Restricted Doomsday Syndrome - Chapter 2185

Dorothy originally thought that she had already got rid of the fear, and originally thought that she had become a super Dorothy form, and she would be more resistant to will than others. No matter what she achieved in the past, or the performance of the color center, she made her think that she had already realized consciousness for a long time. Even so, she feels that she is more stable, patient, and free than the restricted color center in many ways than the “Gao Chuan” who constantly refreshes her personality. She can exert her abilities in more ways- She believes that she has advantages that no one else has. These advantages make her extremely adaptable and comprehensive.

However, when the big deviation from the plan occurred, he retreated and declined. She is very clear that the reason for her to do so is not because “you can also contribute to the rear”, or “someone must stay behind to provide support for the front line”, or “the color center stands ahead in the first place” , So I can only retreat. “

I am afraid. Because you can understand more than most people, how desperate you are now, so you are more afraid than most people. The strength of the enemy can only be felt more clearly after he has become stronger, has more insight, and his cognitive range has grown. The sense of oppression that comes from meditation can only be felt more clearly if you feel how fast your growth is.

All kinds of changes that happen to oneself, whether considered as growth or as variation, this kind of self-understanding is actually the most intuitive benchmark. What he has to face is far beyond the limit that this benchmark can reach. It’s like, after trying hard in the race, you can only see the figure of the opponent in front of you getting farther and farther, what a great sense of powerlessness. After that, I tried my best to train and break my record in the game again and again. However, I did not narrow the distance to the opponent. The back is still getting farther and farther. That is a huge sense of despair.

The gap between the two sides is like being locked from one of the most basic conditions. Even if there is a possibility of change, it is impossible to actually make changes while you are alive. The theoretical possibilities that are beyond our reach are so ethereal, like a lie, but it’s not a lie-is there anything more depressing than this?

Huge emotional fluctuations penetrated the hospital’s reality super Dorothy, chasing her into the body of the “artificial man” of Doomsday Illusion. Whether in the hospital reality or in the illusion of doomsday, her form has clearly eliminated the generation of emotions from the physical hardware. However, the emotions that make her tremble still ignore those physical “impossible” to transcend physical channels , Coming from all directions.

It seems that these emotions are beyond her past cognition. They think that they are spontaneously generated, but they are never spontaneous. The “self” she thinks is never “self”. The so-called “self” is just a layer of oil residue floating on the strange and cold “non-self”.

When Dorothy had such thoughts, she knew that she could not continue to think about it. This kind of attempt to deny the self-existence of negative thinking is one of the characteristics of doomsday syndrome. If she can’t control herself, she will only sink deeper and deeper, and she is not like Gaochuan, who is a person with a self-refreshing mechanism. Once it collapses, it will completely collapse-it will be like Bajing, Marshall and Like the three of Misaki, even if they did not immediately become a pool of LCL, or spontaneously ignited, it would break into countless small fragments from the personality level.

When the names of “Eight Scenery”, “Marceau” and “Saki Ye” flashed in her mind, she suddenly remembered that she hadn’t remembered them for a long time-whether it was because there were too many things to deal with, Too busy, or because of something else, I really haven’t remembered the situation of three people for a long time. The last memory about them is: It seems that Bajing and Misaki have been connected to the repeater …

However, only vague statements such as “seemingly” can be used, and no affirmative answer can be given. What is their situation now? Dorothy thought, but couldn’t find the relevant memory at all. It seems that during this period of time, the three people’s sense of presence suddenly disappeared in this world. Not only have they not seen it, but they have never thought of it until this moment.

too weird. Obviously it is such an important family, and everything that he and others have done is initially to save everyone. But why did it suddenly forget? Dorothy’s pupils shrank suddenly, and she confirmed that her share wanted to protect everyone, want to get rid of the “virus”, and restore her healthy mood without any change, still so strong.

However, before thinking of them again, he seemed to have even tossed such a strong emotion and desire. The motivation has not changed, but the time to start the machine is so short. It seems that there is never time to think about why you should defeat the “virus”-as if this behavior is the goal itself.

There must be something wrong with me. The more you can remember more things, the more Dorothy feels cold. Not only in the illusion of doomsday, the deviation caused by the torch light is causing trouble, and besides the aberration that almost destroyed the plan, some of the same abnormal conditions are constantly happening-if, torch light The deviation ritual brought a strong and violent impact, then, before the deviation ritual happened-unsure how long ago-the abnormality that might have happened, just like the silent spring rain of the thing, quietly Eroded his own heart.

No, it wasn’t forgotten that the three of Bajing, Marceau and Sakuya were completely forgotten. Dorothy can now think of more things. Everything she has observed in the past, including what she has done, has not been forgotten, but merely, just like the same string of meaningless data archives, she has been Ignore the past.

Yes, it was not forgotten, but ignored. Even when mentioning their names, they never paid special attention to them.

Dorothy didn’t feel anything wrong about her own usurpation of the sovereignty of the London Repeater. However, since I overlooked the Eight Scenery, Marceau, and Misaki, logically, this behavior itself was problematic. Because, clearly, Maso is one of the core three pillars of the London repeater, and he also relies on Maso to control the London repeater, but Maso is one of the people who are ignored.

