Not Spare the Years - Chapter 104

Late at night.

The floor-to-ceiling windows were not tightly closed, and the wind blew in through the cracks of the window, revealing a bit of bone-chilling cold.

The curled-up art exhibition ticket on the bedside table swayed gently in the breeze.

Mu Xueyi stared at the ticket and lost sleep.

…why didn’t she ask Mu Guocheng to let her learn to paint when she was a child?

Suddenly, she seemed to have inadvertently missed a common topic that she could chat with Ah Yue.

Because they don’t know how to draw, they seem to have never talked about drawing in the long time they have been with Ah Yue. It was so indifferent as if Zhou Zhenyue had never been able to paint.

Mu Xueyi sighed, stood up, opened the drawer a little irritably, and threw the ticket into the drawer.

She turned over and turned her back to the nightstand over there.

Force yourself to stop thinking about it.

But she can control herself not to think about painting, but she can’t control herself not to think about Zhou Zhenyue.

They’ve been too close for the past five days. Stick together when you are awake, and hug when you sleep. In just five days, the existence of the other party has become a habit.

…It seems like I’ve only been separated from Ah Yue for two hours, but it always feels like we’ve been separated for as long as two centuries.

Every second without the other party by his side is like returning to the short nihilistic time when he was just hit and killed on the tombstone.

Existing in a state of soul…

Floating and confused, the world in his eyes is not the world, and everything that can be seen is out of hand.

It’s like everything has lost its meaning. Breathing, opening eyes, have become unnecessary things.

I really miss her.

It hurts to think about it.

Mu Xueyi was curled up in the quilt, her right hand covered her chest, and her left hand tightly held the jade ring on her right little finger.

yes, the ring…

Should the ring be returned?

After all, when Zhou Zhenyue said she was going to give it to her, their relationship was false.

Still… or not?

The messy and disordered thoughts stuck in her mind, making her even more unable to sleep.

Mu Xueyi noticed that her resting heart rate was getting faster and faster, so she got up from the bed and walked to the coffee table in the living room to pour herself a glass of cold water.

She held the water glass and sipped it as she walked to the balcony, opened the window and lay on the window, allowing the night wind to bring some clarity to her brain.

There are only a few dim yellow street lamps left in the Biyun Lanting at night.

There are bits and pieces, decorated in the dark apartment park, like a deep-sea fish with light spots.

Mu Xueyi swallowed the warm water in her mouth, her eyelashes drooping.

Suddenly the whole person froze.

At the door of her building, under the orange street lights, the off-road vehicle that was supposed to have driven away two hours ago was parked on the side of the road.

Outside the door of the off-road vehicle, the person who was supposed to leave was leaning there.

From Mu Xueyi’s point of view, only her black top of hair and a gentle lake blue sweater can be seen. Two straight slender legs overlapped, arms clasped together, head bowed. Not playing with the phone, just waiting for something.

The light of the street lamp went down, and warmly painted every inch of her skin and eyelashes with warm colors.

The warm-toned painting in front of me overlapped with the cool-toned painting in my memory.

A year ago, in the heavy snow in the hot spring villa, she was like this, waiting in a place where she could see it as soon as she looked up.

From Jining to Anyang.

From snow to rain.

…still the old days.

“Snapped-!”

The water glass in his hand fell to the ground in a trance, shattering glass **** all over the floor.

Mu Xueyi picked up the key in a panic and ran out.

He also forgot to take his cane, staggered to the ground, and rushed out wearing light pajamas and slippers.

Going downstairs, running out of the entrance of the building, raising a tense tone, tremblingly called:

“Ayue!”

Zhou Zhenyue raised her head, not expecting that Mu Xueyi would suddenly come down, she was stunned.

Mu Xueyi didn’t stand there hesitating, and didn’t waste time looking at Zhou Zhenyue. She dragged her broken legs, jumping and jumping like a rabbit, and plunged her head into Zhou Zhenyue’s arms.

Her arms were tucked behind her lake blue sweater, wrapping around her somewhat stiff waist.

How soft the sweater is, the softer her heart is at the moment.

Zhou Zhenyue regained her senses, her slightly wrinkled brows unfolded lightly, she raised her hand, and hugged Mu Xueyi in her arms.

The heartbeat that had been calm for a night could not help but gradually speed up.

