Mixed Feelings (book 1) - Chapter 30：My Confession

She was a tall woman and an exact copy of Enzo; she ran towards Enzo He lifted her up and spun her around; he put her down. Their laughter filled the room.

“Come stai Fratello?”[How are you brother?]

“Sto bene, dimmi come stai”[I’m good, you tell me how are you?]

“Sto bene, giuro che non mi sei mai mancato,” [I’m good, I swear I never missed you.] she said,

“Oh really,” he said, slapping her head. I only understood his last words. Nothing in their conversation made sense to me.

I was trying hard not to show that on my face, I never saw Enzo like this before. I never saw him talking to someone this freely other than me this shows how much he loves and cares for his family, I don’t know who that woman was but I’m very uncomfortable with their closeness, I’m jealous.

They walked towards the dining table. She greeted Mr. and Mrs. Francisco. She looked at me. I smiled at her. “Hi, I’m Antia Francisco his sister,” she said, hugging me. Oh!!! Thank god, I thought to myself, hugging her back. “I’m Venessa Foster.”

She looked at me for a second searching something on my face. She then turned towards Enzo and smiled at him. He smiled back. I wasn’t able to understand why they were looking at me and smiling at each other.

“Ok, you people to continue I’ll join you in just a few minutes,” she said, stepping towards the elevator. We sat down in our seats and had our dinner, while I’m having my meal he suddenly kept his hand on my thigh which made me slightly jump on my seat, “Are you okay Venessa?” asked Andera with a worried expression on her face, “yeah, I’m okay” I assured her, Enzo slowly moved his hand upwards I couldn’t even hold the spoon in my hand properly, I moved my hand below the table grabbing his hand I tried to move it away from my thighs, but his grabbed my hand instead, interweaving our fingers. His thumb rubbing my skin softly, “you should leave her hand Enzo, you can see her difficulty in having her meal” said Antia stepping down the stairs, I quickly tried to pull my hand from his grasp but he didn’t let that happen. She walked to the dining table and took her seat beside Andera, Edoardo and Andera were smiling and I was blushing hard. I lowered my head. Enzo raised our hand I turned my head to look at him. Looking into my eyes, he kissed my knuckles. We were lost in each other eyes, that we weren’t noticing the shocked expressions on their faces, I couldn’t blink, I couldn’t tear my eyes away from his. They are so beautiful, warm, silky, and soothing that I didn’t want to. I was unaware of anything around me, then Antia cleared her throat, Ruining our perfect movement which snapped us out. I looked at them and noticed Andera and Edoardo’s amused expression on their faces. I flushed and lowered my head. Enzo chuckled at my reaction. “Enzo, stop it, you are making her uncomfortable,” said Andera, chuckling at her son. He turned his hand towards me. I side glanced at him. Without raising my head.

“This is so tasty,” said Antia, drawing everyone’s attention off me. For this I have to thank her after our dinner, I hate attention. It makes me so nervous and uneasy. “Yeah, it is,” said Edoardo. Taking a bite of lasagne, we continued to have our dinner. Enzo and his father were talking about the business. Antia called me. I looked up from my plate. “Where do you live?” She asked, I was nervous to answer her because you know, I’m with Enzo I don’t know what they’ll think of me if I say that I’m living with him.

“Los Angeles,” I replied.

“Where in LA?Don’t mind me asking you know, I travel a lot to LA we can meet up someday,” she explained, “I don’t mind answering you, Right now I’m living with Enzo,” I replied,

“Oh!” she exclaimed looking at Enzo, Enzo was having a deep conversation with his father turned to us. “So, you guys are in a live-in relationship,” she said looking at us.

“No.”

“Yes.’

We both said at once, I said No; he said Yes.

We glanced at each other.

“It’s temporary, she lives in south bay, because of some problem she had to leave her house,” He explained, “What problem, Is it serious?” Anders asked with a worried expression, Enzo looking down at me. “Nothing serious, it’s been taken care off,” he answered.”if you have any problem, don’t hesitate to contact us, honey,” said Andrea, “I will, Thank you,” I replied.

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After dinner, Enzo took me to his room. As I stepped, he turned me around and kissed me hungrily; he ripped my clothes, I ripped his, he lifted me up, and I wrapped my legs around his waist. We walked to his king-size bed and dropped me roughly, I landed on the soft mattress. He pulled his pants down, exposing his beautiful, hard, and massive dick. I was eagerly waiting for his dick to be inside me.

He climbed on to the bed claiming my lips.

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After our toe-curling lovemaking session, he moved to my side I rested my head on his chest.

We both were breathing hard. “It was amazing,” I said kissing his chest, he kissed my head.

He climbed on him, he smiled and kissed my nose.

I started playing with strands of his hair, my chest on his chest, his hand on my back.

“Enzo.”

“Hm?”

“I love you,”

He smiled at me. It was my first I love you. He said it several times, but I never said it to him.

“I love you too,” he said, staring into my eyes and kissing me lovingly.

