Promise You Lifelong Happiness - C94
Lin Qingrou stayed in the hospital for two days. Just as everyone thought that the child would be saved and just as they were feeling relieved, the doctor suddenly said to Lin Qingrou after checking up, “The child has already been suspended, let’s perform the surgery as soon as possible.”
Lin Qingrou was the first to ask, “You had a baby’s heart before you went to bed last night, why did you stop giving birth this morning?”
The doctor said regretfully, “This is something we cannot predict. Now, it seems to be in the middle of the night, the mother is still asleep, the child’s fetal heart stopped beating. So after a few hours, the fetus is completely gone. ”
Ye Qingming was shocked speechless for a long time.
He had been in the medical field for more than ten years, and he had seen illness, pain, calamity, and even death. However, no amount of shock and sadness could compare to the heartbreak he felt at this very moment.
After hearing the doctor’s words, Lin Qingrou’s mind became blank. She no longer had any other thoughts, she only felt as if a dull knife was slicing through her heart bit by bit.
Ye Qingming looked at her subconsciously. Seeing that there was no reaction or expression on her face, he felt even more sorrowful.
But even so, they still had to prepare for the operation.
Before the operation, the intern brought a pre-op note.
Ye Qingming took it and understood the contents. He looked at Lin Qingrou. Ever since she found out about the results a few hours ago, she had been staring blankly out of the window without saying a word. It was unknown what she was thinking about.
“Please sign it as soon as possible. The operation is coming soon.”
Lin Qingrou looked over, extending her hand, “I’ll sign it myself.”
Ye Qingming hurriedly said, “I’ll sign it for you, you rest first.”
Lin Qingrou shook her head, using a silent voice to express her refusal.
Ye Qingming had no choice but to pass the notice in front of her and then give her the pen.
The doctor said just in time, “After you look at it, sign at the bottom right corner of the last page.”
Ye Qingming looked at the doctor and said, “Okay, wait a bit before signing. I will send this to you.”
The doctor nodded and tactfully left the room.
Ye Qingming looked at the door as it closed. He sat down and said to Lin Qingrou, “The operation is very quick, and also very simple.” There’s anesthesia, so there’s no pain. ”
“You think I’m afraid of surgery?” Lin Qingrou raised her eyes to look at him.
Ye Qingming quickly explained, “I was just worried about you. After all, this matter is very harmful to you.”
He was at a loss for words. He didn’t know what to say to comfort her, or rather, he didn’t know what to say to comfort himself.
Lin Qingrou quickly signed his name and returned the notice to Ye Qingming.
The moment he took it, she said to him through her tears, “I’m trying my best to keep it, but I can’t.”
The child had been the most powerful person to maintain their relationship, but when the child disappeared, she had to hold his heart in her hands once more. Without Ye Qingming’s care and protection, her path would have been even harder. Thus, she understood very clearly that sympathy and pity were the things that she should do the most at this very moment.
Was it cold-blooded? It was still cruel. She didn’t know. However, this was the only thing she could do. It was as if this way, he could use his desire for revenge to perfectly conceal the sorrow in his heart. Therefore, this was the best method right now.
“I know, I know you’ve done your best, but that’s not something we can decide. The most important thing right now is to have the operation going well and to protect the body. ”
As Ye Qingming comforted her, he thought to himself: If it wasn’t for his words and impulsive actions that day, maybe she wouldn’t have felt a knot in her heart, leading to today’s tragedy.
When Ye Qingming saw that she had calmed down a bit, he sent the preoperative notification to the office. When he returned to the ward, he found that Lin Qingrou had disappeared.
He panicked and rushed out of the ward and searched around the corridor. Just as he was about to go to the hospital’s surveillance room to look for her, he suddenly saw Lin Qingrou standing in front of the ward’s door.
“Where did you go!” he asked anxiously.
Lin Qingrou pointed to the room, “In the bathroom. I only came out when I heard you running out. ”
Seeing Ye Qingming let out a deep breath, Lin Qingrou asked, “Where do you think I am going? Can’t think of anything? ”
Ye Qingming nodded subconsciously, but then he shook his head and said, “No, I just …” “Worried.”