No matter from what point of view, it is very important and very important. The existence that should not be ignored anyway, is naturally ignored. For Dorothy, it is hard to imagine that this is what she did.

Not only that, Dorothy was rummaging through her memories-there are still many memories about Marceau, but now it seems to be full of indifference, just like dealing with trivial things. However, no matter from what point of view, the role played by Marceau when it intersects with Marceau at that time is by no means optional, but a key role. But he didn’t have any ideas at all, he didn’t have any ideas at all, just like marionettes, they were intertwined and separated.

This is already the case for Marceau, so what about the Eight Scenery and Saki Ye? Since when did they never observe them at all? The more Dorothy’s memories, the more inexplicable thrill.

What is the situation with Bajing and Misaki? When was the last time they were mentioned? Dorothy thought she was about to remember, but she couldn’t. “Last time” became a very vague situation. This last time, on what occasion, what characters existed, and when and where?

Yes, it seems to come to mind, in order to save the personality information of Bajing, Marceau and Misaki, everyone goes to great lengths to collect “spiritual integration devices” and “personality preservation devices”. These two things called “devices” have never appeared in the past doomsday illusions, only this time doomsday illusions

Only exists in the-so, where did this information get from? Is it from “Jiang”? Is it “Jiang”? It is the information obtained from “Jiang” that he and the color center worked together. This should be it.

Specifically, at what stage of contact with Jiang? This part of the memory became blurred again. It seems that it was not just what was obtained from Jiang, but also the young Gaochuan. It is a conclusion that is obtained after comprehensively sorting all the intelligence fragments that have been obtained: the mental integration device and the personality preservation device are very important, and in order to deal with the “virus”, you must get something.

“Ah, I remember.” Dorothy said to herself, “According to the judgment at the time, the essence of the mental integration device and the personality preservation device is what the” virus “needs. It is also after so many patients with doomsday syndrome are born, What happens naturally. Just like the flowering of plants, it is the most important fruit. “

Because it is what the “virus” wants, it cannot be obtained by the “virus”. Furthermore, it cannot be obtained by “Jiang” nor by “Junior Gaochuan”. So, the competition began. Through various layouts, confrontations, trades, and juvenile Gao Chuan, and the “Jiang” inside the juvenile Gao Chuan, and also compete with the “virus” whose form is completely absent.

The “spiritual integration device” that was finally obtained was used to complete the repeater, which was an indispensable part in the process of transforming Valpus Night into a repeater.

So, what about the “personality preservation device”? It seems that at the time, it was thought that it would bring benefits to the personalities of the three Misaki, Bajing, and Marceau. It was an important prop to rescue the three, so Omi performed the operation.

It was here that Dorothy’s thinking paused abruptly, and she realized that the most likely cause of the abnormality she felt was.

——It is Omi!

Dorothy almost jumped up, and she was not excited about finding a seemingly reliable answer, because this answer is likely to represent a worse development-all her actions in this doomsday illusion , Without exception, is related to Omi. It can be said that in everything he does, Omi has participated in it. However, in her own feelings, Omi has never had a great sense of presence.

This kind of feeling … It was like “Doris” was revived by Omi with her technique, Omi himself gradually retired to the auxiliary position, shifting the most central protagonist position, and even the striking supporting position, to all Came out.

At least, in Dorothy’s feeling, Omi has been doing it for a long time, but she simply executed her orders and never took the initiative to mention what she was doing.

When did it start? Is it after the completion of the “time machine”? Or was it already in place when the “Doris” was revived? I couldn’t think of a striking turning point. It wasn’t something that happened suddenly, but it seemed like a natural change. To make an analogy, it seems that the new characters are too eye-catching, so that the old characters are ignored-although it is not completely not remembered, there must be an impression, but the focus of vision and consciousness has been No longer on the old character.

But ~ www.mtlnovel.com ~ Is Omi such an old non-existent character? Is it a mediocre supporting role? the answer is negative.

Dorothy knew very well that even if Jiang was called the Jinjiang trap, she was included in the plan in such an identity, but the mystery of her own was elusive. Omi can do things that neither the color center nor Super Dorothy can do-obviously has such a strong sense of existence, but has he ignored it?

Jinjiang, where is Jinjiang? doing what? When Dorothy stood up, she only felt wet and cold behind her. It was not cold sweat. Her body simply did not possess the mechanism for constructing such a normal human physiological response, but it was a psychological illusion. In this doomsday illusion, her Dorothy appeared in the form of “imitation of the final weapon”, which was originally only a semi-finished product, and even had a defect in activity function. Under the leadership of Omi, research experts from different mysterious organizations collaborated to finally complete this nominally exclusive “final weapon” exclusively for NOG.

She, Dorothy, is the “ultimate weapon”, not the “human”. However, her “final weapon” is not exactly the same type as the “final weapon” of Doomsday Truth.

But no matter what kind of “final weapon”, it will abandon the human body structure and physiological mechanism, and complete its most basic structure from a more cold, efficient and more growth perspective.

However, from this perspective, Dorothy felt that she was unqualified. Because, it is now possible to perceive that in fact, there have been many fluctuations in myself, and the “stability” that comes from the feeling is more like my own illusion.

“Damn it, Jinjiang.” Dorothy stared at herself seriously, and she was convinced that Jinjiang was staring at herself. “Did you do it at first?”