Shang Xia And Zuo Yu - Chapter 48
The morning run, today’s overall speed is much faster, the team of Xuan Yuqi in the second lap is a bit strained, the usual speed she will be able to keep up, today’s speed a little faster, she can not.
By the third lap, she felt a trance, rushed out of the team, squatting on the lawn, could not help but dry vomit, nosebleed began to flow out, she panicked a little, rushed to cover with her hands, ran into the water room of the school building to clean.
Looking at the blood-colored water in the sink, Xuan Yuqi froze for a long time, the nosebleed started again, the medicine had worn off.
Yeah, it’s the end of December, it’s almost New Year’s Eve, I have less than a month left in this life.
She went back to the classroom, tidied herself up, and then walked to the office.
“Teacher.”
Zhao Xian turned back to look at her, “Not running exercises, why are you back?” Seeing that she didn’t look very well, “Not feeling well?”
Xuan Yuqi nodded and hesitated for a moment before saying, “Teacher, my menstrual cramps are too strong this time, can I stop running drills until the days of exams?”
She knew her situation and couldn’t exercise anymore, but, still, she didn’t tell the truth.
Zhao Xian saw that her face was really bad, so he approved it, anyway, it was only three or four days before the exams.
“I know your senior year is stressful, but you still need to pay more attention to your body ah.”
Xuan Yuqi nodded her head.
“Okay, then you can go back first.”
Xuan Yuqi returned to the classroom, sat in her seat, looked at the crowd on the playground through the window, thought of her own soon to die, could not help but red-eyed.
In fact, she is only an eighteen-year-old girl, how hard it is to hold back and hide such a big thing from herself.
However, she would rather bear it herself than to let everyone know, not wanting everyone to look at her with sympathy and pity.
In her mind, everyone returned to the classroom one after another.
Shang Xia knew that Xuan Yu Qi had left early, but they couldn’t look at her, and now they ran back quickly.
“XuanXuan, what’s going on?” Shang Xia looked at her nervously.
“Why does your face look so bad.” He Qian also frowned.
Xuan Yuqi smiled, “Nothing, my period came, my stomach hurts.”
They were relieved.
Mu Zhiyang took a cup and received some hot water, “Quick, drink some water.”
Xuan Yuqi took it, “Okay.”
Someone cares, what a blessing.
The class started, several people returned to their seats.
Because the exam is coming up, Shang Xia is extra serious these days, she wants to get a good grade in the final exam.
Looking at Shang Xia’s seriousness, Zuo Yu knew that she wanted to become better and wanted to take the same school as him, and looked at her with an extra gentle gaze.
The final exam that Shang Xia was looking forward to came. The first of these is a randomly scheduled exam, and several of them were not assigned to an exam room.
The first language, just to half, Xuan Yuqi felt a warm nasal cavity, subconsciously used his hand to cover, but still a few drops fell on the white paper, haloed into a red flower-like.
She asked her teacher for permission to run to the water room, where she felt the amount of flow getting more and more controlled each time.
It took half an hour in the water room to sort it out before returning to class. She wiped the already dried blood with a tissue, picked up her pen and continued to answer the questions carefully, finishing the last exam of her life and just pretending it was a high school entrance exam for good measure.
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After the exams, it was winter break. Everyone packed up their things and prepared to go home.
Xuan Yuqi put Shang Xia, Mu Zhiyang, He Qian all pulled to the front, “sisters, soon I will not see you, you can all be good.”
They looked at Xuan Yuqi’s red eyes, Mu Zhiyang teased, “Aigoo, what’s wrong, this vacation is only three weeks, it’s gone in a flash.”
“Yes, it’s not possible, we can also come out to play.” He Qian patted her shoulder.
“Okay, no crying.” Shang Xia didn’t know why she looked at Xuan Yu Qi like this, she suddenly also sad.
“Yeah.” Xuan Yuqi knew that they all thought she was talking about the winter holidays, she did not point out, smiling at them.
“Then, let’s hug.” Xuan Yuqi suggested.
Then, at the back of the classroom, the four girls hugged tightly together.
Except for Xuan Yuqi, none of them knew that this was the last time they spoke to her and the last time they hugged her.
The rest of the days, Xuan Yuqi has been with her mother, shopping, cooking, stickers, cutting window flowers, mother and daughter who did not break anything, living a very warm life.
Until the day of January 16, Xuan Yuqi felt like she had reached her head, I don’t know why I felt so strongly, after dinner, her mother was washing dishes, Xuan Yuqi walked over and hugged her mother.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing, want to hug you.”
Xuan Yuqi’s mom smiled.
“Mom, I miss my dad.” Xuan Yuqi suddenly said.
Xuan Yuqi’s mom froze for a moment, tears came out all of a sudden, she didn’t dare to speak, she was afraid that if she opened her mouth, she would find herself crying.
“Mom, I love you.”
Xuan Yuqi’s mom choked up for a moment, “Mom loves you too.”
“Well, what are we inciting mother and father, I’m going to read a book, you go to bed early.” Xuan Yuqi finished pretending to be relaxed and rushed out of the kitchen.
