this time. I kept crying as I felt his arms around me and patted me. That’s what I liked the best about him, not questions, no queries, just sympathy.

I cried for a while then I told him about my father,” Liam, how come you’ve never grown curious about my past and family?”

“Because I thought I had a lot of time to figure it out and you’d tell me at a point or a two.”  He replied.

He took his arm off me. “I have no idea how my father is doing, how his life is going.” Liam looked at me, wanting to listen to it all.

“I was very small when my mother died, probably 6 years old. My father, he remarried after a few months and shifted to London.” Liam’s gaze didn’t leave mine.

I hesitated a little, “I- he told me he’d come back to me and take me away too but he never came.” I shook my head with tears in my eyes and his eyes widened.

“He left me at my granny’s and went away, how could he do that, Liam? I’m his child, his only child! I have no intentions of forgiving him. How could a father do that to his own son?”

“That’s the reason how I am right now, if my own blood can abandon me, why can’t others?”

“Not that I want him to come back and all but an explanation could work. Maybe I’d understand, not as a son but as a man. I’ve tried to do so but I couldn’t get why one would leave his own child behind. Liam, I’ve been called names for not having parents like it is my fault, I’ve been blamed all the times for anything bad happens when I around, they used to say it’s my luck which brings all the disasters and miseries. They used to say that I couldn’t hang out with them because I might affect their happy life. How cruel is this world? Even though we were all little children but I wonder how did I manage to hold it all in? I wish to hug the child and tell give him all the love he never got and tell him that’s it’s going to be okay. Liam nobody ever did that. I’ve never had friends Liam, growing up. I’ve never had an actual memory of me being truly happy around friends, laughing and calling each other names. I’ve never had a normal childhood. I’ve never had someone to celebrate my birthday with. I never celebrated birthdays, Christmas and New year’s. I’ve never had someone to lean on to while growing up, seek advices nor had I ever had an actual…. Frie-friend.”

I thought I could handle the past telling him all about it but the tears kept running down and I kept shaking and my heart kept breaking.

I saw Liam as he tried to keep his tears inside but a few slipped.

“Why does this world has to be so cruel?” I cried as I leaned my head against his chest.

“Thank you.” I spoke, sobbing. He remained silent.

“Thank you for being there for me everytime I needed you, Liam you made my life a lot better, I’m sorry I couldn’t be a good friend and I know I  acted like a jerk when we first met but it was because I thought you’d be a passing cloud, I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry and I’m grateful to have you in my life.”  I confessed.

I felt like he smiled and he cried too.

Sophia

The day passed with no contact with Logan of any kind. Today was the day Logan said he’d be leaving. I tried to ignore him but my mind wouldn’t let me.

I did all the home chores and tried my  best to keep my mind off him, I had no reason to go to him or to think about him even if it’s for a moment.

It was 4 pm by the time I was done with all the home chores and now I was free which was dangerous.  I turned on the television only to see that my favorite movie of all time was playing. I didn’t take my eyes off the movie but I know where my mind was.

I got a message and when I turned on the screen of my phone, it was from Liam. I opened it.

It said, “7 pm”

The more I wanted not to know what it meant, the more the reason behind it was carved in my heart. Why is he even sending me this? I have no reason to go. I have no reason to see him. I don’t want to see him. I want to go but why should I? Why should I see him even if it’s for the last time? Why should I see him leaving?  Why? The reason was clear, because I loved him. I looked at the clock, it was already 6:30.

I ran and grabbed my coat and ran outside with my phone in my hand, I saw a taxi near my home and didn’t miss the chance to get it. Airport is far away from my place and I kept praying to see him for the last time on my way.

The moment I got there, I paid the driver and ran inside, I ran and looked everywhere for him but I couldn’t find him, he was nowhere to be found. I was panting hard and kept looking in every direction as I turned on the screen of my phone to check the time and it was 7:10. My heart stopped for a moment as tear kept running down. I lost him.  I sat down in flat footed squat position crying as I literally felt my heart breaking into pieces. I didn’t even get to confess.

I kept crying when I felt someone coming towards me, the vision was blur because of the tears but I saw a pair of boots and hope rose inside me, I saw the boots and the coat and looked up with tears in my eyes but it was Liam. Not him. I sobbed as he helped me stand up and he hugged me with tears in his eyes.

the end