“You…” Her voice was a little hoarse, “Why haven’t you slept yet?”

Mu Xueyi didn’t want to pretend to be strong anymore, let the tears flow, choked and said, “I miss you so much, I really miss you so much. I think you’re going crazy…”

Zhou Zhenyue hugged the person in her arms tightly, burying her face in the collar of the other party’s pajamas scented with shower gel, silent for a long time, muttering sullenly:

“I miss you too.”

Mu Xueyi sounded from the blue sweater with a crying voice: “Don’t go.”

Zhou Zhenyue: “Well, don’t go.”

“You will come with me every night from now on, okay?”

After a long silence.

“…it is good.”

Mu Xueyi felt that her heart that was floating in the air finally fell back to her chest.

Finally…began to gurgle.

After hugging each other quietly for a while, Mu Xueyi packed up her emotions, wiped away her tears, and asked in a low voice:

“You’re here, why are you only standing downstairs? I won’t let you in.”

Zhou Zhenyue touched the top of Mu Xueyi’s head and sighed: “I want to find you. But you didn’t tell me what floor you live on and what the house number is. It’s too late, I’m afraid to call you It will disturb you to sleep, I just wanted to stay downstairs for a while and leave…”

The words come to an abrupt end here.

Zhou Zhenyue didn’t say the second half of the sentence.

—I originally wanted to stay for a while and leave, but when I stood here, I suddenly found that I would feel satisfied and at ease if I could stay closer to her.

So it’s only now, at half past two in the middle of the night.

I am greedy for such a distance and do not want to leave.

Mu Xueyi took Zhou Zhenyue’s hand and led her into the building slightly lame.

“I live on the 5th floor, room 503. The door is a combination lock, and the combination is…”

She paused, and looked at Zhou Zhenyue a little embarrassedly.

“…it’s your birthday.”

Zhou Zhenyue pursed her lips and didn’t speak, but held Mu Xueyi’s hand a little tighter.

Opening the door, the two walked in one after the other.

Mu Xueyi bent down and took a pair of her own slippers from the shoe cabinet to Zhou Zhenyue.

“You can come anytime you want.”

She took an access card from the storage box on the shoe cabinet and handed it to Zhou Zhenyue.

Zhou Zhenyue took it and put it away.

Counting the keys to Gao Chuan’s small yard, this was already the second key that Mu Xueyi gave her.

Mind flickered.

These keys don’t seem to open Xueyi’s house.

It was the house in her heart.

There are many locks on the door of the house, and I don’t know how many keys are needed to fully open it.

But there is one person who is willing to come and drive, better than…

Keep locked.

“These are new toiletries, I haven’t had time to use them yet,” Mu Xueyi took out a towel and toothbrush set from the cabinet and handed it to Zhou Zhenyue, “You shouldn’t have gone home? Wash and go to work tomorrow.”

Zhou Zhenyue stared at her, instead of picking up those things, she reached out and pulled her into her arms first.

Mu Xueyi raised her hand holding the towel aside and let Zhou Zhenyue hold it. She tapped her chin and rubbed Zhou Zhenyue’s shoulder.

Like a little animal that comforts its owner.

Zhou Zhenyue simply wanted to hug her, and after holding her for a while, she let go and took the toiletries.

“…I went to take a shower.”

Putting on his slippers, he took two steps towards the bathroom.

Mu Xueyi suddenly said, “Ayue.”

Zhou Zhenyue stopped and turned around, “Huh?”

Mu Xueyi stood there in silence for a long time, with tears in his eyes.

After hesitating for a while, he asked cautiously:

“Am I a very selfish person?”

Zhou Zhenyue’s voice was very soft: “Why do you say that?”

Mu Xueyi’s throat moved with difficulty, “I just asked you to accompany me every day. Such a request…”

Zhou Zhenyue interrupted her: “I originally wanted you to be with me. It’s not selfish. You didn’t force me to do anything.”

After a brief silence, Zhou Zhenyue said again:

“If you feel a lot of psychological burden, then… I use the power of that contract to ask you to come with me every day.”

“In this case, I’m forcing you, you just need to cooperate with me.”

“…”

Mu Xueyi bit her lower lip, and her pupils flickered.

Zhou Zhenyue gave her a deep look, then turned around and continued to walk to the bathroom.

