Picking the stars - Chapter 47
Tonight is cloudy, there are no stars and no moon.
From Song Er’s ward, you can see the hospital garden. The garden is dark and you can only vaguely see the lonely bench under the street lamp.
The light in the ward was still only dimly turned on, because Song Er’s eyes were still not able to adapt to the strong light.
“What’s the matter?” Song Wei always paid attention to Pei Ji’s emotions, and of course he found that she suddenly fell.
In fact, if you change individuals, I am afraid that you will not be able to find out. After all, the facial nerves of robots are not so developed, extremely weak changes, and most people are not so sensitive.
But Song Yi could find out.
Maybe it has nothing to do with the eyes, because when she is blind, she can often feel the changes in Pei Ji’s mood.
It’s as if Song Yi used love to connect an invisible line between them, which can continuously input Pei Ji’s emotions into Song Yi’s heart, allowing Song Yi to understand her better, love her better, and more. Take good care of this little friend who rarely gets love.
“If you don’t speak, I’m going to be angry.” Song Wei raised his eyebrows and threatened fiercely, as if he really wanted to be angry because of Pei Ji’s silence.
Pei Ji was obviously anxious, but still did not speak.
Song Er thought that the professor was considering how to express, so he stopped urging and waited patiently.
After waiting for five minutes, Pei Ji still did not speak, as if something hindered her and prevented her from expressing what was in her heart.
Song Er was not angry, and did not lose patience, she chose to guide and prompt.
“Because of Pei Yi?” She asked softly.
It’s been very good just now, it was after mentioning Pei Yi that the professor became silent.
Pei Ji glanced at Song Er and immediately lowered his head. Seeing her like this, Song Ye had a weird hunch, not knowing what the hunch was, but it made her feel flustered.
“One thing…” Pei Ji opened his mouth, with a serious look. She saw the gauze on Song Er’s wound, paused, and then said, “I will tell you when you leave the hospital.”
She had been hiding this for almost two months, and she still didn’t know how to speak. She thought she would be embarrassed, but she had just carefully distinguished her emotions and found that apart from the embarrassment, she still felt very uncomfortable, very repulsive, and rejected Song Er’s mouth to say the name Pei Yi.
Song Er’s reaction was very quick. After hearing her say this, he immediately asked: “About Pei Yi?”
The uncomfortable feeling became more and more obvious, Pei Ji wanted to say, don’t mention Pei Yi. I also feel that this rejection of myself is very unreasonable.
Song Ye should mention Pei Yi.
She is her girlfriend.
The girlfriend’s words made Pei Ji’s stomach twitch like a pain.
“Yes.” She replied, and then looked at Song Ye, wanting Song Ye to stop asking and not mention Pei Yi.
But she also knew that such a request was unreasonable, and she concealed it first, and she had no position to make such a request.
Song Wei felt that her emotions were not right, and said to her, “Okay. You will tell me when I am discharged from the hospital.”
Pei Ji nodded, and said nothing else. Then she stood up, walked to the edge of the table, and took out the tablet.
“I have a video conference tomorrow morning, and there are still materials that I haven’t read.” She turned around and explained to Song Er.
It seems normal. Professors often enter work seamlessly after the dialogue.
But Song Er felt that the professor was evading. She thought for a while and said, “Okay, then you should be busy.”
Pei Ji took the tablet and looked at the information, and from time to time he used the electronic device to make circle annotations on the screen.
She was very focused, and the ward fell silent all at once.
It was a little abruptly quiet. Song Wei discovered that this kind of abrupt silence appeared after mentioning Pei Yi, and the professor seemed very, very unwilling to mention Pei Yi.
It may be that the effect of the analgesic has passed, and the pain in the wound has increased again, making Song Er unable to think deeply. She has a erratic feeling, which makes her very uneasy.
At ten o’clock, Pei Ji finished reading the materials, wrote a general idea of the speech at the meeting, and put the tablet aside, ready to wash.
First she found a basin, went to the bathroom to get warm water, then moved to the edge of the ward, soaked a clean towel, wrung it out, and wiped Song Er’s arms and face.
Although the air conditioner was turned on in the ward, she didn’t sweat, Song Er, who hadn’t taken a bath for four days, was already uncomfortable. But on the one hand, the body didn’t allow it, and on the other hand, Pei Ji was always there. She was too embarrassed to ask for a bath.
Unexpectedly, Pei Ji took the initiative to think of it.
The water temperature is just right, and the towel is hot and humid, and it is not hot. After rubbing it on the arm, the remaining surface water evaporates, and it feels cool and refreshing.
When wiping her face, Pei Ji was much gentler, avoiding pulling the scalp and getting involved in the wound. She wiped it carefully little by little. The towel was almost just pasted on Song Er’s face and then left, so successively.
When the wiping is over, Pei Ji asked: “Is it better?”
“Yeah.” Song Er said. After rubbing it, it’s much better.
Pei Ji took the water and went to the bathroom. After half an hour, she came back. When she came back, she had taken a shower and changed her pajamas. The whole person was very soft, not even so silly.
Song Yi suddenly remembered what Pei Yi had told her that Pei Ji was a very easy-hearted person. She did a lot, but she could express it, perhaps less than one-tenth.
“Professor.” Song Wei called her, and looked at her, his eyes soft as a mist.
Pei Ji came over and sat on the small chair in front of the bed.
Song Ye asked tentatively, “Do you hate Pei Yi?”
