Referring to Father as Elder Brother - Chapter 48

    Lin Zixi mulled over Gu Zecheng’s thoughts, tossing and turning in bed for a long time, unable to fall asleep.

    When he turned over again, he was suddenly hugged from behind and into his arms by the person beside him.

    “What’s the matter, you haven’t slept?” In the darkness, Gu Zecheng’s deep voice rang in his ears with the heat of his breathing.

    Lin Zixi originally thought that Gu Zecheng had fallen asleep, but she was a little frightened and said in a low voice, “No, it’s nothing, maybe she’s too tired and has insomnia.”

    Gu Zecheng suddenly turned on the bedside lamp, raised his upper body and lowered his head to look at him, his face was gentle and serious, “Zixi, we are of the same **** and blood relatives, we are destined to encounter more tests than ordinary people. I’m not afraid of external opinions and changes, all I care about are your thoughts and your heart.”

    Gu Zecheng looked directly into Lin Zixi’s eyes, not letting him dodge, “I want to love and stay with you all my life, so Zixi… If you have any dissatisfaction or doubts about me now or in the future , I hope you can tell me, let’s face it and solve it together.”

      Mother’s business…”

    “That’s it?” Gu Zecheng touched Lin Zixi’s head and sighed, then picked him up from the bed, put him on the sofa in the living room, heated him a glass of chocolate milk, poured it again After drinking a glass of red wine, he sat down beside Lin Zixi.

    Lin Zixi never thought that his father would comment on the past in this way, his eyes suddenly widened, and he almost couldn’t hold the mug in his hand.

    Gu Zecheng took the cup in his hand and put it on the coffee table, wrapped a blanket around him and put him in his arms, let Lin Zixi sit on his lap, holding His hand told him what happened back then: “I had a… good friend when I was young. I was born in the same year as him and Qiao Weidong. We grew up together in the military compound, and we were classmates from elementary school to high school. I once I thought he, like Qiao Weidong, would be my lifelong best friend, until one day… I had a different feeling for him.”

    “Although I saw some things at that time, I was still too young, and the atmosphere at that time was not as open as it is now. Don’t talk about homosexuality in our circle, If someone comes out with a ‘second chair’, there is no need for outsiders to laugh at them, and the parents themselves will clear the door first.” Father Gu used an old-fashioned term, took another sip of wine, and then looked at Lin Zixi’s astonished eyes and continued towards Xia said: “When I first found out that I liked him, I was actually flustered and confused, and there was no one around to discuss it, except for my tutor at the time. She was a female college student who was admitted to B University from the south. In my first year of freshman year, I tutored Ze Yi and I at my house until she was in her senior year. She…”

    Gu Zecheng nodded to the man in his arms who suddenly understood, “That’s your mother.”

    “Your mother’s name was Lin Zhenzhen at that time, she…for me at that time, she was a gentle and sensitive big sister, in fact, even my affection for my friend, she was more than me You have to be aware of it first. Your mother listened to me a lot at that time, and gave me a lot of comfort, but … it may be her sympathy and empathy that made her feel for me as a student. “

    Father Gu took another sip of the wine glass, “When your mother was about to graduate, she cried and persuaded me to give it a try, give her a chance, and give myself a chance. I have been troubled by strange feelings for my friend for too long, and want to escape and get rid of it weakly, so I irresponsibly agreed to her, and even… so I have you.”

    Gu Zecheng drank all the red wine in the glass, hugged Lin Zixi tighter, and sighed before continuing: “But the relationship cannot be forced, I have been with your mother for three years. We broke up after a month. She graduated soon and returned to her hometown, so I didn’t know you existed until…”

    “When I was young, when I looked back on your mother and I, I would feel annoyed at the immaturity at the time, and felt that I had tarnished my feelings and despised Lin Zhenzhen. But, now, see I’m thankful to myself back then for allowing me to meet you.” Gu Zecheng said, staring deeply into Lin Zixi’s eyes, as if to see every emotion in his eyes, to see if there was any disgust or unease. with contempt.

    Lin Zixi has had countless conjectures about the story between his biological parents since he was a child, but he never expected it to be the version I heard today.

    His heart slowly recovered from the shock and madness, he thought for a long time, and finally looked directly at his father without dodging, and asked softly but clearly: “Then you still love him?”

    Lin Zixi didn’t say who “ta” was, but Gu Zecheng and he both knew which one it was referring to.

    “When I looked back on what happened back then, I realized that my feelings for him were probably juvenile feelings that were magnified in panic. If I had been ignorant at the time, I would probably only remember it in the future. It was a little episode that changed the key; but this relationship was punctured at the time, and I was brainwashed by myself, who was flustered and overly concerned, and turned it into a gust of wind sonata.” Gu Zecheng paused and continued: “So when we graduated from high school, he In order to pursue art, I chose to study abroad, and after I went to the army and experienced a lot, this small movement was naturally drawn to a stop.”

    After listening to his explanation, Lin Zixi opened his mouth, and finally asked the question he wanted the answer most tonight: “Then… how do you know, I will not be just a paragraph An interlude?”