Mixed Feelings (book 1) - Chapter 37：Apology

He strode to our bedroom and kicked the door open, with another kick the door shut. He walked us to the bed and dropped me down; I bounced on the soft mattress. He climbed the bed and leaned over until my face was inches away from him, his hand moved to my neck and pulled me until our forehead touched. “I… I’m sorry,”

I stared at him, confused with his apology, “I know..That the things I did hurt you so bad, I have no other choice. I want you…I need you Venessa, I was angry at your decision, I waited for you to come back to me, I… I don’t know what else to do, I’m sorry,”

I don’t know what to say to him, So I just kept quiet because it’s rare that Enzo opens up to you, he’s the silent type, he never shares what or why he does what he does, it’s best to keep quiet and let him speak. In our entire relationship, Enzo never talked about things with me and I’m happy that he is telling me why he did this to me.

“I..I c..ca..can’t let you go…There are things that you don’t know happening behind your back, and..I…I’m afraid that … I..I. I’ll lose you…I don’t want to lose you. I want you… I really want you. I never Wanted somebody so bad…I…I can’t imagine my life without you. I…I.I,”

I see tears in his eyes, I couldn’t see him like this so, I quickly placed my hands around his neck and pulled him closer, our lips connected and I kissed him, He kissed me back gently, His lips are soft and warm, His left hand is caressing my cheek and his right hand is gripping me by the waist, pulling me against him. I move my lips against him, and then I pulled away, slowly, We stare at each other, “I love you, I will love you till I die and even after that…Trying to explain how much I love you is like trying to count the stars, you can try but it’s impossible and I promise you that I will never ever leave you even if you do thousands of mistakes, I’m nothing without you by my side Enzo”

He pulled me towards him and kissed me, He drove his tongue inside mine, I grabbed his hair, yanked and pulled him closer. Then his hands came to life. He opened my zipper and helped me get out of my dress without breaking the kiss, I helped him remove his tux. I moan and pull his body down tightly against me, skin to skin. He sucks on my lower lip. Then his hand is on my breast, thumb on my nipple, He cups my breast and within seconds I was soaking wet and aching for him. He gently bites my top lip, sucks it. Tugs at my nipple, rolling it between his thumb and forefinger. he lowered his head and kissed between my breasts and slowly ran his tongue up her neck. His lips found mine again, with his hands and his mouth, he caressed me, his fingers moving down my body, pausing for a moment at my navel, then sliding lower. He gently eased my legs apart, slipped between the damp folds of my sex, and a long tattooed finger slid inside me. He moved his finger slowly inside me, I moaned in his mouth, “you’re so tight” he whispered in my mouth, I came hard on his finger. He removed his long tattooed finger from my pussy and licked it clean. He moved in between my legs and pulled his pants and boxers down. He bends over and with his skillful tongue, he kissed between my legs, rubbing, nudging, poking. His fingers pinched my nipples hurtfully and deliciously.

He grabbed his manhood, I feel his tip touching my entrance. He slowly pushed it inside, I shut my eyes, and the tearing pain hit me. Tears rolled down from the sides of my eyes, he wiped them and claimed my lips. He moved slowly into me, he began moving in faster. At first, I was dazed, but I began to catch on and keep up, we moved together again and again and it felt so good I didn’t ever want to stop — until I came.

He rolled over me and pulled me towards him, I rested my head on his chest and drifted off.

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The next few days were a blur, we traveled back to Los Angeles. I was happy with him; we were over each other all the time. We were head over heels in love with each other, my college was also going well.

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I woke up and found myself alone in the room; I got up from the bed and walked inside the bathroom; I did my morning routines and walked out of the bathroom, I dressed up in my lacy peach color one piece which reaches my knees; I combed my hair and let it down, I did my makeup and had a look at my reflection and smiled, I stepped out of my room and walked downstairs; I reached the dining area and sat down on the chair.

