Never Live Up to Your Love - C145

Yu Jin looked at me for a long time before his gaze fell on my red eyes. Just as I was about to dodge, his eyes carried a huge pressure as he grabbed my chin and asked: “Did something happen?” He lowered his head and asked, “Huh?”

I am not a person who would hide my feelings well, but I also think that I am already this old, and wouldn’t be seen through so easily by Yu Jin, like in the past. I extended my hand to wipe the warm tears that had unknowingly appeared on my face, and said in a hoarse voice: “No, what could have happened?

I wanted to turn my face away again, but Yu Jin turned his face towards me again.

His face was serious and even a little sulky as he said, “Are you daydreaming again? When can this problem be fixed? ”

When he saw that I was getting redder and redder from wiping my face, he controlled my hand with a little force and said, “From today on, I want to clean up all the mess in your head. I want to see you cry, I don’t want to see you so pessimistic, and I also don’t want to see you let your thoughts run wild, do you understand?”

With a tearful tone, I stressed, “Where is there pessimism? I just want to cry. I can’t control myself.”

He frowned and said, “Do you even have logic? If you don’t think about it, why would you cry? ”

I wanted to retort, but when he glared at me, I immediately stopped talking.

When he saw me behave, he lifted a tissue from the sofa and wiped my swollen eyes. “I hope you will always be happy,” he said. “I’m not afraid of being alone, but what I’m afraid of is that you will cry, and I won’t be able to do anything about it once you cry. Your tears will make me feel bad, and I’ll want to be angry.

I nod my head with red eyes.

He wiped the tears off my face and said, “Alright, I won’t hear any more of this nonsense in the future.”

I still nodded, but after nodding my head twice, I took the initiative to hug his waist. I pressed my entire body against his body and pressed my face against his chest. I could hear his heart beating steadily.

At this moment, I was extremely reliant on him. In such a dangerous environment. There was only one and only one of us. We seemed to be family, not family, but I knew that he had always been the brother in my childhood who could protect me from everything and solve all my problems.

It never changed.

I didn’t know how long I had been stuck to Yu Jin until Anne walked in from the outside and immediately retreated after seeing me being hugged by him. But I didn’t leave in a hurry, and instead got bored with him for a long time before letting him go and saying, “Go ahead and take care of your work. I’ll read some magazines with you. ”

After I finished speaking, I casually took out a magazine from the side, and directly stuffed my head into Yu Jin’s legs, and smiled at him.

When he saw how quickly I was recovering, his fingers arranged the hair that was wrapped around his legs, careful not to push it down, and then he bent over and slowly kissed my forehead. He didn’t leave, but another kiss fell lightly on my eyelids. Sharp.

I was breathing hard, and my body was stiff on the sofa. He laughed when he saw me staring at him, not knowing if it was due to the pressure. He covered my eyes with his hand and kissed me on the upper lip.

The two of us breathed into each other, and I could hear my own heart beating as if it were about to break through my chest.

Yu Jin chuckled and said, “Sleep for a while.”

Although I couldn’t see my own face, I think that it must be extremely red right now. I didn’t say anything, and Yu Jin left my lips.

In order to avoid embarrassment, I could only close my eyes and feign sleep. Afterwards, I could hear the occasional sound of paper flipping. I didn’t know if the insanity in the room was too comfortable or not, but I unknowingly fell asleep.

When I woke up, I was already in the room. It was already very late. I sat on the bed and looked out at the dark sky. After sending it out for a while, I got out of bed, afraid that I would forget something. I squatted under the bed again and again to check if my hidden belongings were still there.

After confirming that it was just lying there, I breathed a sigh of relief.

Although there isn’t anything wrong with my body, it’s still an old ailment. I don’t remember many things clearly, and when I brought up the matter of going to the cemetery, I actually forgot about it. Anne and the others also brought it up for me, which made me remember a little.

However, Anne and the others did not dare to display it too clearly, as if my memory was just bad.

