Picking the stars - Chapter 89
How to say?
Because she was watched by too many eyes in the entertainment industry, she was afraid of adding twists and turns between them.
She has to handle her affairs well. When the professor comes back, they can meet and hug often like ordinary couples. She wants to do better and make up for all the previous shortcomings and all the shortcomings.
But these are not important, because the professor no longer needs it.
Song Wei hesitated for a moment, and said in general: “After that period of time, I was a little discouraged, and then slowly faded out.”
Pei Ji took the pen, after listening to her, he lowered his head and continued to write on the paper, as if asking casually, he didn’t care what Song Er’s answer was, and he no longer cared about the time that made them suffer. .
Song Wei curled her hands on her lap. She lowered her head. This office seemed extremely hot. The person she liked was right in front of her. Song Wei felt that the air was taken away. It was so thin that it was too thin for her to breathe. .
When the takeaway arrived, Song Er went downstairs to pick it up.
After taking it up, she looked around and found that only Pei Ji’s desk was suitable, so she walked over and asked, “Should I eat first?”
She ordered a lot, several boxes, obviously not the weight of one person.
“Let’s eat something, it’s late.” Song Wei said again, carrying the takeaway in her hand, and Pei Ji said “OK” before she put down the bag.
Everything on the table was put away, and the take-out boxes were laid out one by one. They were all foods that Pei Ji liked.
Song Er is probably the person who knows her best in the world, knows her tastes, understands her quirks, and can always take care of her feelings and make her feel comfortable.
Pei Ji didn’t move his chopsticks immediately.
“What’s the matter?” Song Er asked, she smiled, “Isn’t it right?” Her tone was calm, but her heart was a little nervous.
After all, it is normal for the taste to change after such a long time.
Pei Ji said, “No.”
But when she said no, her appetite was not very good, just a few mouthfuls were full. Mimi received the injection, slept for a while, her spirit came back, and she came out of her nest after smelling the scent, stretched her waist, rubbed Pei Ji’s leg and lay down.
“Your appetite is too small, not as much as Mimi.” Song Wei glanced at Pei Ji’s bowl and said disapprovingly.
She pretended that they were not unpleasant and spoke to her naturally, but there was always a sense of anxiety in her eyes.
Pei Ji didn’t answer her words.
Most of the food on the table is left, and Song Er’s bowl also has a lot of rice. She is already full, but she still hasn’t put down the chopsticks, pretending to be not full, and wants to talk to Pei Ji more.
“Did you make any friends in West Africa?” Song Er asked again.
It was too obvious that she wanted to stay with her for a while, Pei Ji glanced at her bowl, Song Wei’s heart tightened, and he took a grain of rice and said nothing.
After a while, Pei Ji said, “I met a little girl.”
Although they kept in touch for the first two years, they rarely shared their lives. During that time, Song Wei had a hard time. She didn’t want Pei Ji to worry, so all she said were good things, and Pei Ji didn’t. I told her about my situation, who I met, where I was in my research, and how I felt. I didn’t mention it.
The four years of Pei Ji were completely vacant four years for Song Ye.
Song Er asked, “Is it a local girl? Isn’t it cute?”
Pei Ji started to pack the lunch boxes, put them back into the take-out bag, and looked at Song Er: “You should go now.”
Song Er did not move.
Pei Ji frowned gradually. She looked at Song Wei for a while, walked to the hanger, raised her hand to take off the coat, and planned to leave.
Song Wei called her in a panic: “Pei Ji!”
Pei Ji walked to the door and opened the door. The light in the aisle was dim, and the cold came in from the open door at the other end, and she shuddered.
“I didn’t quit the entertainment circle as a singer, so I could be with you!” Song Er said hurriedly behind him. She was afraid that she would just leave like this, speaking quickly.
Pei Ji stopped. No matter how much determination she has made, when facing Song Er, she always feels soft. She still had a glimmer of hope. Pei Ji closed the door again, turned around and looked at Song Er.
Song Er’s chest was slightly ups and downs, panicked and anxious, seeing Pei Ji really stopped, she surfaced like a drowning man, finally able to catch a breath. But the next moment she became nervous again, as if the water had gone through her mouth and nose, a hand reached into her chest, and her heart was tightened.
“I…” Song Er’s speech slowed down, and Pei Ji looked at her and waited for her to speak.
Her gaze was calm, she couldn’t tell whether it was anticipation or boredom. Song Er became more and more nervous, but it was already at this point, and she wanted to fight for it again.
“I’m not busy now, every five nights, occasionally socializing in the evening, but most of the time I can go home on time, there are business trips, the frequency is not high, once every two or three months.” All the regrets and all the helplessness are made up.
“My cooking skills are much better than before. If I go home earlier than you, I will cook dinner and wait for you. We sleep in a bed, wake up with you in the morning, and go out in your car. Whatever you like, I will To understand, when the weekend is not busy, we can stay at home or go out together. You can see me and touch me at any time, so do I. See you at any time and hold you at any time.”
