Please Don’t Read It - Chapter 43 Chapters.33.the Two People Didnt Understand Anything At All.
The two people finally saw and experienced the same things.
The two of them will understand later. That their destiny has been rewritten.
Do the two people know?
Or did the two people feel?
That the relationships they have are not accidental. Did they realize that I had written many stories.
Stories about honesty, lies, sincerity, ambition, and greed they have ever had.
A new story behind old stories.
Only the little girl remembered all the stories they had seen and experienced. The story behind smiles, betrayals and memories of previous lives.
The way the little girl made up for the sins she had committed. To touch the guy again, to look at the guy and feel the guy.
For the last time in her life.
But, I will always know and feel that the guy will always do the same thing. Proving the same sincerity to that little girl.
So that the two people will eventually become one. Even though the little girl and the guy will hurt others’ feelings and hearts.
But, something that is true and certain.
The little girl was never guilty of anything.
Except for one thing.
The fact that the girl always refused the confession of love from the same guy at seven lives for the same person.
So, the little girl will always feel burdened. When I will open the story in the man’s diary and letters.
The guy who always falls in love with one girl in the life he has, Li Yuan.
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The man’s sincerity made me realize. That everything I have written so far in eternity and in my books really exists.
I want to see the soul and hear the guy’s answer.
Guy who never die and have been rejected by hell and heaven.
People who are always thrown away and dumped, even by the person he loves most.
I kept looking at the little girl’s face. A white face like snow when she comes and sells her dirty soul to me.
Her soul is dirty because she always makes the same mistakes.
Make one person killed for saving her.
Has the girl forgotten?
When he kissed a man who always wore a beautiful mask in front of a guy with extraordinary sincerity.
I want the little girl to see and remember when the stupid man just smiled pretending to prove that his heart wasn’t hurt.
Will their stories both end happily?
Will the little girl cry in front of the same person again?
Or will the man cry over the girl?
Because the story written by the girl and the man is a whole story.
A story about the retaliation of the betrayal that the guy felt and the story of how the girl would say a word for her regret for the man.
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“Beloved student … ”
Li Yuan looked at Xi standing at the door.
Her eyes depict longing.
So that the girl will be tormented and cannot say about honesty.
She will be tormented covering the reality of how she likes him.
About honesty.
About sincerity.
About their love.
The girl wants to make amends in her past.
She would only be able to say that when she pretended to be drunk and then fell asleep.
She pretends to be asleep when Xi reveals the same thing, then she feels the same things when Xi holds herself as Yang Xi did.
When Xi always says the same things.
About the story of a princess who will choose a red horse or white horse.
The girl will always hear an answer and the same reason.
That Xi is indeed a man from her past …
In the life of this girl she had experienced it.
A life full of pain and suffering …
Repeating and doing things the same …
So, I have given the girl a chance. However, as a payment, I will remove her soul from this world. I will erase and will make the girl as much as never existed in this world. Just like I put out the little candles. I will do it all, if she fails to make a story for the guy happiness.
“Ya … What’s wrong, sensei? ”
Xi turns to Li Yuan.
His eyes were still filled with worries.
“There is something I really want to say to you … ”
Li Yuan looked at Xi.
“What is that …?”
Xi asked.
Li Yuan thought for a moment.
Li Yuan wanted to reveal everything about them now is not genuine. That Li Yuan’s concern and all kinds of attention that Li Yuan gave were false.That falsehood made by Li Yuan to get Xi’s heart.
Li Yuan is also a part of the story that Xi read in the story for revenge on Chu Yana.
But …
All purpose were to tell the truth that he had stolen happiness belonging to Chu Yana for the happiness in his life that had returned. The purpose was lost because …
All intentions were to tell the truth that she had stolen happiness belonging to Chu Yana for the happiness in her life that had returned. The intention was lost because …
She wants to repeat it.
Repeat the same thing.
That is the girl’s selfishness.
Feel that …
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“I thought I wouldn’t say it … So, forget it … ”
The little girl has chosen.
She chose to repeat everything with the man.
Yang Xi in the past and Xi Yang in the present.
She chose not to say anything …
Because she wants happiness …
Have you seen…?
That every human expression has been fake.
Everything is fake.
Is there something out there that this man wants?