Yes, only he knew exactly how worried he had been in that instant. From this, he finally understood that the anger from that day was not his suspicion or his lack of love. On the contrary, it was his love that caused him to feel the anger that had been aroused by her indifference, her lack of expression, and his long-accumulated disequilibrium.
Anger was enough to confuse one’s eyes, even the calmest and most rational Ye Qingming was no exception.
Ye Qingming examined her body from front to back. After confirming that nothing was wrong, he finally let out a sigh of relief.
Before the operation, Ye Qingming said to her, who was lying on the bed, “Don’t be nervous, and don’t be afraid. I’ll wait for you outside. ”
“Would you say the same to your patient?” she asked.
Ye Qingming shook his head, “Only to you.”
Lin Qingrou couldn’t help smiling sadly. Two drops of tears flowed down the corners of her eyes to her ears.
The procedure was simple, but behind the simple procedure was bloodshed and cruelty.
An operating room door separated the two worlds. The door was cold and sick, and outside the door was anxiety and worry.
After the nurse injected the anesthetic into her veins, Lin Qingrou could only feel a heavy smell of medicine and a numbing sensation in her throat. Then, her mind went blank, and she fell into a deep slumber.
She seemed to have had a long dream.
In her dream, she had returned to her small but very warm home. She had her favorite flowers and her favorite father.
As the scene changed, it was as if Ye Qing was famous again. Nothing had changed. She was still the same, neat and simple. However, the path from the bedroom to the living room was covered with blood. She walked over step by step and suddenly saw a small, blood-red person sitting on the bed where she used to sleep. The bed was soaked in blood and the smell of blood assaulted his nostrils. The little person was smiling at her. His smile was mixed with blood and countless black balls of air.
After a long while, a gentle voice broke the red image of fear, “LuanRou, I’m your mother, do you still remember me?”
She was stunned and tried to struggle, but found herself trapped in a cage.
“You are not my mother. My mother disappeared a long time ago. I don’t even know if she is alive or dead.”
The air was filled with a milky-white fog, as well as the jingling of the tower’s bell. It was crisp and quiet. The voice suddenly became choked with sobs, moving closer and further away. There seemed to be a figure in the mist, but he could not see it clearly.
Just as Lin Qingrou was about to speak, the nurse’s voice sounded out beside her ear. “Lin Qingrou, Lin Qingrou! Wake up, the operation is done. It’s going smoothly. ”
She slowly opened her eyes. In an instant, the fog was gone and the bell had disappeared. However, he was physically and mentally exhausted, as if a century had passed.
Lin Manmei replied in a daze with a “yes” from her throat. She took it as a reply to the nurse.
After returning to the ward, she looked at Ye Qingming, who had returned from the surgery waiting room, and handed him her hand. Ye Qingming held her hand. He wanted to clench it tightly, but he was afraid of hurting her. However, if he relaxed, he would not be at ease.
“I’m fine, I’m fine.”
“I know, don’t say anything for now.”
Before the doctor could change out of his surgical uniform, he rushed over to Ye Qingming and said, “You can’t sleep during these six hours, so don’t rest on your pillow and try to keep her awake. If you have vomiting, turn your head to the side and don’t choke. ”
Then, she smiled at Ye Qingming and said, “You already know this, so I won’t say much. If you have any business, you can look for a nurse. I still have surgery, so I won’t stay here any longer.”
Ye Qingming walked the doctor out. Seeing that the nurse was taking Lin Manchu’s blood pressure, he was finally able to be alone with her. He could finally put down the worries that he had been worrying about.
Lin Qingrou laughed at him, “You look so nervous, your hair is all messed up.”
Ye Qingming finally reacted and said, “It’s okay, it’s not like we’re working right now.” “Why do you care so much about image?”
His hair had always been neat and clean. Today was probably because he was too nervous, so he put it down and laid it listlessly on his forehead.
Ye Qingming suddenly thought of something and said, “You were in surgery just now and nearly scared me to death.”
