Never Live Up to Your Love - C141

After I finished touching my face, I went to the washroom to look in the mirror. Only then did I notice that there were quite a few small eruptions on my face. I calculated the time and quickly rushed out of the room to find the medicine in my personal bag on the bed.

When I looked at the two pills, I immediately felt despair.

With only two pills left, I can only last half a month. What should I do?

I sat in a daze for a long time. I could only take one step at a time, but who knew what would happen in the future. After taking the medicine, I picked up the cup of water from the bedside table and swallowed it together.

The next morning, when I came out of my room, there were two people sitting in the living room. They were around forty years old and were currently talking with Yu Jin.

I didn’t know who those people were, so I thought they were Yu Jin’s subordinates. After I looked at them, I went to the kitchen, where an auntie saw that I had woken up and immediately prepared breakfast for me.

Afterwards, I sat alone and ate in silence. I subconsciously listened to a few sentences, but I couldn’t hear them clearly. Their voices were very quiet, and there was a cabinet between the living room and the sofa.

In the end, I was too lazy to listen. After eating a few bites, Yu Jin made a move and stood up from the sofa, saying to a man dressed in black: “Officer Qu, about my friend, I’ll have to trouble you to leave and investigate.”

The black clothed man shook Yu Jin’s hand and said: “Of course, I will definitely investigate this matter carefully. For a society like today to have such a murder, it is truly our mistake.”

Yu Jin said lightly: “This is something that no one wants, in this period of time, I will have to trouble you all.”

The man in black replied, “No problem. Later on, if there’s anything I need, I’ll have to trouble you with it.”

Yu Jin replied without hesitation, “No problem.” He then said to Chen Su who was at the side: “Take Officer Qu Bureau Chief downstairs.”

Chen Su said yes and immediately led the two people out the door. They went in the elevator. He quickly disappeared from the room.

Just then, I stood up from the dining table, walked towards Yu Jin and asked: “Are they police?”

Yu Jin just happened to get up from the sofa and ask me: “Is there a problem?”

I said, “The reason why you asked Tan Wan to go there, is because you want to use the matter of Tan Wan being injured to drag him out from behind?”

Yu Jin looked at me indifferently, and said: “Are you very free?” He wanted to go to the study as soon as he said goodbye, so I rushed in front of him and said, “How can you do that? You used the method of sacrificing Tan Wan to achieve your goal, and with two small police officers, you think you can beat On Syouwa? Yao Yaoqing and On Syouwa were now one entity, and the interactions between the two of them was very complicated. Both of them were prosperous together, and both of them suffered losses. Even if Yao Yaoqing knew that On Syouwa is having an affair with his wife, he might not do anything to him.

I clenched my fists and said, “Have you forgotten? Xiao Jie, on the day of Xiao Jie’s death, with so many policemen present, he dared to find a sniper to shoot. However, this matter was suppressed by Yao Yaoqing from above, is there not enough policemen on that day? Wasn’t the case that day big enough? A six year old child was hung on a cliff by the sea for several hours. So many policemen came and in the end, she still fell into the sea and died, but the news reports outside had nothing to do with this, not to mention the attempted murder Tan Wan. ”

Remembering those scenes, I still can’t control my emotions. The entire province is trembling. This matter was like a scar. Every time it was mentioned, it was equivalent to someone digging a new wound and sprinkling salt on the bleeding place.

Most importantly, the pain that you couldn’t cry out would only spread throughout your body along with your blood.

Yu Jin felt that I was abnormal, and instructed Anne: “Give me a cup of water.” Hearing that, Anne immediately turned around and walked towards the kitchen. She handed me a cup of cold water, and I stubbornly said, “I don’t need it.”

Yu Jin said coldly: “Are you sure you can continue chatting with me in your current state?”

I was about to say I could, but decided against it. I took the glass of water and drank it down in one gulp. Tan Wan is here to help me, if something really happened to her this time, I wouldn’t forgive myself, including you, Yu Jin. What I want is for Xiao Jie to rest in peace, and not after I let him rest in peace, he will carry the debt that his lordship has suppressed on him. Since that’s the case, what’s the point in letting On Syouwa die? ”

I sat down on the couch and tried not to get too excited.

