Running Snail - Chapter 45

Wei Nan still remembers that when we first met, Xiao Qing was in the school’s studio, holding a pen seriously, sketching out those cute cartoon characters, pure white dresses and thin backs, and a bright smile when she turned back. It is Xiao Qing’s purest appearance when she was young.

Now Xiao Qing, who is walking on the red carpet in her wedding dress and accepting the blessings of everyone, also has a smile on her face. Her smile is so dazzling that she is deliberately pretending to be happy. Only Wei Nan could understand her loneliness and helplessness.

The Shen family attached great importance to this wedding, and the wedding scene was very luxurious. When Xiao Qing was picked up to the auditorium in the morning, there was a long queue, but Xiao Qing didn’t care at all, she didn’t even watch the groom’s float.

The unchanging lines sounded in the auditorium. Are you willing to become Shen Junze’s wife, no matter whether he is healthy or sick, whether poor or rich, will you stay by his side and never give up?

Xiao Qing said she was willing, and the moment she lowered her head, she finally restrained her smile and was startled for a moment. Although it quickly returned to normal, the instant loss did not hide Wei Nan’s eyes.

From the church to the hotel, there were flowers and applause all the way, and then the whole hall was full of guests.

The bride had to toast the elders according to the rules of the Shen family. Xiao Qing was already a little drunk after a toast. Unexpectedly, a bunch of friends of Shen Junze gathered around to give the bride wine. Wei Nan finally couldn’t help it. With the power of the bridesmaids, all the wine was blocked.

He brazenly blocked the wine for Xiao Qing, regardless of his own alcohol volume. Wei Nan only remembered drinking glass after glass. After drinking, he was numb and couldn’t taste the wine at all.

——There is only this that can be done for Xiao Qing.

From China to the United States, flying so far across the ocean to the other end of the earth, in the end, she could only hold a few glasses of wine for her, and then watched her being carried into the float by Shen Jun, and watched the car. He walked away and looked at her in a wedding dress, and finally disappeared at the end of the street.

…

“Xiao Qing just got married like this…he…” Wei Nan was drunk and was helped by Lu Shuang on the way back to the hotel. He kept whispering softly, “I can see that Xiao Qing is not at all in this marriage. Happy. She doesn’t like that man at all, I know, her smile is just pretending… Xiao Qing, just married like this…” Lu Shuang gently wrapped her shoulders, and Wei Nan leaned obediently. He came over, and then began to mutter to herself in a dazed manner: “Xiao Qing is helpless in a foreign country. After marrying Shen’s family, she might be bullied…A lonely person, there is no one to worry about. It can be said that…my Xiao Qing, just married like this, my Qi Juan, is still lying in the hospital… We said yes, the sisters have never been separated, and said that everyone should live happily. That’s it… They will never marry before the age of twenty-five… They have both breached their contract, and they are two dead girls…”

In the dull air, Wei Nan’s deliberately lowered voice, mixed with occasional choking and hiccups after being drunk, was completely invisible.

Lu Shuang remained silent and did not speak, but hugged her tightly, giving her silent comfort.

After returning to the hotel, Wei Nan began to vomit again. The sound of heart-piercing and vomiting echoed in the bathroom, deafening.

Lu Shuang stood at the door and looked at her pale face, his distressed feeling sharpened.

This feeling became stronger and stronger after meeting her, and the pain in the chest was almost overwhelming.

Lu Shuang still remembered that the night she came home drunk for the first time, she vomited like this for a long time, and she also vomited all over her body. That time, she was in a bad mood when she saw Xu Zhiheng holding Su Minmin leaving during the party. , For the sake of drinking a lot of wine.

That day, she sang the old song of SHE with Qi Juan and Xiao Qing, chanting the lyrics of “doyouloveme” over and over again, with the tacit singing, three smiling girls, what a warm but dazzling picture. Wei Nan stood in the middle, holding the microphone and making funny faces, with the brightest smile on his face, but his eyes were as cold and lonely as a pool of autumn sun. At that moment, Lu Shuang wanted to tell her, silly girl, stop pretending, don’t you feel tired? If you want to cry, I can give you a shoulder, I can pretend not to see it at all.

