Please Don’t Read It - Chapter 29 Page.5. He Stil Hates That Gir
Chu Yana still hugged Xi Yang tightly. Their bodies were like one, but it separated their hearts. If only, the two people would be honest, they might start a new one. However, each of them played a role.
Someone plays a role because of his hatred. While, someone else plays a role because of the fruit of sin for her betrayal. People who see the two people as harmonious lovers and filled with love. However, I saw two people as fraudsters. Someone deceiver shows love even though he is cursing and angry. Meanwhile, another person, is a big liar, presents herself as innocent and flawless.
“Hubby … I’m sorry … ”
Chu Yana said, this is the truth of her words.
“I am sorry..?”
Chu Yana nodded. In her mind she actually wanted to take off all the masks she wore. She wants to let go of the falsehood she has. But, she can’t does it. Because the mistakes and betrayals made by her have turned into new life. It is a baby that is now in her womb.
-How could Xi Yang accept me? How could I say it, I was pregnant and the father of the child was Yang Jie? He will definitely hate me, I’m sure that … I don’t want Xi Yang hates me, I want him to stay love me forever. I want Xi Yang forever to be mine only. He is mine even though I betrayed him.
However, Chu Yana didn’t realize , Xi Yang knew everything. He knew Chu Yana had betrayed him, he knew the sin she had. That is why the two people will continue to suffer. A person will suffer because of hatred for betrayal and someone else will suffer because of the love and possessiveness she has.
“I’m sorry … I’m sorry for not being by your side … I’m … I’m … ”
Chu Yana’s tears fell and drip. She was actually regret, but her regret was not like she said, but the girl regretted had betrayed the love they had. However, she could not be honest. Honesty will change everything that Chu Yana has, namely: Love Xi to her. She doesn’t want it.
“Don’t say it, honey. I don’t want to see you cry with your tears. I want you to smile, I want to see your sweet smile.”
However, those words are falsehood. The falsehood Xi possesses. He is a so talented actor in acting he knew nothing. He is good at acting like it.
“*Sob … I really love you, don’t disappear like that again …”
Chu Yana sobbed, her eyes turned red. She wants to say honesty, but she doesn’t want to lose everything because of honesty. So, the girl kept wearing the mask. Her love is something she fully possesses.
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The two of them finally went to a park near to the business faculty, Zhengzhou University.
The park is not too crowded. Maybe some people are there whether it’s a young couple or even an old man who sit just enjoying the view from the park. That looks good, most people will think so. There are flowers that bloom in spring, the flowers are beautiful, adding to the beauty of the garden.
Chu Yana walked beside Xi Yang, they both held hands. Or maybe it was only Chu Yana who looked like she was holding tightly to Xi Yang’s palm.
People in the park often throw happy smiles, they see that it is a very harmonious couple. Both people are worthy of being lovers. In fact, an old man who had been seen enjoying the scene seemed to smile warmly. He might remember fond memories like this lover.
“Honey, have you ever thought our love really makes people jealous ..?”
Xi said, he really acts himself as someone who knows nothing. The face I saw was so beautiful. I have seen it of many people who have performed so far. However, the man’s face was the most beautiful face I had seen during the eternity I had.
“Do you think so …?” Chu Yana said.
She may still feel her sin is distancing their relationship. That distance made the girl doubt. It made her even more afraid, the more afraid of losing Xi Yang.
“Hehe … don’t you think so?”
Chu Yana shook her head. She looked at Xi with her brown eyes while seeing how the expression Xi had. That expression made her hurt, it was Xi’s expression she usually saw. Expression of sincerity and honesty of his words.
However, Chu Yana didn’t know at all. Everyone is a good actor. They play it perfectly.
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They stop on park benches. It’s a long wooden bench painted in silver. Opposite the park bench is a small fountain, from their point of view, there are golden fish swimming here and there.
“Hey … do you remember the goldfish we bought …?” Asked Xi Yang.
Chu Yana nodded. She remembered the fish; it was a symbol of their love. But, now the symbol is just a symbol.
“I thought we should buy a new pair of fish … So, he won’t be lonely … Don’t you think like as me?”
-That fish … If I want to change everything like changing a partner , like that fish. I will do it ,Chu Yana. But, I really still hope for the honesty you have. I still want to stay with you.
But, Xi can’t say about it. The hatred he has, cannot do it. So, he could only say something like that in his mind. That makes it all clear, forgiving someone is still inferior to the hatred humans have. Every human being is selfish. They cannot accept reality, they live in beautiful delusions.
Chu Yana hugged Xi tightly. She is like a kitten who doesn’t want to be separated from her mother. She hugged Xi like she wanted Xi to stay beside her. She wants to let go of the longing she has.
“Just leave the fish alone … I want none new fish to replace their dead partner.”
Chu Yana said.
It was as if she thought if she was a fish had died; she wanted Xi to still only love her. Because love is the possessive attitude to this girl.
“Hubby … aren’t you angry with my words just now?”
Xi shakes his head.
“No … why should I be angry?”
“Thanks God … I thought you would hate me …”
Chu Yana said relieved.
Xi smiled. The smile is as sincere as everyone sees. But, I’m different, I see that is the most painful smile I’ve seen so far. Falsehood smile.
“I will not hate you because of that … even, if it is something can get me killed … I do not hate you, because I love you …”
Xi said loudly as he stood up. He stretched his hands together. He announced beautiful falsehood in the world. Only I can see that. Falseness that deceives many people.
“Don’t make me shy … stop it, Baka …” Chu Yana blushed. She is ashamed of what Xi Yang did. So, she pulled Xi’s hand, then asked him to slouch it.
“I know … I know … Don’t make people see here …”
” Why do you have to be embarrassed? Let people see us. Let them be jealous. “Xi said as his face approached Chu Yana. His eyes stared far into the girl’s eyes.
The faces of the two people were only 3 centimeters away. It’s close enough, so that their facial skin can felt their breath.
Carried away by the situation Chu Yana kissed Xi’s lips, she pressed her red and sinful lips. She did this to treat the longing she had. Chu Yana’s tongue wandered inside Xi’s mouth, trying to find a tongue to greet it.
– Disgusting … You are disgusting. Stop doing that, don’t put your dirty lips in my mouth. Don’t, use your tongue. Realize your mistakes … I don’t want the same lips you give to Yang Jie you used to kiss me. Stop it, bitch.
However, Xi only curse in his mind. He is an actor, so he must get the dirty lips and tongue. They kissed, there was even liquid saliva coming out of the corner of their lips.
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Everyone has the most disgusting thing for them.
However, I defile you from now on.
Chu Yana, I think time will stop now, sorry for doing something bad for you.
Sorry, you must die.
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Author Note
Actually, I have also completed another a volume of my new fantasy genre. I post in my another page flatform in my native language. But, I’m still thinking about translating it into English. Maybe you have seen that there is a rather surprising paragraph at the end of this chapter. Could it be, you think .Did I will kill Chu Yana as Xi Yang’s revenge? If you are curious, just follow this story. Actually, I hate Chu Yana a little. But, this is a story that belongs to Xi Yang completely, so I will follow what Xi feels.
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