But more and more I realized that something was wrong. My hands were trembling, violently shaking, and before I could put down the cup in my hand, it rolled out of my hand without my being aware of it.

I felt a headache, but I didn’t want Yu Jin to notice my abnormality. I immediately stood up from the sofa and said, “I’m a little tired, I need to rest.”

After I finished speaking, I wanted to rush towards my room, but just as I took a step, Yu Jin grabbed me from behind and pulled me into his embrace. He felt my body trembling uncontrollably, and he asked me with furrowed brows: “Little Wei, what’s wrong?”

I shook my head and said, “I don’t know, I didn’t do anything. Let me go, let me go!”

Yu Jin felt that I was becoming more and more out of place, as if he had realized something. He surveyed the room, and grabbed onto my shoulder with both of his hands as he asked, “Where’s the medicine?”

I couldn’t answer, just hugged myself and took deep breaths.

Yu Jin called Anne over to look at me, and told her not to let me run around. After he finished speaking, he quickly went into my room to get the medicine, but apparently, he did not get anything.

The usually calm Yu Jin grabbed me from Anne’s hands. He frowned and asked loudly: “Little Wei, where’s the medicine?”

He controlled the face I was trying to avoid and asked again, “Where’s the medicine?”

Trembling, I said, “The medicine, medicine, and medicine are gone.”

Hearing my words, Yu Jin immediately said to Anne: “Have Chen Su come over.”

Anne was probably shocked by the symptoms, and asked in a daze: “Ah?” He said.

Yu Jin bellowed: “What are you still standing there for, get Chen Su to come over!”

Yu Jin had always been warm and kind to the people around her, but this was the first time he was so angry, causing Anne’s entire body to tremble. She did not dare to waste even a second, and immediately rushed to the side of the phone to make a call to Chen Su.

Yu Jin carried me and headed towards the bedroom. Right when I was about to go crazy, he pushed me down onto the bed and covered my face, then said to my forehead: “Little Wei, calm down.” He took my hand from the sheet and said, “I’m here. Don’t be afraid. Don’t be afraid.”

But no matter what he said, I couldn’t listen any longer. I felt my head splitting apart, as though there were ten or so iron hammers striking inside, and I struggled out of Yu Jin’s hands, hugging my head and screaming in pain.

I felt Yu Jin continuously controlling my body to prevent me from self-mutilation, but I was in too much pain. I wanted to try my best to push away the weight on my body, but after pushing it away a few times, I couldn’t push it away. I desperately grabbed onto my own head, and crazily said to him: “Scram! Get lost! Don’t press me! No. I’m begging you, brother, don’t do this to me, I’m begging you. ”

I shouted in fear into the air, “Mom, help me! Come quickly and help me! Don’t do this, don’t touch me, don’t touch me!”

The fear that seeped into my bones all those years ago came running out, the despairing screams and fears when I was being pressed down by Yu Jin, the instant when the Xiao Jie quickly fell from the dead tree, the car accident, the screams of my mother, the wails of the Xiao Jie, the screams that I was afraid of when I was young, it was as if I was thrown into a black hole with nothing inside but me. I stood there alone, listening to those terrifying screams, cries and laughter, but there was no place for me to hide.

In the end, I didn’t even know what I was saying anymore. I only remembered that I kept repeating the same things from before, words from the past, begging again and again for Yu Jin to let me go, don’t do this to me, I’m his little sister, he can’t do this to me.

But he was still like a beast, lurking on top of me, tearing at me, pulling at my clothes, and I felt as if my soul were being torn to shreds.

It was the same as before. No one came to help me, and even if I shouted my lungs out, it would be useless.

Afterwards, somehow, everything in front of me gradually became quite clear, and the person wearing white clothes swayed in front of me, as well as Yu Jin’s face. They seemed to have injected something into my body, and I was about to go crazy, but after the liquid entered my body, I gradually calmed down.

Yu Jin carried me in his arms, and caressed my whole body, over and over. There were also my tears as he said, “Little Wei, it’s alright now, don’t be afraid, it’s alright.”