Perhaps at that moment, I moved my heart, and the idea of ​​wanting to make her happy sprouts in my heart. The longer I contact her, the stronger the idea will grow, and it will slowly grow in my heart and grow like a vine. The whole is wrapped up.

At that time, as her “brother’s friend”, she was not qualified to say “I want you to be happy” to her.

Where is your current self? The person who still confessed and did not get a response can only wait for her to turn back, waiting for the love that she thinks is no longer far away.

Now it’s Xiao Qing’s wedding again. Wei Nan graciously blocked her a glass of wine, with a smile on her face. It seemed that she was really a bridesmaid who was happy for her good sister to get married, watching her being surrounded When the crowd was filled with alcohol, he looked bold, watching her drink the glass of transparent liquid without hesitation, Lu Shuang felt that there was a place in his heart, and he felt a sharp pain again.

——What else can I do for you?

——What should I do to make you truly happy?

——That corner of your heart is still a place that Lu Shuang can’t set foot in?

Lu Shuang sighed softly, seeing the tears remaining on her face.

Wei Nan cried for Xu Zhiheng, cried for Qi Juan, and cried for Xiao Qing. Lu Shuang was by her side every time she cried, watching her cry for those people. But… Wei Nan has never cried for Lu Shuang once. Although Lu Shuang didn’t want her to shed tears for herself, she always cared about others, cared about others, loved Xu Zhiheng, and missed those sisters and friends, but never cared about this person named Lu Shuang in front of her.

No matter how thick-skinned I am, my heart will feel uncomfortable.

Under a huge net with an overwhelming gentle cloth, waiting for her to pounce on it, she kept saying that she didn’t mind, she kept saying that she would wait, not too confident, but, apart from this, there was actually nothing she could do.

How long will such a long and agonizing wait last?

…

When Wei Nan woke up, she found herself lying on the soft big bed in the hotel with a quilt. Wei Nan rubbed his temples and sat up with a severe headache because of his drunkenness. The desk lamp on the side table was on, revealing a warm orange light. Wei Nan turned his head and saw Lu Shuang driving the computer and typing seriously. The light shining on his face was so soft that he couldn’t tell.

——That kind of feeling made Wei Nan feel extremely warm.

It seems to hug a heater in winter, which warms the heart. Wei Nan’s mouth could not help but gently cocked, showing a smile, got up and tiptoed to walk behind him, wanted to pinch his neck to scare him, just stretched out his hand, but saw that he was opening the word and writing. The flashing kept on, and the news came from a person whose ID was “Editor Xiaotong”.

“Asshole, I know you are an automatic reply, come out soon!!” The font of the chat window was bloody, and a few seconds later I sent another message: “I’m looking for you for a few days and can’t find it! You want to learn this week! Do you want to drag the manuscript together? Do you dare to set up an automatic reply saying, “I don’t want a manuscript, I want to kill one.” Are you going to **** me off?!”

Lu Shuang finally squinted at the QQ message, curled up his mouth and smiled, and typed in the past: “Don’t worry, I’m writing it, and it will end with ten thousand words.”

“You are finally resurrected? Tomorrow is the deadline. Can you finish writing ten thousand?”

“Don’t worry, I’m a robotic hand.”

“That’s good. Where are you, the phone keeps not getting through?”

“I attended a friend’s wedding abroad with her. By the way, the pseudonym was changed to Lu Youyou when it was published. Did I tell you?”

“You owe Bian, just now?”

“Khan, I’m really busy lately, I forgot to busy, sorry, sorry, is it too late to say now?”

“…Forget it, you want to change my pen name, I don’t have any problems. Your previous pen name, “I am a virus, don’t click me” is too abnormal. Lu is so nice.”

“Yes, I think it sounds good too.”

After typing, Lu Shuang closed the QQ window and suddenly chuckled: “Wei Nan, is enough peeping?” Then he turned his head and looked at Wei Nan.

Wei Nan’s heart jumped when he was seen, and hurriedly turned away from his gaze, “You have to hand in the manuscript, why didn’t you say it earlier, and I’m only busy writing now. It will be very hard, right?”

“It’s okay, I’ll stay overnight tonight. If you’re tired, go to bed early.” Lu Shuang smiled, turning around and writing seriously.

Wei Nan nodded, and went to the bathroom to take a hot shower to wash away the alcohol on his body. Only then did he feel that his stomach was empty and uncomfortable.