“Do you know why I love” I asked, fir that he shook his head.

“I love you… because you complete me even when I’m full of faults, you are the reason my world has turned into a happier place, promise me you will never ever leave me alone as my parents did.”

He kissed my forehead and took my face in his hands,” Baby, I promise I’ll never leave you alone no matter what, you will always be my girl, my queen, my everything…” I smiled and put my laid my head on his chest.

“Baby,” he whispered,

“Hm?” I replied.

“Let’s go outside,” he said.

I raised my head and asked, “Now?”

“Yes.”

I thought for a second and biting my lip with excitement. “Ok, let’s go,” I said.

We got up from the bed and got dressed, Enzo interlocking his fingers with mine. We stepped inside the elevator; the doors closed with a cheerful ding. We looked at each other; I smiled at him. He kissed my hand, I pulled our interlocked hand and kissed on the back of his hand. The doors opened with a cheerful ding, we stepped outside the elevator and walked through the living area we reached the main door. Enzo’s bodyguard opened the door, and we stepped outside the mansion. Walking towards his garage, he pulled his mobile out of his pocket and called someone, I hear him saying “è fatta?” [Is it done?]

“Bene”[good]

I don’t know what the hell he was saying, but I was so excited to go out with him, his driver ran to us.

“No, guido io,” [No, I’ll drive.] Enzo said to his driver. He nodded and walked back. Enzo opened the door of his black Bugatti Veyron. It was so beautiful to look at, I got inside and the interior was mesmerizing.

He got inside and started the engine, he drove us out of the mansion through tall trees covered either side of the road, we reached a place covered with trees like it was a dead-end, there was no road only a path which leads into the trees. It was a little scary. Enzo opened the car door and extended his hand. I took his hand and stepped out of the car.

He put his hand on the small of my back leading me through the thick grove, suddenly he stopped walking, I looked up at him and he motions me to look at something; I turned my head to look at the way he’s motioned me to look at.

“Wow!!!” Was the only word came out of my mouth, It was so gorgeous. The beach was so beautiful, The sea’s shoreline was lighted neon blue in the most magical manner the light was emitting from water, it was glowing beautifully. Every time a wave hits the shore it’s glowing brighter than before.

The gentle surges of water lapping up against the shoreline were glowing with radiance dotted with bright specks of light, much like the stars that were just starting to light up overhead. Every movement of the illumination.

“Say something,” he said, I turned to him.

My every step left a glowing footprint in its wake.

I turned towards Enzo who was walking towards me with his hands in his pockets.

“See my footprints, they’re glowing,” I said giggling and jumping on the water which left my footprints on the sand, I bent down and started writing his name with mine and a heart symbol with it.

“Let’s take some photos, come” I pulled him to me, He took his phone out, and we clicked selfies, I bent down and took some water in my hands and threw water above us he quickly clicked the picture, it was so beautifully captured. Water was falling over our heads but wasn’t touching us, it was so good. He took photos and videos of me writing our names, jumping on the water, running around like a kid. I ran to him wrapping my hands around his waist. He chuckled and wrapped his arms around me.

He built a campfire near the beach and sat on the sand near to the fire; I sat on his lap in a way that I can look at him.

We stayed there like that for some time, suddenly out of nowhere I wanted to tell him everything that happened to me. I don’t want to hide things from him.

“Enzo…” I said looking up at him, he looked down at me. “Do you remember that day when I almost got raped by him?” I asked he nodded his head.

“He was my mother’s stepbrother, my grandma Janet died when I was 11 years old, My grandfather after 3 years of her death got married to a woman called Mary Ann, she had a 25-year-old son, His name was Brian Wilson. I first saw him on their wedding day.”

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Flashback

“After the wedding, we went to our grandpa’s house there was a private party held in our backyard. I was enjoying the party with my cousins.

“You look so beautiful in this dress,” Jose my cousin complimented me.

“Thank you, you look good too,” I said touching her cheek, then My mom called me and asked to bring the gift we brought for my grandpapas was in our room.

I went inside the house and walked through the living room to reach our room was on the 1st floor; I climbed the stairs and was walking through the hallway. I heard some weird noises from a room beside my mom’s room; I opened the door saw Brian fucking my aunty, My father’s younger sister from behind, she was bent over the bed with her hands tied behind her back with blindfolds on her eyes. I was shocked to react; he saw me standing there, smirked at me, and continued what he was doing. He was watching me and slapping her ass, she was gasping and asking him to do it faster; she was moaning his name, she’s Jose and Joseph’s mother, she’s cheating on my uncle Kevin who loves her a lot. I ran out of that room to my mom’s room; I was breathing heavily.

“How dare that bastard, he fucking smirked at me while fucking my auntie” I mumbled in anger. I quickly took the gift and went to my mom.

After some time, I saw my auntie walking towards my mom, who was talking to one of her friends.

She is disgusting; she just fucked someone who’s younger than her. I don’t know how my uncle will react to this.

I turned around to search my cousin Jose; I didn’t find her anywhere. “Maybe she’s in her room,” I thought to myself.