But I didn’t even have the strength to reply. I just opened my mouth and tried to breathe.

He was like a fish that was desperately short of water, gasping for breath.

After a long time, Yu Jin’s face, which was tightly knitted together, started to become a little blurry. I was too tired, and could no longer hold on.

The moment I fell asleep, I felt Yu Jin, who had been hugging me all this while, bury his face in my neck. He had not moved, and I didn’t know what he was thinking, but when I was about to fall into the dream, I suddenly heard his choked voice say a word of apology, followed by some hot liquid that dripped onto the skin of my neck, and followed the lines of my chest, and slid down, little by little, down my chest, to my heart. Like a red-hot iron, it pressed down to my heart.

When I fell into a dream, I was thinking, “It’s great, I’m going to escape from this world again. It won’t hurt anymore.”

I had another long dream. When I opened my eyes again, it was bright outside. There seemed to be the fragrance of flowers in the air, the smell of the sun, and a hint of the fragrance of rice mixed in with it.

I opened my eyes and looked around the room. A person rushed over from beside the bed; it was Anne. She asked with a face full of concern: “Miss Yu, you have finally woken up. What would you like to eat? Do you want some water? ”

Anne asked me too many questions in one go, and I couldn’t really answer them. But after a long while, I asked in a hoarse voice, “What time is it?”

Anne said: “It’s already 10.”

I said, “Ten in the morning?”

She said, “Yes.”

She asked, “Are you hungry?”

I thought for a moment, lifted my weak hand, touched my belly and said, “It seems a little bit.”

She quickly said, “Let me get you some porridge.”

After Anne went out, not long after, she brought in a few things. She helped me up, and blew on the porridge in the bowl to cool it, then carefully brought it to my mouth. After I drank a mouthful, I asked weakly: “Where’s Yu Jin?”

Anne said, “Sir went out and will be back in the afternoon.”

After an “oh”, I lowered my head to eat a few mouthfuls of porridge and asked again, “How did I get better?”

Anne looked at me, and carefully replied: “The medicine was brought back by Sir, and after I give it to you to eat, you’ll be more or less recovered.”

Does Yu Jin have the medicine? Just when I was thinking that, Anne asked me if I wanted to drink some soup, I nodded my head.

After that, I felt that my stamina had recovered a bit, so I walked around the living room for a bit. I asked Anne about the situation with Tan Wan and she told me that Tan Wan had already left and that she was no longer in danger of danger.

Hearing her words, I hastily wanted to go see her. Anne immediately stopped me and said: “You are just right, we can’t go out for the time being.”

But I ignored Anne’s words, turned around and went into the room to change. After coming out, I looked for my phone and bag in the living room, but after searching for a while, I couldn’t find anything. I thought that Anne must have hidden it, so I forced her to take it out.

Anne was so anxious that she was about to cry. “Miss Yu, please do not make things difficult for me.

I didn’t want to bother with her and stopped looking for her. I planned to walk to the hospital since it wasn’t far from the hospital, but who knew that the moment I opened the door, Yu Jin and Chen Su would be standing at the entrance. I was shocked. Ye Zichen subconsciously took a few steps back, then looked at them, who had suddenly returned.

It should be a light drizzle on the outside, crystal clear droplets of water were mixed between Yu Jin’s jet-black hair.

“Where are you going?” he asked.

I thought for a moment, then said: “I want to go see Tan Wan.”

Yu Jin’s face became a little serious, and his tone became a little strict. He asked: “Do you think that with your current condition, it’s suitable for you to go out?”

I said, “I’ll go and take a look at her. I’ll be back soon.”

Yu Jin didn’t pay attention to me. After he walked in from the door, he took a blanket from the rack on the side, tightly wrapped it around me, and said: “You are not allowed to go out for the next few days.”

I was about to say something, but when he threw me a cold glare, I resisted my urge to say anything and stopped arguing with him.

He led me to the edge of the sofa and pressed me down. He squatted in front of me, checked my face, and shook my hand.

I said, “No, it’s pretty good.”

