Monochrome Rumor - Chapter 4

Does losing one’s memory change the personality as well?

Looking at Si-Hyun fiddling with his smartphone in the hospital gown, all the members were pondering this question. Maybe it was normal. Because Si-Hyun was very reluctant to be with other people in the first place.

In case of riding a van and on stages where they had to move together, it was inevitable, he had no choice but to go back to the dorm and spend most of the time not coming out. It seemed that Si-Hyun was attached to the dormitory.

But Si-Hyun generally did not return there.

Not only did he come alone to events or stages, narrowly crossing the breach of the contract, but the members heard rumors that Si-Hyun was selling himself to a few sponsors, so everyone argued and tried to stop him.

“Are you really crazy? Why the hell are you doing this?!” The words that flew from Eui-Hyun, who shouted them, were simple.

“Because I need money.”

Eui-Hyun couldn’t even say a word seeing him walking into his room with those words. It was like disrespecting everyone who was making money rightly.

There was no way fans could be unaware of the increasingly twisted relationship between Si-Hyun and the members, and rumors that had been circling back and forth spread rapidly.

Some fans got sick of this and left, but nevertheless, Si-Hyun was still holding his head up firmly without hesitation.

It won’t look good. From that point on, the rumors surrounding Si-Hyun became more inflated, exaggerated and malicious.

I had nothing to say about my own gain.

“What’s up with these names?” Si-Hyun, who was staring at the phone screen, frowned and asked.

San-Yu was wondering what he was looking hard at for a while, but he seemed to have searched for Remegeton.

It’s strangely cute; Si-Hyun tilted his head and opened his mouth again.

“”Reton”, short for Re-me-geton. A five-member male idol group. Leader. Amon. Zeffar, Kaim, Serre, and Ose.”

“Ah, that’s a stage name.”

“A stage name?”

“Yes. We use stage names instead of our real ones because of the concept.” San-Yu, who said so, naturally sat down next to Si-Hyun and bowed his head. The body temperature coming from Si-Hyun was not too high.

Whether he liked Si-Hyun or not, looking at his calm face and his soft smile, he definitely looked like a celebrity.

Even if Ha-Jin doesn’t care about other people’s faces, looking at them, the faces of the four people here are good-looking.

“Now, look.” San-Yu tapped the names in the smartphone and began to explain one by one.

“Amon is Eui-Hyun. Kang Eui-hyun. 23 years old. The one who cried as soon as you woke up”

“I didn’t cry!”

“Oh really? Anyway, he’s the rapper and the leader of the group”

“Zeffar is me. They usually call me oppa. Do you remember my name? San-Yu. It’s Lee San-Yu. It’s important, so even if you forget Kang Eui-Hyun’s name, please remember my name, Si-Hyun~ah”

“Do you really want to die?”

“I’m the same age as Eui-hyun. Kaim is you. Your name is Lee Si-Hyun, and you’re 22 years old. Do you have any questions?”

“………”

“Hmm… Okay, ask me if you want to know something later”

“Serre is Seo Ra-Jun. That kid who’s been whining and chasing you like a puppy. This is a secret, but Ra-Jun likes you a lot”

“Ah, Hyung!”

“Isn’t it? Then, did I get it wrong?”

“See, Si-Hyun~ah, Ra-Jun says he doesn’t like you”

“No! I really do like him!”

“Is that so?…  Even if he looks young, He’s already a 20-years-old adult”

“Lastly, Ose is Yoo Chan over there. He’s misunderstood a lot because his expression is always like that, but he’s just quiet. In fact, he is the most mature out of all of us. He’s more like a hyung than Kang Eui-Hyun, and is still 19 years old. Isn’t he amazing? But in a few weeks, he will be an adult”

“Do you get it?”

I’ve always been good at memorising. I nodded my head while engraving the explanation that continued like a rapid-fire gun.

He gently rubbed my hair as if I had done well.

I looked down on my smartphone again thinking about whether I had a good relationship with him from the beginning due to the very familiar behaviour.

But the member’s gaze at Si-Hyun was strange.

The face that used to scowl at the slightest touch, now was casually loosened.

Ra-Jun, who was hesitating, approached and carefully touched Si-Hyun’s pale hand, which was lying on the sheets. After a moment of hesitation, he gently grabbed his hand and a short glance followed.

“What’s wrong?”

It was a low and dreary voice.

“Just, because I like you”

What do you mean? Si-Hyun, who lightly clicked his tongue, turned his eyes away, but still didn’t remove his hand.

However, Ra-Jun still smiled as if he was relieved, gently touching his pale skin.

The back of his hand was hardened without blood. Body temperature cold enough to shake your fingertips. As if everything now was a lie.