I walked inside the house and climbed the stairs and took a right to her room. When I reached her room, raised my hand, and about to knock on the door, then someone pulled me back with a hand on my mouth.

I was struggling to take that hand off my mouth but couldn’t. He took us to his room and locked the door.

He lifted me up and threw me on his bed and climbed on me. “Leave me…let me go” I screamed, trying to push him off me, “shh…” He said putting a finger on my lips “if you make a noise I’ll do exactly what I did with your auntie sweet,” he whispered in my ear, I quickly shut my mouth. I was sobbing and begging him to leave me, “please, let me go I promise I won’t say a word to anyone please leave me please,” I begged him, tears streaming down my eyes.

“No, I won’t. Your mine only mine your body, your soul everything is mine, you’re my pet and you will enjoy Daddy’s torture” he ripped my clothes off my body, I was trying to stop him but miserably failing.

I tried to cover my body with my hands, he pulled them off and pinned them above my head.

He bends down and started kissing my neck and breasts, I was feeling pathetic and awful.

“I won’t fuck you now, I’ll fuck you when you’re 18 and ready to take my dick inside you, until then I will have fun with your body” he whispered in my ear, “This is our little secret, Do not tell this to anyone. If you speak a word about us with anyone, I will fuck you raw and I’ll sell you to one of my best friends who does human trafficking, Do you want me to sell you?” He asked looking at me, I shook my head with tears rolling down my cheeks, “Then you should shut your fucking mouth,” he said in a very low and dangerous voice. It terrified me. He continued kissing my body and sucking my nipples. I was crying silently and begging for help in my mind.

He turned me around, kissing my back he reached my butt. I looked at me “please let me go, I beg you” I begged, he chuckled and hit my butt cheeks with so much pressure that I jerked upward, I cried out. Nobody was at the house to hear my screams, everyone was enjoying the party with loud music.

“Please…I beg you please don’t hit me,” I begged him. He didn’t listen to me.

Laughing like a maniac he continued to hit my butt, he then bends over and started to lick my butt cheek, he was pushing my butt cheeks aside to get a wider picture of my butt hole, he moved his head into my butt and was licking it with his hands pressing on my butt cheeks. I buried my head into the pillow and cried out. Only this pillow can hear my whimpers and pleads.

From that day, he used to come to my house pretending to help my mother as her brother and telling her he would look after me like a brother.

He appears at my house when my mom’s at work and harasses me until he’s satisfied with my body.

I tried to hide from him so many times, but he would eventually find me and punishes me.

I tried to tell my mom about this. Somehow he knew that, and he threatened me to kill my mother and make it look like an accident.

For months he tortured me, nobody helped me, no one knows what was happening with me. There was a change in my behavior, I’m wasn’t that girl who was outgoing, Happy, enthusiastic, mother sometimes noticed my behavior and asked me, I controlled myself not to tell her anything about this. For the sake of my mother, I tolerated every single torture.

One day he saw me talking to my friends in school, he forcefully brought me home. Outside the house, he acts like a gentleman but once he steps inside my room, he shows his other sides.

It scared me to step inside the house; he opened the car door and pulled me out and closed it, he pulled me with him inside the house.

He pulled me with him to my room. After opening the door, he pushed me inside. I turned towards him.

“Please, please, I will not do that again, please,”

I was pleading to leave me, he gripped my hair making me inches away from his lips “I told you not to talk to them but you bitch never wants to listen, huh? You want them to touch you my little pet, you want them to kiss you, fuck you that’s the reason you go to them, wanting fucks don’t you bitch”

You want them to touch you my little pet, you want them to kiss you, fuck you that’s the reason you go to them, wanting fucks don’t you bitch” I said, crying hard.

He pushed me, I fell flat on the floor.

He unbuckled his belt and started walking towards me with a wicked smirk.

“Please, please don’t hurt me, please”

He bends down and ripped my clothes off my body. I was naked in front off him. He pulled me up and turned me around, pushing me on my bed.

I begged him not to hurt. I apologize for my mistake. I pleaded him for mercy, but he didn’t listen to any of my requests.

As his belt touched my butt, I cried my lungs out for mercy and help.

He didn’t listen, He kept on beating my butt laughing like a madman.

The next day in school, my friend Victoria accidentally saw bruises on my hands and neck area. She begged me to tell her everything. I cried and said every single thing to her, she promised me she would help me no matter what, I had a hope that finally, someone will help me.

The next day, the news of her death smashed my hope, she died in an accident. Mom and I went to her home, cops said it was her mistake she came in front of that car, that driver escaped from that place. They didn’t find him and closed the case.

After her funeral, I went to school every day but never talked to anyone my mom was worried about me.

One day after school, I came to my house and freshen up.

I was sitting on my bed with my hands around my knees, crying for my friend’s death. I heard the sound of opening door Brian came inside my room with a smirk on his face. I looked up at him. “I told you not to share our little secret with anyone, didn’t I?”