My Secret Lovelife - Chapter 105

That day after he had reviewed he asked me send him the questions that our mam had given us to complete by next day. The english work wasn’t tough but it wasn’t helpful either. I immediately sent him but little did I have the idea that I had sent him a wrong one. I hurried too much so was the result. Next morning I planned to complete the task when I got hold of the situation I had just realized what disaster I had caused. I was unable to refute myself. Actually I had sent him the wrong set mistakingly. As soon as I saw I had sent him the wrong set,I called him up. I felt too guilty but had to face him. No matter what it’s regarding exam and also I can never wish my man to be in grave disaster just because of my foolishness. He missed picking it up. As soon as I had made up my mind to call him the second time, he called back. As soon as I picked up I disclosed the matter. But I was in despair when I heard him reply coldly. The sting in his voice stung me. But being unable to face I disconnected. But things got worse ever since I reached college. He was clearly trying to ignore me or avoid me. On this hand he is avoiding me on the other Snow and Ellie the two lesbians were ganging up to join me in their group. Lacy was having acute stomach ache so she was lying down. She didn’t move. As soon as the break time arrived they both kissed me on my cheeks. Thankfully it was not the French one otherwise my first kiss would go for nothing. Sky saw us but he didn’t comment. For some reason I felt he was avoiding me on purpose. And I still feel it. Other days on seeing these stuffs he would close Gray’s eyes and say pointing at me, “These acts are performed by professional lesbians. Do not imitate.And it’s not for kids. ”

Usually I hated this comment but there was a mix of concern for me. But today it’s different. He feels different. I tried to chat with him but he didn’t open up. On the other hand he was chatting like usual with others. Don’t you think it’s just too much? Why avoid me? I know I will never disclose my affections towards him no matter how hard it becomes for me to keep. Without his consent I would never put him in the blind spot. That is how I am and I have always been. But is there any need to avoid me? Have I annoyed him than usual these days? Every sorts of thoughts and imaginations were crossing my mind. Finally I concluded that he is trying to avoid mess. Yes! and the mess is me, I and myself. Ever since I had entered his life I had been annoying him too much may be but he cannot tell me to begin with. The problem with one-sided love is that it simply grows without the consequences and never thinks whether the other party is willing or not. And same was the case with me. In order to contact him even just a little I message him everyday by giving various types of excuses so that I can at least have a one liner with him. But maybe my feelings are directed in a wrong way. Maybe he gets literally annoyed because of this but just to fulfil my thirst I simply maybe annoy him. May be I’m just a garbage in his life. But still, still he could at least tell me the reason. My focus was vague in the class and I was unconsciously looking at him thinking and doubting myself once more whether it was a wrong decision to truly fall for him…