[Re-me-geton 1X1018 TVK Music Chart RUN Lax High Definition-Fifteen GIF + My selfishness | +KIMI Included]

Oh, first of all…

Ah…

Ah…

I’m crying TT TT TT Does this make sense?

This concept is amazing. There were a lot, but this…This… Oppa…

TT TT TT TT I was kneeling down in front of the TV. You have to watch this in a reverent manner TT TT

Reton wasn’t supposed to be this refreshing, but I was pushing ahead with the oppa concept and suddenly…  TT TT TT I’d appreciate it if you could come with an open mind.

Thank you so much, boss, stylist, manager. First, take my bow TT TT TT TT

No need for all these words, just watch the video:

(1X1018) Today’s natural Reton Lax high-definition full version. avi)

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Oh oppa, I really don’t know what to say…

[High Definition Youtube Video Link]

I don’t think that’s possible, but my consideration for everyone who didn’t get the link yet!!!!

As you can see… They look drowsy… but it’s… Fatal… Especially in the second half, the song suddenly stops and all the five of them turn their heads and sigh as if they were sleepy TT TT TT TT My heart is beating so fast!!! I’m still a minor, but, is that sexiness I see? Huh? Someone call the police, ^^

There’s a prospective criminal here. Me ^^

Amon was so energetic and hot… Wasn’t Monmon famous for his fierce looks? But today his potential exploded… and honestly, I… I didn’t expect it at all. And our Serre… still, like a puppy… Like an angel… you know *crying* Our Serre TT… but today, our sanctuary was broken. Our dancing machine hit it from the beginning… Lord TT TT TT TT It was such a hard routine I think I fell for him again…

Ah, and Kaim…

Honestly, I don’t have much to say about him…

I admit it was a hit this time too. I can’t deny this.

He was the only one who was quiet during the warm concept, but it really felt like he became more lively during this concept. It also hurts that there are so many people who became fans of this. But I don’t know. When I see the stage, I open my mouth and admire it, but the more I fan the Reton, the more I fall for it…

And after the show I heard that he did something big. LOL

On his way back to the van, a fan (She’s also an individual fan of Kaim) cried and was pushed from behind and touched Kaim. Other fans said she reached out without even realizing she would fall, but the problem was that she was pushed by Kaim as soon as she touched him…

Also I heard that Kaim looked at her coldy and cursed at her. (Not sure)

My Serre greeted the fans kindly and signed their stuff, and after that incident, he went in quickly. TT TT His eyes were shaking and he asked if the fan was okay. TT TT TT TT Our Ose didn’t say much back then either, But he didn’t look so happy… They said he’s always in a bad relationship with the other members because of this, there’s a rumor that he’s the only one who uses a room for two people by himself.

I wasn’t going to say this, but I heard that Kaim sponsors are starting a war. Do you want to make money by doing that? I don’t understand…

I already knew he was crazy about money, but these days it’s really amazing. I’m nervous because I think our oppa’s image is getting worse TT TT if that’s the case, I’d rather just want him to leave. It’d be unimaginable if we were talking about other groups, but he’s just… oh…

Oh, I’m suddenly hit with reality.

I’ll put the Gifs on the attached file, everyone…

I’m going to watch their videos to recover from my mental breakdown…

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* Oh my God. You and I are the same TT TT I kept on repeating the sigh endlessly

* Today’s performance, the cameraman is fucking shit, but our oppa’s overcome that with their beauty.

* It was shocking to be honest…

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* Yes, today’s performance was a huge hit; the stubborn individual fan who was pushed back over there was my friend… Yes, the rumors surrounding him were dirty, and he was hard on the fans, and instead of giving fan service, he worked with a dark face every day, She even made a Kaim placard and cheered for him, but she was pushed back from behind by other fans, and hit Kaim, she didn’t know she would hit Kaim when she fell TT TT

Serre woke her up from her bewildered state, but she couldn’t understand the situation well and she cried because she was in pain and after everyone went to the van. He said he found out because other fans told him; I knew that he really hates when someone touches him, but this is too much… My friend is crying profusely while talking about this on the phone.

“Don’t look at that, hyung.”

Si-Hyun, who had lost the phone he had been concentrating on reading, looked up and saw Ra-Jun who looked somewhat embarrassed, standing restlessly. What’s wrong with him?

Ra-Jun put the phone on the other side of the table and sat on a stool with his eyes wide open as if he were looking for something to say. It’s so cute. Si-Hyun smiled lightly. He looked at Si-Hyun as if surprised. If this is not a puppy, what is?

“Why?” I asked, but he shook his head.

“What’s the matter?”