Run to their room, close the door, before letting the tears that could not be held back flow down. Her mother, who was in the kitchen, also sat down on the floor after she went out, covering her mouth and crying silently.
She put out the lights in the room, only turned on the night light on the table, and by the faint light, took out a pen and paper and decided to leave a letter to her mother, and a few friends.
In this day and age, all are using cell phones, which are very convenient. But, she just wanted to write letters and leave them.
She wrote a lot and threw away a lot, hesitated for a long time, thought for a long time, found a lot of words to say, and found that after writing it was all useless nonsense, nagging a lot, and then she threw it away.
Xuan Yuqi lying on the desk trembling and crying.
What to do, I don’t want to leave you guys yet…
What to do, I’m so scared…
What to do…
When she finished writing, it was already more than twelve o’clock. She didn’t feel the slightest bit sleepy.
When she saw that her mother was already asleep, she picked up her coat, opened the door and went out.
Because it was almost New Year’s Eve, even though it was early in the morning, it was still light outside. She walked aimlessly and suddenly remembered a time when she was with Ding Yueze, watching the sun set, and she said, “I so want to watch a sunrise with you, and then make a wish that we would never be separated.
She clearly remembers that Ding Yueze was still the one who was so gentle to her, dotingly stroking her head and then embracing her in the afterglow of the sunset, whispering to her that you want to watch the sunrise, and we will go when we are free, but we will definitely be together forever, this is not a wish, no need to make a wish.
She reached out and wiped away the tears that had fallen again at some point, that… The last thing you need to do is to satisfy your wish and go see the sunrise.
She casually stopped a car and told the master she wanted to see the sunrise, where to go where you can see. The master drove for more than an hour and put her at the very border of Linhua City, where there is a sea area.
Xuan Yuqi fell asleep in the car, the master driver shouted she did not wake up, and finally shook her with his hand, she slowly opened her eyes, paid the money, opened the door and got off are a little shaky, unstable center of gravity.
“Little girl, are you sick ah, so cold still come to the beach to see what the sunrise ah, the weather forecast said tomorrow cloudy day.”
Xuan Yuqi smiled, “Thank you, I’m fine.”
With that, he slowly walked towards the beach step by step.
There was a reef by the sea, a big one, and she walked over and leaned against it. She was wearing a new down jacket that her mother had bought for her today. She put on her hat, looked at the dark night sky, and listened to the sound of the waves washing over her.
The images of the two years she spent with Ding Yueze kept coming back to her mind.
“Qiqi, eat an apple on Christmas Eve, oh, and wish you a happy Christmas in advance.”
“Qiqi, Coke is a carbonated drink, it’s not good for your body, you can’t always drink it, why don’t I buy you a bottle a week?”
“Kiki, does your stomach still hurt, I’ll rub it for you.”
“Kiki ……”
The first time I saw the girl, I was so happy to see her.
Suddenly a feeling of nausea came up and she vomited on the ground, vomiting until finally nothing but dry heaving.
This is such dry vomiting, all her strength, until the nausea receded a little, she lay down on the ground with a big gasp, tears flowing down the corners of her eyes, she even felt the loss of life, the heat of the body is fading, she once again felt the panic.
She trembled and took out her cell phone from her pocket, wanting to make a phone call to Ding Yueze, she thought, to finally hear his voice, sunrise I can’t seem to wait, let me hear your voice again, for the last time.
The hands were frozen cold, still trembling, pressed several times before the phone page opened, found the address book, stared at the first column of “Brother Yueze” for a long time, before trembling to call.
When she heard the voice, she dropped the phone when she was nervous, hitting her face and sliding to the ground, she couldn’t pick it up, so she turned sideways and put her ear to the phone, waiting for him to answer.
Ding Yueze, who was sleeping at home, was awakened by the phone, annoyed by the blah blah blah hair, took the phone, 3:00 a.m., and looked, Xuan Yuqi called?
He froze for a moment, and only when it was almost finished ringing did he answer, but he didn’t say anything.
Xuan Yuqi thought he would not pick up, heard his breathing, tears once again broke the bank.
Seeing that she did not say anything, but only the sound of breathing came, Ding Yueze frowned.
For a long time, Xuan Yuqi spoke, “Brother Yueze, I miss you so much ….”
The soft voice, the lingering words, all caused him to freeze.
Xuan Yuqi saw that he did not speak, she did not care, at least the phone is still through, she also expressed the words of the heart.
No more regrets.
After a long, long silence, Xuan Yuqi spoke once again, her voice was even softer that she couldn’t hear it without listening carefully, like her own mumbling.
“Ding Yueze, goodbye.”
Because it was by the sea, far from the city, the signal was bad, it broke after Xuan Yuqi finished, the nosebleed gushed out once again, this time she didn’t cover it again, she didn’t have the strength either, she let it cut across her cheeks and drip on the ground.
Xuan Yuqi’s mind crossed the image of playing happily with Shang Xia, the image of her mother and father accompanying her as a child, and finally settled on a warm smiling face as he gently called her “Qiqi…”
The corners of Xuan Yuqi’s mouth rose slightly and she slowly closed her eyes…
