Restricted Doomsday Syndrome - Chapter 2195
Is Dorothy afraid of fire? If she wants to answer by herself, the answer will only be: don’t be afraid. However, although it is impossible to talk about fear, when carrying him in private, doing various small actions, hiding the other party in the drum, it seems that he is playing with everyone, and eventually leads to the situation even if it is not all because of himself. For reasons of reason, Dorothy will still apologize when facing fire. This apology is not very strong, and, for her own, there are reasons and necessities to do so, and the more she delves into everything in the doomsday illusion, the more she feels that she is doing nothing wrong.
Yes, to insist, when Dorothy is acting like this, she feels that she has a great reputation. Even so, she still finds it difficult to show it in front of the fire. This feeling of having to be sneaky also makes her wonder whether her actions are really correct. Since she can’t be fair and honest, is her own righteousness a hypocrisy? Although she always questioned herself like this, she still did everything she wanted to do. Even if you keep asking yourself whether it is correct to do so, you will still give yourself a proper reason in the end, saying to yourself that this is correct.
Dorothy does not regret everything she has done so far. Because this is the conclusion she has drawn after countless observations and thoughts, and she never intended to pat the **** and regret leaving. She also thought about the possible consequences and made enough psychological preparations to execute the plan in a cruel attitude. Compared with the determined people she had seen, she did not feel that she was lacking in attitude.
That being said, it would still be great if you could leave the London Repeater before waking up. Dorothy does not deny this mood.
Once I wake up from the fire, I know what kind of mood and thoughts Dorothy did in the past inside the repeater? In any case, confrontation is inevitable, and Dorothy does not know that she should say something about the fire. Everything in the illusion of apocalypse, for her, although there are real places, but there is no doubt that the reality of the hospital is more real and more like the source. No matter what is done and what happened in the illusion of doomsday, if this influence cannot interfere with the reality of the hospital, but is only limited to the illusion of doomsdays, then this influence is nothing but an illusion to her.
Dorothy does n’t know how the color sees the relationship between the reality of the hospital and the doomsday illusion, and she believes that she ca n’t put the two on an equal position like Gao Chuan, and even less like the fire in the doomsday illusion In the same way, fix one’s own cognitive foundation in the illusion of doomsday.
Among all the people she knew, she felt that her perspective on these things was actually closer to the researchers in the hospital. Even, although Dr. Ander ’s team used the color center most often, as far as she was concerned, she felt that she was more similar to Dr. Ander ’s team.
If you can, Dorothy actually does n’t want people in Doomsday Reality to know what they ’ve done. By quietly completing the plan, everyone ’s pain will end when they are unknowingly, and it can be reduced. After the fire broke out, they knew the plan of their own, and the possibility of overreaction.
Ending the illusion of doomsday, ending the pain of all patients with doomsday syndrome, and ending the kind of depressing and desperate future that makes Dorothy think it is the most ideal situation, which has not happened. .
Jin Jiang was right. The impact of the torchlight ceremonies on her may be the strongest. What hurts Dorothy most is not her own spirit, but the advantages that she has painstakingly created, the carefully arranged traps, and the various methods used to correct the progress of the plan. Almost all of them have failed in the distortion of this deviation.
The plan that was exhausted and exhausted, and completed with great care, almost completely overturned and fell into an irreversible situation.
By this time, Dorothy had escaped her initial shock and self-blame and reorganized her thoughts. She feels that she has not given up at this point, not because the plan seems to have theoretical success. Going deeper, it’s because those around me have never said that they should give up. Even in such a difficult time, even if it is not a harmonious idea and position, it is still trying to do more. Therefore, one cannot be the first to give up.
Everyone is facing the same dangers, the same hardships, the same despair and madness, why do others not give up, but they must give up?
From this perspective, Dorothy felt a little “actually she was dragged away by others”. However, it doesn’t matter if it is dragged by others. Dorothy has a kind of stubbornness. He will never take the lead in admitting defeat. Even if he is a dead face and insists that other people drag, he must continue to move forward.
Therefore, when Jin Jiang mentioned the fire, she could only say: “It doesn’t matter.” She really doesn’t want to face the fire at this time, but if there is really no way to avoid it, she will never say any apology to the other party. if.
“Is it really okay? You actually care about what you think of fire escape? You actually care about how others think of you?” Omi stared at her with a sharp eye, “Although you have been insisting, you are actually A coward, isn’t it? Do you think that fire escape will forgive you? Will others forgive you? “
“No.” Dorothy never thought that the people who used them to execute the plan would forgive themselves, but it really didn’t matter how they thought of it, because: “They can’t forgive anything, they It ’s all dead. “
“So, because you think they will die anyway, so why not let them die and let them make more contributions to your plan?” Jin Jiang asked: “Can you say this to the fire?” ? “
“… In turn, Omi, you are also the one who has your own plan, and the one who silently watched me complete the plan. How would you answer this question?” Dorothy threw the question back again.