Judy walked to me, “Good morning, Venessa” She greeted me.

“Good morning, Judy,” I greeted back.

She served me breakfast. “Did he have breakfast?” I asked her.

“Yes, he said he will be late today, and said you to do not wait for him,”

“Okay.”

I had my breakfast and walked outside, paul was waiting for me. He opened the door, and I climbed inside. He drove us out of the mansion. We reached college, and he parked the car in the parking lot. I stepped outside the car and walked inside the campus. I walked into my classroom and noticed Zach sitting on a chair next to mine. I smiled at him and walked to him.

“Hey,” I said.

“Hey,”

“Why are you sitting alone, where is beth?”

“She didn’t come,”

“Oh, why?”

“She said she is going out with her mom.”

“With her mom, Great,”

Beth doesn’t like to go out with her mom, she feels bored with her.

He chuckled at it,

“Can I ask you something?” he said.

“Yes,” I said, looking at him.

“Are you happy with him?” he asked with concern.

“Yes, I’m,” I said smiling.

“I just want to tell you that I’m always here with you Venessa if you ever face a problem don’t hesitate to contact me,” he said with sincerity in his eyes,

I smiled, and side hugged him.

“I will.”

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Day went on and it’s my last class. The bell rang, indicating that class was over. I packed my things and bid goodbyes to my friends and walked to the car. Paul opened the car door. I stepped inside and he closed the door and walked back to his seat. He drove us back to the mansion, “How was the day Vennesa?” He said,

“Boring, Beth didn’t come to college and classes went on as usual,” I said in a bored tone,

“How was your day Paul?”

“Mine was good dear,” he said,

We reached the mansion, I got out of the car and walked inside the house. I walked to my room and placed my bag on the table and walked directly to the bathroom, I freshened up and dressed in my ripped Shorts and an off-shoulder Burgundy long and flounce sleeves crop top.

I want to go to the library and for the project which I have to submit the day after tomorrow, I took my bag and walked downstairs. While I’m walking through the living room, Judy saw me.

“Vennessa?” She called from the kitchen,

I turned to her, “Yes?”

“Library,” I said,

“It’s on the top floor, why are you going outside?” She said pointing her finger and walking to me,

“Oh, Ok Thank you,” I said, Turning back to the stairs. She smiled at me and walked back to the kitchen.

I climbed the stairs and reached 2 floors and I searched for the library and I didn’t find it. I climbed the stairs and reached the 3rd floor, I walked through the guest rooms, I turned back. I noticed something at a corner and turned back, I walked there and It’s the same gate which I tried to open that day. I traced my fingers on the panel on the right, I want to see what’s inside. I tried to open it, I typed some codes on the panel, it didn’t work. I got frustrated and kicked the door and turned around, I heard something and turned around to see the door open, all this time it was open and I like an idiot typed all the stupid codes.

I slowly stepped inside the room, It was dark and there was only one light at a corner, I walked there and there was a metal door, I opened it there was a narrow path leading to something, I stepped inside and walked through it, my heart was beating rapidly against my ribcage. I reached a corner where stairs were leading down, I walked down the stairs, there was a tunnel leading somewhere, I walked through the tunnel and reached a big metal double door, I pushed it and stepped inside and there was darkness inside. I walked and walked, at a corner there was light. As I walked closer to the light, I noticed someone. I walked closer to a clear picture. There was a man in a white T-shirt and black jeans, he was covered in blood, his head was hung low. His hands and legs were tied to the chair. His T-shirt was covered with blood, as I’m closer I can see his features clearly. My heart was beating furiously, My breathing was shaky, I tried to make a sound but nothing came out, I cleared my throat, “H..Hello”

No response

“Are…y..you okay?” I asked in shaking voice,

Still no response

“Are…you o..okay?” I said touching his shoulder, his body moved back and his face came to display and I gasped, stepping back.

Tears were rolling down my cheeks, my body was shaking badly.