She’s The Older Sister Of The Yandere Male Lead In A BL Novel - Chapter 34 – Part 1

Chapter 34 – Part 1

“Frey!”

Overwhelmed with excitement, she embraced him.

His body seemed to momentarily stiffen at her action, then laughing out loud he hugged her back.

“Do you miss me that much?”

“That’s right!”

She cried out and wrapped her arms more tightly around his waist.

Yurenia has been curiously waiting!

It was none other than about the regression.

Yurenia couldn’t summon the busy boy Frey because of the rumors nor meet him because of Lisandro’s surveillance.

How could she not be delighted by the sight of him?

Yurenia felt like crying from the burst of emotion she was experiencing, but she didn’t know when her brother, Lisandro, would activate his sister radar anytime soon if she let them stay out for too long.

She quickly dragged Frey inside the room.

After Yurenia hurriedly beckoned Utah to leave them alone, she locked the door and as she turned around, she found Frey standing and smiling.

“Really! I missed you so much!”

“I know this is about the dream, but…”

Frey mumbled low as he caressed her hair.

“…but it feels good to be welcomed by you like this.”

“Hurry, come here.”

Yurenia grabbed his hand, and they sat down on the sofa. She saw his sleeves folded and wondered where he was going.

Before they continued the conversation, Yurenia took a deep breath and organized her thoughts. She found herself conflicted on what to ask first.

But, still.

“You mentioned you had a dream, right?”

Frey gently nodded his head, not denying it.

“Can you tell me in detail what exactly happened in your dreams?”

The story of Yurenia’s friend that she hadn’t seen for a long time, and the story that Frey would tell, could be the next thing to save their lives.

If she learned of all the dreams he had from the beginning, Yurenia thought that maybe her questions would be answered one by one.

She readily opened her mouth, asking pointedly.

“Since when did Noona know?”

She recalled the day when she had her first dream, it was the year before she entered the temple…

“It was when I was eleven.”

“It started when I was nine. A year after I entered the academy, I realized that it was real. Around the time I graduated, I had come to understand that I came back from the past.”

* * * 

The first day Frey had a dream was when Lisandro’s eyes began to make him uncomfortable.

Because their parents were close acquaintances, it was natural that Frey and Lisandro would often come and go together, and it was Lisandro who would often come to play at Frey’s mansion.

And on occasion when Frey would come to play in the mansion, Yurenia was often spotted reading by the windowsill in the distance.

Frey never had long conversations with Yurenia, who was kind and nice, other than greeting.

And obviously, Frey couldn’t take his gaze off Yurenia.

Lisandro noticed the gaze Frey had for her, and as much as possible, prevented him from coming to their mansion.

The first dream he had left him with a lot of thoughts regarding Lisandro, who seemed to engulf every aspect of him when they were young.

Then one day, his dreams suddenly stopped coming. So he thought it was just all a nightmare at first.

He dismissed the creepy sensation he felt, like a poisonous snake wrapping around him and slithering around, as just a nightmare.

When Frey started attending the Academy, he dreamed nonstop for a year.

In his dreams, a series of misfortunes was shown to him, starting with the death of his parents.

He couldn’t move from Lisandro, as his weakened body was always only swayed by him day by day.

On days he dreamed, his body ached more and he felt frustrated as if his heart was tearing apart.

He immediately wanted to rip Lisandro to pieces.

Under uncontrollable distress, Frey was able to avoid Lisandro on days he experienced the dreams because the classes both of them were taking were different.

Whenever Frey met him, his emotions would surge and he had the urge to hurt Lisandro.

It was fortunate that the Lisandro from his dreams had disappeared because of Yurenia, unlike in his dreams, his obsession couldn’t be seen.

And in the present time, there was no sense of madness in his disgusting sky-blue eyes.

It was only then that Frey was able to regain his peace of mind.

“But then, there was something I found odd.”

“Something odd?”

“Yes.”

As Yurenia tilted her head in confusion, Frey followed suit, tilting his head slightly, and laughed low as he found her cute.