Four years later, after Yu Jin and I had gone there together, the grass there had already grown to the height of a person. From the very beginning, Yu Jin had told me that he didn’t want to see my tears.

I promised him, so I didn’t cry at all, only stood there and watched as Chen Su and Anne laid out the offerings.

It was a little cold and damp today, because no one had come for four years, and my parents’ tombstones were covered in moss and their faces were faded.

I can forget everything in the world, but I can’t forget their faces. They are still alive in my memory today.

Yu Jin slowly squatted and poured a cup of wine for my father. He didn’t say anything, but slowly poured that cup of wine onto my father’s tombstone. Then, he looked at my father’s photo and laughed: “Dad, we haven’t seen each other in a long time.”

His words seemed to be a joke, but after that joke, he did not say anything else. He just stared silently at the photo on my father’s tombstone for a long time.

Yu Jin gently held my hand, pulled me to his side and squatted down together with him, saying: “Little Wei is here, did you not change anything?”

He gave a low laugh, then tilted his head to look at me and stroked my head. “I didn’t take good care of her. I’m sorry.”

Hearing his words, I immediately turned to my mother and complained, “Mom, as soon as you leave, my brother always bullies me, and there’s no one who can help me anymore. In the past, when you were still around, you at least would help me speak up.

Seeing that I complained right after I arrived, Yu Jin pinched my face and laughed, “Your mouth is asking for a beating again.”

I ignored him. After I knocked his hand off my face, I said, “However, don’t worry. He has always taken good care of me. I just don’t know if you can stay there.”

I gazed at my mother’s smiling face and said, “We are doing fine here, so don’t worry too much. The only bad thing about me is that I miss you guys a little …” “And …”

Yu Jin seemed to have already expected what I would say, he took three incense sticks from Chen Su and passed it to me, I glanced at him.

He whispered, “Plug it in.”

Only then did I react, forgetting what I just said. After receiving it, I carefully inserted it into the censer.

Yu Jin also inserted three incense sticks of time later, because it was starting to drizzle down one after another. The mountain road would slide, and even if I still had a thousand things I wanted to say in my heart, Yu Jin didn’t make me stop. After leading me to the tombstone, he looked at the tombstone my parents were together with and said, “Little Wei, I will take good care of it, you guys don’t have to worry too much.”

When he had finished, I sat quietly beside him and watched them with him.

After a long while, the rain gradually increased in intensity. He took the umbrella from Chen Su’s hands and pulled me into his embrace as he said, “Let’s go.”

But for some reason, I didn’t want to go too far yet. I only wanted to stay with them for as long as possible, but my body was controlled by Yu Jin. After he carried me and left, I turned back three times, but I didn’t look back in the end.

One day, I think, the people who leave will meet in a different way. The world is round, walking up and down, and all these people are there, but they’ve been separated from each other for a while.

After Yu Jin came down from the mountain with me, the rain gradually increased. Originally, it was just a light drizzle, but in the process of me descending the mountain, it had turned into a torrential downpour, causing Yu Jin’s left shoulder to be completely drenched, but there wasn’t a single drop of water on my body. After he first sent me into the carriage, Chen Su received the umbrella from his hands, then he bent over and sat in.

After he sat in, the bodyguards closed the door of the car and got in the car one by one. The rain was so heavy that the car window made popping sounds, just as I was staring out of the window in the rain, Chen Su, who was sitting in the front seat, suddenly brought Yu Jin’s phone over. Yu Jin looked at him, but Chen Su did not tell him who it was.

Yu Jin glanced at the reminder from the phone. When he saw the caller ID, he did not have much emotion on his face, he just directly pressed the number, and his phone was casually thrown to the side.

Then he took a blanket from the back and wrapped it around me. He tested the temperature on my forehead, and his voice sounded extremely low and gentle in the small space. He said, “Is there anything uncomfortable about it?”

I shook my head. “No, I’m a bit sleepy.”

The hand Yu Jin placed on my forehead felt that something was wrong, but he didn’t say anything. After hugging me tightly, he kissed my forehead and said: “Lie in my embrace for a while.”

