Reborn Military Wife Lingren - Chapter 650
Luo Jingshu didn’t wake up until the next morning. Li Jingyun stayed by her bed all night and didn’t leave for a moment.
Luo Jingshu opened her eyes and looked at the white ceiling and the white sheets. There was real pain in her lower abdomen, and this tingling pain also made Luo Jingshu wake up from her confusion.
Li Jingyun leaned against the head of the bed, and overnight, his cheeks were covered with stubble, and he felt a lot of decadence.
The moment Luo Jingshu saw Li Jingyun, her emotions fluctuated a little, her eyes were full of tears, and Li Jingyun woke up just after she took out her hand from the quilt.
“Lolo!”
With a soft whistle, Li Jingyun became quiet. He didn’t know what to say. He asked her if it hurt. With such a big incision on her stomach, can it hurt? Let her stop thinking, she can’t be completely calm, how can she calm Luo Jingshu.
Luo Jingshu grabbed Li Jingyun’s hand, she had a lot to ask, but she couldn’t say it.
Luo Jingshu also knew that there was little hope. After seeing Luo Boxuan yesterday, she knew that they had stopped searching and rescuing.
But thinking of the child who only had a mother-daughter relationship with her for just ten minutes, Luo Jingshu couldn’t stop her tears.
In the past, Luo Jingshu thought that she was a cold-hearted person who would not cry or be sad, but now she understands that it was because there was no deep pain.
Seeing Luo Jingshu’s expression of hesitating to speak, and seeing the tired corners of her eyes sliding down, Li Jingyun hugged Luo Jingshu, and his rough fingers gently wiped away the tears from the corners of Luo Jingshu’s eyes.
“Lolo, don’t cry, you just gave birth, and the doctor said you shouldn’t be too excited.”
“Jingyun, it’s me who didn’t protect our daughter. If I could be more careful, if I didn’t leave the division, these things wouldn’t have happened. I’m not a competent mother! I lost my first child before I knew it. Now, this child has already been born, I heard her cry, but I still didn’t protect her!”
“Li Jingyun, I admit that I used to kill people without blinking an eye, but I have changed now. I have saved so many people, and I have guarded the country’s borders, but why can’t I even protect my own children in the end. Is it true? Do you think that I am unqualified, do you think that my killing intent is too heavy, that’s why I take away my children again and again!”
Luo Jingshu’s hand touched her flat belly. Two days ago, there were two little things interacting with her there, kicking her belly mischievously, but in the end, only one of the two remained and sacrificed. A life saved by someone else’s life.
What Luo Jingshu felt uncomfortable at this time was not only her failure to protect her child, but also a sense of guilt. It was her carelessness that made Jia Yuang and Killer sacrifice innocently.
“Jingyun, Ye Weiji he…”
“I haven’t found it yet!”
Hearing this, Luo Jingshu suddenly laughed bitterly.
“Hehehe, he’s really stupid! I clearly rejected him again and again, but he jumped down without hesitation. Does he think I can remember him for the rest of my life! Hehehe, everyone is gone! , remember what use he has!”
Luo Jingshu couldn’t face Killer’s death at all. She owed too much to Killer, and now, she couldn’t pay it back.
“Lolo, I’m sorry, it’s my fault, if I don’t go to him, I won’t hurt him!”
This is the last thing Li Jingyun wants to see. I am afraid that in the future, Luo Jingshu will never forget the killer, and he will live with this guilt all his life.
But if you want to ask Li Jingyun if he regrets finding the killer at the beginning, he will definitely deny it without hesitation. Even if he feels guilty for being captured for a lifetime, he does not want Luo Jingshu to be in danger.
At that time, the situation was critical. What Li Jingyun thought of was one more person and one more contribution, but he never thought that this would make him owe a favor that could never be repaid.
Hearing Li Jingyun’s self-blame, Luo Jingshu shook her head, then closed her eyes, a tear rolled down the corner of her eye and disappeared on the sheets.