The moment he turned around, he said vaguely:

“Don’t think too much, little girl.”

The bathroom door was softly closed, barely making a screeching sound.

Mu Xueyi took a deep breath, turned her head, and stared out the window, as if she could hold back the tears in her eyes.

It turned out that she had always been wrong.

She wasn’t as fast as she thought she was.

Ah Yue didn’t hate herself as much as she imagined.

Therefore, they are destined to be unable to torture each other.

She is not that strong.

That person wasn’t that cruel.

There was a sound of water in the bathroom, and the mist filled the glass door. Not long after, there was a faint “click” sound of the shower gel cap opening and closing.

Mu Xueyi sniffed and wiped away the tears that remained from the corners of her eyes.

Don’t cry anymore.

Crying all the time can inadvertently affect those close to you.

Mu Xueyi began to restrain those feelings that were nowhere to be placed, trying to make his eyes look like there was no trace of crying. Like a child picking up messy toys, he is careful and careful, for fear of leaving small parts and sticking to the soles of other people’s feet.

Turn around and go to the bedroom.

She had already thought about it in her heart. After Ayue finished washing, she would hug her to sleep obediently, and don’t say a single extra word. At least tonight, give each other a good night’s sleep.

When entering the bedroom, she turned her head inadvertently and saw that Zhou Zhenyue’s sweater was placed on the small sofa chair by the bathroom door.

She walked over subconsciously, wanting to help put it away and put it on the head of the bed, so that Zhou Zhenyue could wear it in the morning.

Unexpectedly, as soon as I picked up the dress, the mobile phone under the dress fell to the ground unexpectedly.

“Clap” twice, and bounced on the edge of the sofa.

It should be that the screen was always on when I was downstairs before, the phone was not locked, and it was lit with a faint light, which was the desktop interface.

The wallpaper is pure white, simple and clear, and you can see the location of all apps at a glance.

Mu Xueyi bent down and picked up Zhou Zhenyue’s phone, trying to turn off the screen for her.

When he swiped his thumb at the bottom of the screen, he accidentally opened the memo in the corner.

Mu Xueyi didn’t want to spy on Zhou Zhenyue’s privacy, so her first reaction was to quickly exit this page.

But when he was about to press the back button, he suddenly stopped.

His eyes fell on the only long note in the memo for a moment.

a long time.

All stared blankly.

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[Updated at 1:00 am on December 19th]

【1. I love her. No matter what happens, I can never deny that. 】

[2. I should think about it, should I stop digging the horns. If some obsessions persist, they will only harm both of us at the same time. In order to gamble, so that neither her nor I have a good death, is this really necessary? 】

[3. I have indeed been let down many times. But I have everything in my life, I just can’t hold her. And she has nothing but me. Maybe I shouldn’t count too much. In fact, I also know very well that her life needs more consideration than me. 】

[4. Nothing happens for no reason in this world, she must have her own difficulties. 】

[5. She will tell me, I have to wait. 】

【6. You should try hard to believe her. I can trust her the first time, and I can definitely trust her the second time. 】

[7. One day, she will become my real wife. Grandpa said that you must be tolerant, gentle, and patient with your wife. 】

[8. She is introverted, don’t force her. 】

[9. She likes to eat slowly, don’t rush her. 】

[10. When walking side by side with her, walk slowly, she has bad feet, wait for her. 】

[11. She is cute, and it is normal for people other than me to like her. I can be jealous, but I can’t kill her. If you kill her, she will cry secretly. It’s cute to cry…but I can’t do that. 】

[12. Be nice to her. Growing up, I was a person with a poor imagination. So I had to understand that she was only more vulnerable than I thought. 】

【13. Don’t give up her easily. If you really feel that you can’t hold on at a certain moment, read Article 1 several times. 】

[14. If you have no patience to read all the contents of Article 1, then just read the first three words of Article 1. 】

The author has something to say: I went to get vaccinated, it will not be changed tomorrow, and I will take a day off~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: 2 green pepper fish; 1 Xiaowei, Luo Tong, yoyo, the strange sister AhLian, just a little grass, Chen Ling, who lives in Beifu Mountain;

Thanks to the little angel who irrigated the nutrient solution: 20 bottles of green pepper fish; 10 bottles of old rice two, three and three; 9 bottles of Yusheng Sun; 5 bottles of hugging Ah Jin;