I leaned against him and didn’t move. I felt my whole body heat up and even my bones were burning.

After that, when I returned home, for some reason, I had a fever. After Yu Jin placed me on the bed, he instructed Chen Su who was at the side: “Call the doctor.”

When Chen Su heard his orders, he immediately took his phone and went outside to call a doctor. After he left, Yu Jin took a towel from his and placed it on my forehead. My entire body was covered with cold sweat, and I started to have a headache.

But I didn’t cry out. I just hugged myself and shivered under the covers.

After a long while, I tightly held onto Yu Jin’s head. While crying, she said to him, “Brother, I’m in pain, it’s too painful.”

Yu Jin wiped away the cold sweat on my face, then said: “I know, I know it’s painful, let’s just endure, okay?”

I wanted to scratch my head, but it seemed that Yu Jin had already expected my intentions. He grabbed onto my hand, directly picked me up from the bed and hugged me tightly. He whispered into my ear with a strained voice: “Don’t be afraid, I’m here, big brother is here.”

However, my entire body was trembling violently, I only felt as if my entire body was being torn apart. The hand that was grabbing onto Yu Jin’s clothes, was almost tearing it off his clothes, and was seeping into his skin.

Yu Jin saw that Chen Su, who had gone out to make a phone call, had not come in yet, so he asked: “Chen Su?”

Anne was frightened by the situation, but she still quickly replied: “I’m still outside talking to a doctor.”

Yu Jin did not speak at first, only until his aunt brought a cup of water from the outside and gave it to him, he did not know if it was because of the temperature of the water, but when he touched the cup, he waved his hand, and the cup flew very far away in an instant, and made a loud noise in the room.

Yu Jin shouted, “Warm!”

Auntie was frightened by Yu Jin because he was currently wearing a malicious expression, like a lion in a frenzy. She didn’t even have time to pick up the fragments of the floor before she turned around and quickly left the room to rush to the kitchen to refill a cup of warm water.

Once again, he took the cup from my aunt’s hand. This time, the temperature was just right, so he carefully lifted my chin and passed the cup to my lips. He whispered to me: “Little Wei, open your mouth.”

I looked at him, and only then did I realise that the veins on Yu Jin’s forehead were bulging, his thin lips were pressed into a straight line, and I did my best to restrain myself. I opened my mouth, and Yu Jin slowly poured a cup of water into my mouth.

I violently coughed and instantly vomited it all out.

Anne and my aunt immediately took a paper towel to wipe my body, and Yu Jin held me tightly in his arms.

My consciousness wasn’t clear again, the world was spinning in front of me, I didn’t know what to do, but it seemed that the doctor hadn’t arrived yet. Yu Jin seemed to have angered me again, dropping a lot of things in the room.

The room was filled with people, all of them standing there cautiously, not daring to say a single word.

After an unknown period of time, it seemed like a doctor had arrived. He injected something into my body, and the tearing pain in my head seemed to have recovered quite a bit.

I was becoming more and more sober. Faintly looking towards the bed, I saw that the doctor was frowning as he said something to Yu Jin. His voice was not loud, and I didn’t hear it clearly, I only felt that Yu Jin’s face had never been serious and cold before.

Immediately after, after the doctor finished speaking, the doctor and I exchanged a bottle of medicinal liquid. Yu Jin’s body retreated two steps back, and his steps became unsteady and wobbled a little.

In the end, I didn’t pay too much attention to his expression. My head felt heavier and heavier, and my vision also became heavier. I once again fell into that dark dream.

There was still nothing in the dream, no screams this time, no cries. Everything was very calm, so calm that one would want to fall asleep.

As if it was a century old, when I opened my eyes again, Yu Jin’s face appeared above me. Seeing that I had woken up, he bent down and asked me with deep concern: “Are you feeling better?”

He seemed to have not slept the whole night. His eyes were dark blue and bloodshot.

After he helped me up, my body didn’t have much strength left. I didn’t even have the strength to lift my arms. I let him hold me in his arms. He whispered in my ear, “Drink some congee, okay?”