Lin Qingrou thought something was wrong with her technique. She asked, “What’s wrong?”
“I was too sensitive myself. When I heard that the other woman who had given birth to so much blood turned out to be you, I was so frightened that I broke out in a cold sweat!”
Lin Manshui smiled, and said to him, “During the operation, I had a few dreams, but I didn’t feel anything. I just slept. It’s a little heavy, a little dizzy. ”
As she spoke, Lin Qingrou was about to fall asleep.
When Ye Qingming saw this, he quickly woke her up.
“But I’m so sleepy.” “No,” she said.
“You have to endure even if you’re tired. This is a reaction that happens even after anesthesia. Better not to fall asleep. ”
“Why?”
“Because the anesthetic and opioid drugs haven’t been completely metabolized, it would lead to lethargy in some degree, or cause respiratory depression while in a lethargic state. This is very dangerous, so it’s best to be more careful.”
Lin Qingrou nodded, then said to him, “Alright, then I’ll bear with it.”
Ye Qingming tucked her in and told her, “With a doctor like me here, you naturally don’t have to worry.”
Lin Qingrou looked at him and asked unconsciously, “Now that everything has been set in stone, are you still angry with me?”
Ye Qingming stared blankly for a moment and said guiltily, “It’s my fault. I shouldn’t have gotten mad at you that day. I misunderstood you. ”
She moved her fingers and hooked them around his wrist. “What are you thinking about? Can you tell me something? ”
Ye Qingming put her hand under the blanket and thought for a long time before saying, “To be honest, you were unwilling to tell me before, so I thought of many possibilities. However, it’s best not to tell you now. Even I can’t stand it any longer. ”
“However, you just need to remember one thing: I have never regretted being with you, neither in the past nor in the present. Just remember this. ”
Lin Qingrou could not help but ask, “Why?”
Ye Qingming could not help but smile. From time to time, he would look at the ECG monitor and say, “Why? There seemed to be no reason for it. There are some things that don’t make sense, but you feel it’s worth it, you feel it’s right. If that’s the case, then don’t ask about the reason and follow your own feelings. ”
Lin Qingrou’s eyes were slightly sore. He didn’t know if it was due to the anesthesia or because he was moved by Ye Qingming’s words.
Seeing this, Ye Qingming used a tissue to wipe her tears away, then said to her, “We will have more children in the future. We will be healthier and smarter.”
Lin Qingrou was getting more and more sleepy, but she still nodded her head with all her might, hoping to let him know how she was feeling right now.
Child? Would there really be?
For her, this would be a distant dream that she would never be able to reach in her entire life.
At that moment, a burst of laughter sounded out from outside the ward. Not long after, an old woman knocked on their door with a red candy in hand.
Just as Ye Qingming stood up, the woman grinned widely: “My daughter-in-law just gave us a grandson, we are all happy!”
As he spoke, he handed over a piece of candy.
The nurse hurried over and took the woman away.
As Ye Qingming looked at the candy in his hand, his smile turned sour.
Lin Qingrou did not think too much about it. Instead, she asked curiously, “Are there a lot of children in the ward today?”
Ye Qingming casually threw the sugar aside, “Obstetrics are busy every day, almost every day they line up to have children.”
Lin Qingrou could see the unhappiness in his heart. She had no choice but to change the topic, “When my body gets better, I’ll have to prepare to go back to work.”
“Work?” Ye Qingming was surprised.
He asked her, “Why did you suddenly want to work? Could it be because of what Quan Wei said that day?” Ye Qingming became extremely angry at the mention of Quan Wei. If it weren’t for her, this child could have been safely born!
“Of course not, it’s my own fault. “I still have to go out to work, or else I’ll suffocate if I stay at home.”
Ye Qingming thought for a while and finally said to her, “Take good care of your body first. Even if you have to work, you won’t be able to do it for a few months.”
After hearing this, Lin Qingrou did not ask him why, nor did she think about his starting point. It was because she was too tired, too tired.
When Ye Qingming saw that she had fallen asleep, he looked at his watch and did not wake up again.