Reborn As Kakashi’s Adopted Son - Chapter 19 Gaining control over his emotions.

“Cofa do you know some way to get my emotions under control” Robin and Cofa could be seen sitting on the Third Hokage’s face and were watching the village and Robin had decided to look back at his past actions. And to be honest he wasn’t proud of it he knew the Shinobi world was dark but he realized that in everything he does he only sees the dark and not light.

He blamed Sarutobi for everything not even looking if the storyline is even the same he just assumed so and he was the new savior of this world and he just became Naruto only a darker version of it.

But he started to realize somethings his existence itself changed some things like Genma becoming a Jounin teacher what else could be changed? He finally realized something the Third Hokage never treated him wrong he never even felt truly bad intentions towards him yet he blamed him for certain things and showed hate towards him.

Robin also realized he was never the new savior Naruto was still here. Robin knew his mental health was suffering over a year ago yet he never decided to reflect on himself and how to better himself.

He just thought it was part of becoming a savior even if he never spoke out about it he deep down wanted to become a savior.

After a long while of reflection Robin came to conclusions and made some decisions:

1. He would treasure his family, friends and this village he never knew the importance of a real home because of his past life he never took the time to truly live in one place. But he decided to start from now on, he would live his life in Konoha as long as possible.

2. He would no longer follow canon storyline or back stories because who knows if it was changed starting from now on he would make his own decisions and live day by day.

3. He would start to interact with the main characters of this story. He had loved this series before so why was he so dark minded right now? He didn’t want to change the story and just blend in and enjoy the story as it goes. Deep down he realized it he treated this as a game or a weird dream, not real life. He always was spouting shit like I’m going to enjoy this life but to be honest for the time that he was here he didn’t even try to enjoy this life. He just trained so what if he became strong but still didn’t have fun would he just die once again with regret?

But to do these things he knew he had to face his emotions once and for all and not let them define him but he would need to gain control over them.

So this is how we got to this point where Robin decided to ask his little brother.

“I know a way brother but to be honest its something even my ancestors wouldn’t recommend” (Cofa)

“and why is that so?” (Robin)

“I’m going, to be honest about this element Nii-san it’s strong but from the memories I have, I can conclude one scary fact,” Cofa said while he started to lightly sweat and this alarmed Robin.

“What do you mean one scary fact?” Robin had always thought he was blessed but at this point, he started to get scared.

“Our clan is low in numbers not because our clan can’t birth many children far from it a lot of children are born in our clan even more than some clans that are known for having many numbers but yet no one knows of the truth they just think we have a low birth rate.

But I will tell you the truth since you are my Nii-san”.

“Even if we are blessed with an immense power it’s the most dangerous element in this world. Even the element of creation and destruction can’t measure up to the danger of this element. The Reason for this is simple if you are blessed by the darkness you will be more prone to starting to think Dark. Some people may even call it Psycho tendencies and some of our clan will go fully Psychotic you know how warped Sasuke was before Naruto almost killed him?

We are way worse if you listen to the darkness element. You have probably heard about the curse of Hatred of the Uchiha its something like that only way harsher. Many of our clan can’t stand this element and will kill themselves or be killed because of it. The mental strain is harsh with it.

I assume you have already experienced the change of personality because of it. That’s just the start the Darkness element in you is very unusual high even so it will be very hard for you to live through this test. My ancestors would only do this with immortals yet you are here asking to do it as a mortal no less a Genin level mortal the lowest of the lowest.

Robin was shocked by this revelation that his little brother did but if what he said was true he knew he had to take this test even if he would die. It was something he had to do or he knew he would become Sasuke only on a whole other level.

“I want to do it Cofa I need to beat this once and for all” Robin

“I know you need to brother I know we will do it in a bit” Cofa was looking concerned towards Robin he had also never expected that Robin had to do it this fast. Most of the time the darkness element would only start to warp you after many years and when you have reached a high level most of the time beginner immortal’s would face their heart demons.

The only reason why Robin needed to do it now was because of the unusual amount of darkness in his body.

‘How can this be even if lord darkness blessed him personally he wouldn’t have this much. There is something unusual going on here’ Cofa realized something was weird he just couldn’t put his finger on what it exactly was.

And he wouldn’t at least not until much later.

“So what are we doing Cofa” Robin had meditated for a bit and was ready for what was to come well that’s what he thought.

“You Nii-san are going to enter your mental space and will face your heart demons your worst fears. It is something that many people would never do in their lifetime since its so scary to face them even one might kill ordinary cultivators.

‘well I would just let you face your first few heart demons not your truly scary ones’ muttered Cofa under his breath without Robin hearing a single word.

“Are you ready for this Nii-san?” (Cofa)

“I am just do it,” Robin said with a determined voice.