Even though I had no appetite, I didn’t want to worry him, so I nodded twice.

After Auntie passed the bowl over, Yu Jin received it. After he scooped a spoonful and brought it to my mouth, I opened my mouth and took it.

I chewed for a while, then Yu Jin laughed and asked, “Is it delicious?”

I nodded once, and he took another spoonful to my mouth. When I held it again, I said, “Did I sleep long?”

Yu Jin wiped the corner of his mouth with a napkin and said: “Not long ago. As usual, I just slept normally for an entire night.”

I lazily leaned against Yu Jin’s chest as my eyes fell on the light that shone in from outside the window. I said in a low voice, “I seem to have dreamt last night.”

He whispered, “What dream?”

I smiled and said, “I dreamed that we went to my grandpa’s house together for the summer vacation when we were kids. At that time, there were many cicadas, and although the weather was hot, it did not hurt at all. My favorite thing was to watch you and grandpa play chess, and under the wutong tree in the courtyard, the wind in the countryside was very comfortable. It’s a pity that my grandfather didn’t like me at that time. Maybe I didn’t have the bloodline of Yu Family, so I didn’t have a good impression. On the contrary, I even liked him a lot, because sometimes he doesn’t seem to like me very much. But after I got my legs swollen from kneeling on the ground, he would always let the kitchen add a dish that I liked to eat. Although he never said it was under his orders, I know it was him. ”

At this point, I turned to look at him, and I said, “You see, I remember so many things. These things that go deep into the marrow will never be forgotten for other reasons. ”

When Yu Jin heard my words, he smiled and asked, “The summer is almost over, we can take advantage of the fact that it’s going to be out of date and go live in the countryside for a while.”

I said, “Sure, I haven’t been there in a long time.”

Yu Jin asked again, “Tomorrow?”

I shook my head. “No, I still want to stay here for a few more days.”

Yu Jin also did not ask me why I still had to wait for a few more days. He gave me another spoonful of porridge and said, “Alright.”

This time, I did not receive his spoonful of porridge. Instead, I moved my lips away from the spoon and said, “Yu Jin, am I sick?

He seemed to have made up his mind what he was going to do with me, the question he would ask sooner or later. He seemed calm and normal. He tightened my body a little and whispered in my ear, “Who told you that?”

“No one told me,” I said.

Yu Jin pulled at the blanket that had unknowingly fallen off of me. He smiled and said, “Stop thinking so much.

I smiled back and raised my head to look at him. “If I’m not sick, then I don’t need to take any medicine, do I?”

Yu Jin used his spoon to stir the thick porridge in his bowl. He smirked and said: “It seems that some people’s skin is itchy again.”

I cut him off and said, “Liar.”

He put the spoon to my mouth again and said, “Don’t try to divert my gaze. Eat the bowl of porridge in my hand first.”

I evaded him by saying that I don’t want it, but who knew that he would pull it back again two or three times. After that, almost all of the food was forced by him to just barely eat the bowl of porridge, but for the last spoonful, no matter what, I was unwilling to eat it, and Yu Jin didn’t force me to eat it again.

He sat with me for a while, leaning on the bed with me as he rummaged through the little prince’s book.

I kept pestering him to let me read it out to me, and he felt helpless, because he could recite the story from beginning to end without even reading it, even for me. However, he still followed me and hugged me as he read it slowly by my ear.

His voice was like flowing water, comfortable enough to make one want to sleep. Outside, the sound of the rain was beating on the glass again. The lights inside the house were dim and yellow. This moment was too beautiful, so beautiful that it felt unreal.

When I arrived in the living room, I wanted to find my aunt to peel some fruits for me. After I ate a small bowl of porridge in the morning, I was a little hungry, but after walking around in the living room for a bit, I could not find any traces of my aunt. When I reached the entrance of the balcony, just as I was about to push open the door and enter, my hand suddenly grabbed onto the handle of the balcony door.

