QT: I Bent The Male Lead - Chapter 38
The news of the engagement of the prince of Xeris and Sashina travelled around court like wild fire. In no time everyone was aware of it.
Jason couldn’t count the number of congratulations that he had received. He had so many people congratulate him that he had grown numb from it.
His earliest wish was coming true. He was getting Sashina as his life partner but there was no sign of happiness on his face. He was sad, everything was going well before the cursed Sashina showed up and announced that they were getting engaged.
And now the crown prince didnt want to see him. He didnt leave the palace, he was there with prince Amaru. But didnt even dare look in his direction.
He didnt even try to approach him, there were no words to explain how much he messed up.
He stayed in his room to avoid hearing more about his engagement. He laid staring at the ceiling, his heart was crying and bleeding from everything that he had lost.
He found himself stuck. He couldn’t move forward to the prince where he truly wanted to be. He couldn’t move back to that night and stop himself from writing that letter to the king.
There was nothing he could say to stop the pain in his heart. Recalling the crown prince’s angered look when he heard the news of his engagement. How much his heart shattered when the man he love congratulated him and linked his name with someone else.
He had gotten angry and jealous when Davion said Sashina’s name easily but had no idea that it was him whose name would be linked to the girl.
First they would get engaged and then soon after they would be married and he would have to spend the rest of his life with her. The thought of which made him want to puke. He couldn’t imagine a future with her.
When he closed his eyes to envision what the future held for him all that he could see was him and the crown. In his hold and arms forever, that is the future that he wanted.
He was emotionally exhausted from everything. He had spent the morning listening to Sashina go on and on about what dreams she had of their future. It was the most tiresome conversation he had ever been in.
He didn’t have the strength to get ready for thr party. Memories of the good and bad times that he and he and the prince went through while they were together flashed before his eyes.
Time was the only thing standing between him and forever going away from Davion. The crown Prince was unforgettable, the man had him stay up all night waiting for him when he had no idea how he felt. Let alone now that he knows the whole truth.
He didn’t think that it was possible for him to ever forget him and move on from him. Hus heart was missing the male a lot. His smile, the way he played with his hair. The glint in his eyes when he flirted for fun.
Everything of the man at that moment brought tears in his eyes. He didn’t wish to return back home or to go to Xeris, his heart had found a home in Aphidia.
He had hope that the author had not abandoned him. He was her biggest fan and he had sent her gifts every single day. He gave her positive comments and reviews to encourage her on her writing. He was loyal to her.
She wouldn’t let him down by letting him marry Sashina. The author was the god of the novel, she controlled everything that happened to the characters and at the moment he was a character.
He understood that characters have to go bulbs before they find happiness. He just hoped the current bump in his life doesn’t cost him his happiness.
Tears flowed from his closed eyes and wet his cheeks. He couldn’t deal with the reality that he was in and the more he gave thought to the matter the worse he felt.
“Calm down!”
A loud scream came from the halls. His eyes shot open. He didnt even get enough time to wallow anf already the universe was forcing him to get up.
He rose from the bed and rushed out of the room. He searched for thr source of the scream but didnt see anyone.
He shook his head and headed back into the room. “Davion, relax,” he heard as he was about to close the door.
On hearing the name of his beloved. His heart and hand trembled, he halted in closing the door and walked back to yhe corridor.
“I can’t keep you safe unless you calm do…”
Amaru and Davion appeared right before his eyes. Davion’s looked like something a rat threw up. His hair was messy and dirty, his clothes were torn and ripped everywhere. His eyes were bloodshot while he gritted his teeth.
It was an opposite look to the handsome and beautiful man that Jason was used to. The person before him didnt look like his prince at all.
It was different from the cold look he had when his hair was cut off. The image before him made it hard to breath, his mind wouldn’t stop chanting the same sentence over and over again.
‘It’s all your fault.’
He felt guilty and saddened by the sight of the crown prince. He wished his feet weren’t rooted to the ground from shock so that he could move forward and comfort him.
“You need to relax Davy, please,” Amaru pleaded.
Davion turned his eyes from him and looked away. His eyes met with Jason’s eyes. His silent fears gripped his heart holding him captive. He was suffocating and it was his fault.
Jason was to blame, he couldn’t get what it was about him that made his heart ache so much after learning about his engagement. It was like someone had set his heart on fire and there was no water that could put it out.
He would know, he tried controlling water into his mouth to his chest and heart but the pain didn’t stop and he just went on to get hurt. He attempted to fight fire with fire to stop his heart from burning third degree inside his chest. But it didnt help with the pain.
It only added more wounds on his body that hurt. Every little thing that Jason had done with him replayed in his mind taunting him.
He was the crown prince of Aphidia, the one that everyone liked and loved. Everyone wanted to either be with him or be him. He was never used to being rejected, to have someone chose between him anf another with him on the losing end.
But with Jason he learnt what that was like. He understood what it meant to not be good enough and that just added fuel to the fire that burnt in his heart. He was angry, sad, and hurting. He was heartbroken.
Amaru kept screaming at him to calm down, but didn’t tell him how he should do that. Every inch of his body was screaming to be let out, he wanted to destroy everything in his sight starting with the cause of his pain.
Jason took a step forward and stretched his hand in the air to touch his beloved. He understood the pain, he felt it in his heart.
Just as Jason was about to touch him. Davion averted his gaze from Jason and back to Amaru. He didn’t want to see the tears in Jason’s eyes. To him, the man was feigning sadness just to mock. He was probably laughing at him in his head or waiting for him to leave before he did.
‘I won’t let you have the last laugh,’ his eyes darkened as he thought.
He went down on one knee shocking the worried Amaru and Jason. They panicked thinking that he might faint, but to their surprise he lifted his head to Amaru.
“I don’t have a r..ring,” he struggled to say in his hoarse voice. The mention of a ring made Jason nervous. The prince was hurting and in pain in that moment, when in such a state, a person could do anything. “But will you marry me?”
Davion popped the question. Jason stumbled back, his whole being wasn’t ready to hear the crown prince pop the question to someone else.
Only a few hours back he realised how he felt for him. And then discovered that he was getting engaged to Sashina and wouldn’t be with the one he loves and now he had to witness the man propose to someone else.
“Davy, I like girls,” Amaru said to him. Jason’s heart calmed down a little bit hearing Amaru’s reply.
“Then you won’t marry me?”
Davion asked, his hair forming sharp edges which were then aimed at his neck. Seeing this Amaru and Jason’s jaws dropped in freight.
“Will you marry me or not?” The prince let out once more.