Not Super Robot Wars at All - Chapter 159

Roland looked at Ed’s stupidly, even unaware that the pen fell on the table, and couldn’t help but cover his mouth and laugh out loudly: “I only made you play when you were too tired. ?”

“…Huh?” Ed hurriedly picked up the pen, “No, it’s impossible, how could it? What a joke, it doesn’t exist, what do you say.”

“So I said you are too tired. Even this kind of trick is tricked. It’s really not like you.” Roland shook his head and sat across from Ed, staring at him with innocent eyes, “In a state of fatigue. It’s easy to make mistakes and work is not efficient. Go back and rest.”

“but–“

“This is an order from His Royal Highness.” Roland said with an embarrassed smile, “Even if aliens really appear next month, even if humans are really wiped out, there is no way. Doctor. He eats and sleeps as usual, Ed, there is no need to carry everything on his own shoulders.”

“but–“

“Whether on the moon or on the earth, no one is pushing you, please don’t push yourself so tight.” Roland looked at him worriedly, “Your love, children, and friends are all worried about you, knowing Didn’t it mean that with the fruit of life, everyone can comfortably care about your body.”

“but–“

“No but.” Roland’s tone rarely became serious. “You don’t care about human life or death at all. From start to finish, you have the idea of ​​taking important people to another earth. Why? Do you want to pretend that you really care about it now?”

Suddenly, a chill rose from Ed’s tailbone straight to the uterus, and then gradually spread down the whole body until the fingertips of his hands and feet were cold. In a daze, he had the illusion of being stripped and thrown onto the road in the winter. He could only watch Roland wide open his mouth, but couldn’t utter a word.

“Ah, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to say something so heavy on purpose.” Roland showed a flustered look, waved his hand while apologizing, “I just want to persuade you to go back to rest, accidentally…”

“I accidentally told the truth.” Ed throws the pen in his hand casually, his voice becomes very depressed, “You guessed it right, what I’m fighting is to pay attention to the end of the run. The human death tube I’m shit, I’ve been pretending to be very responsible, and you are absolutely correct.”

Roland froze for a while at a loss, got up impulsively, and sat back after thinking about it. Although this topic may hurt important friends, Roland chose to grit his teeth and continue: “I have carefully read the documents at the summit. Only your authority is terribly high, and everyone else is subject to various restrictions.”

“Yes, I restrict Char, restrict Bright, restrict Nanali, restrict Harman, and even restrict Diana. I don’t trust anyone, I can only trust myself.” Ed said, “I have been I naively thought that I was already integrated into this world. I didn’t realize until I lost the NT induction that these were all illusions brought by the polygraph. I was the first me, a character with Yang Wenli’s template, and nothing has changed.”

“But have you ever thought about it, why all the documents passed? Why did they vote for it? Because they believe you.” Roland said firmly, “Ed, you are no longer NT, they believe you are not Because there is a polygraph, just because you are you.”

“Don’t take a single example to comfort me all, haven’t you just seen Char an angry?” Ed leaned back weakly in his chair, “I don’t even know if he really did it for Minerva. , Or to take Minerva down the steps for other things, such as seeing through the cowardly nature of my trying to escape.”

“Xia Ya was originally a very complicated and cunning character, don’t you understand that he is not normal?” Roland pressed his hand on the table excitedly, “suspicion and selfishness are human nature. What’s wrong?”

“I don’t believe anyone, Roland, don’t even believe you, understand?” Ed said loudly, “I can’t believe in Lux, but Angie, and CC. I don’t know everything they say. Is it true. But how can I doubt them? If I doubt that, the fragile environment, which is like walking on thin ice, collapses immediately?”

“So for your lover, for your friends, or for all mankind, you deceive yourself and act as if there is no barrier. Pretend that you have reached mutual understanding, and then use actual actions to prove that you are not hypocritical.” Roland suddenly realized, his eyes became a little sad, “Ed, I think I understand.”

“If you understand, let’s go. I will continue to deceive myself.” Ed sighed and picked up the pen again and sat down. “Those who pass through are those who pass through until death. I and you are not the same, Roland, I and Yang Wenlicai. Are of the same kind.”

“Are you…” Roland pondered his words, “Are you afraid of becoming Yang Wenli?”

“……Probably.”

“But I think it’s okay to be like Yang Wenli.” Roland greeted Ed’s surprised eyes. “I talked to Mr. Zhang Wufei before, what did Dr. Yang Wenli say. He has an awkward personality, paranoid and suspicious, and very courageous. , I don’t like to ask for help when something goes wrong. I have done a very powerful thing but I don’t know it. You see, in fact, you already look a lot like him, don’t you?”

“I’ve already…” Ed looked at Roland blankly, “…looks a lot like him?”

“Yes, very similar, but so what?” Roland stared into his eyes, “No matter what Yang Wenli thinks, Mr. Zhang still respects him, no matter what you think, I still like you. Even if you are true I feel that I have become Yang Wenli. In everyone’s eyes, you are still Ed. Some things are not based on your will.”

“But the starting point of this emotion is false, it was induced by the wrong—”

“You are not even NT. What right do you have to deny that other people’s emotions are false?” Roland stood up on the table quickly, staring at him condescendingly, “Suspect what’s wrong? What’s wrong with being timid? What’s wrong with being selfish?” What’s wrong with indifference? I, Roland Seyak, at this moment, I recognize that you are right.”