“It’s not your fault, it’s all about life, whether it’s Ye Xiao or Luo Jingshu, I’m doomed to owe the killer this love. Before, I just felt that the relationship couldn’t be forced, but now I owe him a life.”
As she said that, Luo Jingshu’s face suddenly changed, with awe in her sadness, she opened her eyes and looked at Li Jingyun with a determined attitude.
“Jingyun, no matter how much you pay, you must find Killer’s body. When I was buried in the wilderness, Killer also went to find my body, and then I fell into the laboratory, and he was only a dangerous intrusion. This time, He died for me, and it’s hard to repay, all I can do is to give him a decent funeral!”
“Don’t worry, Lolo, I’ve already sent someone to do it, and I’ll find him until I find him. You can rest easy now. You’ve suffered too much this time, and if you don’t take care of it properly, the root of the disease will fall.”
Luo Jingshu didn’t answer, but turned over. Even though the pain in the abdomen was unbearable, her heart was even more painful at this time. Thinking of the child who had only had a relationship with her for ten minutes, Luo Jingshu felt self-conscious. guilt.
A woman who is usually so strong and resolute, even if Li Jingyun disappeared at the beginning, she could not completely defeat this stubborn woman, but at this time, her back was so fragile, as if she was knocked down with a single blow.
There was a slight sob in the quiet room. The woman under the quilt couldn’t help shaking because she was holding back her tears. Li Jingyun saw it in his eyes and felt pain in his heart. If he could, he would rather bear all the pain.
Li Jingyun was lying on the bed, hugging Luo Jingshu tightly from behind, silently comforting the woman who was on the verge of collapse.
After a long time, when Luo Jingshu in her arms finally calmed down, Li Jingyun whispered softly in her ear, comforting her gently.
“Lolo, think that we still have a child to take care of. We can feel sad for our loss, but we can’t let it go. For the lost daughter, we should work harder to live and take care of the lost daughter. The child who needs our care and love as well.”
“Lolo, our son is very strong. He knows that he has the mission of two people and how difficult it is for him to survive. Such a small child knows nothing about the outside world, but he knows that he has to work hard. To survive, he knows he is the hope for all of us, shouldn’t we as his parents cheer up?”
“We lost a daughter, and he also lost a sister who has lived with him since childhood. Compared with that kind of reluctance and sadness, our son is no less than us. Lolo, he can So strong, are we doing better and stronger than him!”
“It’s my sister, it’s his sister who left us!”
Suddenly, Luo Jingshu, who had been silent for a long time, opened her mouth. She was watching Qi Ye take these two children out of her stomach. At that moment, Luo Jingshu’s despair almost reached its peak.
Now, only one is left, and her body, even if the doctor didn’t say it clearly, Luo Jingshu probably guessed it, and in the future, I am afraid that she will never be able to give birth again.
“Lolo, promise me, don’t be sad all the time. After a while, when my son comes out of the incubator, he must want to see his mother greet him with a smile!”
Li Jingyun hugged Luo Jingshu lightly, wrapping her big hand around Luo Jingshu’s hand, and the warmth of her palm was transmitted to every part of Luo Jingshu.
Luo Jingshu didn’t say anything, just nodded lightly.
Let her give a definite answer now, she can’t do it, she can’t deceive herself, sadness is sadness, but she can only work hard to get herself out of sadness.
Luo Jingshu also understood that Li Jingyun suffered no less pain than herself, and he had to stay by her side, comfort her, and take care of her. Compared with Li Jingyun, she felt that she was indeed too weak.
Seeing Luo Jingshu nodded, Li Jingyun sighed silently. He didn’t ask Luo Jingshu to come out of the shadow of losing her child immediately. In fact, he couldn’t do it himself.
Now, Li Jingyun hopes that time will dilute everything, hope that everyone can recover as soon as possible, and live up to those heroic spirits who have sacrificed their precious lives to save children.
Luo Jingshu stayed in the hospital for more than ten days. Although she did not suffer from postpartum depression as much as the doctor said, everyone did not see a smile on her face.