Queen Era: The Monster I Love - Chapter 140

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CHAPTER 138

His rage was seething but he needed to calm down, finally, he yelled out once more but not as loud as the others and stabbed the knife into the wall as he looked into her eyes again.

This time her eyes were pure and all he could see was the sting of tears, daring to fill those lovely eyes of hers. He was tempted.

So much tempted to hold her face in his hands and kiss her, tell her he was sorry and promise to protect her but deep inside those eyes, that coldness remained, reminding him that her love, wasn’t his.

He released her neck, using his fingers to graze the side of her face, touching her lovely blonde hair and enjoying the feel in his hand.

“I would wait, Era, wait for you to come to me.”

‘Even if it is would be my doom, I would readily welcome it any day, just so long as I can have you.’ He did not dare voice that out. She need not know he was cursed, if not it would only complicate things but that was how he felt.

“You can keep waiting.”

“Always the feisty little rabbit I got married to.”

He pulled away from her, giving their bodies enough space apart. ‘I can wait. This Vidor would wait.’

“I am not yours, Vidor and it is time you start getting it into your head. Never will I be yours,” Era defiantly stated, the coldness he saw in her eyes, overtaking them once more and shining with pure delight.

It was like she was stoking the fires deep within him he was trying to quench. What was her goal anyways?

“Fine. Then get out! Never show your face before me again, not until I request it. If you do, it would be the death of you!” Vidor thundered again, sending shivers down her spine. His true colours were showing.

The one real Vidor the conqueror, Vidor the tyrant, Vidor the monster king, all resurface because of a statement she made.

“Remain lonely and locked away for all I care, it would not matter to me! Just get out!”

Turning around, he made his way to his window but did not say anything and when he noticed she still had not moved, he let out a sigh was going to dismiss her. “You may…” he had not finished his sentence when he heard the door unlock and she threw it open.

“Leave.”

He massaged his forehead and temples, his brain felt like it was going to explode. Then he heard a familiar voice and he noticed that the door still hadn’t been closed.

“Your majesty.”

“Took you long enough,” Era spat out. Peeling her gaze away to look at Vidor’s attendants and Eunuch, she eyed them and moved past them all, leaving them to their crazy king.

‘Damn them all. How dare they conspire with him. Hmm, well they should enjoy the outcome. I knew going there was a mistake.’

As she stormed away she heard his loud voice roar and she paused to listen.

Meanwhile, after she left them, Louis rushed inside to meet the king. Normally he would not have dared to when Vidor was angry but this was way worst. It involved Era and from the look of things, she was angry as well.

“Yoru majesty, what happened?”

A very wrong thing to ask one would say.

The next thing Vidor turned around and snapped at him. It was going so well but what did I get she wished to die rather than be with me. Then she would get lost for all I care.”

“Your majesty, please calm your rage. It must have been a misunderstanding,” Louis tried to reason.

“Misunderstanding you say? Being told you are worst than the death of you would call that a misunderstanding. She should have just told me she wished me dead. So defiant that queen of mine. Arrrghh!”

“Your majesty but you said some awful things to her as well.”

“Whose side are you on, Louis?”

“None. I mean yours but I want what is best for you and we could all hear you outside. You made her sad.”

“Of course, you think I did not know or I wanted to intentionally? She really overdid it and I got pissed. I never wanted to hurt her. All I wanted was for her to stay with me. Was that too much to ask of my wife and queen?”

Hearing this, Era gritted her teeth. He really should be glad they were not just friends but instead king and queen and she could not do much to him.

If not she would have gone back to slap him hard across the cheeks. How dare he say those words out loud, wife and queen.

“Hmmph!” She folded her arms under her chest and was about to leave when another of his word caught her attention.

“She did not let me finish and if she had negotiated, I would have willingly agreed to whatever she wanted.”

“What was it you wanted to tell her?” Louis inquired further.

“I was going to grant her access to the chambers of chronicles if she agreed to spend the night with me.”

“Pff… Coco..” Although it almost came out as a laughing sound, in reality, he was almost choking.

He never knew Vidor had gotten so close to Era for him to want to sleep with her already? If that was not the case then it was obvious why Era was mad at him.

“But even if she could not, one to two hours with me would have been okay or I planned to also beg her to come to visit me or I, her, to spend one hour together daily. Was that so bad?”

“Umm, not entirely your majesty.”

“Not entirely? Are you still siding her?” He was already getting angry again.

“No. I am siding the truth here, your grace. I should ask you, would you side yourself or you would side her, your majesty?”

“What do you mean?”

“Put yourself in her shoes and think from her own perspective, then answer the question.”

Hearing Louis suggests that Era shook her head. ‘Hmm, forget him, Louis, he isn’t worth it. He is just like them, brutal war tyrants.’

With that thought, she stormed away in anger and returned to her chambers.

Back with Vidor and Louis, he calmed down finally, taking Louis’s advice and thought on it from Era’s perspective.

It was no wonder why she kept on bringing the issue of her family and kingdom. He was cruel to her from the start.

He ignored her daily for his hatred towards women and even more so, he took from her the right to kill herself and just after three months of her mourning, he started being close to her.

If he was the one in her shoes, he would not readily accept himself as well.

So yes, he was being unreasonable. As long as the fact where he took her kingdom from her existed, he most definitely would find it hard in getting her heart back.

He lost. He was the big loser. His decision would forever haunt him.

He was doomed to suffer this pain of loving her without having her loving him back at least not at the moment and when she would finally love him back, he was going to die.

His life was already a sad one before he even began enjoying it.

“So your majesty, what would be your own decision or answer to your question?”

“I…”

“Be sincere with yourself, your grace. Only then would you be able to understand her true feelings and find ways to work around it and get her to fall in love with you, accepting your feelings.”

“Fine. If I were in her position, I won’t love me either.” He shut his eyes as he said that. Though true he was so hurt and he wished that it would not be so.

“Exactly, your grace. It is hard for her as it is for you so try not to force things on her and let her willingly accept you.”

“But how am I to do that when she hides and run away from me? I am scared of her leaving me.”

“Hmm, that which you feared had now happened to you.”

He looked up at Vidor, seeing the king feel so sad only made him feel bad. He was just the victim. Now that he desired the feeling of love from another, all he got was hate.

“Your fear of losing her, she leaving you only pushed you to say things you shouldn’t have and made you make rash decisions that drove her away from you.”

“Sad right bit I did not mean any of it. I love her Louis.” His voice came out so softly and quietly as he confessed to his royal physician.

“I love Era so much and I do not know why but I just know that though she hurts me, my whole being yearns for her more and more.. I simply cannot exist if she leaves this world.”