My Youth Begins With Loving You - CH 38.2

You can’t lose what you never had. That is the truth for Chen Mo.

If Chen Mo had never gone to Miao Yuan’s house, he would not have come to this realization. This sense of crisis was caused by He YueDi as he proudly showed off his might. This is to show that his daughter has a strong backing, no matter when or where he is ready to protect and bring back his precious daughter.

Miao Yuan may excel in a lot of areas but being courageous is not one of them. She was never much of a fighter. She is still too wet behind the ears for such situations.

Chen Mo knows deep down that he can not let his mother and Miao Yuan come into direct contact with each other. Miao Yuan would get scared off and leave him, as she runs back to her warm and safe home.

Miao Yuan walked beside Chen Mo, unaware of his internal strife. She held onto his hand as she focused on eating a lamb skewer, her mouth all greasy, bringing along a sense of youthful happiness. Her face naturally showed an expression of bliss.

Chen Mo watched her silently. A small spark worked its way up from his chest. Its as if his hands were on the trigger of a gun at all times.

He pondered, he relented. Dear God, just let me off this once.

Chen Mo turned and hugged her, before saying “Miao Miao, let’s get married.”

Miao Yuan was stunned for quite some time. With a lowered voice, she pouted and complained, a bit incoherent at times, without agreeing. She said, “I haven’t finished eating this lamb skewer yet.”

Chen Mo took the lamb skewers from Miao Yuan and ate it whole. He licked his lips as he told her “It’s finished now”.

Miao Yuan stared at him in a trance, “I still need time to think about it.”

“How much time?” Chen Mo could not relax.

Feeling conscious of their surrounding, Miao Yuan asked Chen Mo “Doesn’t the lamb skewers taste good today?”

Chen Mo picked Miao Yuan up in his embrace. “I don’t think so.”

Miao Yuan let out a small gasp in surprise. Feeling both excited and shy. Her heart was beating so fast it reminded her of the first time she rode a roller coaster. Chen Mo carried her to her apartment. They ran into a neighbor while on their way up, when their eyes met, Miao Yuan’s face turned red and she buried her face into Chen Mo’s embrace. “It’s all over now! I can’t face them anymore.”

Chen Mo chuckled softly. “It would be enough if you only see me.”

Chen Mo got the key from Miao Yuan’s bag. With a kick, the door to the apartment banged open. Miao Yuan smiled as she backed up but ended up getting pulled back by Mo Chen.

“Marry me?” Chen Mo stared intently into Miao Yuan’s eyes.

Backed up against the wall with her feet barely touching the ground, Miao Yuan breathlessly reprimanded him “You’re forcing this marriage!”. Chen Mo aimed at Miao Yuan’s lips, using his tongue to give her some playful kisses. Miao Yuan lost the remaining air from her lungs, it became difficult to breathe. Her head became faint and dizzy as she sought for Chen Mo’s lips.

“Let’s marry!”

“No!”

“Marry me!”

“No!”

“Give me a son!”

“I want a daughter.”

“One is not enough, I want a dozen.”

“Chen Mo… dream on!”

Miao Yuan liked the texture of sweaters, it is both soft and cool to the touch. Maybe it is due to her childhood pet rabbit that left an everlasting impression. It gets cold during Autumn nights, the heater gets turned on sooner. The temperature inside the room is both dry and warm. Drawing out the internal moisture onto her skin’s surface.

With a sharp shortness of breath, one usually feels thirsty, hunger or even a sense of longing for something more.

Her bed was just a few short steps away. Chen Mo gently picked Miao Yuan up and placed her on the bed, his hand pressed against her soft sweater.

With one hand pressed against the bed, Chen Mo struggled internally as he hesitated about whether to continue or not. Miao Yuan hugged his neck and she spoke with a soft voice “Chen Mo….”

Chen Mo let out a long sigh from the bottom of his heart. His hands slipped into the bottom of the clothes. He felt something he has never felt before, skin texture that is completely foreign to him. It felt different compared to his skin that has been all beaten from the wind and rain.

So smooth and soft, flowing through his rough palm like silk.

Chen Mo? Miao Yuan hugged him tightly, slightly shaking from feeling bewildered.

Chen Mo forced himself to a stop. Miao Yuan widened eyes and stared at him. She batted her eyes, almost bringing out tears just like a frightened bird. Chen Mo lowered his head and kissed her eyelids. Her eyelids felt tender and wet. Although you are scared, you aren’t actually against it are you?

Marry me……

Chen Mo brushed Miao Yuan’s long hair off to the side. His dry lips skimmed along her ears and neck. He let out his words with a deep, heavy voice. “Marry me, marry me, give birth to my children, our children……”1

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Miao Yuan tightly shut her eyes, not letting a word out. She gritted her teeth while trembling and thinking to herself, that this man was really bad. The first time she got proposed to, she still hadn’t finished half of her lamb skewer. The second time, both of her feet wasn’t even touching the ground. And the third time…Why is he always asking this question when she can’t think properly?

He is doing this on purpose! So deliberate!

Miao Yuan angrily hugged Chen Mo. She held on tighter and tighter, as if trying to hide herself in his arms.

Chen Mo was suddenly reminded of when he was younger and watched a cartoon. The story is of a little girl as big as a thumb. She lived inside a walnut shell, all slender and soft, with a bright snow white face.

My lover!

I just want to treasure you. You only belong to me. I want to keep you in a safe, firm box, and keep you in the left side of my jacket pocket.