Anne immediately said from the side, “Miss Yu just ate a lot of porridge and chicken soup.”

When Yu Jin heard it, he made a grunt of acknowledgement, then once again shifted his gaze onto my face and looked at me, not saying a word.

I felt that Yu Jin was looking at me strangely. I touched my face and asked, “What’s wrong? Is there something on my face? ”

Yu Jin still didn’t speak, he only reached out and took my hand off my face. He tightened his grip and said: “If there’s anything that’s uncomfortable, you must tell me.”

I smiled and said, “I’m doing quite well. You really don’t have to act this way, making me nervous.”

Yu Jin also laughed, it was a light smile, but this was the first smile that could be called a smile since he entered.

He touched my head and said, “It’s good that you’re fine.”

He got up from in front of me, and I immediately pulled his sleeve and asked, “Then…” “How am I doing?”

Yu Jin looked at me and said, “It’s yours.”

I said, “Really?” I thought about what Anne said to me just now, and I said again, “But Anne said that you took the medicine back.”

He said, “Don’t worry about that. Since you’re awake, have the doctor come over and check it out.”

Yu Jin glanced at Chen Su, and after Chen Su understood, he immediately went to the side to make a phone call. Not long later, a doctor rushed over, and when I was lying on the bed, I allowed him to inspect me, which he did for a long time. He had been frowning from beginning to end.

He asked me a few questions about some elementary math problems. I don’t know why he asked me these questions, but I couldn’t solve them because I’ve had bad math problems since I was a kid, and math problems in elementary school are very difficult these days.

However, with so many people watching, I still felt that it was a little embarrassing.

Standing at the side, he immediately walked over with a smile and said to the doctor, “She’s been bad at math since she was young, don’t make things difficult for her.”

Then the doctor said, “Then I gave you a few.”

After which, it was a simple addition and subtraction of the multiplication method. This was rather easy and I quickly completed it, but I didn’t feel any sense of achievement. On the contrary, I felt a little humiliated. Observing the expressions of everyone by my side and realizing that there wasn’t any disdain on their faces, I relaxed.

After the doctor looked at it for a long time, he smiled and said, “There’s nothing else. Have a good rest.”

But when he got up from the bed, he turned and looked at Yu Jin, and the two of them exchanged some unknown information through their eyes, and Yu Jin said to the doctor: “I’ll send you out.”

After the two of them left, Anne gave me a cup of water. I felt thirsty, so I drank a few mouthfuls, and after a while, Chen Su left the room as well.

After Yu Jin returned, it was twenty minutes later. He came in through the door and I asked him immediately if the doctor had said anything to him.

Yu Jin walked over and sat behind my bed. He caressed my face and said gently: “The doctor said that you have recovered.

I said, “I think it’s pretty good too. My head doesn’t hurt anymore. It’s a lot better now.”

After hearing what I said, Yu Jin just smiled and looked at me without saying a word. I don’t know why, but from his eyes that were filled with a faint smile, I seem to see a trace of seriousness and worry.

I didn’t know if it was my imagination, because Yu Jin’s actions were very normal, and there was nothing wrong with it.

I didn’t bother to think about it afterwards. I feel that after this time, I have become a lot weaker, and my brain has become a little sluggish. Furthermore, I ate two pills that day, but I didn’t expect it to happen again in such a short period of time.

I rested inside the hotel for about five days, then Yu Jin agreed to let me out of the room. The first thing I did after I could go out was to go to the hospital to see Tan Wan, the moment I brought Anne to the entrance of Tan Wan’s ward, I was immediately blocked by Shi Jie, and it had been almost ten days, and Tan Wan still hasn’t woken up yet.

Shi Jie said to me: “You can go back, I don’t want to argue with a woman.”

I said to Shi Jie: “I’m just looking at Tan Wan, I’m leaving immediately after that. Can you please let me in?”

Shi Jie looked at me and said, “Is that really useful? Can this look make her feel better? ”

He said with a cold smile: “Since this isn’t possible, then it’s better that you don’t appear in front of Tan Wan. I believe that even if she’s awake right now, she still wouldn’t be willing to see you.”