After taking a shower, according to the phone list in the hotel, dialed the restaurant number, ordered some food, and then sat on the bed and looked at Lu Shuang.

The silhouette illuminated by the light is very handsome, the exquisite facial features are put together to make it even more extraordinary, and the gentleness is chic and comfortable. In this way, Lu Youyou is actually quite beautiful… His eyes have very low myopia. Normally, I don’t have to wear glasses, but now I wear them when typing. It suddenly seems to have a different look, and it has the “gentle and gentle” charm of the “sciful family”. Looking at his serious expression at this time, the drooping bangs when he lowered his head slightly, and the occasional gesture of holding his glasses, Wei Nan suddenly felt warm and calm in his heart. It seemed that when he was with him, he would feel completely relaxed. Feel like it.

“Don’t stare at me like that, causing me to make a string of typos.” Lu Shuang didn’t lift his head and said lightly.

Wei Nan flushed, and suddenly felt that staring at him really looked like a pervert. Just thinking about making excuses, when the doorbell rang suddenly, Wei Nan hurriedly got up to open the door and took the meal. Come in, “Well, let’s eat something first, aren’t you hungry?” Wei Nan smiled dryly.

Lu Shuang stopped his movements, took off his glasses, sat across from Wei Nan, and ate. After eating for a while, he raised his head again and said, “If you stare at me again, I won’t be able to eat.”

Wei Nan pointed to the sauce in front of him: “I stared at you this time because you…dip in the wrong place.”

Lu Shuang looked down and saw that he used the tomato sauce as a hot sauce to dip the beef-no wonder it was so sweet, and thought it was sweet to her heart. It turned out that he had eaten a mouthful of tomato sauce. Lu Shuang shook his head helplessly.

After eating, Lu Shuang continued to sit back in front of the computer and type while Wei Nan was lying on the bed reading a magazine, occasionally peeping at him from the gap, seeing that he was always calm and calm, staring at the computer screen and typing, maybe Because his inspiration is erupting, he keeps his fingers constantly, and he seems to be able to write wonderful plots without thinking.

After a long time, Lu Shuang sighed slightly and stretched out, “Did you suddenly find that my whole body is shining with golden light about to soar, why have you been staring at me today?” Lu Shuang turned his head and smiled, “Is it because I am too attractive? Are you **** up?”

Wei Nan said, “Yeah, yeah, your charm is so great that you attract all my eyes.”

“I knew it.” Lu Shuang smiled slightly: “If you can’t sleep, read the magazine first. After I finish writing, let’s discuss the issue of charm.” Then he continued to write.

He really worked hard. His fingers crackled and knocked on the keyboard. He knocked on the keyboard for more than an hour. The book was hundreds of thousands, less said. How many days do you want to write all night?

Wei Nan suddenly felt that it was not easy for him. Recently, he has been busy dealing with all kinds of trivial matters. He is a game technical director in the company, and he must be very hard at work. He took time off for himself without saying anything. He wrote a novel as an amateur and brought the computer to the United States on the other side of the earth… Wei Nan felt a little guilty and didn’t know what to do. , Had to lie on the bed thinking wildly.

When Lu Shuang finally finished writing, it was already three o’clock in the morning. Lu Shuang stretched out to turn off the computer and walked to the bed to cover Wei Nan with a quilt, but Wei Nan suddenly opened his eyes.

Lu Shuang was startled: “You didn’t sleep?”

“Well, not sleepy.”

Lu Shuang was silent for a moment, then smiled and said, “Then we discuss the issue just now?”

He sat on the edge of the bed, and Wei Nan moved over nervously.

The last time his confession was a month ago, there was only one repeated “I like you”, plus a strong kiss after drinking, and finally pushed him away and ran away without any rush to think about it. After that, something happened to Qi Juan. During this period of time, she had been busy and had countless worries all day long. She was so devastated that she had no extra time to carefully consider the relationship between the two. Now that things are over, the problems that have been evading are gradually appearing before my eyes.

Wei Nan squeezed the sweat from his palms, lowered his eyes, and said softly, “If you have something to say, please.”

Lu Shuang stretched out his hand to turn Wei Nan’s head, let her look directly at herself, and said seriously: “I like you, do you know?”