“Don’t be kidding.” Ed glared back, “I am such a hypocritical and arrogant foreigner who is right—”

“The idea of ​​running away if you can’t beat is correct, the idea of ​​doubting your lover and friend is correct, the idea of ​​not being able to integrate into the world is correct, and the idea of ​​not being responsible for all mankind is correct. These are all normal people have ideas, don’t take them. The saint’s rules demand oneself.” Roland’s eyes were extremely firm, “Even if humanity is perished, even if we escape to another earth, even if all the living and dead are pointing to you, I will affirm that you are correct. “

Ed swallowed hard, not knowing what to say.

“Look, these dark thoughts are only known to the two of us. As long as we don’t say anything, no one will blame you.” Roland smiled, “Also, when you suspect CC and the others, remember that you can only secretly. Don’t show it, or your house will really explode. If you can’t hold it back, come to me, and I’ll be sure of you.”

“You…” Eddy narrowed his eyes and lowered his head, “Your purity is so dazzling, I am ashamed of myself under the light.”

“Don’t use this kind of strange sentence to describe me.” Roland scratched his cheek embarrassedly. “If you can’t get an answer for some things for a while, just think about it slowly. If it doesn’t work, you can talk to me. We It’s a friend. Anyway, Ed, you need to rest now.”

“I, my mind is a little messy, I don’t want to go back.” Ed supported his forehead, “I was shot by the mouth, this story is a bit wrong.”

“I have to deal with my wife when I go home, it will only get more tired, I understand.” Roland nodded sadly, ignoring the second half of his sentence, “Then come with me and take you to a special one. place.”

Ed was caught in the mouth and was still a little confused. He followed Roland downstairs and got on the car in a daze. Roland cautiously led him to avoid the cameras in the community, went upstairs to open the door like a thief, and finally entered a room with a very simple decoration.

After closing the door, Roland let out a sigh of relief, and said excitedly while turning on the light, “This is my secret base.”

“Secret base? Yours?” Ed changed his shoes under Roland’s instructions, “Isn’t the secret base of His Royal Highness…too shabby?”

“It’s not easy for me to secretly save one room and one living room while Diana is in charge of the money. The price of the moon is really high.” Roland said that as a leader should never say a line, he took Ed into it. The bedroom, “If you don’t want to go home, just rest here. I have used this bed only. It’s very clean. Don’t worry.”

Eddy, who was dizzy, took off his shoes and clothes, and went to bed. Roland turned his head embarrassedly: “Usually I don’t want to go home or want to be alone, I will come here alone quietly. Later I will also write down your authority. Enter the door, you can come here if you need it in the future, and don’t work overtime because you don’t want to go home.”

“…Thank you.” Eddy didn’t finally wake up until he lay down. Then he remembered an important question and sat up again. , “No, how did you show up? Aeolian changed your body?”

“You are asking this question now. It seems that you are really tired.” Roland smiled bitterly, walked to the bed and pushed him back on his shoulder, “Yes, so I was in your lab just now. Only then did I say we met for the first time.”

“Then, then you…” Ed asked in a low voice tremblingly, “has changed back?”

“It’s important, my current gender?” Roland sat on the edge of the bed and looked at him tenderly, “What if I am a male? What if I am a female? Will our friendship change because of this? Would you? Don’t you continue to be friends with me?”

“……will not.”

“Then why do you want to ask? No matter what I become, this is something I only need to struggle with. I hope that I will always be the same me in your eyes. Just like no matter how much you feel that you and Yang Wenli have become Similar, in my eyes you are always the same as yourself.” Roland turned his head and thought, “Let’s do it, close your eyes.”

Ed closed his eyes obediently, and then a sparse voice came from his ear. He didn’t open his eyes until Roland said it was right. At this time, he saw: “Uh, why change clothes?”

“It’s for you.” Laura walked to the side with a polite manner and turned around. “Am I not Roland now? Could our friendship end because I changed a dress or changed a name? “

“…No.” Ed found it difficult to look away, but still resisted the urge to question.

“Physiology affects people’s thinking, Ed.” Laura adjusted her skirt and sat down on the edge of the bed again. “Just like the past few decades of life will change my preferences for dressing, I lost the NT meeting. It is a very common thing to affect your thinking. They are all born naturally in response to changes in the environment. They are all you, and none of them is false. It seems that there is only one me from beginning to end, and I will not I am ashamed of my past, present, and future, and I will not deny it.”

“You are so dazzling.” Ed said sincerely, “I can’t be like you.”

“You don’t need to be like me, you are cute enough to look like you are. I now kind of understand why CC would like you. Both of you are like **** characters. This is probably a grouping of people, right?” Laura Rou Smiled softly, patted his hand lightly, “Don’t think about it anymore, if you can divert your attention to other things, my clothes will be worth changing.”

“My attention has indeed been diverted.” Eddy said honestly, feeling the warm breath around him, “Your actions are extremely valuable.”

“We are all married, Ed, I love Diana deeply, you also love CC and the others, and we are very good friends, I feel very happy now.” Laura replied elegantly after hearing the song, “still said Do you have the courage to pursue the truth anyway? Can you accept any ending?”

“Sorry, I’m rude.” Ed hurriedly explained, “I’m not—”

“You are not rude, I am conscious of my appearance, and I am very clear about your usual behavior. If you want to continue dancing with me, I can understand and will agree, because we are friends.” Lola rushed to him. He smiled faintly, “You are my only friend, I cherish it.”

After speaking, he and Ed looked at each other silently, motionless, as if he wouldn’t react no matter what happened.

“Thank you.” Eddy patted her hand gently as she did just now, “I also cherish it.”

After speaking, close your eyes and make the appearance that I am going to sleep.

“You’re welcome, this is what friends should do.” Laura leaned down with a sharp heart, and finally whispered in his ear, “Good night.”