Shang Xia And Zuo Yu - Chapter 60

Xuyao remembered that when he was a child he often saw his mother crying secretly by herself, he did not know what was wrong with her, but he was especially sad to see her sad face.

At that time he only knew that his father was often not at home, his father was not cold to his mother, not warm to him, a little better than to his mother, he thought that all the fathers in the world are like this, he saw his sister-in-law to cousin Shangxia special special doting, he thought that because his cousin is a girl, and he is a boy, so his father did not treat him like this.

Until one time after kindergarten, he was waiting outside for his mom, and he saw the little fat one in the same class with his dad.

“Daddy, I want to eat marshmallows.” Fatty said.

“Okay, Daddy will buy you.”

Little fatty got the cotton candy as he wished.

Because there were too many people, Little Fatty’s father lifted Little Fatty up and let him sit on his father’s shoulders. Little Fatty’s happy smile stimulated Xu Yao.

He had never asked his dad for anything, and his dad had never lifted him up like that. It turns out that not all dads are cold, and not just nice to girls, but his dad hadn’t been that nice to him.

That night, he cautiously asked his mom, “Mom, does dad not like me?”

His mother froze and stroked his head, “Why not? Daddy is just too busy, you have to be understanding.”

Little Xuyao was convinced by his mother’s words. He always thought that his dad was too busy at work to spend time with him and his mom. He remembered that his dad had bought him birthday presents and hugged him, but just not recently.

Until that day, Dad brought a strange woman home, forcing Mom to write, his mother did not write, he did not know why Mom did not write, nor did he know who the woman was, he saw Dad’s attitude towards the woman is he had never seen over the gentle, that is Dad never showed to him and Mom, he felt that his father was so strange at that moment.

He saw his mom crying a lot, he remembered that before his mom just secretly drop tears, see him will wipe away, this time but not, blatant crying, he was so heartbroken, he thought it must be dad and that woman bullying mom, see them to go, he ran over and pushed the woman, “bad guys, no bullying my mom.”

What he didn’t expect was how horribly his dad, who he loved in his heart, looked at him then, like he was an enemy, and he didn’t expect that his dad would kick him so hard that he fell to the ground and he felt the pain.

He saw his mom crawl over and hug him and cry. He watched his dad hug the woman and walk away quickly, not holding back in the slightest. He couldn’t understand why his dad didn’t want him and his mom anymore. He fainted from the pain, and his last memory was of his mom crying.

He woke up in the hospital and saw his sister-in-law’s family, his mom’s good friend Uncle Yang, but no mom.

“Where is my mom?”

“Little Yao, be a good boy, your mother is sick and can’t be disturbed by people, let her rest well, okay?” Sun Jie Ru’s red eyes softly comforted Xuyao.

“Don’t be sad, cousin, Xia Xia is with you.” Shang Xia’s childish face was full of worry.

Xuyao reached out and touched his sister’s head, “Good.”

He never saw his mother and finally, Uncle Yang came over to him, “Xiao Yao, your mother is sick, Uncle wants to take her to that hospital where Uncle is in America to give her better treatment, you come with us, okay?”

“Mom’s sick, is it very serious?” Xuyao was a little scared inside.

“Yes, going to the uncle’s place will give her better treatment, so…”

“Okay, since it’s for mom’s own good, of course I’m willing.” Little Xuyao looked at Yang Tong firmly.

During the first few years in the United States, he did not see his mother at a glance, and it was Uncle Yang and the family nanny who accompanied him.

On his sixth birthday, no one knew, and he didn’t tell anyone, he stood outside his mother’s window all night, he didn’t know what his mother had, he heard them say it was depression, but he didn’t know what it was either, Uncle Yang said his mother would be fine.

Uncle Yang said he couldn’t go to see his mom, he didn’t know why. Once he really missed his mom, he sneaked into her room when no one was looking at him, and when she saw him, she smashed things like crazy, and he was so scared that he cried.

Later, Uncle Yang told him a lot, he said that his mother does not not love him anymore, just because of his condition temporarily do not remember him, see him will think of his father, so, for the time being, do not go to see his mother.

After that, he really did not go to see his mother, miss her, so he went to sit under her window.

Once, hearing the sound of crying from inside, and Uncle Yang’s roar, he immediately ran in and saw his mom covered in blood, and he was so scared that he fainted once again.

Later, he learned that his mother committed suicide and was found by Uncle Yang in time so that she did not leave him.

Later, Uncle Yang sent him to boarding school, elementary school for six years, he has been in the boarding school, only to return home once in a long time, he gradually developed that non-verbal, cold nature, all things are pressed in the heart, every time he thought he saw his mother covered in blood, he hated his father and that woman incomparably.

Gradually, as time went on, his mother’s illness improved, and he graduated from elementary school and entered secondary school.

That was the first time he met Mu Zhiyang.

In the evening, mom wanted to eat a family’s pastry, so he went out to buy her one. Passing by a fancy bar, he saw several people coming out of it, and there was a Chinese person, a girl, in the middle.

She was chatting with the people around her, and the bright smile on her face was stunning to him. He didn’t expect a face that didn’t look particularly impressive to smile to be that stunning.

He does not particularly like to mix in such occasions often, he did not care, and passed.

I didn’t expect to see her again the next day at school, oh, in the next class.

