So You’re Secretly Jealous Again - Chapter 25

Right now, this voice is indeed Shu Jinshi’s voice.

“You, are you back?” Xu Fengyi looked at the figure that was about to merge with the darkness in front of her, like waking up from a dream.

The voice line that was originally sluggish and vague due to sleepiness also returned to normal in a second.

“I’ve been back for a while.” Shu Jinshi looked at her like a fool: “When I passed by your room later, I heard that you seemed to be talking in your sleep, so I came in. I didn’t expect that when I arrived at your bedside, You grabbed your hand.”

After Shu Jinshi finished speaking, he leaned over and stretched out his hand towards the switch beside Xu Fengyi’s bed.

She didn’t turn on the lights before because she was afraid that the light would be too stimulating and affect Xu Fengyi’s sleep quality, so she stayed with her in the dark.

Now that Xu Fengyi has woken up, it doesn’t matter.

There was a crisp sound of “click”, and the soft beige light spread all around instantly, filling every corner of the room, and Shu Jinshi’s appearance became clear.

She was sitting beside the bed against the light, and the halo outlined a shallow, fluffy outline on her body, which looked extra soft.

With the light, Xu Fengyi noticed that he really was holding her wrist firmly.

“I’m sorry!” Xu Fengyi hurriedly released her hand to apologize, and then noticed that on Shu Jinshi’s thin wrist, there were already several red marks pressed by her fingers, which must have been pinched by herself when she was dreaming. from.

Xu Fengyi’s heart was suddenly mixed, and she looked at her with the eyes of a dog who blamed herself: “Does it hurt?”

Shu Jinshi shook his head, and the corners of his lips were raised by her small eyes: “It doesn’t hurt, it’s just that marks on my skin are easy to toss. It will disappear in a while.”

Xu Fengyi breathed a sigh of relief and patted his chest: “That’s good, that’s good…”

Shu Jinshi remembered that she had caught a cold, and asked again, “Are you feeling better after taking the medicine?”

Xu Fengyi: “It’s much better. I have a characteristic, that is, the cold comes quickly, and the recovery is quick…”

Shu Jinshi nodded: “However, what did you dream about? I feel bad for you.”

Xu Fengyi stopped patting her chest, bit her lower lip lightly and looked at her with a thoughtful look, her thin eyebrows twitched.

Then her brows loosened slightly, she put down her hands and sighed, pretending to say cheerfully, “It’s nothing…”

“that is…”

“Huh?” Shu Jinshi put his left leg on his right leg, crossed his hands on his knees, and waited to listen.

After a long time passed, Xu Fengyi took a deep breath in his chest and said in a succinct manner: “Actually, I don’t feel anything now, but maybe because it’s a shadow from my childhood, it’s deeply ingrained, and I still always dream about it.”

“I was pretty young at that time, maybe about ten years old. My dad never came home, and when he came back, he would just quarrel with my mother, and he was speechless when he made a mess of the house all day long. It’s better not to come back.”

“Later, there was a power outage at home, and I was doing homework in the house, but they were still making noise, lighting a candle in the living room, and smashing things while arguing… I don’t know who knocked over the candle, and the fire spread like that. now…”

“But they were still arguing, standing in the fire. Even 119, I touched and called. After calling, I wanted to run out, but something burned out and blocked the door. I went out. Don’t go.”

“My legs were weak at the time, but they were still arguing. They loved each other so much before, but that day, they seemed to want to die with each other. In fact, I often wonder if my childhood memories are all fake, yes It’s not all made up by me.”

Obviously when she was a child, only her mother could be seen in her father’s eyes.

Xu Fengyi clearly remembered that when she was about seven or eight years old, her mother was sick lying in bed talking nonsense, saying that she wanted to eat Chen Ji’s white-cut chicken, and her father ran half the city to buy it without a word. .

At that time, the two of them were still so concerned about each other, and regarded each other as treasures. They were afraid that they would melt with their mouths, and they were afraid that they would fall when they held their hands. Even the neighbors were envious of their feelings. .

Xu Fengyi pursed her lips, and her eyes were filled with a layer of mist, so she looked extra bright: “Fortunately, the fire alarm uncle came quickly, and our family is safe. Otherwise…”

Then, she raised her little finger and scratched the small water stain that oozes out from the corner of her eye: “You will never meet me again.”

Even now, Xu Fengyi still feels very scared when he occasionally thinks of the grand occasion that night.

After that incident, for at least five years, she was very afraid of flames.

Even for cooking, I only use an induction cooker, and I dare not use an open flame.

Really not so afraid of fire, or something in recent years.

But she was still afraid of candles. Even if there is a sudden power outage at home, she won’t light candles.

Because I always feel that no matter where it is placed, it is a symbol of insecurity, and I will be very afraid that it will suddenly fall when I can’t see it, and then set everything on fire.

Later, she lived by herself, and she would never buy candles to store at home.