“Me? I don’t think it’s a problem. I can say it even in the face of fire.” Omi said completely indifferently: “If other people’s deaths promote my plan, then it doesn’t matter if they die, or Say it ’s okay to die, that ’s how I think. You should know that I have always been selfish. But you are not the same, right? Obviously it is an imitation of the final weapon, but it has more human-like ideas and Emotions, when I understand this, I know that no matter how close you are to the final weapon, you are still full of flawed imitations, and you can never be a real final weapon. On the contrary, those hopes Would n’t you be selfish if you could be the ultimate weapon? “
When the two are talking, the whole London repeater is making a peculiar sound, not everyone can hear it, but everyone who can hear it feels that this is a kind of wrong sound. It seems that the gear of the watch is stuck. Although the power still allows the mechanical structure to run in order, it can’t be turned anyway. It was a jammed sound, like a cracked sound. It made people think that this repeater was undergoing some kind of serious test and could collapse at any time.
When he heard this voice, Dorothy even felt that this was the result of his confrontation with Omi, first because of his opposition with Omi, which led to the opposition of the three pillars that formed the basis of the repeater. The influence of this opposition is getting bigger and bigger, and more factors are involved, which is amplified into the terrible influence that affects the entire repeater structure.
However, whether this is the case, Dorothy can no longer judge further. Just now, all her connections to the London Repeater have been interrupted, and all the permissions she once had have been closed. Even the super department has been supporting, but the name “Doris” has been removed from the safety list. Instead, Father Sisen, who was standing by his side and unable to communicate normally, still retains the authority occupied by the “Black Nest” to a certain extent.
After all, this London repeater belongs to both the network ball and the nog, and “Black Nest” is also a member of the nog permanent council organization.
The mysterious organizations that once constituted nog are now very few, and among the remaining mysterious organizations, there are also very few mysterious experts who still survive. Just like “Black Nest”, in the personnel filing, Father Sisen is already the last survivor of this mysterious organization. Even during his disappearance, his name was almost added to the list of deaths and was completely removed from the authorized personnel.
The status and authority of “Black Nest” is the important help for Father Sissen to successfully invade the London repeater.
Dorothy did not know why Omi, who now reoccupies most of the permissions of the London repeater, still retains the permissions of “Black Nest” and Father Sissen, but does not intend to go further and guess. Unless she can leave the London repeater, she will dominate whatever she does, and she can only let it go.
Therefore, the primary goal must be to break away from the London repeater.
In this tense atmosphere, the confrontation between the two sides is still based on exchanges, and in Dorothy’s view, it definitely does not mean ease and relaxation.
Because, from the beginning, this kind of communication cannot get results. In the current situation, language is the most fragile force, because neither oneself nor the other party can give up their own ideas, follow the pace and plan of the other party, and even the goal of both parties ’efforts is very likely. It has always been different. The reason for cooperating in a certain process is simply because to achieve different goals, but to go through a similar process, nothing more.
Among people who have different goals, different means, different cognitive and thinking angles, and different emphasis, but also insist on their own opinions, it is meaningless to want the other party to understand their own language. Even if the other party really understands themselves, It also makes no sense unless the other party can admit that their own ideas are better and more correct, and are willing to follow this better idea to do things. Many times, even if the other party admits that their ideas are better and more correct, they still prefer to go their own way.
In this way, contradictions always exist, confrontation is unavoidable, understanding is meaningless, and the language is weaker than ever. Instead, it is more efficient to directly use the violent way to transform the other party’s thinking.
Under the premise that communication is meaningless and absolutely impossible to achieve results, the confrontation still in the form of communication is definitely not the communication itself.
Dorothy didn’t know what Jinjiang did in this kind of communication, but she did try to implement the ideological transformation of Jinjiang. The conscious walker was the best at doing this kind of thing. Although she was not a conscious walker There is no lack of such means. On the contrary, although she did not feel it, she did not feel that Jin Jiang did not make small actions on her own “thoughts”.
Perhaps it was the line of defense established in the past that prevented the other party from making achievements in one fell swoop, or perhaps it was because the other party ’s methods were too ingenious, so that they could not be aware of it in the first time Knowing objective methods, processes, and phenomena are all objects that can be attacked. For all things that can recognize the “self”, all things that can think, and rely on thinking to guide behavior, the impact of this attack is also the most thorough kind.
It’s hard to tell whether your thinking has been affected when you start thinking.
Dorothy doesn’t believe in the instinct of her body completed by Omi, but she can’t completely use it. The reason why instinct is instinct is that it seems to be resistant, but it does affect a person’s perception of self every moment. Conversely, because he uses such a body, the impact of Omi on himself is theoretically more direct and secret.
In this kind of invisible, intangible, and even unfeelable confrontation, she refers to her observation data from the “super system”. When connected with the “super department”, she has already started to backup and analyze the self-cognition and thinking mode at that time. Taking the state at that time as the standard, I can clearly understand what changes have occurred in my consciousness and behavior in the following time.
She even removed suspicious points from the original sample and completed a minimal backup. Once her ideology is really wrong, she will use this backup to cover her own self-cognition. Perhaps the “self” recovered from this minimal backup can also be regarded as the original “self” because too many things are missing, but it can avoid the penetration and influence of the enemy to the greatest extent.
The ideological battle never ceases during communication, it is just invisible. This battle is even more secretive and anxious than the direct material destruction.