The twitching pain in the stomach came again, and this time it spread to his heart. Pei Ji felt a strong rejection, which made her not want to talk, and made her want Song Er and don’t mention the name. She didn’t like Song Er. Say Pei Yi’s name.
“No.” But she answered Song Er truthfully.
“You…” Song Wei deliberated his words, “You can hate Pei Yi.”
She originally wanted to say “should”, but after thinking about it, she still used a weaker word like “may”.
Pei Ji frowned slightly looking at Song Wei.
Song Wei’s heart tightened, and he hurriedly explained: “Before I, I heard Pei Yi say a lot about you. At that time, I didn’t know you…”
She finished explaining, but found that Pei Ji’s face was worse.
“Why should I hate her?” she asked, in a blunt tone, “because I was treated as a control group?”
She was obviously angry, Song Er panicked suddenly, she hurriedly apologized: “I’m sorry, I won’t say anything, don’t be angry.”
Pei Ji didn’t want to hear Song Yi’s apology. She didn’t need to apologize, but she didn’t want to continue communicating with Song Yi. She stood up and wanted to go to sleep in the accompany bed.
Was caught.
Pei Ji lowered her head and saw Song Wei grabbing her. Her eyes were cautious and apologetic: “Pei Ji…I won’t mention her, don’t be angry with me.”
Pei Ji was very angry, but more sad.
“Don’t be angry, being angry is bad for your health.” Song Er tried to make her happy.
“Don’t ask others about me.” Pei Ji said, she knows she is terrible, and many people don’t like her. If you ask others, you probably won’t hear good comments.
She didn’t know how Pei Yi introduced her to Song Ye, and she was worried that it was some bad remarks.
Song Ye heard her say this, thinking she was blaming her for asking Pei Yi about her. A feeling of sadness spread in her heart. She felt a little wronged, but she still apologized: “It’s me who is not good. I shouldn’t inquire about it. I won’t be anymore. I will ask you directly. We already know each other. Mine, right?”
Pei Ji nodded.
Song Er smiled and asked, “So you’re not angry anymore, right?”
Pei Ji looked at her and saw Song Weiyan’s attention. She said, “Don’t be angry anymore.”
Song Wei seemed to be relieved, but still did not let go of Pei Ji. She said, “Let’s sleep in a bed. The bed is big enough and won’t squeeze me.”
Pei Ji cares about Song Nei’s wounds and refuses to agree, but Song Nei is very insistent.
She was very afraid that as soon as Pei Ji left her, she would be quietly angry, and then she would not be able to coax it. She insisted that Pei Ji be by her side, where she could reach, so that she would feel at ease.
She stubbornly grasped Pei Ji, Pei Ji did not dare to break free, fearing that the movement would be too big, her wound would split, and she lay on the hospital bed, leaning on the edge of the bed, half an arm from Song Wei.
Song Wei asked her to move closer, Pei Ji only moved half a millimeter, and then moved her closer, she did not increase the moving distance from millimeters to centimeters.
Song Wei knew that she couldn’t persuade her, so he had to let her go.
Sleepiness came slowly, Song Er closed his eyes, tried to ignore the pain of the wound, and wanted to fall asleep.
“Are you my kitten?” She heard Pei Ji’s voice, very soft, as if asking herself instead of asking her.
Song Er wanted to answer her, of course it was. But I can’t make any sound. She quickly fell into a dream. In the dream, she remembered Pei Ji’s sentence “because I was treated as a control group?” She felt so distressed that she tried to comfort the professor that you are not a control group, you are just you, unique, no Will be used to set off anyone.
When I woke up, the gap in the curtains filled with light, and the sky was already bright.
Song Er was awakened by the wound pain, Pei Ji was still asleep, still leaning on the edge of the bed, sleeping in the same posture as when he fell asleep, without ever moving. Song Wei didn’t bother her. She remembered the phrase “Are you my kitten?” She was a little unsure whether it was a dream, or Pei Ji really said it.
She decided to wait for Pei Ji to wake up and ask her.
Pei Ji’s biological clock is very strong. At 6:30, she woke up on time, then got up to wash, Xia Qing asked someone to bring breakfast. Pei Ji first fed Song Er something to eat.
When Song Er was full, she did not go to deal with her food, but apologized to her: “I’m sorry, I was very emotional last night.”
Song Er was a little surprised.
“I don’t hate you asking others about me, I’m just worried that their statements will affect your opinion of me.” Pei Ji said smoothly.
Song Wei suspected that the professor had brewed this passage all night. She looked at Pei Ji and couldn’t help laughing. Pei Ji was a little embarrassed, but still looked at her sincerely and asked, “Can you forgive me?”
“Why?” Song Er asked.
Pei Ji blinked his eyes and looked at Song Er in confusion.
“Why do you care about how others describe you to me? Do you care about my opinion of you?” Song Wei concretized the question.
Pei Ji nodded.
Song Wei smiled and said, “Okay, I forgive you.”
Pei Ji seemed to have done a very important thing, and the whole person was relaxed.
So was it because I was guilty all night and I lost my temper to her last night? Song Er thought in his heart, and suddenly felt very soft-hearted.
She thought what happened yesterday, so she opened it up and passed it away. As a result, she found no. The professor said less, and she rarely looked at her again. She had been thinking about it for a long time, as if thinking about difficult and difficult problems.
She still cared for her with all her heart, cared about her, but didn’t want to communicate with her anymore.