There is no way, she just equate candles with danger, and it’s hard not to equate them.

At this moment, a tissue was handed to her.

The hand holding the tissue is very beautiful. Slender and white, the nails are trimmed short, clean and pink.

Xu Fengyi followed that hand all the way up and saw Shu Jinshi’s face.

On that face, the eyebrows were slightly frowned, as if worried about something.

Xu Fengyi laughed suddenly, took the tissue and covered her mouth and nose: “It’s alright, I’m fine! It was all a long time ago, but I don’t care anymore.”

Shu Jinshi just stared straight into her eyes: “Actually, I still care.”

“If you really don’t care, you won’t be afraid of falling in love. After being betrayed after a round of love, you won’t stop looking for a humanoid marriage to prevent yourself from falling in love again.”

Xu Fengyi rolled her eyes to look at her and swallowed.

Yes, the reason why she is afraid of falling in love is because the shadow her parents have cast on her is too deep. It would be better if there wasn’t that fire. But the fire was really terrible.

It was the fire that let her know that no matter how beautiful the love was, it might be fake and could not stand the test of time.

The person who once treasured the other party no matter how much he treasured the other party, may finally have the idea of ​​​​killing the other party, which is very crazy.

In addition, although she also thought about marriage in the form of marriage before, and thought about catching a like-minded person who didn’t want to fall in love to simply live together, but she was just thinking about it. The real decision was made because of Yi Zhiya’s derailment.

After Yi Zhiya’s derailment, she was afraid that she would repeat the same mistakes in the future, so she thought of taking that alternative path ahead of time and trying it out.

If it’s not bad, you should never fall in love with others again.

So in fact, to be precise, it’s not that she doesn’t want to fall in love, she is afraid of falling in love, so she is trying to prevent herself from falling in love.

Bowing his head, Xu Fengyi scratched his hand and nodded.

After a while, she looked at Shu Jinshi again: “What about you? Why don’t you want to fall in love?”

“People who will resist falling in love usually have some stories that belong to her, right?”

Shu Jinshi smiled: “No.”

“Huh?” Xu Fengyi was stunned.

“I just like freedom and don’t like being tied down.”

Okay, okay. Xu Fengyi nodded: “What if you fall in love with someone you really love and love?”

Shu Jinshi continued to laugh: “I only know that so far, I have never had the kind of feeling you said to anyone.”

What Shu Jinshi said was true.

She really hasn’t liked anyone yet.

First, because she was indoctrinated since she was a child, “Nothing is more practical and loyal than money, so even if you are a bedside person, you should be wary and be wary. It is best to make a ten-page prenuptial agreement to avoid future relationships. If you are confused, you will be pitted by the other party, because the person next to your pillow will most likely cheat money under the guise of love, and maybe even his original intention of contacting you is to cheat you” values.

At first, Shu Jin didn’t understand why the second elder in the family said this, and even thought it was a bit exaggerated.

It wasn’t until later that Shu Jinshi was tricked by several friends she thought she had a good relationship with, so she understood.

Maybe it’s the human nature.

After a long time, Shu Jinshi felt that feelings really couldn’t stand the test, which directly lowered her expectations for love.

The second is because Shu Jinshi really loves freedom and hates losing it.

Although she has never been in a relationship, she has been chased by many people.

Among these people, there are men and women.

A man once threatened to die because he couldn’t catch up with her, and threatened to jump off the fourth floor of the teaching building.

There is also a girl who is amazing.

Shu Jinshi once took her with him for everything because she couldn’t see her being bullied. As a result, she seemed to have misunderstood something. She felt that Shu Jinshi was so good to her that she must have liked her. as his only one.

After that, once Shu Jinshi gets along with others, the girl will be jealous, angry, and make trouble.

These people haven’t caught up with her yet. If they really fall in love, shouldn’t it be more scary? The other party is not allowed to take out all kinds of shackles and torture you tightly?

Xu Fengyi sighed: “However, it’s best not to have someone you like, relax. Long live freedom!”

In fact, she has only tried one love affair, which is to talk to Yi Zhiya.

It was only after Yi Zhiya insisted on chasing her for half a year that she slowly felt it.

The main reason is that in addition to being a little obstacle, she is also quite slow in love.

She usually likes to look at beauties, yes, every time she sees a very beautiful girl, her eyes will light up, very excited and excited.

But that kind of excitement is just because the eyes see beautiful things and can’t help but be excited about it, and it’s not even enough to be excited.

But to really fall in love with, or even fall in love with, a person is still very difficult for her. She has a lot to consider.

For example, what is the character of this person, whether he is practical in his work, whether he is sincere to others, etc.

Don’t talk about falling in love, even if you make friends, the same is true.

She and Gu Yanyu and Liang Xian have known each other for a long time. Only then can you really have a heart-to-heart relationship. When dealing with some new acquaintances, although she seems to be able to chat with anyone as soon as she meets them, as if she is very familiar with them, in fact, she hardly contacts them in private.