At this moment the little lion moved fast and knocked Robin out while mumbling something Robin couldn’t understand at this point Robin had entered a black space with only 4 white dots and was wondering what this exactly was. At this point he heard Cofa’s cute voice “This is your mental space damn i understand why you are so fucked in the head right now this is one dark ass place well good luck i can’t talk to you anymore just don’t die I would like to live” Cofa acted like he didn’t care but deep down he was scared in the memories he had there was never such a dark mind space.

Like this Robin was left alone and the first Heart demon made its move.

-Scene skip –

Robin could be seen standing with sweat all over his body Robin had just defeated his first heart demon it was something he had long forgotten a memory of his past life.

It was something he didn’t even know had happened he had seen a memory of one of the workers of the orphanage that he saw as his mother figure talk bad about him. How she only showed good will towards the child because of the good money it paid but hated his guts and couldn’t stand him. The reason why Robin never knew why this happened was because it happened while he was 3 years old.

Robin finally realized why he couldn’t trust people in a short amount of time. He felt betrayed and used even if he didn’t have the memories it was still something that unconsciously was there.

The only reason he beat the heartdemon was because of Kakashi at Robin’s lowest point he saw the image of his dad smiling at him.

The second heart demon also attacked.

After a while Robin could be seen kneeling down while sweating he also beat the second heart demon but it was a lot harder than before.

This heart demon showed him what his arrogance and pride could lead him to he knew what could happen for a long time because of all the books he had read but never confronted the thoughts since he was thinking he was the protagonist of this world and everyone should bow before him.

This heart demon showed him a life that could happen if he would continue the way he was going he lived through only 30 short years.

He didn’t achieve anything he was a prideful bastard that got strong. Like really fucking strong but he didn’t have anything his father was disappointed in him he never even married al because of his pride he saw no one as worthy of the genius himself.

In the end, he was killed just as he was about to enter the god’s realm he didn’t know by who but he died a miserable death.

Robin finally realized that his pride could drag him down and make his life miserable.

The only reason he could beat this heart demon was because he saw the smiling image of Hanabi.

After all of this, the last heart demon attacked.

Robin could be seen laying down after this heart demon attacked.

This heart demon was almost the same as the last one but instead of dying young he achieved a lot he became a god a decently strong one at that he lived for thousands of years.

But he could never forgive himself for his pride and arrogance yet he still acted that way till the end of his days.

He should have lived a peaceful life in the gods realm living for millions of years but Robin couldn’t forget his father the man he had disappointed the image of Kakashi looking at him while uttering the words “I wish I hadn’t adopted you.”

While Konoha was destroyed by Robin’s hand haunted him for every night and the two girls faces haunted him. At one point he even left Cofa to die because Cofa decided it was time to talk about the way Robin acted. Robin’s pride wouldn’t allow himself to be insulted so he just left Cofa to die.

(of course, he is fully fucked at this point and his arrogance and pride kept growing in the years)

This meant he was alone no family or friends the only remarkable thing he had achieved was power. Nothing more but he was empty inside

Robin lived this way for thousands of years till he decided it was time to end it all.

On that day the whole god realm was shocked one of the strong gods had committed suicide a never seen scene in the Gods realm.

This time he saw the smiling face of Cofa his little brother and Kyuhaku

And the heart demon was defeated.

Robin reflected on all of these heart demons and after he defeated them he realized many things. First of all, he was too prideful and arrogant and he also found out why he couldn’t trust many people. The futures he had seen in his last 2 heart demons. he believed that they could exist so from this moment forward Robin wouldn’t act that way.

Because that future is one he would never want to see coming true.

Robin had learned a lot from this experience and knew he was now in control of his emotions but he couldn’t say he was a master at it but at least he could control his mind to a normally sane shinobi.

At this moment Cofa’s cute little voice could be heard, “brother that was all you can’t take any more or you would die”.

At this moment Robin could be seen waking up on the Hokage’s face and he saw it was already dark out so he asked: “wow I was out for almost half a day Cofa?”

“No brother you were out for 1,5 week” Cofa answered while looking happy that his Nii-san was okay.

“Cofa I know you have memories so can I please know why I saw Kakashi and Hanabi’s smiling face also I saw your smiling face and also Kyuhaku’s” (Robin) he was confused why he saw them and the heart demons broke.

“Stupid Nii-san think about it and you will know why” Cofa answered in an annoyed voice.

Robin decided to think about it and after a while, he realized what it was.

“They are my light” Robin whole heartily smiled for the first time in a long time.

“That’s right Nii-san the true test of this is to realize that there is light in this dark world if you wouldn’t have realized this you would have died at the first heart demon,” Cofa told him while smiling feeling happy about the change in his Nii-san.

‘I now understand why some of our clan cant beat it. They never had any light in their life so how could they have ever beaten this test’ Cofa realized that it wasn’t needed to have high strength to beat this test.

Authors note:

For people wondering Robin will still become an anbu and assasin the next arc will start this was like a long prologue for the story to start. The next arc will be the arc where he will become an ANBU.