Seeing that, San-Yu cut off the phone call with someone and approached them. With a soft question, his silver hair shone in the sunlight. Thinking it was like a halo, and when Ra-Jun answers quietly, Si-Hyun reaches out his hand and messes up his head.

It seemed like it was a habit, so he turned his attention away and averted his gaze.

He didn’t say anything, but in fact, Lee Ha-Jin was shocked.

Lee Si-Hyun, whom he saw, begged all the time and was drenched in tears. He thought that Lee Si-Hyun was a weak-hearted and fragile person, but this is like being beaten in the back of his head.

At first, he asked back several times because he thought he heard wrong that Lee Si-Hyun’s job was an idol.

For Ha-Jin, who only watched news or current affairs programs when he even turned on the TV, idol was a very unfamiliar word, so it was natural.

As if he knew me, who wanted to escape from reality half-way, San-Yu, with a worried smile on his face, patted me on the shoulder saying that it’s okay to rest for the time being since their activity has just ended not long ago.

That wasn’t what was important, but on the other hand, I gave up because I was wondering what to do even if I denied it. Yeah, what can I do if I deny it?

It wasn’t that I didn’t think about it.

I assumed for a while that I would go back to the world I originally had, but I had no choice but to give up the idea in an instant.

I wondered what I was going to do with this face, the person I was dealing with liked the song on the last album, so why did he plan to quit? There was also a reason why he would want to commit suicide if he was criticized so much for the sponsorships.

What is your face known for? However, since he is a famous idol, I searched for it because he was popular, and all the things that came out were accusations and malicious comments.

What kind of life did this bastard Lee Si-Hyun live?

The face that was crying sadly seems to be a lie, so I feel like I’ve been scammed this time.

And one more thing. What I couldn’t understand was the situation with the members. No matter how many posts I read, the story about the discord between Lee Si-Hyun and the members appeared. It was said that there was nothing to say about it because it was an open secret that everyone already knew, but it seemed like a completely different situation to Ha-Jin.

Ha-Jin, who repeated several times that it is okay not to come visit him now, and the members didn’t listen to him and visited the hospital room every day.

Where is the discord?

The man named Seo Ra-Jun was obviously a loyal dog to be next to him without being separated for a moment, and Lee San-Yu naturally touched him and his friendly face did not seem to be an act.

Kang Eui-Hyun who’s going back and forth, even when he curses, he is the first to worry when his condition is strange or his expression is bad, so I think his personality is just like that.

Lastly, Yoo Chan, with an expressionless face, doesn’t seem to be interested in this at all, but ironically, the way he takes care of this and that the most and acts delicately seemed to be just quiet as Lee San-Yu said.

I can’t figure this out.

It was a moment when Si-Hyun, who was looking at the members one by one with a blank expression, shook his head lightly as if he had given up thinking.

With a short knock, the door of the hospital room opened and a man he saw for the first time showed his face. The man who entered the hospital room stood foolishly for a while as if he couldn’t believe Si-Hyun’s face was looking at him.

Ra-Jun, who saw him, calls out to him softly, “Hyung,” and then he comes to himself as if he has come to his senses. Staggering, he looked sickly on his face, so it felt like he was going to collapse at any moment.

Who is it? I frowned, but when I looked at the members, it seemed like everyone else knew him.

“Si-Hyun……….”

Oh. This feels ominous.

“You……..Like this…..Really……”

“You’re alive, you’re really…” Hhhuunnnnggggghhh

Si-Hyun’s premonition was not wrong.

Si-Hyun looked down at the man whose face was buried in his lap, trembling and eventually bursting into tears with an absurd gaze.

Do I look sad? Why does everyone cry when they see me?

Looking at the man with a slightly tired face, it was funny to see him cry while saying what he wanted to say.

“I’m going to drive from now on, and no one of you will be getting a car key. I thought you were dead, so I tried to die, too. I thought it was my fault; so you came out in my dreams without saying a word, you stole dozens of keys from me, but I don’t have a car. ……I’m only driving the van from the company. I was so sad that I really cried”

“………….?”

Are you sad because I stole your car keys?

Looking down at the man with a face resembling an unknown animal, everyone was turning or lowering their heads to hide the laughter they struggled to hold back. In the meantime, Yoo Chan poured water into the cup silently. Maybe he’s trying to hand it over after the man finishes crying.

Then Ra-Jun, who barely held back his laughter, opened his mouth.

“He’s our manager.”

“When you got into the accident, you took the car key from the manager and left. You went out so quickly that he couldn’t catch you, and a few hours later, the hospital contacted us and because of that, our manager passed out.”

“Our manager is really mentally weak.”

He loosely held Si-Hyun and cried pathetically. If I leave it alone, I think he’ll really just cry all day, so I sighed. I could barely understand the situation, but now I’m tired of someone crying over something boring.