Later, he played basketball with his classmates in the playground, when it was over many people gave him water, he did not know that the original foreigners like Chinese people so much, he has been ignoring this kind of thing, I did not expect that he also saw the girl in that group, she brutally squeezed out a way to him, “handsome, hello, all Chinese, what a coincidence, that, you play basketball so well ah. ”

Xu Yao looked at her and walked away without saying anything.

She caught up again, “That, my name is Mu Zhiyang, English name sunny, your name is Xuyao I know.”

Xuyao stopped, “Do you want something?”

“Uh, nothing, I want to make friends with you.” Mu Zhiyang laughs.

“I don’t want to be friends with you.”

Xu Yao didn’t know why he rejected her, he thought she was the kind of person who hung out at bars every day and didn’t want to get involved with people like them.

But then, he didn’t expect his refusal to make Mu Zhiyang more motivated, and subsequently, she followed him everywhere he went, playing basketball, eating, and on his way to the toilet.

“Are you done?” Xu Yao could not stand it anymore.

“It’s not over.”

“What do you want?” Xuyao was impatient.

The other hand, Mu Zhiyang was not afraid, “You be my boyfriend.”

Xuyao’s eyes showed impatience, “Impossible.”

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After that, she kept chasing, he kept hiding.

The day of graduation, “Xuyao, I am serious, you do not like me to go to that kind of place, I will not go, OK?”

“I don’t like you and am annoyed with you.” Xuyao didn’t even look at her and passed her by.

Mu Zhiyang froze in place, “Don’t like it, so don’t like it, I’m going back anyway. I thought that if you stayed, I wouldn’t go back. It’s me who overestimated myself.”

So long, under the careful care of Uncle Yang and him, Sun Jieling’s illness has been cured, Uncle Yang’s intention is here in the observation of two months, nothing will be completely well.

In these two months, Mu Zhiyang did not make a phone call or send a message to him.

One night, he ghostly called her, but the number was empty, he could not help but feel a little lost in his heart.

He didn’t know what was wrong with him, didn’t he hate her a lot?

It was not until he returned home and saw her again that he felt that discomfort in his heart disappear.

I did not expect her to be friends with her cousin, contact down to see, she is indeed different from before, perhaps she has always been like this, the previous him did not understand it.

At first, see her to their own and not like before, he was quite uncomfortable in his heart, and began to find various reasons to dislike her.

Later, it was discovered that she still liked herself, Xuyao could not suppress his inner joy, and he was happy to be with her, and what he said to her on the day of the entrance exam was what he had in mind, and he really wanted to go on with her.

Who would have thought that she was the daughter of Huang Suan, the daughter of the bad woman who stole his father and hurt his mother. He could not bear the torment of being with her again, and could not control his temper with her.

He is also very painful, he is afraid that his mother knows that he has fallen in love with the daughter of his enemy, he is afraid that his mother again can not stand the blow, even he hates.

He only had his mother, he could not lose her.

But when he heard Sangha say that he made her suffer from depression as well, the pain in his heart was no less than anyone else.

Sangha asked him if hatred was more important than her life, right?

Of course not, of course she is important, he did not want Mu Zhiyang like this, he just wanted to leave her, now, he did not want anything else, just want her to live well.

Shang Xia also asked if he had ever really liked her, had he ever moved for her?

He just figured out that the first time he saw her at the age of 15, her smile was engraved in his heart, and has been remembered until now, never erased.

The night before he went off to college, he asked his mother.

“Mom, do you still hate Xuping Sheng and Huang Suan?” Xuyao asked in a soft voice.

He didn’t know why he was asking, what kind of answer did he want to hear? If he hated, then he was right to break up, he would be heartbroken and sad about the harm he had caused Mu Zhiyang, but at least, his mother hated it, and he did it for a reason.

If not hate, then all this is what he deserved.

Sun Jie Ling froze for a long time before she remembered who these two people were, she smiled, “What’s there to hate, your father never loved me, he loved that woman all the time, besides, it’s all in the past, you don’t say, I’m going to forget who they are, people who have nothing to do with us, what’s the point of always remembering?”

Xuyao’s tears rolled down at once, “So, if, if I fall in love with Huang Suan’s daughter, will you hate me?”

Sun Jieling frowned at her son’s tears, she was heartbroken, “No, that’s all the grudge of the older generation, what does it have to do with your younger generation, I heard, that woman didn’t like her daughter at all, her daughter was born by accident, also a heartbreaking child, luckily, she has a good father.”

“You, did you hurt that girl?” Knowing her son is like a mother, looking at him, Sun Jieling knew, her son had not cried since he grew up or, this was the first time.

The guilt in Xuyao’s heart was getting stronger and stronger, and he hated himself.

“Mom, I’m sorry for her.”

“She was very fond of me, and I was the one who hurt her, hurt her badly, and she also… Also got a severe depression.” Xuyao showed a scared look like a child, whimpering and sobbing.

Sun Jieling hugged him, “Then expect that she will come out sooner and you will go to make amends to her again, son, what happened in the past, let’s put it in the past, let’s just live the present, it’s enough for mom to have you now.”

“Well ……”

“Mom, I miss her.” Sun Jie Ling tightened the arms that hugged him, it was all her fault for making her son so sensitive since he was a child, and for not talking to him properly before letting him go and hurt people.

I hope the girl will be better soon…

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The story of high school is over, and we are going to start our grown-up life.