Regarding Shi Jie’s words, I can’t refute them at all. I can only bite my lips and stand in front of him, not saying a word.

However, Anne could not tolerate it, and said: “For something like this to happen, it is not like Miss Yu is willing. She has been feeling unwell for the past few days, and just a little bit was enough for his to rush over to visit.

After Shi Jie heard this, he smiled and asked: “Does that mean I have to thank your Miss Yu for coming to visit?”

Anne still wanted to say something, but I immediately grabbed her hand and said, “Anne. “Stop talking.”

Anne looked at me and said, “Why not? “He won’t even let me take a look. He’s a little stingy, isn’t he? Even Miss Tan’s parents didn’t say anything. Why is he even more excited than Miss Tan’s family?”

I shook my head at Anne again, signalling her to stop talking, she did not listen to me and wanted to say something, but she suddenly raised her voice saying: “Go outside and wait for me!”

Anne was stunned by my roar for a few seconds. After she looked at me for a long time, she followed my instructions and left, going downstairs to wait for me.

After Shi Jie and I left, I did not speak urgently, but instead stood in front of him for a while. After a while, I said in a low and hoarse voice: “Lawyer Shi, I know you blame me, and I also know that I have let Tan Wan down, but I never thought about running away from responsibility. You are a lawyer, and should be more clear on the word ‘responsibility’ than anyone else, but from start to finish, you have never given me the chance to take responsibility, and have instead continuously attacked me. What I’m trying to say is, can we spend all this time attacking each other, thinking of ways to treat her? But when she woke up, I would willingly do whatever you want to do to me, what do you want me to do? ”

After Shi Jie heard my words, he did not speak for a long time, so I once again said, “Furthermore, you do not have the authority to stop me right now. Firstly, you are merely her friend, but I believe that the time that we have known each other for must be longer than yours.”

Only then did Shi Jie’s face loosen up slightly, and he said: I will only give you ten minutes.

He finished. Moving away from the door, I heaved a sigh of relief. I sincerely said, “Thank you.”

After entering, when I saw Tan Wan, whose entire head was covered with bandages, I stood there in a daze for a long time. I didn’t dare to believe that the person who was currently lying on the sickbed was her.

She had always been beautiful and flamboyant, but now her fiery red hair had disappeared, leaving behind a bald, thick head wrapped in gauze.

There were nurses in the ward twenty-four hours a day. She had tubes all over her body and her mouth was open, breathing slowly.

I really didn’t expect that one day, Tan Wan would be lying in such a place.

One of the nurses in the room saw me standing there for a long time without moving. She came over and handed me a face mask, indicating that she was too weak to breathe with a virus on her.

I followed the nurse’s instructions, put on the mask, and walked over step by step. The nurse gave me a seat, and I wanted to shake her hand, but the nurse wouldn’t let me touch it.

I forcefully covered my mouth to prevent my crying voice from coming out.

I didn’t know how long I cried for. When I felt my head hurt again, there was a knock on the door, and the nurse told me to go out. But I didn’t have the time to say anything to Tan Wan.

Anne came to urge me too. This time, Yu Jin let me out, and I only gave him an hour. He probably called to urge me on, and I had no other choice but to give him one last glance, before standing up and slowly leaving the ward. When we arrived outside, Shi Jie was still outside, he seemed to still have something to say to me.

When I looked at him, he walked towards me and said: “Miss Yu, from today onwards, I will no longer be taking over Li Guoping’s case. It is better for you to invite another expert.”

I looked at him with red eyes, and he said nothing more. His words just now was more like a form of notification. After he finished informing them, he entered Tan Wan’s room and closed the door.

I stood there for a long time, but when Anne saw that I did not have any reaction, she carefully asked me: “Miss Yu, are you alright?”

I looked at her, and I shook my head.

She breathed a sigh of relief and said, “Let’s go. It’s been an hour and a half. Mister has already called to rush us.”

I said the word ‘good’ uncomfortably.

When I returned to the hotel, Yu Jin was already there waiting. When he saw me walking in from the outside, he immediately put down his phone and walked over to me. He supported me and asked: “Is there anything wrong with this place?”