Si-Hyun, who clicked his tongue, reached out without hesitation.

He was too natural at grabbing the chin of a man who was crying with delicate hands and pulling it towards him.

“Okay, you will be the one who will drive from now on.”

The close distance with less than a inch left, the voice with a slightly tired face was low and soft.

“So stop crying.”

I’m tired of people crying around me.

As the manager, who was surprised by the sudden situation stuttered, Si-Hyun frowned and opened his mouth again.

“Answer”

Only then did the manager nod eagerly at the stern voice.

“Yes, yes,”

And when he added the last word, Si-Hyun’s hand, which was holding his chin firmly, moved away as if satisfied.

Not only the manager but also the members looked shocked.

Even Yoo Chan’s eyes were wide open. It was the face of someone that witnessed something unbelievable.

Suddenly feeling very weak, Si-Hyun said, waving his hands.

“Everyone go out now, I’m tired.”

At first, it bothered me like clothes that didn’t fit, but now I’m getting used to this appearance to some extent, except when I look in the mirror in the bathroom.

However, due to the tremendously increased sleep time, I couldn’t adapt to closing my eyes all the time.

What did this body do to ask for rest? Even though he thought he was weak, Si-Hyun closed his eyes without looking at the members who went out of the hospital room.

“Hey, who’s that? Did I go into the wrong hospital room?”

No, Si-Hyun is the only one who doesn’t look like a human being. The manager, who suddenly experienced chaos, muttered frantically, but it was the same for everyone, they were also confused.

They knew he had changed, but that was a little strange.

Skilled hands, different facial expressions, and even the way he speaks. Rather than losing memories, it felt like he became an entirely different person. Except for that face, the old Lee Si-Hyun didn’t exist anywhere else.

Lee Si-Hyun was extremely reluctant to let anyone touch him. Except for unavoidable situations such as choreography.

He was in such a serious condition that they wondered if he had mysophobia, which often led to large and small fights with the members. Well, most of them were friction with Kang Eui-Hyun.

Lee Si-Hyun’s face, which was memorable, was more sensitive than necessary and somewhat dark.

He looked very tired.

He had never said it out loud, so no one ever knew what was so hard on him and made him so exhausted.

As if I were living in a different world alone, sometimes I was scared when I closed my eyes with a strange face that seemed to be unable to die. Is that why?

To the members, Lee Si-Hyun was just like a sore thumb. Sometimes they hate it and get angry, but eventually they wrap it around and just let it go.

Like the contents of the posts Si-Hyun read, the discord between Lee Si-Hyun and the members felt like walking on thin ice.

However, when they saw Si-Hyun’s face, which came back cold, they had only one thought. Emotions such as regret and guilt were mixed up all at once. The members, who were not immune to the death of a close person, were all shocked by the sudden death of Lee Si-Hyun.

To the point where the morgue still appears in their dreams sometimes.

So the appearance of Si-Hyun, who survived, was just like a miracle. Although it was covered by a cloth, all the members had confirmed the cold body.

However, Lee Si-Hyun returned seemingly as their folie à deux. Just with a light bruise, breathing casually, as if someone had given them another chance.

They stayed by Si-Hyun’s side, who didn’t open his eyes the whole time. As soon as they saw him being alright, they thought they’d accept it even if he screamed at them to get out of here. They will understand.

And this time, they wanted to protect him from what made him so exhausted. However, Lee Si-Hyun, who opened his eyes, became a completely different person.

Because Lee Si-Hyun just lost his memory.

As if his old appearance, which used to be cold-hearted, was a ruse, there was nothing much to say even if Ra-Jun, who especially liked Si-Hyun grazed him a little in the past he would make a fuss, but now even if Ra-Jun touched him and held his hands he didn’t say anything.

He seemed to no longer care about San-Yu’s reluctant touch.

It was amazing how Si-Hyun didn’t stand up to them even if they rubbed his head or talked to him affectionately.

Even if he might say he was out of his mind when he saw the members next to him, he didn’t kick them out, and there was no way for a fight to take place because he didn’t chase Eui-Hyun, who he had a bad relationship with.

The same was true of Chan’s favour, which had been ignored. At first, he refused as if he felt awkward, now he accepted it quite naturally. Chan sometimes stopped at the sight of not forgetting to say thank you.

What’s wrong? And he would shake his head saying it’s nothing when asked.

So they were worried.

They didn’t hate it, but it was so good that they wished he would stay like this, but when they witnessed someone else’s face just like now, they felt anxious. As if it was a complete stranger.

The thoughts of wanting him to regain his memories and not were complicatedly conflicting in everyone’s heads.

It was an issue that could not be addressed yet.