Not Spare the Years - Chapter 122

Zhou Zhenyue’s hand holding the medicine box trembled uncontrollably, her fingertips sinking into a deep hole in the box.

The small words on each drug description on the medicine box were like frosted iron needles, digging hard at her eyeballs.

Zhuang Yurou found Zhou Zhenyue’s gaffe, “What’s wrong?” She stretched her neck and wanted to take a look at the medicine box.

However, Zhou Zhenyue lowered her hand, immediately held the steering wheel, and started to reverse the car in a trance.

As soon as the car started, Zhuang Yurou hurriedly took two steps back and asked loudly, “What’s the matter?”

The SUV turned around with a muffled roar and drove away with barely any pause.

The brakes must have been slammed **** the U-turn, and there was a rut on the ground.

Zhuang Yurou and Li Lulu looked at each other, looking confused.

Inside the off-road vehicle.

Zhou Zhenyue looked at the road ahead, and for a while, it seemed that she was just driving by instinct, her mind went blank.

After driving for a long time, she suddenly remembered that Mu Xueyi had already gone to the hot spring villa, and she could not find her in Anyang.

As soon as the steering wheel turned, the car was parked on the side of the road.

She took a deep breath, froze for a while, and then took out her phone.

Open the contacts, the thumb is hanging over the word “Xueyi”, the fingertips and the phone are shaking.

…what should she say?

Ask the other person directly, “Have you ever suffered from depression?”

She has concealed the old things for so long, even if she opens it up decisively, will Xueyi tell the truth?

For some reason, when Gao Chuan suddenly appeared in my mind, there was a large locked wooden box in the corner of the room.

Immediately, what Mu Xueyi had said flooded into his mind.

– “Gaochuan is where I have stayed for the past year.”

— “In the box… are some life shards.”

Obviously in Mu Xueyi’s mouth, it was just an ordinary box with some sundries. But in the bunch of keys she gave her, all the locks in the courtyard were included, but the key on the box was missing.

Why haven’t you thought about this before?

Zhou Zhenyue vaguely sensed that perhaps opening the box would open up the real past.

She slid her finger down, slid to Xiao Ai’s cell phone number, and dialed.

“Get me a ticket to Gaochuan immediately, the fastest flight.”

After the phone call, while waiting for the ticket, my heart beat faster and faster, but I was a little dazed.

Zhou Zhenyue once again picked up the medicine box hidden in the depth of the storage compartment, this time, read the above medicine instructions in more detail than just now.

【Risperidone Tablets, Applicable Symptoms:】

[1. Obvious positive symptoms of various psychotic states (such as hallucinations, delusions, disorganized thinking, hostility, suspicion) can also alleviate affective symptoms associated with schizophrenia (such as depression, guilt, anxiety). 】

[2] It may be used to treat manic episodes of bipolar disorder, which are manifested by elevated mood, exaggeration or irritability, reduced sleep requirements, rushing thoughts, distraction, or poor judgment (including disorganized or hyperactive behavior). 】

The words “depression” and “bipolar disorder” were slid across it with his fingertips.

Zhou Zhenyue swallowed her saliva, slowly opened the medicine box tremblingly, and carefully took out the tin foil with medicine inside.

One tablet, half taken.

In the place where the hollow is cut, the rolled tin foil is uneven.

In no time, all the questions were answered.

She never dared to ask Mu Xueyi what was the real reason for leaving her for the second time.

The sentence that Mu Xueyi left behind when she left – “I can never live without you in my world, but in your world, there should be no more me.” She read it many times, but she still couldn’t express it in such a vague way. Read the best answer.

She was very afraid, afraid that Xueyi would leave again for this reason that she couldn’t deduce, so she never dared to ask about it. Thinking, since it has passed, it is better not to ask anything.

Broken roots, if you don’t know why, the best way is to keep them buried in the deepest part of the soil forever.

But…

Zhou Zhenyue clenched the tin foil plate in her hand, slowly bent her back, and lay on the steering wheel.

An uncontrollable whimper escaped intermittently from his arms.

After some time, Xiao Ai sent the flight information to her mobile phone.

She casually wiped the tears that fell on her cheeks, and drove straight to the airport without any hesitation.

Check in, get on the plane, take off, land.

A smooth journey.

After arriving at Gaochuan, I chartered a car to go to the remote courtyard.

From booking the flight to arriving at the small courtyard, it took only four hours in total.

Zhou Zhenyue took out the bunch of keys, opened the courtyard door, walked to the bedroom where they lived, and unlocked it.

The large brown box, dusted with dust, was still there, dusty and locked.

She took out a toolbox from under the bed, took out the heaviest large wrench, walked to the box, and slammed it down at the padlock.

The heavy wrench slammed into the padlock again and again, and the harsh “boom” echoed tightly in the house.

The lock was already rusted, and it couldn’t bear such violent smashes, and it quickly cracked with a click.

Zhou Zhenyue broke off the smashed lock and lifted the lid of the box.

When her eyes touched the inside of the box, she froze in place and didn’t respond for a long time.

box…

is empty.

how…how could…

She immediately bent over and pushed the box, and found that the weight was not the same as when they lived here, it was much lighter.

Zhou Zhenyue took out her mobile phone and made a call.

The person over there quickly picked it up and said with a smile, “Ayue, why now…”

“What’s in the box?”

Tears fell down her eyes one by one.

There was silence on the phone for a moment, and when he spoke again, the smile had completely disappeared.

“…Where are you?”

Zhou Zhenyue pressed her throat and asked word by word, “Where are the things in the box?”

Mu Xueyi has realized something.

After a long while, she smiled again, as if reluctantly, and replied:

“I asked Anon to throw it away.”