Wei Nan nodded.

“What do you mean?”

“I…” Wei Nan swallowed his saliva, thought for a long time, and squeezed out, “I think you are very good…”

It’s really embarrassing to say such inexplicable things, but Wei Nan doesn’t know what to say… To Lu Shuang, the person who has been silently paying and waiting, the person who accompanied me so tenderly, from the beginning. Uneasy, to guilt, to heartache, and now I have been reluctant to let go. Does it mean that my heart began to shake slowly, trying to like him?

Lu Shuang raised his eyebrows and said, “I am a very good person, of course I know it myself.”

Wei Nan was almost choked by his words.

Lu Shuang continued to frown and asked, “I’m asking what you think about my confession, not for you to evaluate my character.”

Wei Nan smiled and said: “I mean, I can’t forget all the things in the past so quickly, so I need some time to sort out the position in my heart. After finishing the empty space, I will invite you big Buddha in. You are so kind, I’m afraid I can’t pretend.”

Lu Shuang took off his glasses and put them aside, with his hands on Wei Nan’s side, he leaned over to look at Wei Nan at close range, and raised his mouth: “I am not a big Buddha, and I don’t need you to confess. I just need to leave a place in your heart for me. .”

Wei Nan continued to smile: “Lu Shuang, I don’t want to be with one person but I think about the other in my heart. That’s not good for you or me. I can’t afford to give the share you want wholeheartedly, but I will work hard. …One day, I will be able to afford it.” After a slight pause, his eyes lowered, “It’s just this day, maybe it won’t come too soon.”

Lu Shuang was also silent. After a long time, he gently touched Wei Nan’s head: “Silly girl.”

Wei Nan looked at Lu Shuang seriously, “Are you willing to wait?”

Lu Shuang smiled: “I can wait for you for one month, and then I can wait for ten months, one hundred months. If you forget him so quickly, it is not the Wei Nan I know.” After a long time, Lu Shuangcai said softly. : “People who are serious about feelings are really idiots. Unfortunately, we two idiots met together.”

Seeing him gently sighing, Wei Nan also agreed: “Yes, there is a stupid magnetic field on his body, so I met him by fate.”

After Wei Nan finished speaking, he bent his eyes and laughed.

Lu Shuang watched Wei Nan quietly, only to see that she curled her eyes and smiled slightly, with a looming dimple on her mouth, looking very stupid.

Lu Shuang couldn’t help but smile slightly.

The two looked at each other in silence for a long time.

The air was so quiet that one could hear each other’s breathing.

The prosperous city, the bright lights outside the window, the noisy traffic, but the house is so peaceful.

It seems that everything has nothing to do with the two of them, as if only the other side is left in each other’s eyes, the other side’s smiling face is reflected in the bright black eyes, and the smiling self is also seen in the other side’s eyes-extremely relieved and extremely comfortable.

Lu Shuang’s arm supporting Wei Nan’s side bends slightly, leaning over, and pressing a kiss on Wei Nan’s lips.

That kiss was too pure and too warm. The tongue gently swept across the teeth and the gums, as if trying to heal the crisscross wounds in his heart, so patient and gentle. Wei Nan closed his eyes lightly, stretched out his hand to embrace him, and obediently matched his kiss.

Actually this is not bad.

Even if there is a person who has walked in the bottom of my heart, even if the wound left by that person has tortured people for so many years like a slit made of iron wire. Even if he can never completely forget him, the person who sang to himself at the singer contest, the person who carried himself to the hospital on April Fool’s Day, was indifferent in appearance but soft and gentle at heart-that was his most unforgettable first love.

However, now there are other people walking into the heart, like a breeze blowing through the heart, warm as spring.

This is my choice.

A bright light reflected from the tall buildings outside, shining through the windows, reflecting Lu Shuang’s face.

He cocked his mouth slightly, his eyes full of tenderness and firmness. Wei Nan heard his low voice ringing in his ears.

“Wei Nan, I will wait for you, no matter how long.”

He looked at each other affectionately and remained silent for a long time.

Lu Shuang touched his nose and whispered, “Sorry, the first official confession is inevitably nervous and flustered. The confession just now was too imperfect. I will try it again.”

Lu Shuang gave a light cough and said with a serious face: “I love you.”