Perfect For Me - Chapter 11 Denial
Shaking I shot up awake alone and still in my wedding dress. Touching my face I started to laugh with a sigh I said, “That had to be a dream, NICK ARE YOU HOME?” Standing up I almost fell trembling my legs felt weak and sore. Reaching down I removed the heels off my feet. Looking around once more I shouted out once more, “NICK WHERE ARE YOU?” No answer and now feeling dread I rushed around the house. In our bedroom, “NICK?” In the spare room, “NICK?!” In my office, “THIS ISN’T FUNNY NICK!!” Looking in the bedroom again I looked through the drawers and saw none of his things. Almost like he hasn’t been here in the first place. Shaking my head I shook off the feeling of doom. It can’t be true he didn’t leave me he wouldn’t.
Standing up I started ransacking the house. Items were strewn on the ground but all the things were mine. None were or are his. It can’t be true it just can’t. Heading to the kitchen I saw a note hanging from the fridge. My hands trembled as I reached for the thing that should be my lifeline. It wasn’t and it will never be. Reading the note over and over I didn’t believe the words on the page until I started reading it out loud.
“Dear Ann, If you are reading this then I have left and you are probably denying it. I will tell you what you refuse to believe until you believe it. I don’t want you I fell in love with someone else. I have been seeing her behind your back a month after I proposed to you. My midnight trips to work were just to see her. She is perfect for me she is not a constantly depressed person who cries or break down over the simplest of things. She is proud, brave, smart, and beautiful unlike you. Also, we found out that she is pregnant with my kid I will make her life perfect. You were always a toy for me yet when your father died of cancer I felt an obligation to make it so that you could stand on your feet. I was never happy you were an obligation and a game. Until I found out with the person who I love is her not you I decided to drop you but I didn’t want to tell you in person so I left. You are worthless, depressing, clingy, and opinionated. So here you go I hope you actually discover something better for yourself.”
Trembling I read the note again this time in my head while shouting out in confusion and anger, “What the hell did I just read.” Sniffling tears streamed down my face as I ripped the letter in half. While trying not to crumble I started to mumble, “No… No, it can’t be true. It just can’t I can’t believe it. Yeah, it can’t be true.” Laughing I felt myself numbing falling down my legs now had no strength as my head hung low. Reaching into my storage area I grabbed the birthday gift that Nick had gotten me. Lifting the glass rose to the light I saw the beauty of the gift. that was when I noticed something engraved on the glass. Flipping it over I felt that denial will no longer work. Reading what was on the back out loud I felt my heart shatter, “I love you Krystal and I will love our child.”
Shaking I realized the one thing that I will never forget him for. He forgot it was my birthday and gave me his ex-fiancee his lover’s present so that I wouldn’t suspect him. In that instant depression didn’t grip me any longer. All I felt was rage pure rage that I couldn’t contain. The glass rose that was once was in my hand was now shattered on the floor while blood pooled around my hand. Lifting up my hand I started to pull the glass out of my hand and stood up. Falling over blood dripping from my hand I slid onto the spare bedroom and fell asleep. all the while thinking “Please let this all just be one big nightmare.” I didn’t feel the need to eat and I slept not wanting to wake up.