Zhou Zhenyue closed her eyes, unable to hold back her crying.

“why did not you tell me?”

“We are about to get married, Ayue.” In the receiver, Mu Xueyi’s voice was a little distorted, “That was all a long time ago, we… there is no need…”

Zhou Zhenyue clenched the mobile phone in her hand, knelt on the ground feebly, looking at the empty box in front of her, as if she was facing the time of the year that belonged to Mu Xueyi that she could no longer set foot in, she burst into tears.

“What’s in the box?” she asked, choking. “Please, tell me, what the **** did I… miss? I beg you, Xueyi…”

Mu Xueyi’s voice also trembled: “I’ll find you.”

Zhou Zhenyue grabbed the edge of the box, her fingertips sinking into the wooden board, “Please, tell me…”

Mu Xueyi: “Okay, I’ll tell you, I’ll tell you everything. Don’t move, I’ll find you.”

The voice of Mu Xueyi calling Ge Weinong could be vaguely heard over the phone.

It was already evening, and the twilight was fading outside the window.

Zhou Zhenyue sat in the darker and heavier darkness, with the passage of time, the precipitation of her mood, and more and more memories poured into her mind.

After Mu Xueyi returned to Anyang, everything she did to her came to the fore in detail.

Force her to sign a contract and handcuff her.

mocking her, persecuting her, insulting her with words.

She questioned the riddled heart she held in every possible way.

Now it seems that the whole world can question Mu Xueyi, only she is Zhou Zhenyue, why do you question?

Thinking about it carefully, from the very beginning, when she got into the car with the brake problem, Xueyi had already shown her unchanging heart for her life.

That time, Xueyi controlled the car and slammed her side into a big tree, breaking a leg, but saved her unscathed.

Later, when he returned to Mu’s house, in order to plot against Mu Ruqing, he was willing to have a finger chopped off.

And because of ruining Mu Ruqing’s life, he doubted his bottom line and spirit as a human being, and stepped into depression and bipolar disorder step by step.

Perhaps when he left for the second time, Xueyi wanted to find a corner where no one was there to rot quietly.

But even though it was so difficult, she let herself stand up again, tried her best, and walked back to her side.

And myself…

Zhou Zhenyue covered her eyes and cried bitterly.

She had never cried so mournfully in her life.

The sun sinks into the back mountain and the moon rises. Move slowly from east to west.

Hours passed without a trace.

It’s already late at night.

There was a sudden sound of being pushed open from the courtyard door outside, with a creak, accompanied by the thumping sound of sparrows on the branches.

A burst of footsteps from far to near, the door behind him was pulled open.

Mu Xueyi, who no longer needed to use crutches, trotted over, saw Zhou Zhenyue on the ground, and hurriedly knelt down and hugged him.

Apparently he came in a hurry, he didn’t bring anything, his hair was messy, and there was sweat on his forehead.

“Ayue,” Mu Xueyi immediately took Zhou Zhenyue’s arm and wrist to check it, and breathed a sigh of relief, “Fortunately…fortunately, nothing is wrong.”

Zhou Zhenyue smiled bitterly: “So far, you are still thinking about caring about me?”

“I…” Mu Xueyi hugged Zhou Zhenyue and let her lean against her arms, her voice was very low, “I’m just afraid of you, so I don’t want you to know.”

Zhou Zhenyue couldn’t help but intensify her tone: “I don’t know anything, can you really pretend that none of this happened?!”

Mu Xueyi hesitated.

Zhou Zhenyue realized that her tone was too heavy, she slowly relaxed her shoulders, raised her hand and hugged Mu Xueyi’s waist softly.

“I didn’t mean to kill you…” Her eyes were wet again, “I just… regret…”

Mu Xueyi sighed inaudibly, hugged Zhou Zhenyue tightly, and said softly:

“Ayue, you don’t need to regret anything. All choices are made by me. Even if I have difficulties, I should bear the consequences of every choice.”

She paused.

“And at that time, I did abandon you, and I didn’t tell you the truth. It’s normal for you to be strict with me when you don’t know anything. I know, you asked me to sign a contract and wear handcuffs. It’s because you’re too scared to lose me. I never blame you.”

Zhou Zhenyue grabbed the knitted sweater on Mu Xueyi’s waist.

“I also… have no position to blame you.”

Mu Xueyi gently stroked the top of Zhou Zhenyue’s hair, and slowly, comforting her.

“All the reactions you make are normal people’s reactions. I didn’t tell you in time that made us go through so many detours. If you say that you must find a sinner in these things, then you have done something wrong. It must be me, I was not good enough, I couldn’t stand those emotions, and I didn’t deal with them properly, so I hurt myself and you.”

Zhou Zhenyue closed her eyes, but she cried harder and harder.

“I don’t know what went wrong. You found out about my illness. I didn’t want you to know…”

Mu Xueyi smiled bitterly.

“Look, this is another mistake of mine. I decided to hide it, but I didn’t hide it well. At this time, I let you find out, except for making you feel guilty, it’s useless, and I…”

“Snow coat.”

Zhou Zhenyue’s fingers gripped her knitted sweater tighter.

Mu Xueyi hurriedly responded, “Huh?”

Zhou Zhenyue buried her face in Mu Xueyi’s shoulder and said hoarsely in her ear:

“sorry.”

Mu Xueyi’s nose was sour, and she wanted to tell Zhou Zhenyue that she didn’t need to say sorry, but before she could say anything, her throat seemed to be blocked by something.

She had no choice but to hold back her tears.

Zhou Zhenyue finished this sentence with tears:

“I’m sorry. I just realized that you love me so much.”

The author has something to say: Note: “Symbols for Risperidone Tablets” in black brackets are taken from Baidu Encyclopedia

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