Unknowingly imitating Yurenia’s gestures was one of Frey’s habits he eventually developed from watching her all the time.

Yurenia always saw Frey smile whenever he was with her, so Yurenia didn’t find his actions odd.

“Noona and Lisandro weren’t close in my dream, but not too distant. Lisandro’s relationship seems to be drifting farther from Noona who only reads books. Actually, it seemed that he was the one who purposely stayed away.”

Yurenia listened attentively to the scenarios that weren’t mentioned in the novel.

“It was different in reality. The relationship between you two was different. Even now. I dismissed it as dreams as I saw your siblings’ love to the point that you two wouldn’t live without each other. I think it was hard to accept the fact that I was going through something like that when I was young.”

The gap between reality and dream was greater than Yurenia thought. In particular, with the relationship between the siblings.

When Yurenia started playing with Frey in the library and came close to him he felt like the afterimage of his dreams shattered.

The scent of Yurenia, her smiling face and her white hair carried by the breeze, made his heart pound despite there being no physical contact.

For Frey, the thump and pounding of his heart, the excitement of meeting her, was something he would never forget for the rest of his life.

“Then why don’t you think it’s a dream now?”

If Frey still thought of these as mere dreams and nothing more, there was no reason for him to bring this up.

“I actually had no plans to travel. That is, until I saw my ending.”

“…….”

Yurenia’s eyebrows narrowed at Frey’s reply.

Her mysterious silver-gray eyes shook with sorrow. As if she knew what Frey was referring to.

‘You died before me.’

As if the world was painted black and white, red was the only color Lisandro could see.

The day when he felt a sense of constant despair as if he was falling into the abyss while Yurenia’s whole body was cold and pale.

The day he lost the person he loved before him.

The pain still throbbed at the edge of his heart.

‘…I could never forget.’

He refused to repeat the same outcome. And so he left.

Just when he realized that it wasn’t a dream, Frey could never speak of the story behind it.

Even now, he sounded like he was speaking nonsense. So he had to find Regina.

That is what mattered the most.

As he will answer every question that worried Yurenia.

Frey gently rubbed Yurenia’s hand as if to comfort her dismay that was showing in her wrinkled forehead.

“Noona, the gears are misaligned. Because Noona changed it.”

There were no more futures trapped that eventually lead to the deaths of her loved ones, who were destroyed by the hands of Lisandro.

Chapter 34 – Part 2

Everything had changed, and Yurenia was the center of it all.

His eyes deeply reflected Yurenia’s.

She slowly raised her head, the silver-gray eyes reflecting back to his.

Frey liked making eye contact with Yurenia, which would explain the raised corners of his mouth.

Naturally so.

“You knew it wasn’t a dream, didn’t you? Which was why you were distant with Lisandro, too.”

“…That’s right.”

After a long silence, Yurenia replied to his question.

“Then, do you know the reason why the time turned back?”

“I don’t remember everything either. It was rare. I met Regina and I think something happened when I helped her…”

Similar to Yurenia, Frey couldn’t remember anything that might be deemed important, as if the memories had been cut off.

* * * 

Perhaps there could be something important in the rest of their memory.

The dream that made Frey recover his past memories, and Yurenia’s friend who made her read the novel.

As Frey suggested, there might be answers they could find if they met with Regina.

The view from outside of the window was already dyed orange with the sunset after Yurenia listened to Frey’s story.

The tea was already cold and his black hair was infused with the orange sunset, giving it a subtle mysterious color.

“Then, did you realize that it was real after seeing the end?”

“Yes, that’s why I said that after the trip. Thank you for saving me.”

It was only then that Yurenia fully understood Frey’s questionable attitude after their return came to light.

For her, the reason why Frey became affectionate to Yurenia was because he remembered her when he regressed.

Yurenia was thankful, and she was thinking of repaying the favor.

The gap that Yurenia remembered between her death and the rest of the timeline was too great.

For she had lived a life in Korea.

Then, wouldn’t it be the same for Frey? Maybe he had lived a different life too, like Yurenia.