It would be difficult for her to fall in love with someone in such a short period of time.

But even like this, she was so cautious, and she could be pitted by Yi Zhiya, so naturally she was even more disappointed with the word love.

“Yes, long live freedom.” Shu Jinshi curled his lips.

Xu Fengyi laughed.

However, just when she was about to say something, her stomach suddenly rumbled.

Shu Jinshi: “Hungry?”

Xu Fengyi nodded while covering her abdomen.

It’s been a few hours since lunch.

Unbelievable, she slept for so long. Maybe this is the power of cold medicine.

Rubbing her stomach, Xu Fengyi swiftly picked up the phone from the side: “It’s alright, just a small matter, I’ll order takeout!”

As a result, as soon as she finished speaking, a slender hand swayed in front of her and took away her mobile phone.

“I’m afraid it’s not good to eat takeout during the emergency?” Shu Jinshi turned his wrist and pressed the screen of the mobile phone down to the bedside.

Xu Fengyi’s hands were still in the air, staring at the phone she had taken away, not quite understanding: “Then what should I eat?”

“Wait a minute.” Shu Jinshi got up to the door, opened the door and walked out.

After a while, Shu Jinshi returned to the room with a plate, put it on a small round table in Xu Fengyi’s room, took out the food on it one by one, and greeted her, “Come and eat.”

Xu Fengyi immediately lifted the quilt and shoved her feet into her shoes. She took the phone and ran over, standing beside her.

There is a bowl of vegetable porridge, and some meats that are prepared in a light way. The visual effect is not healthy.

Xu Fengyi rubbed her hands: “It looks good, and it looks good, but, are you doing all of this…?”

Shu Jinshi saw that she was sick, so she made a special meal for her?

If that’s the case, this guy is really nice.

Thinking like this, Xu Fengyi naturally felt a warm feeling in her heart.

Unexpectedly, when Xu Fengyi was moved by this, Shu Jinshi replied: “Well… I’ve been a little tired of eating outside recently, and thinking that you are still ill, you should also eat clean food, so let’s make it together by the way. already.”

Xu Fengyi’s expression froze very subtly for a while, and then she laughed: “So that’s how it is!”

Well, she thought that Shu Jinshi did it for herself, she thought too much after a long time.

Fortunately, she didn’t directly ask “Did you do all of these for me?”, but thought about it before asking, and changed the question to “Did you do all of these?”.

Otherwise, it will be a slap in the face.

But what she didn’t know was that, in fact, Shu Jinshi’s words were half hidden and half hidden.

In fact, it is not “by the way”, but deliberately done.

As early as the moment she went out to do errands, she had decided to go to the supermarket to buy some ingredients and come back to make something more nutritious for Xu Fengyi to eat.

You know, in many cases, as long as the nutrition is balanced and the immunity is improved, the disease can be cured quickly.

The reason why she didn’t tell Xu Fengyi this was because she was afraid that Xu Fengyi felt that she was too good to her because she had a plot against her, which made the trial marriage relationship crumbling, so she deliberately created a sense of distance.

“Okay, eat while it’s hot.” Shu Jinshi handed a pair of chopsticks to Xu Fengyi.

Xu Fengyi gave a “hmm”, took the chopsticks and sat down, and ate the meal that Shu Jinshi cooked.

The taste is indeed bland, even a little too bland, but Xu Fengyi can still taste that these ingredients are very fresh.

And fresh ingredients, in fact, do not need much seasoning, can be delicious and delicious.

This table is quite delicious, but because Xu Fengyi was ill, he still ate a lot.

Shu Jinshi watched her eating and couldn’t help laughing.

Actually, Xu Fengyi is really cute. The way he eats is cute, the way he smiles is cute, and he is cute everywhere.

Just when Xu Fengyi finished her last mouthful of porridge, her phone vibrated.

Wiping her mouth, Xu Fengyi picked up her phone and looked at it. She saw that Lu Yuan had sent a message, probably to ask her if she was free to accompany her to a concert of a certain band in the first half of next month. She has two VIP tickets there. .

As soon as Xu Fengyi heard the name of the band, her eyes lit up, and she chatted with her.

I don’t know how long we chatted before returning to the WeChat interface.

Coincidentally, at this moment, Shu Jinshi accidentally glanced at Xu Fengyi’s WeChat list.

As a result, with just one glance, Shu Jinshi’s eyelids twitched, and he straightened his lips, instantly lowering the air pressure in the entire room a lot.

Because she found that the name Xu Fengyi remarked to Lu Yuan was: super cute little fairy.

And the name she remarked to herself was Leng Bingbing’s full name: Shu Jinshi.

Oh, this woman is really not cute at all.

What’s the matter, is her Shu Jinshi’s name so sweet, so she has to put her full name on it?

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The author has something to say:

President Shu can change his name to President Suan!