Auntie Anne and I were chatting on the balcony. Auntie Anne, what disease did I have?

Anne was helping his aunt dry my clothes, and whispered to her: “I don’t know the specific illness, but once when I heard the doctor and teacher talk, Miss Yu’s memory would decline bit by bit over time, until the day I can’t remember anything. And the doctor said, if my memory falls to that extent, then the next stage would be brain death.”

Auntie shouted, “What? How could it be so serious? Isn’t brain death a vegetative state? ”

Anne lowered her voice and said: “Plants are better off, at least they have a chance to wake up, but their brains are dead. “Basically, she was already thought to be dead, except for the fact that her body is still functioning.”

Auntie exclaimed in surprise, then said with a hint of pity, “She’s still so young, how could she be like this? No wonder mister has had such a bad temper these few days.”

Anne sighed and said, “Now that Miss Yu’s memory has problems, I think it will only get worse. It won’t improve.”

After a while, Aunt said: “I heard that Miss Yu seemed to have taken some kind of medicine. That medicine didn’t seem to be anything much at first, but it seemed to have taken another kind of medicine, causing the two to clash.

“Sigh. “Who knows if it’s true or not. In any case, the world of rich people is like this, with all sorts of strange and strange worlds within.”

Auntie said, “Hey, have you ever heard of any news?”

Anne asked: “What news?”

Auntie looked around, and she did not notice me, because I was at a blind spot in her line of sight. After she neared Anne’s ear, she said in a low voice: “I heard from someone that Miss Yu is actually mister’s sister.”

When Anne heard his aunt’s words, she suddenly reached out and covered her mouth, “You can’t speak nonsense with these words.”

Auntie struggled a few times before emphasizing, “I’m not spouting nonsense.”

Anne said: “Even if it’s the truth, you can’t say it out loud. This is taboo, if Assistant Chen heard it or if Mister heard it, you just have to ignore it.”

The aunt was shocked by Anne. I didn’t dare to continue discussing this topic. After that, the two of us continued hanging up the clothes while I subconsciously walked towards the room. Like a ghost, I closed the door and slowly sat on the bed.

Anne’s and my aunt’s words from before were being played repeatedly in my head. As my memory regressed, my brain died.

I thought I was suffering from memory loss at best, but I didn’t think there was a brain death waiting for me. My whole body fell across the bed.

My hand began to shake again, and I pressed it down. I sat there and took a few deep breaths. After about ten minutes, I grabbed onto my chest and pushed back the breath that was stuck in my chest. Only then did I regain my senses.

On Syouwa had only given me one medicine, and indeed, he had changed it once before. However, that medicine had only been used for a short period of time, and had not been used for four years like they had said, moreover, it had only been used for a short period of time, so there shouldn’t be any problems.

What they mean by two drugs. What else did I take?

Just as I was deep in thought, two words popped up in my mind, Jiang Hua.

I have consumed two types of medicine. One was given to me by On Syouwa, the other was given to me by Jiang Hua, and the medicine he gave me to alleviate the pain.

He shouldn’t be trying to harm me. What was the reason for his actions? I had always trusted him. If he really had any feelings for me, he wouldn’t have stayed with me for so long and helped me.

I didn’t want to doubt him. Maybe I was thinking too much, or maybe I was?

However, the medicine that Jiang Hua gave me was indeed useless to me. At that time, I thought that it was, after all, a relief medicine and not a miracle medicine. At most, it would reduce the damage by a little.

How could this be?

The more I thought about it, the more confused my head became, and I felt myself beginning to feel it again, and I immediately got up from the bed and beat my head to warn myself that I couldn’t think about it any longer.

At this time, Anne pushed the door open and entered the room. Seeing that I was standing in the middle of the bedroom, she smiled and said: “Miss Yu, auntie is staying in the bird’s nest, would you like to come out and have a taste?”

I looked at her for a long time without saying anything. She was scared by my gaze and thought that I was going to go crazy again. She subconsciously retreated a little. Miss Yu? ”

I shook my head and said, “Nothing.” He then turned around.