This sincere man only wants one thing that is something original …
Love that made him first have to sacrifice himself to the little girl.
So, whenever and wherever he is reborn he will always do the same thing.
Always can’t hate her, always wants to be beside her, always wants to see the girl smile, always wants to see the girl laugh and always wants to see the girl show an expression of a name that people call “Happiness …”
Always can’t hate her, always wants to be beside her, always wants to see the girl smile, always wants to see the girl laugh and always wants to see the girl show an expression of a name that people call “Happiness …”
However, no one knows the human heart.
Nothing is clear.
Because humans always wear the same masks. A Mask of calm, A mask of happiness, A mask of sadness and various masks that make me sick …
Since they were banished from Eden during that time I will hate them. Forever…
***
Xi looked at Li Yuan.
He is actually confused right now.
He wanted to convey something. Something about his feelings for Li Yuan that he didn’t even understand.
However, he did not understand. He doesn’t know yet.
He will know the story.
When he knows everything.
Then, he will cry and regret his actions.
People will blame Xi who has been consumed by revenge and turns to ashes …
“Can I know that …?”
Li Yuan asked.
Xi tilts his head.
He does not understand.
“What do you want to ask about, sensei?”
“Do you believe in the existence of life after death …? ”
Xi actually doesn’t know and He doesn’t understand.
He will only answer what is in his mind.
“If you ask like that … Isn’t that going to be something extraordinary …? ”
Xi remembers about his father.
“Wouldn’t my father be happy there … If something like heaven exists … I hope that my father is happy there … even though I myself do not believe there is life after death … ”
Xi’s eyes portray memories of him and his father, Xi Tantan.
Xi remembers everything about father … about childhood and everything.
I want to see that … ”
Xi mumbles.
Li Yuan just nodded.
Then…
Li Yuan asked.
” Don’t you not believe that, Xi? Why do you want at something that you have never believed at all?”
Xi nodded.
“Yeah … That’s true. I don’t believe that. But, isn’t that really fun … If God really exists …?”
XI sighed before he looked at Li Yuan.
Xi doesn’t trust that person at all. He never considered me at all even though we had met in the past.
-If God exists …
-If he really does exist, I hope God will never make my father die …
– will never make them betray me …
– Will not make hatred and anger in my mind …
– I hope God is there.
-However, I feel …
“I feel afraid … If one day that I will die … I’m afraid that I will only turn into a carcass eaten by worms in my grave … ”
Xi doesn’t know.
That he will not experience death in his soul. He will always live and repeat stories for me.
It will keep repeating and repeating.
Again and again.
So, I will tell everything someday.
Li Yuan smiled scornfully.
“You are really wishy-washy … ”
“So you created God just as an excuse not to be afraid …?”
Xi nodded.
“I guess that’s true … I created God so I wasn’t scared and worried …”
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“Then … Sensei …?”
Xi asks Li Yuan.
“Hm …?”
Li Yuan muttered.
– Can I say that?
-How can I say? “Please cancel your engagement,Sensei!”
-Who am I in Li Yuan’s eyes?
But …
“I just want to say that I will take you to the airport … Don’t you mind?”
Xi lied to himself.
Xi said as his eyes stared in emptiness.
“Okay … If that’s what you want … I actually feel glad…”
Li Yuan nodded.
-In the end I’m nobody to Li Yuan.
-why is the feeling of tightness in my chest getting worse …?
Xi finally can’t read his heart. So he has failed to feel what he really wants …
In fact, they failed to understand about their own hearts. How do they wish to be able to see, hear and feel the hearts of others?
Humans hope to make it so that everyone can understand each other …
To be able to see the world is beutiful and future is bright.
Without resentment, hatred, lust and anger.
So that everyone will be happy.
It was the delusion they dreamed of, where the world is a beautiful flower garden.
Where everyone will always look equally. See each other.
Then, understand everything. So, there will be no one whose happiness is stolen by someone else. There will be no similar thing like your mother experienced …
That’s the delusion they want.
A delusion in fairy tales.
All are just tales.
Like the story for your sleeper.
The story your mother often reads.
What you will always listen to.
So you alleviate the same thing.
The same thing that makes you think. That it is real and really exists. It is real and can be felt. So, you want to reach it. However, when you have failed to understand.
You will die … Will die in a delusion of your hopes and desires so far.
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