These are things that Pei Ji had been looking forward to before, but she has not been able to give it to her.
“I know you are very angry because I forced you to go to West Africa, but I am not in that circle now, and we won’t encounter anything like that again in the future.” Song Wei assured her.
Then, she walked up to Pei Ji, tentatively reached out to hold her hand, and said, “Give me another chance, okay?”
After she finished speaking, she held Pei Ji’s hand tighter. Pei Ji did not break away from her. She lowered her head and struggled for a while, and many thoughts flashed through. In the end, she still asked: “What if you meet again?”
Song Er said hurriedly: “No, I’ve already…”
Pei Ji interrupted her: “It’s not only the entertainment industry that can’t help it.”
Song Er was stunned for a moment.
Pei Ji tried his best to express his thoughts: “I don’t care what others think of me, and I don’t mind going through dark and difficult times. I just think, don’t push me away. If there is a difficult situation to get through, we will also spend it together. Don’t say such things as breaking up, and don’t let me leave like getting rid of the burden.”
“I don’t! I don’t think you are…” Song Er quickly retorted.
“But that’s how I feel. You think my character is fragile and can’t stand any shocks, so you have to protect me, push me away, and face it yourself.” Pei Ji looked at her, “You are also worried that those people will Excessive behavior will hurt me or ruin my research career. I will not help you with anything I leave, but it will make you worried.”
She knew the situation very well. Song Er couldn’t say anything to refute.
Pei Ji came up with that idea again. If he changed his personality, Song Er would definitely not do that. This kind of thinking is very bad. When it came out, Pei Ji tried to ignore it. Looking at Song Er, she showed all her sincerity: “My research career is very important. It is the source of all my confidence in my life. There is some talent in this. I can only live in a dark corner. I am a weird person of other people. No one likes me and avoids me.”
The shadow of her youth was always in her heart, never dissipated, but she would adjust herself and warn herself to look forward.
“But even so, I don’t think my research career is more important than you. I still firmly believe that you are the most important person in my life, and things related to you are the most important things in my life.” These words are in Pei Ji has been in her heart for a long time. When she said that, she was not so fluent, but she was always firm, “Then why, at that juncture, I have to choose one between breaking up and leaving, instead of facing the most important person of mine. ?”
She asked Song Er again: “If you can do it again, would you still let me choose?”
Song Wei couldn’t answer. She always remembered the almost one-sided abuse during that period. Numerous people reported Pei Ji’s academic fraud. The parents of her school protested and asked the school to fire her. Journalists were blocked outside her home and research institute. Obviously he is a respected person, but he has endured a rat-like situation on the street. And those two **** cats, those violent conflicts hidden in the dark.
She was not sure, once again, whether she could hold it back and let the professor go through it all.
Pei Ji’s gaze was defeated by her hesitation, she no longer had hope, and said, “You go.”
Song Er wanted to say anything more, but Pei Ji didn’t want to give her another chance. She opened the door and left the office.
Walking outside, it was a chill on his face, Pei Ji put on his coat, still shivering with the cold.
She walked out, full of disappointment, but when she walked outside, she suddenly remembered that Mimi was still sick. Pei Ji had no choice but to stop. She didn’t want to run into Song Er and listened to some explanations that she didn’t want to hear at all.
Standing in a shadow outside the door.
She waited for a long time before she saw Song Wei come out. She carried the takeaway bag with the lunch box, threw it into the trash can, walked a few steps, stopped, looked back, and left.
Pei Ji turned back to the office, and after a while, she received Song Er’s WeChat.
“Professor, I thought this was the best solution at the time. You can do your research for four years without wasting. You developed a vaccine, which can save countless lives. And I solved that matter with four Start a new job in the next year. When you come back, we can be better together. Even now, I still think this is the best choice. I can’t see you in those hurts. Sorry, I I let you down.”
Mimi walked to Pei Ji’s side and scratched her trouser legs with her paw. Pei Ji looked down at it.
Probably she had been hugged by Pei Ji, and had been rewarded for many years. Mimi became bolder, looked up at Pei Ji, and screamed at her again, wanting her to hug it.
Pei Ji put down the phone, bent down, picked it up, and put it on his lap.
Mimi yawned, found a comfortable position, and fell down.
Pei Ji lowered his head and thought for a while, then whispered to the cat, “I’m too paranoid, this is not a good thing.”
In fact, it is possible to be together in this way. Song Wei likes her, and Pei Ji knows that they are the same and want to continue this relationship.
If she doesn’t mind, they can be together well, and they are even better now than before, at least Song Wei is not so busy.
“But I am still very afraid of being left behind and giving up. I don’t want to hear her tell me again when things happen, leave or break up, you choose one.” Pei Ji said to the cat.
Tears fell and fell on Mimi’s body. Mimi raised her head and screamed softly.
“She was so unlucky, it was me who met.”
If it is not her, you don’t have to take care of your personality defects in this way, and you don’t have to face her worries after paying so much.