“Do you remember anything like this from your past life?”

“Does Noona remember? What was it? Angel?”

“…Is swearing allowed?”

He shook his head and laughed at my harsh reply.

“Not at all. I was only looking for memories before the regression.”

If so then, it could mean that Frey either did not remember or he had never really lived a past life like Yurenia.

And it was not worth lingering over.

Whatever his past life, Frey seemed to have regressed, and if not all, he remembered some important events.

“How about Noona? How much do you remember?”

“I only have a few memories, like you; like the day I died saving you.”

Yurenia did not tell him that she read it in the novel.

If she were to bring it up when she’s not fully confident of it yet, it would only be baseless.

No, Yurenia did not think that Frey would not believe her, but… she wasn’t sure herself if it were even right to refer to it as a ‘novel.’

“Who is Regina, then? The friend you’ve talked about before was Bliss, right?”

“Regina was the one who brought me and Noona back in time. Bliss, the friend I mentioned last time, was the one who saved me before I regressed.”

Yurenia’s eyes widened in surprise at the unexpected information.

Regina was the one who brought them back.

Frey said that Bliss saved him but what did he mean by she’s up to something?

What’s Frey’s reason for cutting ties with Bliss, when he could keep her by his side since she saved him?

After he thought about my question, Frey frowned apologetically.

“I’m sorry. It’s hard to know what to say at the moment because I am still unsure. I cannot even find the right words.”

“Then, will we be able to find out if we were to go to Regina?”

“Probably. I think we will be able to learn everything Noona and I are curious about. Anyhow, you’re the one who caused the regression.”

However, Frey couldn’t just blindly approach Regina, when he didn’t know where she was.

Even if they were to go on a trip, the obstacle was the temple. Although Yurenia was living in the family’s mansion, she promised to continue volunteering.

Though if Yurenia were to tell them her situation, the temple might let her, but if the rumors will not be subsiding anytime soon, she might only be criticized more.

Yurenia was doing alright, at the same time, she wanted her family and the temple to stop worrying.

Yurenia hoped for something to happen so there would be an opportunity to get away with it.

She was thinking of playing sick.

However, Yurenia would be away for a long time, and if rumors were to spread that she caught a deadly disease, it would only cause problems.

Still, she wanted to go to the place where Frey and Regina first met.

Would Yurenia be able to remember something if she were to go?

“Do you remember where you met Regina?”

“Of course.”

“I also want to go there.”

“I’ve already been there, but there’s nothing.”

Yurenia knew she didn’t have to go. There’s no way Frey hadn’t examined every nook and cranny.

However, Yurenia thought that it wouldn’t be possible for her not to remember something if she were to return to the place she went before their regression.

“You don’t know what people are capable of. I might be able to remember something. I have a hunch that something like that will happen. Can’t I?”

Yurenia thought that she might get a clue of something.

For her, it was nothing before the regression, and now it was about her.

In other words, Yurenia was not in a position anymore to just leisurely let things be.

At Yurenia’s request, Frey smiled softly and opened his mouth.

“That’s absurd. If Noona wants to go, then let’s go together. Please think about it and inform me.”

When Frey willingly accepted it, Yurenia thought about how she could leave and get away from the mansion for a long time, but her body suddenly stiffened in horror.

She barely managed to open her quivering lips.

“You… You said you remember.”

“Yes. Why did you suddenly stiffen?”

Frey stroked Yurenia’s hair, trying to ease her.

Yurenia choked and chewed her lips at Frey’s gentle touch without realizing it.

“Noona.”

Frey gently called Yurenia and brushed her lips.

Yurenia’s mind was only filled with the thought that she wasn’t the only one anymore who remembered the past after she heard Frey’s story, however for a moment, she had forgotten the most important thing.

Frey had met Lisandro.

With his past memories.

“…But why did you come back to us?”

“…….”

“How,”

How…

“Were you able to endure seeing Lisandro again?”

The one who made Frey suffer in the depths of hell.

How was Frey able to see Lisandro eye to eye?

How was Frey able to remain calm and sane after that?

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